Return From Yesterday
By Misha
Disclaimer and Notes in Chapter One.
Chapter Ten"I was a jerk." Jason said right away. "I should never have told you that I never wanted to see you again. It wasn't true."
"I know." Robin said softly. "Oh, I was hurt, but I know that I hurt you too. Both of us said and did things that we now regret, at least I know I did."
"Me too." Jason told her. "Robin, I'm sorry. Not just for what I said, but for everything that lead up to that. I'm still not sure you did the right thing, but I can see how I pushed you to do it."
"It seemed like the right thing at the time, but I'm not sure it did any good." She told him. "All I could think was freeing you of Carly, but it wasn't my place to do that, was it?"
"No." Jason agreed softly. "It wasn't, but your intentions were good."
"No, they were selfish." Robin replied, with a slight smile. "I told the truth for all the wrong reasons."
It was the first time she'd even admitted that, even to herself. She'd convinced herself that she'd told the truth, because it was the right thing to do, but really she'd done it to get back at Carly. She hated that, hated that she had stooped to that level.
"I wanted to hurt you, like I was hurt and I wanted revenge on Carly and I told myself I was doing the right thing." She admitted.
Jason was quiet for a long moment. "I don't blame you, not anymore."
"Thank you." Robin said quietly. "So... Feels strange to be back here, doesn't it?"
"It does." Jason agreed. "But it also feels nice, I've missed you."
"I've missed you too." Robin told him quietly.
They stood there in the silence for a long time, just enjoying each other's company.
"We should get back to the hospital." Jason said finally.
Robin nodded, knowing he was right. There was still a lot that needed to be said between them, but it could wait.
"You've given us all a bad few days." Alan chastised Brenda. "A bad few years, actually."
Brenda paled. "I'm sorry... I..."
"It's ok." Alan told her. "I'm just thrilled you're alive."
He handed Brenda an envelope.
"What's this?" Brenda asked in surprise.
"The results of the test that you took four years ago." Alan told her. "Sonny told Monica that you stayed away because you were told you have your mother's disease."
Brenda nodded. "That's right." She made no move to take the envelope. Why did she need to look at something she already knew the answer too?
"Open the envelope." Alan urged.
Brenda sighed, but did as she was told. She scanned the results, her eyes widening as she did so. "But..." She began in protest.
"Luis Alcazar lied to you, Brenda." Alan told her gently. "You're perfectly healthy, always have been."
Brenda started to cry as the truth sunk in. She wasn't dying... It was good news and yet... She had wasted four years of her life, believing a lie.
"I just thought you should know." Alan told her. "The future is clear, its up to you what you do with it."
With that he turned and left her to her thoughts. Brenda continued to cry, for the years that she had lost and for the future that hse had gained.
"I'm not dying."
Sonny took a step back at the words. He had gone home long enough to sleep and then rushed back to see how Brenda was doing, but that was the last thing he had expected to hear. "What?"
"Luis lied to me." Brenda told him. "I was never sick. Alan gave me the results of the test, the one I took right before the accident."
Sonny couldn't believe what he was hearing. The idea of Brenda losing her mind had tormented him and now... Now she was telling him it wouldn't happen.
"So what happens now?" He asked after a moment.
"Now I get my life back." Brenda told him. "The one Luis stole from me."
Sonny froze. That meant Jax. Not only did he hate that idea, for so many reasons, there was the fact that Candy Boy didn't seem to want Brenda, fool that he was.
"Brenda, Jax..." He began, hating the Aussie idiot for putting him in this position.
"I don't want Jax." Brenda told him dismissively. "Didn't you here me? Jax was just a placeholder, to help me try and forget about you. Only I never could, for four years I didn't dream about coming back to Jax, I dreamed about coming back to you."