Sorry guys a lot of drama going on in my life however I'm pulling my way through it…
Ok so just for clearance for the people who are having trouble making the connection with the chapters this is after the beach, Miley just finished her concert and is sulking .
Miley's pov
"God I'm so stupid, how come you never noticed him? Then you wouldn't be in this situation and Jake wouldn't be a problem and life would be so much better. Secretly I've always loved Nick and God knows I still love him."
"HANNAH?!" Lola screamed.
I jumped about 2 feet into the air.
"Your dad said its time to go." I nodded my head. She stared at me for a while and finally asked "Something wrong?"
"Yeah, but I honestly don't feel like talking about it." I said then I looked at her rejected face . I got up and wrapped my arm through hers and said "Tell you later"
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Joe's POV
"Nick for the fifth time, what's wrong?" I asked and before he could open his mouth I added "and don't tell me nothing's wrong."
"Joe I don't want to talk about it alright?" Nick said in a funky attitude.
"Dude whatever it is just call Miley and talk it out and things will be better."
"Whatever Joe. get it out of my ROOM!"
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Miley's POV
Lilly left a while ago. I was sitting in my room when a sudden wave of depression swept over me. So I decided I should get some fresh air. So there I was on my roof just sitting and crying. Just crying and sitting.
Then I started to think about Jake and all the pain and hurt he's inflicted upon me. And all I could do is cry. I cried my hardest.
I gotta find peace of mind
I gotta find peace of mind
He says its impossible
But I know its possible
He says there's no me without him
Please help me forget about him
He takes all my energy
Trapped in my memory
Constantly holding me
Constantly holding me
I just don't understand what on earth I did to be put in this type of situation. I'm a good person. I obey my father, put up with Jackson and I love him. I have great friends that I'm a great friend to. I have great grades. A beautiful career. Why me? WHY ME?
I need to tell you all,
All the pain he's caused…mm
I need to tell you all,
I'm undone because…mm
He says its impossible
But I know it's possible
He says its impossible without him
But I know its possible
Then I began to think about Nick and how he's always been there for me always cared for me. Suddenly I saw how he's always looked at me. How he always showing me how he felt about me. And I knew something was there , but instead I went for a dead beat jive, who likes to use me as his punching bag. And all the while Nick was there showing me he loved me. I , I think I love him too.
To finally be in love
And know the real meaning of
A lasting relationship
Not based on ownership
All of a sudden it hit me all my sleepless nights and all my tears weren't because of Jake or his abuse it was because I was searching for a way out, a way to get to Nick.
I trust every part of you
…
Coz all that you say
You do
I had to get to Nick…at that second. I climbed down my patio and hopped the fence dividing my house from his. And climbed up his patio.
You love me despite myself
Sometimes I,
I fight myself
I just cant believe that you
Would have anything to do
With someone so insecure
Someone so immature
"Ok you've got to tell him Miley… What the heck am I doing…. The right thing." I muttered to myself.
I raised my fist to knock on his balcony door.
Oh, you inspire me
To be the higher me
You make my desire pure
You make my desire pure
Just tell me what to say
I cant find the words to say
Please don't be mad with me
I have know identity
All that I've known is gone
All I was building on
I don't wanna walk with you
How do I talk to you
Knock, Knock, Knock. And he opened the door and stared at me. All I could do was return the gesture.
Touch my mouth with your hands
Touch my mouth with your hands
Oh I wanna understand
The meaning of your embrace
I know now I have to face
The temptation of my past
Please don't let me disgrace
Where my devotion lays
He looked away and the tears cascade down my face with a passion.
Now that I know the truth
Now that there's no excuse
He looked back up and had tears in his eyes.
Keeping me from your love
What was I thinking of?
Holding me from your love
What was I thinking of?
I rushed to him and wrapped my arms around him and held him ….
You are my peace of mind
That old me is left behind
You are my peace of mind
That old me is let behind.
And I told him "I love you Nick. I know it took me awhile to let you know it, but you know now and I'm really sorry I just…."
Nick cut me off with a kiss.
A-N ok so let me know what you think like I said im going through a lot of drama and this chapter is basically some of what I'm goin thru and how I would like it to end however my life's not a fairytale (not that this is one) and I definitely didn't write it, even though my actions write my story….this lovely song is by the beautiful and talented Lauryn Hill the name of the song is Peace of Mind….and as you can probably guess this song is what keeps me going…. Please review….I love you all 1heart1love1life aka Amber