I wonder how much of that breakdown was an act...
Rin was in thought for the rest of the day at the dorm. Yukio had left that morning for his classes, and Shima stayed behind as he volunteered. No one wanted Rin to get into trouble, so it was on for Shima's babysitting duty.
Rin woke up when Yukio had separated them, having to get ready for school. Usually, Rin would have just gone right back to sleep, but for some reason, the teen couldn't get back to sleep after that. He was too caught up in his thoughts.
He didn't even take up Shima's offer to go peek in on the girls!
And so, Rin did what he was told to do whenever he was being troubled. He kicked back, got out his notebook, and began to write. His writings were interrupted by a knock on the dorm.
Shima had been laying in his bed reading a magazine that Rin didn't even want to know about. They hadn't been expecting anyone, and they both highly doubted that Yukio would send someone to the dorm when he wasn't there.
"I'll get it," Shima said as he stood from his bed and placed the book underneath the mattress. That only confirmed Rin's suspicions on the fact that he didn't want to know about what was in that magazine. The pink haired teen opened the door to see two familiar faces. "Izumo! Moriyama!" he exclaimed in happiness.
The two walked in and looked to see that Rin was there. It was a bit of a shock to the girls, since they weren't expecting him, and they hadn't seen him since he came out of the hospital. In Shiemi's hand, there was a basket, and the boys both took note that the girls weren't in their regular school uniforms.
"Rin!" Shiemi exclaimed, coming closer to him. She was smiling brightly at him, and it was odd to see her without her kimono or in her uniform. Not only that, her blonde hair was also tied up in a high pony-tail.
"H-Hey, Shiemi," Rin said with a bit of a nervous smile. He still always had a bit of confusion of how her breasts could be so large. They were larger than Kamiki's! "What's going on?"
"I wanted to see Yuki," she said, seemed a bit quieter. "I guess he's not here?" she asked.
"No, he wanted to go to his classes," Rin said as he blinked. He should have figured that Shiemi would want to see Yukio. "If you can't stay, I can always tell him you stopped by."
"Actually, I wanted to see if all of you wanted to go on a picnic," Shiemi said suddenly. "My Mother helped me make some sandwiches and cookies, and I've never really gone on a picnic with friends before.." she trailed off, her cheeks lighting up with a red tint.
"Sounds awesome," Rin gave a smirk towards her. He hadn't been out with friends in a long while. "I'll just text Yukio where I am and we'll go. Right, Shima?"
"Yeah, yeah," Shima waved him off, trying to talk to Izumo. "Are those space pants? Because your ass is out of this world!" without a moment of hesitation, Shima ended up on the ground, groaning in pain.
"You can be an idiot sometimes." Rin said with a sigh. The four of them left after Rin sent a text to Yukio. They went out to the water fountain of the academy, a place that stirred up memories for the 'older' of the Okumura twins.
"That scar looks bad," Izumo said suddenly. Everyone looked towards Rin, though the raven haired teen couldn't help but raise an eyebrow in confusion. When he realized the scar they were speaking of, he brought a hand to his face, cupping the pink flesh in his palm. "Does it hurt?"
"Not really," Rin said as he pursed his lips. "It hurt a little when I got home from the hospital, but otherwise I don't really notice. It tingles a bit when it's touched, but that's about it." he told the others.
"It must be odd.." Shiemi trailed off. "I-It must be odd for you to be four months behind from everyone else."
"No..that's not the worst part," Rin gave a slight sigh. The others waited for him to continue, though Shima had already known. He knew Rin's worries about Yukio, and that the teen still believed in what happened during his coma. "The worst part of all this is just a week ago, I was the hero of Assiah. I saved the world from Satan, and everyone was so grateful to me. Now I'm nothing but a drop out that doesn't know how to do anything, and breaks everything he touches."
No one could respond to this. They didn't believe half of the things that sputtered from Rin's mouth at this moment. He wasn't the hero of Assiah. He wasn't anyone. He was just a teenager that dropped out of school to get a job, and was in an accident that lead to him being in a coma for four months.
"I'm glad that we were able to hang out today, Rin," Shiemi gave a smile as she was about to leave the boys` dorm. Izumo had left long ago, and Shima was back to reading his magazine. "I had a fun time with you. I'd like to do it again sometime."
"Sure, sounds cool with me," Rin gave a smirk. He saw that it seemed a bit rainy outside, so he did what he assumed any nice guy would do. "Hey, why don't I walk you back to your dorm? It looks like it's gonna storm, and I want to make sure you get back alright."
"Oh, you don't have to. You'll probably end up getting lost, it is your first time at the academy." Shiemi said. Rin was infuriated with how people kept saying this to him. It's not my first time, dammit!
"Rin, Shiemi," Yukio said as he walked to the dorm. He was carrying a school bag, wearing his uniform, looking just as he did when he left for classes that morning. He must have heard what they were talking about, since he intervened in the conversation. "Rin, you're in no condition to be out of the dorm right now. I'll bring Shiemi back to her dorm."
"T-Thanks, Yuki," Shiemi said, a sparkle coming to her eyes that she didn't have when she looked at Rin. It made the 'older' twin feel somewhat jealous. Angry, maybe? Why did it always seem that Yukio could do everything he couldn't? "Goodbye, Rin." she said as Yukio began to walk with her away from the dorm.
Rin was infuriated. He walked to the bottom bunk he was sharing with Yukio and flopped on top of it. There was nothing he could do, and he knew that. Yukio would just have to do this. If not, Rin's plan to make Yukio treat him normally may never work. Well, the plan Shima had produced.
"Rin, start writing in your book. When he comes back, he'll probably ask what you're writing about, and say something about..I don't know, your scar or something," Shima said. "He'll know you're actually trying to get better."
"You got it," Rin said, though he was a bit uneasy about if this would actually work. Though, despite his doubts, the raven haired teen sat at the desk and got out the notebook, writing in it casually, not acting about what he was writing, but actually writing about his mental troubles. Even if he didn't know they were really his mental troubles.
Maybe Yukio would treat me normally if I just went back to what he thinks is normal. I don't know, I could go back to starting fights every day, and causing trouble. It may get him off my back, but he still won't be like my Yukio. Like my Yukio that worries about my schoolwork..
"Rin, what are you writing about?" Yukio asked, as Shima predicted, as he walked back in the dorm. His clothing was slightly wet from the storm that was brewing outside. Rin was a bit caught off guard, not believing that Yukio would actually ask this.
"O-Oh..I was just writing about.." Rin trailed off a bit. He didn't know whether he should lie or tell the truth. He intended to show Yukio his notebook eventually, and Rin didn't know if Yukio would ever remember this little conversation or not. If Yukio was truly worried, he may just remember.
"What were you writing about?" Yukio said, kneeling a bit to peer over Rin's shoulder. At this, Rin panicked and shut the book quickly. He couldn't believe that Yukio had tried to take a peek at his book! For some reason, this made Rin angry, and when he was angry, all hell broke loose.
"What the hell?" Rin asked suddenly. The brunette blinked and backed away a bit.
"What?" Yukio asked as he raised an eyebrow. Shima looked away from his magazine to take a peek at the brothers.
"Did you just peek at my book? Why the hell would you do that?!" Rin asked, flaring in anger.
"Calm down, Rin, I was just wondering what you were writing about was all," Yukio had plenty of experience with his brother when he was like this. "I won't do it again, calm down." he took out some books and started to study.
"Won't do it again, my ass.." Rin grumbled. He did begin to calm down. Yukio knew just how his mood swings worked, and Rin felt a little agitated that Yukio could get him to calm down so easily. Their Father could do the same thing, though, so Rin had to assume it was probably from being around him so much.
"Go to bed, Rin. You need your rest." Yukio said as he read through his books. He was standing as his books laid on the empty space of the desk. Rin pushed his notebook away and did as Yukio had said, laying in bed to sleep. Yukio sat in the now empty desk chair and continued his studies.
Even if Rin laid in the bed to sleep, he didn't fall asleep as easily. The dark pit of slumber didn't crawl it's way into his vision so quickly, and he was somewhat glad for that. In truth, Rin was scared. He was scared that nothing would go back to normal. Yukio would still be the brother that looked down on him.
Rin didn't fall asleep until Yukio had gotten into bed. The brunette twin had stayed up pretty late to study, and by the time Yukio got into bed, Rin was feeling exhausted. He was sure Yukio was too. Rin curled up close to his brother, finding that Yukio willingly wrapped his arms around him, before he went to sleep.
The end of the holiday came rather quickly. Rin didn't know if he wanted it to go this fast, he knew he wouldn't get to see Yukio for a while. After all, Yukio couldn't come home every weekend to see him. Rin would just have to make due. Yukio was going to make the trip with him to make sure he got back alright, and he was going to stay the weekend for Rin.
"Nii-san, please don't make this any harder than it is when I have to go back," Rin could hear Yukio whispering as he pretended to sleep on the ride home. "Why are you acting like this? Why aren't you making this any easier? Why aren't you back to normal?"
Rin couldn't help but feel saddened by the question. Why couldn't he be normal again? How many times had he wished for things to go back to the way they were before he was a demon? He was given an opportunity that not many people were able to have. He didn't know how he did it, or how it was possible, but he had it.
"Rin, wake up," Yukio said, gently shaking Rin when the train finally stopped. He gave a groan when Rin didn't move. He was prepared to lift Rin and carry him home when Rin's midnight blue eyes opened. "Rin, we have to go." he spoke once more.
"Yeah, I'm up," Rin said with a grumble. Even if he was pretending to sleep, he couldn't help but feel a little grumpy. Not because of his usual reason, sleep deprivation, though because of what Yukio said. Rin felt a little upset about it. "Let's go." he said.
"What, are you cranky, now?" Yukio asked with a raised eyebrow. Rin shook his head and picked up his duffel bag. Yukio picked up his own and they walked toward the monastery. Shiro was waiting for them outside the gates, as usual.
"Rin, Yukio!" he greeted cheerfully. Their Father was always such a cheerful guy, though he did have his serious times. Those serious times consisted of whenever Rin would get into a fight at school, or something that always had to with Rin screwing up.
"Father." Yukio smiled and walked closer to the man. Rin sped up faster than Yukio and hugged Shiro tightly. The man couldn't help but cackle at his 'older' son's actions.
"Hello to you too, Rin," Shiro said once his cackle ended. He gave his son a pat before turning to Yukio and placing a hand on the brunette's shoulder. "Why don't we go inside? You can put your things away, and relax."
"Alright," Yukio said before he turned to Rin. "Rin, let go of Father." he told. With a frown growing on the raven haired teen's face, he looked away from Yukio and slowly let go of Shiro. The man couldn't help but raise an eyebrow, though decided to ignore it for now.
The three walked into the monastery where Kuro had ran to Rin and clung to his jeans. Rin couldn't help but laugh, and knelt to lift up the small cat.
"Rin, have you been writing in your notebook?" Shiro asked. "You know Mr. Suguro told you to do so." he told as he watched his son play with the cat.
"He was writing in it before we left," Yukio answered for him. "He wrote in it almost every night throughout the week."
"I'm glad," Shiro chuckled. "We're having curry for lunch, I hope you two are hungry." he said to his sons. Just the thought of his sons from when they were younger and would devour his curry made him chuckle inwardly.
"Yeah, I'm starving!" Rin smiled up to the two. Shiro was a bit taken aback at how..he didn't know how to put it, goofy? Rin was acting goofy.
"You boys go put your things away and come to the table. The curry should be done by now." Shiro said, walking away from the two. Rin and Yukio looked to each other for a moment before they made their move. Rin placed Kuro down on the ground, which in turn the cat ran after Shiro.
Rin and Yukio walked to their room and put their bags away. Rin would have to unpack later, though Yukio would be living out of his bag for the next few days. They then walked to the dining table to see that everyone was waiting for them before they would eat.
Everyone greeted the twins before they began to eat their food. Rin and Yukio were silent throughout most of the talk. Shiro had brought up fixing up the church a bit. They needed to fix the heater that had broken the week prior, and to tighten some screws to a few things.
During the conversation, Rin had offered to help with the fixing of the church. Everyone was taken aback, that was something that Rin would not have done four months ago. Though, the Rin they knew now was not the same Rin that they knew before. He was different, acted different, and felt different.
Even though my brother wants me to be the way I was before, I just don't think I can...I want him to treat me differently than he did before. I want him to treat me like he did when he was my teacher. Why is he like this?
"Rin, hurry up! You have your appointment with Mr. Suguro!" Shiro called up the stairs. Rin groaned, he hadn't even started to get ready, he was too busy with writing in his book. Even if it was that bit of information he wrote, he still was writing.
Rin decided not to waste time and threw on a red sweater, pulling up his black jeans. He didn't even bother putting the chains that he normally wore on there in the belt loops. There was no times. He slipped into his sneakers, grabbed his book, and ran out the door.
"Rin!" Shiro called once more. After he called, Rin bustled down the stairs, seeming in ah hurry. "Rin! You're going to be late!" the man gave a groan. Now this was more like Rin. Typical, typical, Rin.
"I'm going, I'm going!" Rin groaned as he ran out the door. He continued to run toward the office and eventually reached it. Though, when he did, he was out of breath and five minutes late. Suguro's Dad, or as Rin called him, old man Suguro, walked out of his office.
"You're late, Rin," he said calmly. "It's alright, though, let's get started." old man Suguro said, gesturing to the doorway that lead inside of his office. Rin frowned and walked into the room, sitting in the chair that was in front of the desk.
"Sorry I was late," Rin said with a slight mumble. "I was busy writing in my book, and didn't notice the time."
"It's fine, no need to give a reason," the man chuckled. "Now, do you feel comfortable to tell me what you were writing about in your book?"
"No," Rin said suddenly. There was a moment of silence, and the man flashed him a look of understanding. He probably dealt with a lot of people like Rin. "Well..it was about Yukio.."
"Has Yukio still been giving you worries about going back to normal?" the older asked. Rin's gaze turned away from the man, and he instantly knew his answer. "He'll get used to your new attitude, you don't have to change anything about you for others."
"But the other is my twin brother! How am I supposed to make him see me as he did before?" Rin asked quickly. "He doesn't care about anything I do anymore! It's like it was before I decided to become an exorcist!"
"What events occurred when he treated you differently?" old man Suguro asked. Rin furrowed his brows as he thought of what happened.
"Well..I got my powers..joined True Cross Academy...and decided to become an exorcist," Rin said, blinking as he only became more and more confused. "Dammit! I can't think of anything!"
"Why not try to join the academy with your brother?" Suguro suggested. Rin brightened at the idea. He could do that!
"You got it, old man!" Rin smirked. He picked up his notebook and ran out of the door.
"Our session isn't even over.." Suguro chuckled before he went through papers on his desk. "Rin Okumura, I hope you do get better soon."
"Dad!" Rin shouted as he ran through the monastery, looking for Shiro. He ran into the kitchen to see his Father was doing some cleaning. "Dad!" he shouted once more.
"Hold up," Shiro said with a laugh, causing Rin to slow down. "What's all the fuss about?"
"I've decided something important," Rin said to his Dad, looking up at the man. "I'm going to try to get into True Cross Academy!"