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I'm thinking about changing the rating to M because things between Bella and Jasper are about to get a little heated.
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Chapter 10.
I stood completely still for a moment staring at Jasper as he pulled his lips away from mine. He was grinning at me as he rested one of his hands on the bottom of my back, keeping me close to him.
"Did you really just kiss me?" I asked stunned and feeling really light headed.
He chuckled and his grin seemed even wider. "Yes." He continued to rub his thumb across my cheek, tracing circles across my flesh.
"Any chance you could do that again, you know, just to prove it." He chuckled again but pulled me closer to his body.
"Certainly Ma'am." Instantly after he spoke he leaned down and his lips found mine once more. His lips were like silk that was wrapped around marble and even though they were as cold as snow the moment they touched mine a heat erupted within my body. My lips began to move in sync with his as my hand found his tousled blonde hair. He pulled our bodies even closer moving the hand that was on my face down to my hip. I began to breathe faster as he ran his tongue across my bottom lip and I opened my mouth giving him entry. His tongue began to massage mine and I couldn't suppress the moan that escaped me.
Jasper pulled away from me as we both breathed heavily from the kiss.
"Oh Bella that was…" He kissed me softly instead of finishing his sentence.
"Yeah, it was." I stood on my tiptoes again and brushed my lips across his. But then it dawned on me, we couldn't do this! What about Alice? So I pulled away from him and walked over to my bed. He clearly sensed my change in mood and I could see that he was worried.
"Bella, Darlin', what's wrong?" He kneeled down in front of me and held my hands.
"We can't do this Jasper." His face fell.
"I understand." He was nodding and he sat on my bed next to me. "It's not been long since Edward left, you still feel for him and I'm moving too fast for you. I'm sorry." He got up off the bed and walked over to the window. I'm sure he went to leave, but, faster than I thought was possible for me, I was at his side.
"Please don't leave." I whispered the words as I put my hand on his arm again. "It's not about Edward." Jasper snapped his head around to look at me. "Well, obviously I still have feelings for Edward, but those feelings are dying fast. It's just…" I couldn't continue. How was I supposed to bring this up with Jasper? I mean, I already feel terrible because of what just happened, as much as I liked it and wanted it to happen again, how would he feel after he realised.
"What Bella? If it's not Edward, what is it?" He put his hands on either side of my face and made me look him in the eyes.
"Alice." His expression turned to one of confusion.
"What about Alice?" He asked as if she meant nothing. I pulled away from him.
"What do you mean 'what about Alice'? She's you wife, your mate and we just betrayed her by kissing." If my dad hadn't been down stairs then I would have shouted the words but I didn't shout, I glared instead.
"Bella, Alice and I haven't been together in over a year." My mouth flopped open and I stared at him in shock, the glare completely wiped off my face.
"How come I didn't know this already?" I asked. "How come you didn't tell me?" I felt really bad because relief had been my main emotion after he spoke, but it was mainly because we hadn't betrayed Alice, and only partly because that meant that I could kiss Jasper some more without feeling bad about it.
"Bella, we didn't tell anyone about the divorce, not until after Edward decided to leave." I leaned against the window for a second, thinking about what he had said.
"Well, why did you wait? Why didn't you just tell everyone when it happened?" He sighed, grabbed my hands and took me to sit back on my bed.
"Alice didn't want the family to see us like that, she also didn't want to ruin our reputation as the perfect family and she just wanted to keep everything perfect. I can't exactly blame her, I didn't want the family to see that not being with her was hurting me, just because I was no longer in love with her doesn't mean that I don't love her and it killed me knowing that she was hurting because I hadn't felt the same way anymore, if pretending to the world that we were still together for a while was what would make her feel even a little better then I would do it. It was only when you came to town that she realised we'd have to tell everyone soon." I listened carefully as Jasper spoke and I took in every word that he said. It was so kind of him to do that for her, but he confused me; why would they have to tell everyone because of me?
"Why would you have to tell everyone because of me? Especially considering Edward was the one interested in me, even if it was only for a while." Jasper laughed, actually laughed, after I spoke. He was kneeling in front of me, still holding my hands and he confused me even more. "What's so funny, Jasper? "
"Bella, I don't want you to take any offence to what I'm about to say because I do not mean it in any way of offence to you." I nodded for him to continue. "Do you promise not to take offence?"
"Promise, now talk." He hesitated for a moment before sitting next to me on my bed and making sure I was looking at him directly in the eyes. There was no longer any humour on his face, no trace of laughter at all.
"Bella, yours and Edward's relationship was based on lies." I stayed silent, already knowing this little piece of information. Seeing and feeling no change in me Jasper continued. "Edward wasn't in love with you, and he was never destined to be, although you being his singer he was in love with your blood. Plus including the fact that he couldn't read you did make you somewhat of a spectacle to him, which is what attracted him to you. You and Edward were never meant to be, it was just an unfortunate coincidence that you happened to have two things about you that would interest Edward." I nodded again, all this didn't surprise me, I could have guessed it myself, but it still didn't clear up the reason that he had said I would affect him and Alice.
"Okay, but what does any of that have anything to do with you and Alice? How was I anything to do with you and Alice?" He sighed and I saw as his eyes and his face became guarded. He wasn't going to tell me.
"Bella this part of the conversation should be left for another time, right now you need to sleep, you have school tomorrow." He tried to push me to lie down on my bed, but I held my own and got up.
"Well first I'm going to shower and get ready for bed." I did as I said I would. I got a boiling hot showed which helped to calm me; I was still reeling from kissing Jasper. I changed into a very nice light purple silk nightie, it was completely for comfort, definitely not for Jasper's benefit.
I got back into my room to find Jasper lay on my bed. He looked up at me and openly ogled me as I walked round to the side of my bed I preferred.
"Whatcha staring at?" I asked. As soon as I spoke Jasper's eyes found mine and I saw him gulp, probably getting rid of pooling venom. He also looked embarrassed, which I found extremely cute.
"Erm, well, I wasn't exactly staring I was more, er, observing." He cleared his throat unnecessarily.
"Right, well next time you decide to 'observe' make sure you do it a little more inconspicuously." I climbed into bed and pulled the cover over both of us. I snuggled into his chest as he began rambling about his 'observing'.
"Jasper, it's okay, relax I find it… Sweet." I looked up at him and noticed very quickly how close our lips are.
"Well I am sorry I made it so obvious, I'll try to be a little less conspicuous next time." He grinned. I had watched his lips as he spoke and it made me crave the feeling of them pressed against mine and even other parts of my suddenly over-heated body.
"Good, now, don't I get a goodnight kiss?" His grin got even wider as he leaned down until his lips were brushing against mine as he spoke.
"Of course, Ma'am." His lips captured mine in a heated embrace. He quickly pressed his tongue against my lips and I granted him entrance to my mouth. Our tongues massaged and caressed each other as we kissed. I wrapped my fingers in his hair and pulled him closer to me as he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled my body flush against his. One of his hands moved down to my thigh at the edge of my nightie and the other moved to my neck. The hand on my thigh crawled upwards underneath my nightie until it was rubbing soft circles into the bare skin of my waist.
I trailed my fingers down his chest, tracing down his defined abs. I pushed my hand underneath his shirt wanting to feel the silk texture of his muscles beneath my fingers. I kept my other hand in his hair, softly running my fingers through his golden curls.
His thumb began to trace the underside of my breast as he moved his mouth down to my neck and began sucking and nibbling on my sensitive skin. I gasped at the feelings he was erupting within me and dragged my nails roughly down his chest. He moaned against my skin and it was at that point that he pulled away, but he kept his hands where they were.
"Bella," his voice was rough and husky. When he opened his eyes they were onyx black with desire. It did nothing but increase my own desire. "We have to control ourselves. We're not ready for an expansive physical relationship, and believe it or not, but you're not durable enough." He kept his thumbs steady pace on the underside of my breast.
"Hmmm, Jazz, you can't say that. Do you have any idea what you're doing to me right now?" I closed my eyes and kissed his lips softly. He reacted to my kiss and deepened it once more before pulling away again and this time he removed his hand from underneath my nightie.
"I'm sorry for working you up Bella, but we have other things we need to work on before we get into a real physical relationship." He pushed some hair out of my face and I trailed my hand down from his hair across his face.
"Like what?" I asked as he cupped my face in his hands.
"Your durability, we have to see how much vampire you've got in you. And I would like to work on our emotional relationship before our physical, you have to know Bella, I am not the type of guy to have a sexual relationship without an emotional one." I hadn't realised that I was grinning until he began smiling himself. I also hadn't realised that I would like a real relationship with Jasper until he spoke about it. But I wasn't sure if it was such a great thing at the present moment in time, I mean, I wouldn't want him to feel like a rebound after Edward dumped me only a week or so before.
"I would like that too, but I'd like to take things slowly with the emotional stuff." Jasper's face fell a little at my words so I hurried to correct myself. "I'm not saying I don't want that with you, I do, but I just don't want you to feel like a rebound, you have to remember that I was with Edward only a few weeks ago, so I'd like to take things slowly. I really don't want to get hurt again." My voice was almost a whisper at the end of my sentence but I knew Jasper had heard me, he is a vampire after all. He sat up and made me look into his eyes.
"Bella, I can promise you that I will never hurt you. I could never hurt you, and I promise that as you get to know me you will see that." He smiled and went to kiss me but stopped himself. "Does that mean no kissing?" He asked, his mouth less than an inch away from mine.
"Oh no, I like the kissing thing" His lips found mine instantly after I spoke. We only shared a few more kisses before he ordered me to lie back and go to sleep.
"Okay, Jazz, I'll sleep for now, but you better be here when I wake."
"I promise I will be Darlin'."
I slept soundly again that night, with dreams of Jasper floating through my unconscious.
Just a bit of fluff between B&J. I'm sorry that it's not very long, I've had a few interruptions everytime I've tried to write which has made getting it out kinda awkward.
I hope you like it.
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