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"Clary, Clarissa" Jon yelled as he entered the house hysterically. I was not ready for his non-sense. "Clary, you come out here young lady" Jon called out again.
"Don't call her young lady, she is working some things out" Simon argued.
"I don't get it, why are you still here, now move I need to talk to my sister" Jon keeps talking too loudly. "In-fact I am calling a family meeting now Clarissa" His voice sounded disapproving for whatever was the matter now.
I could hear Jon and Simon bantering at each other, but I was in no mood to really speak. So much, to much had happened lately, I cant even remember when it all went wrong I thought as I drowned in my own thoughts again.
The day before:
"Jon you have to stop calling me, I said I will txt you when you can come and pick us up" I explain to my control freak of a brother. Mum was out of the country with Luke and she had appointed him the head of the house. She had specifically told him to look after me, make sure I eat, make sure that, make sure this and now he would not leave me alone.
"Fine, fine. I wasn't even calling about that. What would you like to eat tonight" he asks. "Perhaps some pasta, fried chicken, steak sandwich, fried rice, Noodles yes thats easy" Jon listed foods.
"Since when do you cook and I don't want to eat noodles for dinner" I ask surprised "I can always cook when I get home Jon".
"No, no I want to do it for you" I lift my phone momentarily so I can roll my eyes at it. "Fine maybe some pasta bolognese if thats not to much of a task for you and .. remember Simon too".
"We have enough food for him in the rubbish pit" Jon sarcastically comments. "Jon" I warn.
"What your welcome, I am saving us food". "Jon, Simon is family, he is allowed whatever I am having" I warn again.
"Stk" he mutters on the end of the receiver "remind me where you are again" he asks, banging things in the background "Shit" he silently curses as loud noises feel the background behind him.
"The Herondales, with Isabelle" I tell him for the 100th time "Remember just for a picnic and hanging out".
"Eww as in Isabelle Lightwood" Jon disagrees. "I don't even know why you accompany her Clary, she is bad news and the amount of time your rat boy is spending with her too she will destroy him" he argues.
"Shut up" I tell him, and stare at Isabelle and Simon in the distance who are laughing.
"By the way when does he return to New York again, I have kinda already packed his bags for him" Jon snickered.
"Excuse you, Simon is welcome here for as long as he wants" I mutter unhappily.
"Ssstk" Jon makes a sound with his mouth " See you soon" then he hangs up the phone.
"Jon again" Simon yelled as I walked back towards them and I nod my head smiling.
"Why would you were heels on a walk Izzy" I hear Magnus scold Isabelle, as she attempted to remove her boots and walk barefoot because her heel had snapped.
"A girl always has to be presentable Magnus" she smiles "Ehh and I couldn't say the same about you though" She rolls her eyes dramatically looking at him up and down. "Whatever" Magnus snickers walking fast to catch up with Alec.
"I can carry you" Simon suggested patting his back. But Isabelle gave off a laugh and shook her head.
"You have been quiet" Simon observed coming to walk beside me. "Yeah, being here makes me nervous" I admit to Simon shrugging my shoulders.
"Why" he asks, slowing his pace, to give us some distance from the others. I look behind debating to him. "You remember, I—" I stutter not sure how to admit what I was really feeling especially Jace being part of the crew today.
"You remember in New York, about, eh, um " I stop mid sentence when I see Jace up ahead coming towards me. "Later" I quickly mumble.
"Clary" Jace calls as Simon retreats back to Isabelle, who was way behind us. "I didn't know you could make a mean sandwich" I compliment him as he gets nearer. During our picnic Jace had produce his very own snacks which where his sandwiches, He also was in good spirits today, unlike when I last saw him two weeks ago at the Lightwoods.
"Well I am not just known for my good looks you know" he compliments himself. "And other things" he winks at me, making me redden. This was a definite change of mood and I liked it, I wish it stayed more often.
"I wanted to know .. we are all good right" I ask him, I was only getting to know but for the amount of time I had known he usually snapped quickly and I wanted to deliver my news soon. "Of course, why would you ask that".
"Oh for gods sake, not today" Jace's mood suddenly shifted. "Excuse me" I ask him, he had just said we were good, but I see he is looking straight ahead at the porch where someone sits.
Kaelie sat on the porch, angrily tapping her foot down.
"You need to leave now Kaelie" Jace announces as we get closer, "I am tired, please leave I don't have time for one of your banters today" Jace whispered sighing heavily in the air.
"You said I could come by anytime and we could talk, remember" she twists her face as she talks.
"Well not today" Jace begins to sound irritated.
"Why not today, and WHAT. IS. SHE. DOING. HERE." Kaelie changes her tone when she sees how close I am standing next to Jace.
Jace looks at me momentarily then turns back to her. "She is a friend and is welcome around here"
he defends.
"Here is trouble" Isabelle muttered silently as they had caught up with us now.
"You said you wanted things to work between us and.. and …" she flustered her words pointing to her and Jace.
"Will give you some privacy" I whispered earning an annoyed look from Kaelie, but Jace shook his head slightly before he spoke.
"I said as friends, do you not ever listen, I said we should try work out as friends" Jace growls.
"I don't think I would like that" she tells him her eyes glossy. For all the times I had seen her, she had always seemed head strong and powerful but yet here she is in front of Jace himself and she was cracking.
"Good" Jace mutters as he begins to retreat into the house. "No" she shouted "I meant I don't want to be if she was around" Kaelie pointed towards me, a murderous scowl set on her face.
"Thats it, that's why it won't work, because to you I will always be up to something with every female within my distance isn't it and what has she done to you now, everyone seems to always be doing something to you" Jace scoffs at her.
"Jace" her voice sounds strained "Jace she is a liar and she doesn't have good intentions yet you keep her around" Kaelie bubbles on. Only now was I starting to realise this girl didn't like me very much, she was suggesting about my intentions, which I had none but to reveal my baby father's identity.
"Your busy entertaining yet she just wants to destroy you" she pauses, "You don't know anything about her" Kaelie yells at Jace. Did she just suggest I want to destroy him.
"Excuse you" I say, she knew nothing about me and she was intending I wanted to destroy Jace.
"Your absurd, time you leave don't you think" Magnus intervened.
"Oh no Magnus are you going to keep this charade too, why don't you enlighten us" she shouts at him.
"I have no quarrels with you, but you are disturbing our gathering and thats not okay with me" he motions his hands to everyone around.
"Should I do the honours or do you want to Clarissa Morgenstern" Kaelie turns away from Magnus to me.
I don't respond but just stand there, I look to Magnus but he shakes his head.
"She claims that baby is your's Jonathan, do either of you want to explain" Kaelie points in my direction and all the blood on my face drains away. "She even wears your ring around her neck to accompany her claims is that true or is it not Clarissa" Kaelie continues walking up to me and ripping the necklace and chucking it near Jace. "You said she was just a friend Jonathan explain that".
Everyone but Jace and Magnus stare at me in shock at the revelation of her news. "What do you have to say about that Clarissa, huh … Magnus did I not hear you two discuss about this, claiming her pregnancy is Jonathan's" Kaelie laughs mercilessly.
Magnus and I make eye contact, my tears on the verge of spilling but I could not cry in front of her, I could not cry in front of these people. "But then I wouldn't be surprised her own brother branded her a whore and you two obviously belong together then".
She had just destroyed everything. "Shut up and go" Jace whispered his voice rough.
"I was leaving anyways" she snickered "And Jonathan … You know what I have nothing to say to you I am done" she says walking towards her car.
Only the swish of the wind can be heard when Kaelie drives off. Jace doesn't give me another glance he picks the ring of the necklace and enters the house, he is followed by Alec who looks between us in confusion not sure about what just happened. I didn't think I knew what had just happened either.
"I.. I don't know where to begin" I whisper looking down and caressing my belly. I had nothing to say all the light of the day had been taken away, nothing made sense right now. Why had she done that.
"I am confused, what is she talking about" Isabelle asks looking from Magnus and I. "And don't tell me you knew about this too" She looked pointedly at Simon.
He lifts his hand. "If it's true I.. I thought he looked familiar" Simon babbles and shrugs his shoulders
"Pumpkin" Magnus tries to comfort me.
"Can I just go home, Izzy do you mind" I whisper my voice sounding muffled.
"Yeah sure" she agreed.
…
"Hey I am talking to you" Jon stood in front of the tv. "Tell me it's not true that this Herondale little shit done this to you".
"Whats happening with you I had to hear this from Raphael the biggest mouth in Idris, Clary" Jon kept yelling. "Whats going on" my eyes glazed, I couldn't respond.
"Little sister" Jon sat down next to me as the tears freely spilt. "How can I help, I can't do much if you won't talk Clary" Jon whispered drawing me into his huge arms.
I cried for what felt like an eternity but his arms never loosened.
"Do you know what hurts the most" I crooked, Jon looked at me showing he had my full attention. "He just walked away" silence "just turned and walked away" I repeat more to myself than him.
…..
"How is he" I asked Isabelle as she came to pick Simon up for some arts thing in Alicante.
"Same old same,his continuing with life" she shrugs "Tessa sends her regards though, she wishes to see you when she's back in the country".
I nod. "Well have a good time" I say when Simon appears. Before they walk away Isabelle hangs around "Give it time Clary, he will come around" she says then walks away, I could see even she was still trying to come to terms with everything that happened.
The house was finally my own. A week had gone by without a word or so much from Jace. What did I expect him to do though.
Soon I will be welcoming my child and I needed to prepare for that. In my too large of a bedroom I begin setting up a few things for the baby I hadn't set up yet. Mum had suggested I use the next bedroom for the baby but I insisted I wanted him close.
Before I know it the sun was going down for the night. I go stand by window and see orange, yellow reddish gleams it paints over the sky as it leaves for the night. I feel a peace and welcoming sense as I look over it. Then my baby kicks making me laugh, "you love it too" I whisper rubbing the spot.
"Well mummy loves you" I croon to my unborn child, happy tears staining my face. Then I hear a knock on my door downstairs. It obviously wasn't Simon or Jon they had keys and were in Alicante.
Slowly I retreat down the stairs and open the door, revealing a distressed looking Jace. His hair stood in all directions probably from running his hands over and over it. He paced and muttered to himself. His shirt half tucked in and out of his dress pants. He obviously was having a hard day.
He stops when he sees me on the door and his eyes land on my belly making him freeze.
"I…I" he begins not sure. "I was hoping you would not be home" he whispers uncertain.
"Well I am" I say very lowly.
"I wasn't sure how to go about this, this has probably been one of the most challenging weeks of my life" he says.
"I have had many trust me" I reply smiling.
"I thought about what Kaelie said, if what she said is true why didn't you tell me sooner, why did you wait all this time" it was question after question as he spoke.
I nod my head. "Well I wanted to access— I needed to know the type of person you where".
"You needed to know the type of person, I am. What do I know about you. Nothing, nothing" he yells slightly running his hand in his hair.
"Jace" I whimper.
"Don't Jace me, Clarissa for all I know thats not even my baby, because I have had this done to me by others"
"I.." I begin to say, but not sure what to say.
"Are you trying to destroy my family name? because your not the first who has tried that either too and trying to conspire against me won't go down well" He yells flustering his arms everywhere.
"No of course not" I say quickly.
"Is it money you need, Is it money because I can give you and you can leave my life now" he whispers agitated.
"Excuse me" I say, "Excuse me" I shout angry now. "Do I look the type Jonathan" I scream "Do I look like that type; if you didn't know I am the one who shamed my family" I yell. "I am the one who shamed my family by sleeping with a man I barely knew and guess what I got knocked up and accepted the consequences".
"I am the one who bears the evidence of what we did" I keep yelling he had unleashed the dragon in me now, I couldn't stop. "I am the one everyone looks at and they judge me, I am the one who people glance over and try sympathise with me when I know its fake, I am the one who bears the evidence and I am the one who is going to stretch everything for this baby" I grind my teeth together.
"Other 22 years olds are working, living but I am home bound because I accepted what I did, and I done it with the man standing infront of me right now. Offering me money, WHAT. DO. I. LOOK. LIKE." I finished tears streaming down my face and my head pounding.
"Clarissa" he simply called out.
"Do not ever Clarissa me, ever again, you don't come to my house offering me money" breathe I told myself "You liked scoring but you run when the tough gets tough don't you" I keep yelling my voice getting hoarse.
"I only needed you to know, you don't have to be apart of his life" I growl flatly, I had never been so mad at anyone as made as I was right now.
"In fact leave now" I scream my voice cutting. "Leave" I screech. Jace puts his head down, then slowly turns and walks back to his car.
I close my eyes for a moment to catch my breathe, but black spots appear behind my eye lids and before I know it I—.
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