Note to readers from beta-Hey! I'd like to say that I'd totally responsible for the delay this chapter. There's a ton going on in my life. But we hope you enjoy this chapter!
A/N: I am really sorry for updating late but my school stated this week and I have a lot work to do. But my beta is not responsible for delay because even if she would have done the proof reading early I wouldn't be able to post it because my internet connection broke on Sunday and got recovered today only.
Good news: Jacob and Nessie will be together soon so stay tuned.
I have a new fan fiction up named TIED DOWN and it's also Jacob and Nessie's so check it out too. It will be updated this weekend.
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DEDICATION: LaaLaa94, AngelVamp6688, they got it absolutely right. Forever in a Momment and Sportfreaky13 (you didn't say it specifically but i still give you dedication because you are a loyal reader.)
Now all your love you give to me
When your heart is all I need
-Don't leave home;Dido
Chapter 10 – So close, and yet so far.
Was he about to...kiss me?
HE WAS! Of course, someone just HAD to interrupt...just my luck!
We swam towards the shore and found Leah with an unreadable expression on her face. She crossed her arms over her chest, tapping her foot.
What was she so pissed off about? I was the one who just went from almost kissing the man of my dreams to swimming towards an angry she-wolf.
When we reached the shore, Jake offered me his hand to help me up, but I ignored it. I wasn't ready to touch him yet. I was just glad he didn't through a fit over it like last time.
"What do you want?" He asked her, with a bit of irritation colouring his voice. Could it be because he didn't want to be interrupted from our moment? Iwish...
"That future seeing bloodsucker sent you something. She came to MY house. I didn't know you'd started letting them have free reign over our land. Next time warn me or something." So she was angry because Alice came to her house to give Jake something. Interesting.
"She's only allowed in La Push 'til the wedding is over. And I believe I'm in charge of who is and isn't allowed in La Push. I can change the rules anytime." He spoke, getting angrier with each word.
"Oh, of course; because you're the 'Almighty Alpha'!"She said sarcastically.
"Shut up, Leah." said Jacob. As wrong as it was, I was kind of glad they were fighting. But of course Leah just had to ruin that too.
"Don't get worked up Jake! I really don't want to fight. I'm not here for very long and it's not how I want to spend my time."She softened, which I could tell was rare.
"Give us a ride home then." He asked her. Actually it sounded more like he ordered her.
"Why?" I asked confused. Why did Jacob want to go home in a car when we could run so easily? As soon as I thought the question, however, I felt a chill go up my spine. My abnormal temperature felt like it was coming back again.
"Oh Nessie! Are you feeling cold again?"He asked as he wrapped his warm arms around me and Leah rolled her eyes.
As much as my shivering body loved his warm arms warped around me, my mind knew not to get to comfortable, he'd never let anything happen between us. I still wasn't ready to touch him after our moment on the rock.
I shrugged away from his arms and said "No, no it's okay. I will just run home and change."
I instantly knew that it was the wrong move. I saw his face quickly change to complete sadness. It was only there for a moment there, I wouldn't have even caught it if I wasn't half vampire.
He instantly composed himself to look cheerful again. He didn't want to show that I'd hurt him, but just that flicker of sadness in his eyes had crushed me into a million pieces.
Oh, my poor Jacob. I just wanted him to wrap his arms around me for as long as he wanted to. But I couldn't; not with my hormones going so freaking crazy.
"No way am I letting you run home all wet. You'll freeze." And then he added "Come on Leah. Let's just get home fast." I guess he wanted a ride only because he didn't want me to get cold. I'd kind of thought it was because he wanted to be with Leah. He was so sweet; I was touched.
"Whatever." Leah said, walking towards the car. We followed her to the beach parking area.
"What did Alice bring anyways?"Jacob asked Leah.
"A suit. She said you needed a fitting or something." She replied, nonchalantly.
"SHIT! I have to get over there ASAP, or Alice is gonna kill me!" He panicked like he was being hunted by a vampire.
I ended up sitting in the back seat alone, with Jacob driving like a mad man and Leah in the passenger seat. I wished I could snuggle with him in the back seat, but I guess it made sense that we couldn't since I'd given him the cold shoulder (literally) a few minutes before. That and Alice.
We reached his house in only a few minutes. Jacob was in such a hurry to unlock the door of his house that he didn't even say thanks to her. I didn't really want to talk to her because I was still a little pissed off at her for interrupting us, so I just nodded toward her to let her know that we appreciated the ride and that she could go.
Surprisingly, she understood and got back in the car and drove off.
"Why are you so freaked out, Jacob?" I asked as I followed him into the house.
"Nessie, if I don't try that suit on, ASAP," he said grabbing the package out of my hands, "Rachel and the pixie will rip me limb from limb. I have to get it done before Rachel gets home." He ran to his room, but he came back in just a few seconds with some clothes in his hands.
"Here take these." He said as he handed me one of his shirts with something wrapped up in it.
I am not sure if I was imaging things, but I think I noticed a light shade of pink colouring his tan skin before he spoke. "Umm, Rachel took most of her stuff to Paul's house so this was all I could find for you to wear." He said and then he was off to his room again.
I unfolded his shirt and found a pair of panties, which I assumed were Rachel's. Why would this make him blush?
"Freaky pixie is going to kill me!" I heard him mumbling from his room.
I laughed at that. How could a sweet little thing like my Aunt Alice scare the hell out of such a big man like Jacob?
"Hey it's not my fault that your Aunt is such a scary little thing." He called from the room as if he'd just read my mind.
"Ugh...sure sure Jake." I replied, still a bit bemused that he'd been so in sync with me, and strolled towards the bathroom down the hall to get changed. When I was done, I walked to the kitchen to get something to eat. I opened the fridge and found some pizza, some cold spaghetti and a loaf of mouldy bread. Jake and Billy had defiantly been relying on Emily's cooking.
But I wanted to eat something sweet, so I just grabbed the jar of honey that they kept on top of the fridge. That's when I noticed a note from Billy on the fridge.
At Charlie's for a late night game. Don't wait up. - Dad.
So we were alone. Interesting. I walked over to the table with the honey and sat down to eat. Like I said, I've always had a thing for sweet stuff and things which have sugar in them.
I opened up the honey jar. I hadn't noticed how hungry I was until I smelled the honey. So I didn't bother to get a spoon. I just dug my finger into the jar and licked it like a little kid. I know this was stupid and Aunt Rosalie always got mad at Jacob because he taught me do that when I was about 3 months old.
As much as I would love to sneak down the hall and see Jacob with his clothes off, I had morals and I respected him. So I simply walked down the hall and knocked on the door, jar of honey still in my other hand.
"Come in, it's open." He called from inside.
When I opened the door, my heart stopped for a second as I laid eyes on the most handsome, charming, hot, sexy, and...and... I ran out of adjectives for the man standing in front of me. I nearly dropped the jar in my hand onto the carpet.
There stood Jacob black in a stunning black suit.
Something happened to my eyes and my jaw. I just couldn't take my eyes off him or close my mouth. You're drooling! Stop starring! I reminded myself.
"What?"He asked noticing my gawking. "Do I look like a penguin?"
"Yeah." I said, chuckling to cover up my embarrassment at being caught staring. His eyebrows furrowed. "A very handsome penguin, Jake. And a very big one." I reassured. We both burst out laughing at my joke.
"You really think so?"He asked as his laughter faded. I knew he was asking about the handsome part. He looked so delicious running his hands thru his hair sheepishly right now.
"I know so." He grinned like an idiot at my comment. That smile just made my whole day.
I got another scoop of honey out of the jar and licked it off my finger like a kid. I caught Jacob looking at me from the corner of his eye.
"What? Did I spill some on my shirt or something?" I asked. I turned around to look at my reflection in his mirror.
"How the hell do I get this tie on?" He asked trying his best to put his tie on. He was failing miserably. It didn't go un-noticed by me that he'd changed the subject to ignore my question.
Jacob had never ignored my questions until recently. What the hell is up with him these days?
"You act like such a child, sometimes, Jacob! You don't know how to tie a tie? How old are you, anyways?" I asked already knowing the answer.
"We can't all be perfect, like you, Miss. Vampire-Princess?" He teased, mock bowing to me. I curtsied back as I laughed
"Okay. I'll help you. Just let me go wash this honey off my fingers so I don't mess up your suit." I said turning to leave, but his pout stopped me. "What?"
"It's not fair that you get to eat sweet things and I'm stuck trying on this penguin suit. I want some, but I can't eat in this suit or pixie would kill me." He said, still pouting.
"Well, what am I supposed to do about it?"I asked not knowing what I could do to help him.
"I, umm... never mind I'll just eat it afterwards"
"No tell me what you were going to say, Jake." I coaxed. I didn't know why he was so shy all of the sudden. I mean, he's never been this shy around me.
"You're already eating it so..." He trailed off. I finally got his meaning. If my Jacob wanted honey, then honey he'd get, no matter what.
I closed the distance between us in 2 steps and then dipped two fingers into the jar again. I raised them up towards his lips as he dipped his head low for me. He placed his hands on my waist, tying my stomach in knots and then gently, trying not to spill the honey on his clothes, I brought my fingers to his mouth.
As I slid my fingers into his mouth, his lips closed around my fingers for a short moment. That moment warmed up every part of my body. I noticed that these were the same fingers that I'd been licking honey from, just moments ago.
"Again." He whispered and I complied.
Jacob's lips were already parted and my heart was pounding in anticipation. I slid my fingers into his mouth, trying to control my body's reaction. He closed his mouth around my fingers, and sucked. I gasped when his tongue came up to lick the honey from my finger tips. By the time when he released my fingers, my head was spinning.
Without thinking, I dipped my finger back into the jar and brought my sticky fingers to my mouth and licked the honey from them. I almost moaned when I tasted the lingering taste of Jacob on my fingers. I only realized what I'd just done when Jacob tightened his grip on me.
My whole body tensed at the realization.
"I... I am sorry...I....I'll be right back!" I stammered and ran out of the room before he could say anything. Jacob just stood there stunned.
I put the jar back on top of the fridge and washed my hands. My breathing was irregular and my head was still spinning from the memory of his taste in my mouth. One thing I was sure of now, was that he tasted like he smelled. He tasted like Jacob.
I splashed some water on my face to snap myself out it before I went back into his room.
By the time I got there, he had removed the coat and button down shirt and was just in his black pants and white wife beater. He looked handsome in that too. The wife beater hugged his chest muscles perfectly and the movement of his arms when he was folding the clothes, flexing his muscles, was simply hypnotizing.
Here I go again...
I noticed that he still hadn't tied his tie so, to relieve some of the tension in the room, I took the tie in my hand and climbed up to stand on his bed.
"Come here." I said.
He was confused at first but then I wrapped the tie around his neck and then began to tie it. With me standing on the bed, I was much taller than him, so I was able to tie the tie easily. The only downside was that his head was right in front of my breasts. The closeness caused heat to spread thru my body, settling in the pit of my stomach. I wasn't sure if this position should make me uncomfortable or not, but I sure as hell liked it.
I tensed when I felt his hot breath on my chest and the hand that I'd placed on his arm tightened its grasp. Why do I keep forgetting that promise I made to myself?
"There." I said when I was done. Jake seemed a little lost and didn't seem to hear me at first.
"Huh? Oh yeah." He said when he came out of his daze. "Thanks Nessie." He kissed my cheek and I felt my skin burn where his lips pressed against my skin.
"Now, what do you want to do?" He asked.
"I don't know, maybe we could watch a movie." I offered, not really caring what we did. I just wanted to spend time with my Jacob like earlier days.
"Sure sure." He replied and offered me his hand to climb off the bed. But I didn't take it. It was the fourth time I'd rejected him today, but I didn't want things to get more awkward between us.
I walked out of his room to give him privacy to change back into his clothes. I walked out to the living room to pick out a movie to watch. Jacob liked action movies, while I, like any other girl, liked romance. I decided on Pearl Harbour so I grabbed the DVD and stuck it in the DVD player.
By the time it was thru the previews I'd got some food for Jacob to eat because I knew that he would be hungry. He'd changed by then and came and sat on the couch.
"What's with girls and romance movies?" He asked when he saw which movie was it.
"The same thing that you have with action movies." I replied from the kitchen and he laughed at my comment.
I brought some pizza which I'd heated up, and some popcorn for him and I'd found some soda in the back of the fridge so I'd brought 2 of those for us. He saw me with my arms full of food and instantly got up to help me.
"You didn't have to do that, Nessie." He said sounding concerned.
"Shut up Jake." I joked, and then I instantly checked to see if I'd hurt his feelings, but he was already back to watching movie.
We ate the pizza; well actually he ate most of it, in silence as we watched the movie. I got the idea that my abnormal behaviour wasn't going completely unnoticed by Jake. But I wasn't sure why he hadn't said anything about it.
As he finished the pizza he brought his hand up to his forehead and pressed it tightly against his temple. I was immediately concerned.
"Do you have a headache Jake?" I asked. Even being a wolf didn't make him immune to headaches. I touched his head, which was burning, but that was usual for Jake.
"I've just got a lot on my mind." He said, still rubbing his temples.
I suddenly had an idea to make him feel better. "Stand up Jake." I told him.
This caught him off guard. "Why?" He asked.
"Just do what I say." I ordered as he grudgingly stood up. "Now sit on the ground with your back against the couch." I told him.
"Whatever you say, Nessie."
I sat on that couch directly behind Jacob. Then I once again placed both my hands on his head and pulled his head into my lap.
"I'm going to give you a scalp massage." I informed him and he slowly closed his eyes.
I began to rub his forehead gently, applying small amounts of pressure on his pulse points to make him feel better.
"Wow Ness! I didn't know you were so good at this. It feels so good."
"Like I said you would." I said and rolled my eyes. Of course, his were still closed, so he didn't see me do so.
Then Jake rolled his head to the side so that I could massage the right side of his forehead. I was still wearing his shirt which was long but not long enough and since I was sitting Indian style on the couch, this movement made it ride up to my thighs.
When Jacob's warm cheek and lips touched the skin of my inner thigh, we both tensed and my hands froze. He noticed my lack of movement and shrugged out of my grasp immediately.
"I'm sorry Ness... I shouldn't have done that...I..." He trailed off, obviously searching for the words.
I know I'd rejected Jacob a lot today but when he rejected me like that I felt really bad. He stood up and sat on the other end of the couch, maintaining an appropriate distance from me, burying his face in his hands.
"Nessie?" He asked after a few silent seconds.
"Ye-yeah" My voice quivered. I was close to crying now.
He met my gaze and looked straight in my eyes for a long second. He observed the hurt expression on my face.
In the next heart beat, he'd pulled me into his arms and I found myself snuggled up to his chest trying to hold back the tears. But they came any ways. This newfound awkwardness between Jacob and I was the reason for the tears. I just couldn't hold it in any longer.
"Nessie, you know that I love right?" I sensed an edge of insecurity in his tone.
I immediately nodded in his chest. "And you can share every secret with me." I didn't know where this conversation was going.
"Then why can't you tell me what's bothering you, honey?" He sounded so concerned and sad at that moment. I was right. He had noticed my strange behaviour around him.
"Is it about what happened last night? Because I'm so sorry."
Last night? I hadn't even thought about it. My sweet Jacob, he thinks that what happened in that dark alley last night, made me scared of him. I shook my head letting him know that it had nothing to do with last night.
"Then tell me, honey." He kissed my hair. "No matter what, I will still love you more than anything in the whole world."
His pleading expression and pained tone broke something in me. Suddenly all of the past week's events came crashing down on me. Every time we'd come too close. Every time my stomach twisted in on itself with butterflies. Every pang of jealousy I'd felt toward Leah. It all came over me like a wave, washing my resolve away with it.
I wanted to keep him forever and ever, but how long could I go on pretending he was just my best friend? He was so much more then that; he was my everything. I had to tell him the truth.
A/N: I am sure you all didn't see that coming. Next chapter will be Paul and Rachel's wedding and Jake and Nessie will be together soon. But still to be on the safer side – don't get your hopes up because I am really busy. But I'll try to update soon.
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