Oh god I'm so sorry, I had major writers block for chapter eleven and I didnt want to put this up until I'd sorted my head out!
Thanks Di7fan and Pippa
Oh and also, check out my other best friend(with Pippa)'s page on here, The names JonasKlaineWadeyxxx . Her story is listed as Klaine but apparantly its quite heavy on the Brittana side as well :o) Or so I've heard...
Sorry, this chapter really is almost all song
Chapter 10: Song
ALMA POV:
Santana steps out onto the stage. The lights shine in her face, she can't see the audience, she can't see me. But she knows I'm there. Kurt told her I'd be. Santana's wearing a flowing black dress, she looks beautiful. The music starts, Kurt told me that her whole song was a message, to me. I had no idea what to expect.
Oh oh oh oh oh I'm in love with Juda-as, Juda-as,
Oh oh oh oh oh I'm in love with Juda-as, Juda-as
Juda, Juda-a-as, Juda, Juda-a-as, Juda, Juda-a-as, Judas, Lopez
Oh ha ha ha. Halarious.
This is my confession oh, pen and paper out, gonna write this down
Saying, things you never thought that were on my mind, let the truth pour out
Cause I'm tired, of the games, I won't lie, no I'm not okay
You were wrong, you're to blame, now the world knows my name
Mash-up alert.
Is it time to let go, what's next I don't know, what to think about you now
For some reason, I still don't hate you
I guess that caring for someone, means forgiving their mistakes
But when it's all they make what's the right thing to do
Forgive me. Please, I'll try harder. I'll try.
But if you only have love for your own race, then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And I discriminated you. I see that now. I always worked against discrimination. I went back on my vows.
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate, and that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man we gotta have love just to set us straight
Take control of your mind and meditate, let your soul gravitate to the love
Y'all I wanna be drunk when I wake up on the right side of the wrong bed
And every excuse I made up, tell you the truth I hate
What didn't kill me never made me stronger at all
But a house gets cold when you cut the heating without you right there I'll be freezing
Can't rely on my heart to beat it, cause you take parts of it every evening
I'm so sorry.
Should I, should I, maybe I'll get drunk again
I just wanna come home
Unlock these handcuffs and let me go
I don't know what I done to you, wasn't naughty I told the truth
I always told you to tell the truth. Then I kicked you out for doing so.
Scared of what I don't know
I just wanna come home
I want you to come home
Felt the heat from the fire, felt the cold from the rain
You just left me standing there with nothing but a name
Put my heart on the line as I said to the sky
Never will I let somebody ever make me cry
But just a smile from her tore through my defences, it made no sense
Now I gotta confide and tell the truth cause
I have come wide open hoping you won't leave me broken
But I did
You walked away, the sun goes down
You take the day, but I'm grown
And in your way, in this blue shade
My tears dry on their own
What else do you know?
Just 'cause your old you think your wise
I know. I was wrong.
Who the hell are you though?
I didn't even ask for your advice
You wanna keep your mouth shut
You better take your thoughts elsewhere
Cause your living in my life
And do you think I care?
I'm imagining you far away, searching for the words to say
I feel it when you fall apart
Our lives are our greatest art
I don't wanna change your mind, cause I accept you for
Everything you are and will be
I didn't do that for you.
Stay here with me now
The only thing that our hearts are made of
Are the acts of forgiveness and love
The only thing real, when push comes to shove
Are the acts of forgiveness and love
Cause in the end no one loses or wins
The story begins again and again
With forgiveness and love
Ooh…I stare at my reflection in the mirror
Why am I doing this to myself
Losing my mind on a tiny error, I nearly left the real me on the shelf
Nonononono…
Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It's okay not to be okay, then I give it all
Try my best, gave you everything I had
You did.
Everything and no less
Then I do it wrong
And let you in
That wasn't the wrong thing to do! I'm sorry Santana! Please!
Maybe you got to used to, having me round
Still how can you walk away
From all my tears
It's gonna be an empty road
Without you right here
And I wanna believe you
When you tell me that it'll be okay
Yeah I try to believe you
But I can't
I wouldn't believe me either. After everything I've done to you.
When you say that it's gonna be
Always turns out to be a different way
Yeah I try to believe you, but not today, today, today, today, today…
And I, don't know how I'll feel, tomorrow, tomorrow
And I don't know what to say, tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day
Turn my back to the door, feel so much better now
Don't even try anymore, nothing left to lose
There's a voice that's in the air
Saying don't look back nowhere
There's a voice that's always there
And I'll never be quite the same as I was before
This part of you still remains, though it's out of focus
You're just somewhere that I've been
And I won't go back again
You're just somewhere that I've been
I'm breathing in, breathing out
Ain't that what it's all about
Living life crazy loud, like I have the right to
No more words in my mouth, nothing left to figure out, but
I don't think I'll ever break through
The ghost of you
On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie
Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
In this tug of war, you'll always win
Even when I'm right
'Cause you feed me fables from your hand
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie
Ooooohhh…
Please. I hope you can give me a second chance.
Tears are streaming from my eyes by the end of the mash-up, hers too.
"Thanks" Santana whispers and walks of the stage as the audience whoops and claps. I don't. Not because she wasn't amazing. Because I don't feel like I deserve the right. I've done her so many wrongs. Maybe I don't deserve a second chance.
…
The songs in the mash-up were as follows:
Judas-Lady Gaga
This Song Is About You-Olly Murs
I Still Don't Hate You-Jesse Lucas (Bet you never heard of that, tell me if you have though…)
Where Is The Love?-The Black Eyed Peas
Drunk-Ed Sheeran
Home-Eliza Doolittle
Venerable-The Saturdays
Tears Dry On Their Own-Amy Winehouse
Take What You Take-Lily Allen
Forgiveness and Love-Miley Cyrus
Who You Are-Jessie J
Take It All-Adele
Tomorrow-Avril Lavigne
The Ghost Of You-Selena Gomez
Love The Way You Lie-Rihanna
R&Rxxx