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You guys are very special to me. I just wanted to give a big thanks to all of you. Well today I would like to announce that this is the Chapter 10 of my story. I'm really happy that it has made it this far. –Tears- It really makes me happy that so many of you care that much. The friends and my entire special people too. I also would like to say that in conclusion I will do my very best to keep this story on the road of writing! Well, not to make you wait any longer…here you go!!

Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation (even though I wish I did)

How to Make Heaven Your Home

Chapter 10: Alone and Sadden

He was alone, in his empty mind of despair and mortal desires. Yet he couldn't comprehend the death that was inside him. He was never good or great in the eyes of many. The ones who he, indeed thought loved and cared for him. No, that was a lie and he knew it, but it was too hard to understand. He rather didn't want to understand. He, rather Riko Doushin, just wanted to disappear. To never have to be blamed for anything anymore, and never had to be harmed by the ones that so called loved him. He was to be free from the abyss of his tortured heart. To finally be announced that he was happy and safe… He just wanted to feel alive…That in general was too much to ask for…

Riko sat in the hospital bed thinking the whole time. He held his pillow in arms while he sat in a small position. He looked like a small child would do when he's scared in a corner. Riko couldn't stop crying that day, that very day of the incident with his so called friends. The day he would never forget, the same time when his family shunned him.

Flash Back

"Hay Riko where are you going?"

"Oh...sorry I'm going home early today. Mom said I had to..." A young fifteen-year-old Riko said as he was running home. He was done with school and needed to get home quick.

"Fine whatever you want!!!" Shinzo yelled as he was walking the other way. He was one of the closest friends Riko could get. He would also be the worst one too.

Riko ran up to his house and walked in. Placing his slippers on and heading upstairs. "Mother! I'm home and a bit early today. I'll be doing my homework now!" He yelled as he went into his room. He looked at his calendar and saw a red circle around February 6.(1) He was going to be sixteen, and to him nothing else mattered.

A lean brown haired woman with brown eyes walked up to her son's room. She was a nice woman but at times she was also a lost kind of person. She loved cleaning and shopping like a school girl would. The fact is that something was wrong about her.

"Riko, did you do well today?" Mrs. Doushin asked as she sat on the tip of his bed. She folded her hands on her lap as he waited.

"Yes Mother, I also told my friends about the party like you told me too."

"That's a good boy, now what do you want for your birthday?"

"Oh...nothing mom, really. I just want to stay home and maybe sleep."

"Now that won't work, you're bigger now. You can't just avoid your party like that." She stood up and walked out the door. She didn't want to hear anymore of it really.

Riko just closed his mouth for he had no say so in the matter at all. Even though it was his birthday, and he really didn't want to go to it. He thought of it as a waist of time, time that he could be making music. He already had his mind set on that. He fell asleep thinking about that same matter, of being a rock star.

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The next day on February 1, and he already was in a somewhat happy mood. He went to school like any normal child would, and got bullied like on too.

"Hay kid, come here a sec!" The head bully named Ryun called to Riko from outside the school. He was very good at getting what he wanted. His black hard and muscular yet lean body could get anyone to surrender.

"Um…yeah you called Ryun" Riko walked up to the large male and watched his every move. He didn't like to get hit and today was really not his day.

"You're having a birthday party coming up soon right?" He smirked at the younger male a bit.

"Yeah I am, what do you want to know about it…?" He made his voice sound bold and stern.

"Well me and my gang would like it if we came too." He was smiling now, for if he had said no a beating would surely follow.

"Fine…Just be good on that day. My parents are very strict people." Riko said as he slowly walked away without a small scratch. He was lucky for that indeed, to be talking to him that way and just leave.

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As Riko s birthday came nearer and nearer he seemed to change slightly. He came home with more burses and bumps that couldn't be explained to his parents and many more things. His brother Shoji was starting to wonder about his younger brother and band leader. He was a kind brother with dark blue long hair and dark blue eyes to match. He had a lean body for a 19 year-old, and the nicest smile. He was a very good student and a very great friend. Riko could depend on him more than life itself.

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Riko started to wear tighter cloths and sung with sexual passion in his eyes. The moments when Riko would swing his hips at the songs making it look totally wrong for a brother to see. Shoji just had to stop this train that was going nowhere but hell. "Brother why are you wearing that all of a sudden?"

"I just like wearing it that's all. It makes me feel better." Riko said as he placed a black tank top on and tight black shorts to match.

Shoji looking really terrified at the sight of his younger brother dress like that. He decided to tell him the truth and leave it at that. "Brother Mother and Father really aren't happy about you doing this. They will stop at nothing to-"

"Save it Shoji, I will wear what I want okay. I'm tired of all these rules and regulations." He said as a few friends were at the door waiting for him. He ran downstairs to avoid his parents and he was off again late in the night.

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February 6, and the most day any child would love. It was Riko's birthday, and the day was only just starting to get bad. He wasn't doing any drugs or anything like that. He just stayed out late so often and never really did his home chores. He still was a straight A student, but he was a bad one too. He hung out with the wrong crowd and got in trouble a lot.

The stars were shining brightly as the night neared. They were like jewels in the ski with no worries and such crimes in the world. The night was a perfect night to celebrate a birthday and the many more to come. Riko's parents were out getting more stuff and more supplies for the special time. Things started to change in the world of parenthood. They ignored the silent cries at night and the no eating child in their house. The family just lived on without their son, except his older brother.

Riko was at another party that night and he came home drunk again. He wasn't the type to hold his liquor very well, and it showed. He opened the door to his house and didn't realize the door was unlocked. He stumbled into the house with his 'friends' right behind him. They helped him up if he fell and placed him on the floor to rest. Ryun was the first to grab the drunken Riko a nice glass of water. "Here buddy, drink up!" He said as he helped Riko drink down the glass of water.

Riko couldn't see very good as he sat on the floor and watched his friends dance to the music. They turned up the music and began to dance without a care in the world. The members of the group played with Riko by grabbing his hands and making him dance. He was of course had fell over and laughed about it. Once, he had dance with Ryun and got dizzy to the point where he fell on top of him. Ryun just laughed and picked up the ditzy Riko.

Riko would get a small blush that would cover his face. He just got quiet as Ryun sat near him laughing at him still. He would let Riko lean on him and drink more beer while he was at it. Riko started to mumble as a sign he was totally buzzed and wasn't thinking what he was saying. "Hay are you okay little one?" Ryun asked as he held Riko's face in his hands while looking at him. He knew this would make the younger male blush more.

Riko indeed blushed as his face was being held. "I-I'm kind of…sick…" He said as his couldn't control his mind from spinning out of control. "Aww…don't get sick just yet…we aren't done with you..." Ryun smiled as he laid Riko on the floor and made a hand sign to his friends to hold him down. He made sure that Riko couldn't move an inch.

Riko just started to feel the pain he felt on his arms. He tried to move but couldn't and it was starting to hurt him. "Hay what's going on here?" He asked as he tried to wiggle out of the grasp of the larger person. "Damn it took me like forever just to find what I was looking for kid." Ryun said as he walked into the room smiling at Riko and his gang. He sat down on his legs and placed his hands on Riko's chest.

Riko just wiggled even more as he was being touched. He tried to move but was only able to move his hands around. Ryun told his friends to let Riko go just for him to grab. He placed his hands on the wrist of Riko and forced him slightly upwards. "Tell me something, why does your face turn red when I'm close to you?" Ryun already knew the answer to that. He just wanted to make the younger male say it out loud in front of every one. He got close to Riko's ears and whispered,"Why do you seem so excited about this right now?"

Riko just wanted to cry for help but he knew no one would be able to help him now. How his family was gone and his brother was at a school thing that night. He wasn't going to be home just yet. "I-I like y-you…." It was all Riko could say as the small tears formed down his face. "Aww I see now, so you like it when I do this?" He asked as he kissed the neck of Riko causing the younger one to slightly gasp. He slid his cold hands under Riko's skirt causing Riko to shiver. "Please...n-no don't do t-this…." Ryun had to just smile at the small pleas for him to stop. He was enjoying this way too much.

Ryun placed Riko back on the floor and already slowly ripped his shirt off. He started to lick and nibble his neck and collar bone. He ran his tongue over his nipples as he was unbuttoning his tight black shorts. He kissed him hard as he slid the shorts completely off his body right alone with his boxers. Ryun caught Riko's moans in his mouth as his free hand pinched his nipples. The group just laughed as Riko was getting raped in his own home.

One person was ordered to hold Riko in place once more by his arms. Ryun just got undress and leaned on Riko, pressing his member onto Riko's. He showed a bottle of lube and smiled at Riko. "Do you know what this is little boy?" He asked as he poured it all over his fingers, opening Riko's legs in the process. "No! Please don't!" Riko could only shout as Ryun slowly poked the small opening and entered the small space of his. The tears of Riko were falling now on his face. "Ahh... god you're so tight!" The pain shot through the spine of Riko as he tried to move again but with no hope once more. Ryun started to add another finger and made a scissor motion inside of Riko. "Ahh!!! Noo!!"

Ryun just laughed as he added another finger and loved how it was so warm and tight. It was surely too much for Riko as he tried to kick him off, but it only made him hurt more. Ryun then started to make movements in and out of the young boy. He began to make a slow then fast pace on him as he got closer to Riko's lips. He could see Riko was now whimpering and crying. He thought the boy must have been a virgin and never felt this before. The thought of that only made his desire to hurt Riko grow in size. He took out his fingers and licked them clean. "Now see, was that so hard?" He watched as the boy was panting hard with the pain he still felt. He was a sick Sadistic person indeed.

Ryun positioned himself at Riko's entrance and thrust hard in Riko. He earned a small scream from him and laughed. "What's wrong you don't like it so well little one?" He asked as he started to pump harder and harder, with greater speed. He started to grab in around his waists and plunge into him. They began to get sweaty and out of breath. He got great joy out of Riko as he was nearing to the point of coming. Riko had already cum so many times he couldn't count anymore. Riko was also starting to get tired and weak.

"You didn't want this?" One guy said as he watched the sad thing go on.

"Yeah he likes it, keep going boss because I'm next on him…."

"Well I want that mouth of his…'

"Yeah he likes it the little fag…."

Riko's heart was broken and torn as they took turns on him. They made him suck them off and they came in him one by one. They used razors to cut his flesh, and beat him. He felt so dirty and worn out at this point. They made him get on his hands and knees begging for sex and anything else they wanted. He was forced to drink the horrible sour seed of them all. He's stomach was starting to feel more sick and he was dizzy. He was starting to loose to much blood from the cuts now. One male was holding his hair to make him chock on his member when someone was at the door. It was opened by his parents when they walked in the door and saw their son like that.

"What the hell is going on here!?" The Father asked as he went to get his shot gun from the closet.

The plan was a success in making Riko show how weak and gay he was. They ran off leaving a tired and sick Riko naked on the floor. He reached out to grab his Mother's dress only to be hit away. He tried to see what happened only to get kicked in the stomach by his Father. "Don't you dare touch your Mother, you fag!" Riko just held his stomach now bleeding from the mouth, he tried to get up but couldn't.

His Mother just stared at her son in disbelieve and walked away from him. His Father just gave him a 'you make me sick' look and walked up to his hurt son. "I want you out my house…my family will have none of this!" He was such a homophobe even if his son was raped. He kicked him again and joined his wife in the kitchen. He wanted to shoot him then in there.

Riko got up the best he could and tried to walk in his brother's room. He knew that his brother was looking for the jerks that hurt him. He walked in the room and reached his hand out for Shoji. "B-Brother…please...h-help…." He collapsed on the floor in the room at the feet of his brother. Shoji just locked his door to make sure his Father wouldn't kill his younger sibling. "It's okay Riko…it will be all okay…" He said as he tried to look at the burses and cuts those guys had made to him. It would take a lone time before he knew his brother wouldn't be traumatized anymore….

Flash Back Ends

Riko was in a full grown sob in his pillow, he could still feel the pain and the markings of the cuts. He always loved to wear long jackets and shirts in case anyone asked about his cuts. He was in fetal position as he wasted his heart out. He didn't want to remember how his parents treated him after that. He would cry in his room alone with no food, because his Mother refused to fix food for him. He would have to wait late in the hours for his brother to come home and bring his dinner. Shoji was his only support throughout the hard times like that.

It was Shoji who made him sing at his school, if he didn't Tahoma wouldn't have heard about Riko at all. He owed his brother his life and much more. He was the saver of his life and he loved his brother. He just couldn't see him, because he was in college now.

Riko didn't know that he was crying most of the day and it was only around noon. He started to look at the golden sun and thought of Yuki. He liked the cold eyes of Yuki and that beautiful hair of his. Thinking of Yuki made him feel slightly better and he didn't know why. He wanted to see the male so much and just be around him. It wasn't much to ask was it? He decided that he would lay back in the bed and rest. He cried out all of his energy and he needed the rest. He fell asleep thinking of the gold haired god. He didn't realize that the night fall was coming, and it was coming fast…

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That night someone wasn't sleeping and dozing off to bed. One pink haired little one was on a mission. Shuichi was wondering why Tahoma tried to hook up his Yuki with some other person so soon. He already asked Yuki earlier about it, but he just said it was the mystery of the world of Tahoma. That wasn't enough information for Shuichi Shindou at all, he wanted his questions answered and quickly.

Shuichi kissed his lover on the head and headed out the door. Rather he went right through the door instead. He flew in the air watching the stars shine and glisten in the moonlight. He felt the small breezes of the wind as he glided through the ski. It was dark like an ocean after a nasty storm, but calm as the seas were before a storm.

Shuichi reached the N.G building and flew up to the 52nd floor to where Tahoma's office was. He went through the door and looked around the room for the sneaky devil. Tahoma you scary devil where are you? Shu was flying until he saw the computer was on. He decided to check it out and look at it. He saw that Tahoma was looking up deep and private information on Riko, and many other things about the boy. Shuichi was shocked to see what was written there.

Shuichi got tired of reading the computer and needed to get back to his plan. He waited for the light blond haired male to come back into the room. He looked very sad and that's a lot coming from a person who smiles like no end. He seemed bothered by something and he didn't have time to smile.

Shuichi watched as Tahoma walked to his desk and sat down. He clicked the computer off and laid his head on his hands. He looked tired and very restless, when he just started to talk to his self.

"Shuichi if you're out there…what do I do now…."

Shuichi started to freak out. He knew that Tahoma couldn't see him, only if he wanted to be seen. Ekk!

"What do I do to make Yuki happy? How can I help Riko and his horrible past…?" He was asking himself these questions and Shuichi was finally starting to understand. Shuichi just wanted to kill Tahoma soo much for trying to hook up his Yuki with a stranger that, his opinion, wasn't good enough for Yuki.

Shuichi was going to kill Tahoma, but not too soon. He would wait until the little baby Tahoma and Mika were having had gotten older. He didn't want the little girl to cry over her dead Father. It would be too much for Shuichi to handle. He would have to leave this one alive until he was ready and willing….

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Okay well that was Chapter 10 folks! –Does a little dance- Woot well I know that must have sucked. That was my first lemon…wow I feel like an idiot already…. Well tell me if it was good or bad and if it was bad I will do my best to make it better! I still have to have Yuki and ………. To have a fun time together still….Oh and I really need to know how you feel about Riko now and his past. I was going to add his brother Shoji and stuff too.

(1)My birthday is the same as my Character Riko…because I'm 16 right now…

Yuki: Wow you had it hard….kid

Riko: Yeah I did...help me feel better Yuki? –Glomp-

Shu: Hay I understand your hurt, but get your comfort somewhere else!!

Riko: Fine…you damn pest…..

Yuki: Yeah yeah my damn pest alright…no one calls the idiot names but me….idiot. –Getting shiny eyes from Shu now-

Shu: Aww Yuki you're so romantic!! –Hugs Yuki-

Shoji: Eww…that's just wrong….

Riko: BROTHER!!!!!!! –Glomps-

Shoji: THAT'S EVEN MORE WRONG!!!!!!!

Riko: You must like it…-Laughs at his brother's green face-

Yuki-san: Well all of you are happy…..Well hope you liked Chapter 10 Alone and Sadden!!!! See you soon!!!!