Bella POV

a month later

Alone. Unsure. g. I stood outside on the balcony, thinking about only those three things. I was nervous, confused, and terrified. I've made mistakes in the choices I've made, and I wasn't able to turn from them. Who was I to go to now? Jasper was the only best friend I had who understand stood me before we became "lovers".

A voice in my head spoke softly something that even I should've known would've been an understandable suggestion. " Jacob." I whispered as the wind blew against my face.

I grabbed my bag, and phone, and got into my truck. La Push was my destination. Finally when I got there, I could see the pack standing in the woods as I was pulling in Jake's drive. They were all circled for a while, and then they saw me and scattered, Jake being the only one left. I got out of the car and ran to hug him, he didn't seem happy to see me here. He almost seemed too tense. " Jake are you okay?" I asked.

" Bella, you shouldn't be here." He said bitterly.

" Jake come on, I haven't seen you in like forever, and you pick now to tell me to go home." I admitted kind of bummed out. " Now seriously, what's going on?"

" Just when I thought you finally left that one bloodsucker, you go off with his brother." He tensed up.

" Jake, what are you talking about?" I knew who he was referring to, but I didn't understand what was wrong.

" Why are you with him!" He yelled, shaking violently. This wasn't going well. As I turned around I could hear his breathing eradicate and it went from breathing to a mixture of human breathing and snarling, he was phasing. Before I could walk away he already phased and his claws dug threw my close and into my back. I screamed in pain and was suddenly pushed down the hill. My head hit at least 4 rocks as I continued to roll helplessly down it. My chest was getting hit over and over again, and soon I couldn't feel anything at all. I could barely hear Jake run away, and soon I wasn't able to hear or see anything at all, everything went black.

Jasper's POV

One day Later

" Edward you're positive you haven't seen her anywhere? She's been missing since yesterday. I've looked everywhere for her and nothing. Alice hasn't seen anything?" I asked hopelessly.

" No, I haven't, but I'll look for her up here, Jasper, alright? And no, Alice hasn't seen anything, she says everything is a blur when she looks into Bella's future." I wasn't satisfied hearing this news. Bella could be hurt, or worse.... No... I would not let this happen to her, never. I grabbed my keys and drove through Seattle asking some friends of Bella's.. Still nothing. This was terrifying me. Where could she have gone? This is where I thought to call Charlie, but he would not answer. He probably was busy looking for his daughter as well as I my wife.

There were no other places I could think of where she would go off to, I'm not even sure why she ran off in the first place. Everything was just fine while she was home, except for her excessive drinking. She seemed unstable after that. " Oh, Bella." I whispered in agony. " Where are you?" I asked hopelessly. The only other place I was going to look would be in the woods, but it was already getting to dark for me to find her. And that made me wonder, if she went missing yesterday because she was hurt, wounded.... How much time would I have left before it was too late. I knew that this wasn't a good time to be thinking about such thinks, but I had to consider the worst as well as the best.

I sat at the kitchen table thinking about Bella, how cold she must be if she's still wondering outside lost, how afraid she'd be. All this thinking had gotten me quite angry, I wasn't sure what to feel right now. My emotions had never been set off like this before. " Hang in there Bella." I whispered to myself.

The Next Day

The phone began to ring, I was still wide awake, and answered quickly. " Hello?" I asked.

" Jasper, I got a call from Billy... Bella went over to see the mutt and that's when she went missing, I think she's on the Rez. Which is why Alice couldn't see Bella's future. We're gonna have to break the treaty if we're gonna find her." I knew what this meant. I ran out the door and into the woods. I knew exactly where I was going. Eventually I was crossing the treaty line. I knew those dogs would be coming for me soon. This wasn't going to be let go without a fight.

" Bloodsucker." The Mutt's leader called from a mile away. " You crossed the treaty line!" He snarled as I kept running.

" I don't give a crap about the treaty, I'm looking for Bella, the girl you failed to protect. If I don't find her, I'll kill Jake."

" Jacob hasn't been seen for days." The weakest one spoke out.

" I have my ways of finding him, trust me." I could smell Bella's scent from a mile away. It was close, and I could smell her blood pouring out. " Bella!" I shouted repeatedly, hoping to hear that beautiful voice. " Bella!" I spoke once more as I got closer, soon the smell was so strong I was almost blinded. " Bella." I spoke softly now. Silence filled the air, panic filled my heart. She was here, but she was here hurt. I walked down a steep hill and sure enough I found her. She was covered in blood, her lips were covered with it, and the ground was obsorbing all of it. " Bella." I spoke darkly hurt, I couldn't cry, for my tears died along with my human body a long while ago, but believe me seeing Bella at this sight was horrifying. I ran to her and listened for her pulse, it was barely audible. She was dying. " Bella wake up." I begged sadly. " Bella, please." No response. I ran her immediately to the hospital and Carlisle took her from me quickly.

I was worried sick, my hands clutched, my heart pounding hard. My head aching, and my emotions confused. Hours later Carlisle walked to me and looked down sadly. This was not a good sign. " What's wrong with her?" I asked barely able to keep myself together.

" She's asleep right now, which is good, but she has Claw marks on her back. They're deep and infected, only because they had not been treated for a long while. And four of her ribs are broken. I'm amazed she survived this considering her conditions. She's lucky. Do you know who could of done this?" He asked curiously, all I could do right now is growl let alone talk, but I had to tell him.

" I've gotta clue. She went to Jake for a little while, and never came back. One his pack mates said that he'd been gone for a long while. He was probably afraid he'd get in trouble. Smart kid." I muttered. " Can I see her, Carlisle?" I asked gently.

" Yes, but I would leave when she wakes.. All she needs is more stress.... there's also something else.. She seemed to be bleeding too much."

" Yes, I noticed that when I saw her. Is there something behind that to why she was bleeding so much?" I asked curiously.

" She was pregnant. I'm assuming that the fall was too much for young one.. She lost the baby. I'm so sorry." He looked down. That struck a nerve. Bella always wanted children... and now we lost our child. Child we could have had hopes for, but those hopes were gone. I'm not sure if I would've been able to tell Bella. I walked into the hospital room and saw her laying there. She looked helpless, weak, lost. It was hard to look at her, but I made it bearable since I missed that beautiful delicate face. I rubbed her cheek gently and kissed it sadly. I could hear her groans and saw her waken. I knew I wasn't supposed to around when she was awake, but I needed to hear her voice again.

" Bella." I whispered. She opened her eyes and looked at me.

"Jazz?" She knows who I am? She remembers me?

" Shhh. Love, you should go back to sleep." I admitted quietly.

" What happened?"

" You hit your head and fell, breaking four ribs, and I think your friend clawed you as he phased." I admitted almost tearing up.

" Jake." She sighed sadly, Her blood pressure was rising.

" Hey, hey now. Easy." I whispered rubbing her head, watching her fall asleep again. I smiled sadly and laid next to her in her hospital bed. Staying there as long as I needed to. I realized that this moment had gotten me closer to beloved. But I still needed to tell her about this miscarriage. I need the right words to say