'Howling at the Moon'
Chapter 10.
'Missing you'
This world was calm compared to what she normally faced in the feudal era. There where no demons out to kill her, no complicated love triangles she had unwillingly started. She had friends, and family here, there was no need for her to prove herself in anyway.
She had contemplated this over and over in her mind. Day after day she had to keep reassuring herself that this was where she was meant to be. Kikyou could easily find the jewel shards, so there was no need for her there. Of course she felt guilty for being the one to shatter the jewel in the first place.
Each day it was the same routine. Get up, get dressed, eat. Go to school, come home. Eat, shower and sleep. She hadn't realized how boring her life was before the whole mess with the jewel started. To a human, boring was good right? Boring meant that she wouldn't be running for her life all the time. Demons wouldn't be lurking around each and every corner. She had never felt truly safe in the feudal era, what normal person would? Even if you had hansom strong men offering you their protection.
Yet, even after all this time she couldn't get him out of her mind. He was a constant pester, like a fly that would never leave you alone. Every time she'd close her eyes she would see his caring blue eyes and that cocky grin. It tore at her heart knowing he now hated her. The look he had given her was etched in her mind, his face held betrayal in the most extreme form. How close they had been was now dead and gone. She shuddered at that thought, a simple gesture of kindness she had shown one friend sparked bitter jealousy in another.
She often fantasized about what it would be like to just run back through the well and go head first into the wolf den. She'd picture him greeting her with a smile then embracing her so tenderly it would make even Sesshomarus heart thaw. That was just a fantasy and nothing more, it wouldn't become real and she doubted the wolves would let her close to the den anyway.
Since she had come through the well her mating mark had given her a dull achy sensation. She wasn't in agony in any way, it just hurt constantly and she could never get used to it. With each throb from the mating mark had made her heart clench and ache. Even though she felt nothing from him through the mark it seemed as though the blasted thing had a mind of it's own. Letting her know every hour of each passing day the wrong she had done.
" Hello? Earth to Kagome! Are you even listening to us?"
Kagome's head snapped up.
"Sorry, I guess I just got lost in though." Forcing a smile she slurped her soda avoiding eye contact with her curious group of friends
'liar...' She thought to herself.
Her friends would never believe that.
They'd been hounding her ever since she got back three months ago. Three long months, She sighed at the thought.
"Yea, right! You where day dreaming again weren't you?" Yuka scolded and shook her finger at Kagome.
"Is it about him?" Eri said in her normal soft tone.
"I told you guys I'm over him. It was three months ago anyway, it's... all in the past." She took another sip of her soda. For days her friends have been trying to cheer her up by dragging her all over Tokyo. She was grateful for their attempts but she really just preferred to be left alone.
Yuka scoffed and placed her hands on her hips. "Ya know, there's plenty of fish in the sea. Just find another guy. If he just gave up that easy than it wasn't meant to be ya know?"
Kagome was taken aback by her friends sudden outburst. Was it really that simple? Could she just find someone else?
A sudden pain in her neck told her other wise. She placed her hand over her mark and tried to sooth the dull ache. No, she couldn't be with anyone else, she knew that now. Kouga had slowly found a way into her heart. He had her tied around his clawed finger ever since he marked her.
She wondered if it was the mark that made her fall for him. Though, to her it did not matter. Love was love, and she was told by Hiroko that some she wolves suddenly became detached from their mates after being marked. She shuddered at the thought of being tied to someone you do not even have interest in.
Her fingers fiddled with the sesame seeds on her hamburger. She had to do something, anything to fix what she had broke. The pain of not being with Kouga was becoming all to much for her. Taking one last sip of her soda she stood up and said her goodbyes to her friends.
The three watched their friend retreat out of the restaurant and sighed. She was hopeless and they knew nothing that they'd say would make it any better.
)o(
Kouga hadn't been much better either. The empty void of his mark he laid on Kagome was all to much. He'd often blow off some steam by going out on a 'hunting trip' though Hiroko knew better. She knew he was off to check the well that Kagome went through three full moons ago.
It had been rough with her gone, the pack ran wild most of the time Kouga was gone. They even attacked a small group of humans out in the forest. That was something Kouga took very seriously, but with Kagome gone he was hardly around to do much about it. When he was he just sat in his room sulking.
It wasn't any better when his parents showed up, demanding to see the miko which had harmed their son. They threatened to take Kougas rank as alpha away for such a taboo bonding. Though Hiroko now knew why he'd done such a travesty. Other wolf packs had found out about Kouga's affection towards the girl. Some wanted her for their own for the sheer fact that Kouga was an alpha. Any high ranking wolf interested in such a 'weak' girl obviously has some sort of specialty. Those who didn't want her wanted her dead, and there where far more of those than the other.
Still she knew Kouga needed to make up for the wrong he had placed on Kagome.
Of course she was angry with the young miko, she ran away. Which is not the thing you want to do in a wolf den. Wolves never abandon their pack even if they are hated or under a lot of stress. It shows cowardliness and weakness, something a female alpha should never show. The beautiful she wolf slumped back against the old well. She to could not help but peer down the inky black well once in awhile. She loved Kagome like a sister and even though she had ran she would be by her side, like any dignified wolf should do.
Kouga was there as well but she paid no attention to the shell that was formerly known as Kouga. Not once had she seen him so broken.
"Like a dog awaiting its owners return." She spoke softly, her words carried to Kouga through the gentle summer breeze that blew by. She was not surprised when he did not reply with a snappy comeback, he just stared at the well not moving a muscle. Not one to dawdle on things for to long Hiroko stood and brushed her kimono off.
"I'm heading back to the den to check on your pack. Then I'm going to run into the human village to get some supplies ready for when Kagome comes back." Shaking her brown curls she started walking away, until she felt a small tug on her sleeve.
"Do you really think she'll return?"
His eyes never left the well and his words where filled with sadness. Never had he felt so helpless before, he had tried numerous times jumping in the well but to no avail. The blasted portal favored him naught, and he was doomed to suffer the agonizing wait. At one point he had almost ran to the dog for help but Shippo had advised against it. The young kit to had made a promise that she would return once she is ready.
Hiroko took Kougas hand in hers and patted it. She knew without a doubt that Kagome would return to them.
)o(
"One... two...three!" For the fifth time Kagome had tried jumping into the well but her nerves got the better of her. Again she grabbed the rim of the well with all her might and scurried back out. Nails digging into the old wood, she silently bowed her head allowing the tears to fall.
"I'm scared..." She murmured to herself.
She wasn't afraid of his anger or the pack. Okay maybe a little but the real reason why she was afraid was the thought of him rejecting her. That alone stopped Kagome from running back down the rabbit hole.
Images of him and the other pack mates that stood by her flashed before her eyes. With one final gulp she let herself fall, letting go of all the fear she had bottled up inside.
Authors note:
I know it's been awhile and I'm sorry for the short chapters. I really do feel bad for not updating I thought about this story almost everyday I swear it! Either way thank you everyone for all the support your reviews are really keeping me going!
OH! Also, I know this chapter is really really short but I'm trying new things and I really like writing shorter chapters I feel as though I put way more effort into them than my longer ones!
To EVERYBODY who has reviewed so far your support means the world to me! I hope that you'll continue to review and help me grow as a writer.
This story is FAR from over many new adventures lie ahead!