*Sam's pov*

I heard some rustling, and began to open my eyes. It was still dark outside and the window was open, but I saw (y/n)'s figure in the moonlight, she sat down in a chair on the other side of the room. She must have gone out and explored Sugar Town before we went to find her 'heart' piece. I slowly sat up and stretched, even though I was moving she hadn't seemed to notice me. I smiled; I wonder what she was thinking about because she was staring into space. Her breathing was even, like she was sleeping even though she didn't need to, and her eyes were open. Moving to the edge of the bed I looked her up and down, then realized something.

"(Y/n) what happened?" He had blood dripping down her pant legs and shoes. There was some splattered on her hair and arms as well, she must have gotten into a fight. She blinked and looked at me, I could see guilt in her eyes.

"I'm sorry Sam, I just…didn't want to get you two in danger." Her gaze was downcast, and I could tell she felt bad about whatever she had done. I had yelled, so Dean began to stir.

"What happened? Where did you go, why is there blood? Is it yours?" She stared at the floor still and we had woken Dean by now.

"What is everyone talking about, holy shit why is there blood on (y/n)?" He stood up and walked towards her. She scooted away from both of us, even though we could touch her. "Did you get in a fight with someone, I thought you couldn't touch people."

"I couldn't, but I can now because I got my 'heart' piece back." I saw her eyes beginning to tear up. She had gone out to fight all of the vampires without telling us, or getting us to help. I kneeled on the floor in front of her and put my hand on her knee.

"What happened, tell us more details. Did you get hurt?" Our eyes met and my heart melted. Her (e/c) eyes had tears threatening to spill, and I could see pain in them. Pain stored from thousands of years of death and loneliness.

"I flew to where the vampire den was and made a deal to get my 'heart' back. I promised to keep you away from the den and to protect the leader from any hunter." Dean threw his hands into the air and started pacing in front of the bed.

"Why would you make a deal, we could just go kill those bastards and get it back." Her head snapped up and glared at Dean.

"I am required by rule that the only way I can get back my 'heart' is by way of deal. That is the one rule I cannot change unless it is the last rule." Dean shut his mouth; I took hold of her chin and tilted her head down to me.

"(Y/n), next time take us with you, I wouldn't want you to get hurt." She smiled just a bit, but it faded away as Dean began to talk again.

"Sam, can you honestly care about her so much, we met her just a couple days ago." I stood up and looked Dean in the face.

"Because Cas said we could trust her, how can you not care about her, you have part of her 'heart' in you. She could rip your heart out and get it back, but she hasn't because she doesn't wan-" Dean cut me off and stepped closer.

"Or maybe she has some deal and she can't, have you every thought of that? She could be being nice just because someone gave her one of her stupid pieces back." (Y/n) stood up and stepped between us and pushed us apart. Dean glared at her, but I rested my hand on her shoulder.

"Both of you shouldn't fight about me, I was just trying to keep you out of trouble. All of the vampires are dead except the leader because none of us here can kill him without breaking my deal. I'm truly sorry you are angry with me, but I have no intention of hurting either of you." Dean didn't calm down, but he wasn't going to yell at her too much. I smiled and took my hand off of her shoulder; she turned to look at me and smiled back. (Y/n)'s smile brightened my day just a bit, I turned to Dean and he looked back at me.

"Well, everything here is done, let's head to Estacada, is that right?" (Y/n) smiled and nodded turning towards the door, at least she seemed to forget Dean's anger at her earlier.

*Your pov*

I hadn't forgotten, I went up to the roof and locked the door. Tears spilled from my eyes as I sat; does Dean really think I would betray them like that? I might, but I certainly wouldn't do it unless I went crazy. Tears continued to pool on the floor beside me as I thought about the last time I lost it.

I had been with Gabriel, he told me the rules and shattered my 'heart', telling me I couldn't love anyone or touch anyone. I ran to the gates of heaven where other angels stood waiting. I remember letting out a terrible scream before 'ripping' the angels in half and forcing the memories of all the loneliness in all of time. They screamed and cried for mercy and forgiveness, but there was no one to stop me. I remember clearly walking up to one man, tears streaked his gorgeous face and I couldn't remember his name. He reminded me of my Adam, my terrible, abandoning, lying, cheating, disappearing Adam. I reached into his chest and tore his heart out holding the dear organ in my hand I dropped it at his feet.

"Remember me," I called to all of the angels, closing them in small time prisons, they could move and talk, but they were stuck in one block of time. Like a glass box, they all silently cried as I spoke. "I will come back with all of my powers and destroy heaven until you feel the pain I have felt, being unloved and lonely for all of time. Stuck, by yourself until you go crazy, luckily I haven't gone crazy yet. It will happen though, and when it does, nothing will stand in my way, not even our father! I will be stronger than all of you combined, good luck 'brothers' and 'sisters'"

That is all I remember, but I know I fell after that because I was on Earth to run time and suffer for eternity. I would have done that in heaven as well, but there were more people who were willing to love on Earth, I just couldn't be one of them. Perhaps Sam or Dean would grow to love me, as family, someone who wasn't alone. They were both lonely at times, but they had each other and Cas, it couldn't be that bad. I felt every moment of loneliness that ever existed, and it could only get worse, maybe someone would save me as I fall into insanity. Some please catch me, because I'm already falling, and I'm beginning to lose the sight of light.