I AM USING A NAME FOR THE YONDAIME!
Yes, yes... I'm finally having difficulty avoiding the Yondaime's name... (I'm betting you ALL knew that this problem would arise at one time or another... XD)
If you have read my other fic, Live Memories, then you'll know that I use Kayaku for his name. I'll have you know that I had to add this in while I'm at page seven in works word, so his name doesn't arise for a LONG while in the chappie.
If you'd like an explanation why, then go to the first chapter of Live Memories and I put an explanation there. I'll try to use the name as little as possible... Well... happy reading... XD [This was written WAAAAY before Masashi revealed his actual name. Just FYI...lawlz
.:Chapter Ten:. (Aww... I'm in the double digits already?...)
I sighed long and hard, slowly reminiscing on today's happenings. I sunk my head lower into the water in the bathtub to where only my eyes and nose were above the surface of the bubbly liquid. I had a terrible headache. I don't know if I still had hangover or if it was just from stress, but I felt ready to pass out.
The steam was making my vision blurry and my mind hazy. I wasn't thinking straight. I felt like I was only half-alive.
Before I knew it, I heard a klang and realized I had let my body fall to the left, causing my head to collide with the heated edge of the bath tub.
"Nnn...!" I moaned and sat up straight in the water, rubbing my head where I had hit it. Damn... my entire body ached. I wished to die... if I couldn't be with Iruka-kun... if I couldn't even be in the same room as him...
I took a deep breath and dunked my head under the water, shutting my eyes tight. Maybe I could suffocate myself...
I let the air go and felt the bubbles slowly creep to the surface. I felt the pressure on my lungs after a couple of seconds, but told myself not to let myself have any source of oxygen. I put my hands on the sides of the tub under the water and held myself down there.
My vision was going... I thought maybe it was working... maybe I wouldn't have to carry on my pathetically worthless life any longer.
I knew it had neared two minutes now without any air and I knew my body couldn't handle it anymore.
I blinked. Was someone calling me?
I heard the muffled sound of my name. There was someone calling me from outside the bathroom door. I heard a click and a gasp and a couple of light footsteps run to the side of the tub. I braced myself firmly below the water as I felt a tug on my hair. It was two small hands that felt very familiar.
"Kakashi-kun!" I heard muffled. Uh oh... I was starting to pass out... dammit... I give up already!
I sprung to the surface and gasped for breath as smooth oxygen trickled down my throat. I felt a wave of relief go through my body.
"Kakashi-kun!" Iruka cried, literally sobbing and sniffing at me.
I coughed quite a few time and felt my body slowly returning to normal.
Have you ever held your breath under water for a really long time, then come up to feel light-headed and nearly numb?
Imagine that, only ten-folded.
"Kakashi? Kakashi! What's wrong!" Iruka cried, shaking me. I was panting hysterically and darkness was grasping the corners of my vision. I couldn't respond. I felt numb all over and I couldn't move. My body just completely collapsed.
I felt my bare skin hit the cool of the tub and my head clash with the warmth of Iruka's clothed chest. My vision was going... and it was going fast. My movement was already gone.
"Oh my God! Kakashi-kun!" Iruka shook me. "K-Kakashi... w-wake up...!" He whimpered. "Oh man... what do I do...? S-Sensei!" The boy was sobbing and I could feel his body shivering with utter terror for my well-being. "SENSEI! HELP!" Iruka shouted desperately, slowly lifting me from the tub and clothing my body.
"Iruka? What's wrong?" I heard sensei's voice coming up the stairs and flowing through the door to our current placement. The footsteps grew louder and I let my head fall to the left to see sensei round the corner to the bathroom and look in on us. His eyes snapped open when he saw me and rushed over to us. "What happened!-?"
"I-I dunno..." Iruka whimpered, holding me tight. "Kakashi-kun was under the water for a really long time and he wouldn't come up..."
Sensei stopped and blinked. I knew he was pondering this. He was probably gonna kill me for trying to commit suicide. Wait a minute...
Oh my... God... I just... tried to commit s-sui...cide...! Have I gone insane?...no... was I... destined to have the same fate as my father...?
"Here... let me take-"
"No!" Iruka wailed and hugged onto my limp body. I have NEVER seen Iruka talk back before... ever...
I knew sensei was stunned too, because his eyes were wide and he was staring at Iruka with his jaw partially open.
"Iruka-chan... please..." Sensei gently eased his arms underneath my body and pried Iruka from me. "I'm a jounin... let me handle this, okay? Kakashi-kun will be fine... just let me deal with him first..." I felt Iruka's grasp weaken as I felt my body fall into sensei's arms, resting my head in helplessly on his chest. I was awake... but I couldn't control my actions.
Five minutes later, I found myself laying back in a recliner, guiltily avoiding eye contact with sensei, who was lecturing me, and Iruka.
"Kakashi, are you even listening to me, dammit?" Sensei growled. "What in the name of kami-sama made you do that?"
"I don't knooow!" I wailed, crying into my cupped hands. I was scared of myself... and I didn't understand why.
Sensei sighed and paced up and down furiously. He was rubbing his temple, so I could tell he was more angry at me than he had been in a long time. I gulped. That wasn't good...
"S-Sensei... I'm sorry..." I whispered guiltily.
"Sorry? Sorry? Do you actually believe 'sorry' is going to cut it, Kakashi? You've got to be completely insane, dammit! Committing suicide... you can't even GET any LOWER than THAT! Next, you'll be on drugs, I just know it! For kami-sama's sake, PLEASE tell me what the hell is happening to you!" Sensei yelled, desperately trying to reach my mind. I gulped. Sensei was scary when he was angry...
I opened my jaw and tried to speak, but couldn't get the words out. I didn't even know what to say. What was wrong with me? Everything. My life sucked and that's all there was to it. Although... if I could just be with Iruka...
"I... don't... know..." I whispered slowly and sniffed.
"S-sensei... it... it wasn't Kakashi-kun's fault..." Iruka piped up. I looked up surprisedly. Sensei stopped and stared at Iruka, trying to comprehend.
"How so...?"
Iruka looked to the ground and sniffed out of mere shyness. He couldn't speak. Sensei sighed and growled something about incompetence under his breath.
"Look, you two. I know... being apart from each other like this... it must be hard..." He started. Hard? Is he serious? It was IMPOSSIBLE! "But, it's for the best-"
"FOR THE BEST!-?" Iruka and I yelled together. Sensei blinked. I knew he had expected me to revolt, but Iruka, too?
"How the hell is that supposed to be for the best, huh? If you loved someone as much as I love Iruka, you'd know how terribly impossible it really is to stay away from him! I can't take this! I swear to God, if you don't let me be with my Iruka-kun, then I really WILL commit suicide this time! You got that?-!-?" I panted. I just realized that I had gotten up from the recliner and my fists were balled with anger. I also had just realized that I had yelled at the one whom I respected most. It was sickening to think about. Was my questionable love driving me to the brink of insanity?
"Kakashi-kun..." Sensei whispered, stared down at me with an stunned and saddened expression.
"I... I'm with Kakashi-kun on this, sensei! I... I'm sorry..." Iruka whispered shyly and walked to my side, latching onto my arm and leaning onto my shoulder. His grip was tighter than normal. I could tell he was intimidated. Well, I can tell you that sensei was definitely dumbfounded. The blue eyes that gazed on us with normal happiness and strictness were out of focus and questioning everything about the situation. The three of us stood in silence for a moment.
"Kakashi-kun... Iruka-kun..." Sensei whispered slowly. "W-why...?... do you really love each other that much...?"
We both nodded firmly. I felt so entirely guilty for reprimanding sensei like this... but I knew that I had to get my point across. I couldn't just hide in his arms. I needed to let him know I was in love with Iruka and would do anything to be with him.
Konoha's Yellow Flash smiled sincerely at us, looking, for the first time, like he could break down and cry. I've never seen sensei cry before. Ever. In fact, I've never even seen a truly depressed look on his face before. I blinked. I could feel a sharp pain in my chest for being the cause of that newfound expression.
"Then I suppose I can't keep you two from each other..." He whispered. We barely heard him, his voice was so light. The blonde turned to where we couldn't see his expression and let his head drop slowly. "...I tried... I really tried to keep you from hurting each other... but I couldn't... I couldn't do anything..." He sniffed slightly and let out a shaky sigh. "I'm sorry, Kakashi-kun... I guess I can't protect you forever..." With that, he slowly trudged out of the room, leaving me and Iruka standing in silence.
I gulped, my throat dry, and tried to remind myself to breath. One sharp inhalation of oxygen gave me back my sense of reality as I tried to find the right words. Iruka got to them first, though.
"K-Kakashi-kun..." He whispered and hugged me tighter. "...I'm sorry..." I didn't know why he was saying sorry, but I knew it, for some reason, really made me feel better. I sniffed, turned, and draped my arms around his body, pulling him closer. He was warm. It felt good to have him back in my arms. His lips were begging for mine. I moved in, but stopped and slowly drew away.
"K-Kakashi-kun?" Iruka stuttered innocently, cocking his head.
"I can't, Iruka..." I whispered. "I... I just can't..." I didn't know why, but I couldn't do it. I just couldn't kiss the boy. Earlier, I had been sucking on his dick, but now I couldn't even kiss him! What was wrong with me?
"If you can't kiss me... then, can you sleep with me tonight...?" He leaned into me. My head was telling me to pull away, but my heart was telling me different.
I pulled him into me and the two of us fell to the ground, me on top of him. I let my full weight on him and buried my head in his shoulder.
"I'll do anything you want me to, Iru-kun..." I sniffed.
It was nearing midnight and I was lying completely awake in bed beside Iruka. He was fast asleep and had his arms wrapped tightly around my hips, snuggling his head into my belly.
Sighing in the darkness, I could hear my stomach growl. It figured. I hadn't eaten all day.
I glanced at Iruka and lightly pried his arms from my body. Whence his arms were back by his own sides, I lightly lifted his head and put a pillow in the place of my lower abdomen. I smiled at his peaceful complexion and rubbed the drool off my stomach with a giggle. I was happy he didn't wake up.
I tip-toed to the door and quietly opened it, closing it just as softly as I opened it.
'A light...?' I thought as I was compelled towards the kitchen. There was definitely a light on in the kitchen, so I approached with caution and a readied kunai. I hid myself on the wall and poked my head around the corner.
'Sensei...?' I put my kunai away and lowered my guard to a normal level, walking cautiously into the kitchen. Sensei was slumped over the 'bar' extension in the kitchen and had a bottle of some sort of alcohol in his right hand. There were several empty bottles beside him. He had his head buried gruffly into his folded left arm and seemed to be either sleeping or unconscious from drinking so much.
"S-sensei...?" I said aloud, hoping to get his attention. After getting no response, I walked over to him and nudged him, shaking his body with my hands. "Sensei?"
The blonde moaned depressedly and slightly tilted his head just enough to where he could see me. I could tell he was extremely drunk.
"Sensei... are you okay?" I asked in a small voice, looking sadly into his eyes.
"Ka...kashi...?" He hiccupped. I wondered if this was how I was when I was drunk. The blonde whimpered and buried his head in his arm again. I felt bad for him. I knew I was the cause of his drunkenness and it made me feel guilty beyond reasoning.
"Sensei..." I whispered sadly. "I... I'm sorry..."
Sensei sat up nearly straight, almost falling over in the process, and stared at me for a second.
"Fer wha?" He asked, his voice intensely slurred. I shifted uncomfortably and avoided eye contact.
"For everything. Especially for speaking out of term to you..." I replied in a whisper.
"Out 'a term?" He asked, eyeing me drunkenly. He started to take another sip of alcohol, but I stopped him by grabbing the bottle from his hand.
"Sensei, I don't think you should drink anymore..." I said slowly. It was awkward being the one to tell him that, but I knew it wasn't healthy to get as intoxicated as sensei was and I knew I needed to stop him now.
"Bu', Kakashee..." He whined, trying to swipe the bottle back from me. "Jus' lemme -hic- 'ave one mer sip..."
"Sensei! Stop! You can't... Do you even remember what you told me? Alcohol is bad for you!"
"Kakashi-kun? Sensei?" I turned around and saw a sleepy Iruka rubbing his eyes in the doorway of the kitchen.
"Iruka-kun..." I whispered. He came over and cuddled up to me.
"What's wrong with sensei, Kakashi?" He asked me, snuggling into my arm closer.
"He's drunk..." I said slowly. "He probably did it on purpose, I hate to admit..." I added, a sigh of sorrow mixed into my words. "Iruka-kun... go get Jiraiya-sama and hurry back..." I instructed, thinking of what'd be best for the blonde at the moment. Iruka hesitated, but complied.
Around seven minutes later, Jiraiya and Iruka entered the house. It was around three am and I could tell Jiraiya was still half-asleep. I turned at the sound of the white-haired man.
"Jiraiya-sama..." I said slowly, worry arising in my vocals. "Sensei got himself completely drunk... and.. I-I don't what to do..." I whispered. Jiraiya blinked.
"Eh? But... Kayaku never drinks..."
I looked guiltily to the floor and blushed. Iruka cocked his head at me questioningly. Luckily for me, Jiraiya-sama didn't notice. He was too worried about sensei..
"Kayaku?" Jiraiya asked concernedly, holding sensei in his arms. The blonde looked about ready to pass out. The sannin sighed. "Kakashi. Iruka. Would you two be okay alone here for a while...?" He whispered slowly. We gulped. Alone? Me ... and... Iruka? In one giant house...? ALONE!-? ...wow. That's convenient...!
I nodded slowly. Jiraiya nodded back and turned, adjusting sensei in his arms.
"..Jiraiya-sama...?"
He turned back slightly.
"...is sensei gonna be alright...?" I asked timidly. Jiraiya smiled.
"Don't worry. I'll take care of him. You two be sure not to get into any trouble being home alone now, okay?"
We nodded obediently as Jiraiya turned and took Kayaku out the door. I felt the cool breeze of night whisk my face as the door closed and shivered. It was true.
We were all alone.
Iruka latched onto my arm and looked pleadingly into my eyes. I knew what he wanted... and I knew what I wanted, too. But... it just didn't seem right after all that had happened in the past week.
I felt troubled. Misplaced, almost. As if I shouldn't be here. As if this wasn't my life. As if I were watching this all happen from a TV and have no control over it whatsoever.
I shook my head like a dog and swallowed hard.
"I... I'm gonna go take a bath..." I said slowly, thinking maybe I could wash the troubles away with the soothing heat of the steaming water.
Iruka watched me walk upstairs. After that, I didn't know where he went or whatever. But, it made me nervous almost.
It was almost like terrifying...! As if there was a ghost in the house that I couldn't escape from. But... it was also pleasuring because I didn't want to escape from him... It was quite confusing...
I closed the door to the bathroom and ran the water, turning the knob to the hottest it would go. As the tub filled up, I stripped down and shivered slightly from the AC.
I felt a tingle go up my spine as I slowly dipped my foot into the warmth of the water. My body relaxed as the liquid encased me with steam. Gawd... it felt so incredibly good at the moment. I slid down to where only my eyes were above the water and let some bubbles escape my lips. I thought about everything that had happened today. It made me feel guilty, so I dunked my head under and let the water fill my ears for a moment.
When you're under the water, it almost seems as if you've entered a different world. A world that helps you to concentrate on something other than what you don't want to think about. I loved that feeling. I've always wondered if that's why humans weren't made to be under the water. Because it's so relaxing and rejuvenating, that we should only be allowed to experience it for a certain amount of time. And if we use too much of it, it'll only bring a downfall to our perfect experience?
My head shallowed above the water. I could feel my hair soaking onto my back and my neck. My bangs coated the top of my head like frosting. I shimmied the crystal water droplets from my sparkling silver locks and took a deep breath of oxygen, feeling it trickle down my throat, soothing me with coolness.
I looked over to the side to see a figure standing in the steam. My eyes widened and I went low into the tub, making the water splash out of place slightly.
"Kakashi-kun?"
Iruka! Ha... I got scared for nothing...
"Iruka-kun?"
The figure stepped forward and Iruka's body came into view clearly now as the steam parted ever so slightly. He had a loose bathrobe on and he was blushing ever so slightly. I cocked my head at him.
"Kakashi-kun..." He whispered, then let the bathrobe slip off his slender frame. I blinked as he slyly slid himself into the tub with me. I gulped, blushing also now.
"I-Iru...ka..."
"I'm gonna make sure you won't try anything drastic, okay?" He said determinedly. I suddenly realized that the last time I had taken a bath, I sort of tried to commit suicide. I smiled at him and felt a tingle of longing pass me through. I couldn't hold it back any longer...
"Kakashi!-?"
I pounced on him, making the scorching water seep over the sides, and engulfed us both underneath the surface. We were in the 'other world' now. The world where everything was perfect and nothing bothersome could trouble you.
I let bubbles escape my mouth as I kissed him passionately. My tongue explored his mouth as I felt his tongue wrap around mine. I held ourselves there for another moment, then brought us both up for air. I gasped as oxygen quickly spiked my throat, then dove under again, Iruka underneath me once more.
This time, I wasn't just going to play with him. I was going to help him forget his worries. I smoothly rubbed my hands on his softened chest. It felt so different under the water. It felt almost better...
I pushed myself down in the water to his legs and sucked lightly on his penis, swirling my tongue around it, exploring everything I could.
Iruka stuck his head out of the water for air and panted lightly as he could watch my blurred figure beneath the clarity of the distorted liquid.
I noticed him wince slightly when I bit down lightly on it. I smiled and knew I had to come up for air. I pushed off from the bottom and let my body come above the water, panting from lack of air.
I smiled at him and he smiled back. I knew he was giving me the go-ahead for the next level. A level we had not explored yet.
Sex.
I was still a virgin, so I knew I was no expert, but I knew from the look on Iruka's face that he'd never done it with anyone either. Well... as I always say...
There's a first time for everything.
I dove under the water and latched my arms around waist. I opened my eyes under the water and blurrily could see everything. I relaxed for a moment, then started doing what I had never done before.
I stuck my dick where I knew was right and pushed. Iruka moaned in pain as he felt my extension reaching where it shouldn't. It hurt, yes. But it was a good pain. I could tell he wanted more.
I was running out of air fast. I came up to the surface, gasping for air. After panting for a second, I opened one eye to look at Iruka, who was dripping with water and panting as well.
I smirked, licked my lips free of liquid, and dove under once more after taking another deep gulp of air.
I pushed my penis in even harder and Iruka yelped with surprised. I suppressed giggles under the water at his low level of maturity and decided to teach him the "ropes". My arms grabbed his wrists and pulled him under the water with me. I noticed he just barely took a breath before going under.
I smiled at him under the water and made hand motions signaling to try what I had just done. Iruka knew what I meant, but shook his head, blushing furiously. (That was the first time I had seen anyone blush under the water) I smiled, remembering he wasn't as 'outgoing' as I was, and decided to coax him into it. I pushed a little more and Iruka wriggled with mix of pleasure and pain.
I slowly withdrew my ass and let Iruka swim to the top. (Yes, it was a VERY big tub... well, we were sort of really little, too...) He gasped for air and panted hysterically, taking huge gulps of oxygen. I slowly came to the surface and took in little sips of the steamy air around us.
"K-Kakashi-kun..." He breathed between profuse pants.
"What...?"
"I c-can't... I... don't know... how..." Iruka gasped. I smiled.
"I didn't know how either, you know... You just sort of figure it out as you go along... You want me to help you...?"
"...Kakashi-kun... give me another... example..." He whispered. I smirked. Perfect.
"Alright, Iruka-kun... Watch closely, okay?" I winked and dove under the water. Getting a feel of his ass before doing anything else, I took a light tug on it as the genin yelped with more surprise.
I let go and got into the correct positioning, trying to relax us both. I took my ass and shoved it up as far as I could, making Iruka gasp in pleasure. I tried to hold the air in my mouth, but it was hard to do while in our current 'situation'.
After a couple minutes of being under the water and 'exploring' every new subject I could, I came to the surface, gasping for oxygen. I felt light-headed for being under for so long. My teenage lungs couldn't handle it. I slumped over into Iruka's chest and panted lightly, my face bright red from awkwardness, the heat, and the new fever I had, apparently, just gotten.
"Kakashi-kun...?" Iruka wrapped his arms around me and hugged me closer to his chest. I felt the warm water slosh around us. I panted, my heated breath lightly beating the genins' chest. He looked sadly down at me and buried his face in my hair. "You okay?"
I smiled weakly to myself and closed my eyes, leaning into his hug.
"...as long as you're with me, I'll always be fine..." I whispered and tilted my head backwards as Iruka lifted his face. His bottom lip quivered slightly and I immediately took advantage of the situation. I brought myself up and kissed him, the two of us exploring each others' mouths, saliva seeping through our connected lips. My tongue wrapped around his and played with it for a moment. I twitched surprisedly at the feel of Iruka copying what I had taught him. I felt something warm enter my body and I let our kiss drop, panting once again.
The two of us stayed like that for a moment, leaning into each other's love. It felt so good. I didn't want it to stop. I wish I could have stayed like this forever. It was almost like being in the 'water world'.
Everything was perfect.
A/N: NYAO!!!! Reviews and flames are accepted. xD