Chapter 9
Several weeks went by. I haven't spoke to Erica or Emily. I was doing as much activities as i could. I even went golfing with a couple of Tom's friends kids. It was boring. But i went to keep my mind off of Emily. Then, one night i was laying in bed. I had just received a video message. It wasn't what I thought it would be. It was of Emily. Dancing, drunkenly on some guy. She kissed him and grinded on him. I shut my phone off. I couldn't take anymore. My heart was filled with hatred. It was filled with hurt. I was super pissed. I looked at my phone later to see who sent it to me. It was a girl names Diana. I didn't know who she was. I talked to her for a minute. I was so mad that that was sent to me. I left. I snuck out and walked to the beach. I was watching the waves. I just sat there. I texted Emily and told her that I didn't want us to be together anymore and not to call or text me. Then, my phone rang. I answered it. It was my PO. She told me that my grandma had a heart attack. That didn't make me feel any better. There was two things I wanted to do. One was find that guy on the phone, and GET HIGH or DRUNK.
I woke up the next morning came downstairs and my PO was there. I sat down. "You didn't tell your family?" Missy, my PO asked. "I came home and they were sleep." I told her looking at Julie, whose been crying. "Why'd you come?" I asked. "I talked to your family. They said if you wanted to, you could go to Minnesota and see your grandma." I heard them words and I could pack by 2. I got extremely excited. "Yeah. I would love to go see her." I said, with joy in my voice. I haven't seen her since I was 14. So it was settled. We were on the next plane to Minnesota. I was sitting next to Julie. As soon as we arrived I over looked at my hometown. I got butterfly's in my stomach when I had seen Darrell there. I was extremely happy to see him. Haven't seen him since I got caught. We went to 'The Joint'. They had the best steak ever. I loved going there and eating. I miss it actually. We ate, talked about everything. Julie actually enjoyed sitting there listening to us. I kinda avoided the subject about my mom. Darrell would bring her up and I would shut him down. "Aye, I heard from a friend who told a friend that knew you were coming to town and that Freaky Becky is looking for you." He said with a smile then a straight face toward Julie. I just laughed. "I bet she is. She didn't talk to me for like ever until her dude dumped her ass and now she wants to come around. Fuck that. What happened to her fiance?" I said kinda upset. He just shrugged taking a sip of his drink.
We went to see my grandma the next day. No one spoke a word to me. Not even my grandpa. He just looked at me with this, "I can't believe you did this" look. He always gave me that look I never knew why he hated me so much. Ever since I got caught smoking a cigarette at age 7. I seen my grandma. She hugged me for a long time, then kissed my cheeks, and continued to hug me. I miss seeing my family even though 99% of 'em hated me. My grandma never hated me. She actually stood up for me. She never blamed me for what my father done to me, even though that was her son. We stayed for an hour. Then it was time to go. Me and Julie went to get something to eat, but it was silent. Once we got rested, ate we got back on the plane by 9a.m. Which we were back by 10 the next night. Before I went to my room she wanted to talk to me. "Dejuan, I'm sorry the way everybody acted at the hospital." I shrugged it off. "It doesn't matter, Julie. I've been putting up with that since I was 7 and they found out what my dad done to me." I said opening up to her. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. "D, everything is fine." she said, hugging him. "Nothings, fine. I hated being there. No one likes me there. My grandma is the only person that really cares about me." I said crying in her arms. "I care about you, sweetie." We sat there all night, with me crying into her arms.
The next couple of days I stayed in my room, only came out when Liz came over. I was happy to see her. I gave her a big hug and we took a walk. She told me that her boyfriend broke up with her. She never said why. But I assured her that I was going to be there for her no matter what happens. We sat in her SUV as it started to pour down rain. I gave her this look saying that I wanted her, and she knew I did. She gave me this passionate kiss. I slipped my tongue into her mouth. We fought back and forth. I knew it drove her crazy when I squeezed her inner thigh and that's what I did. She moaned while I kissed her. She led me in the her apartment on her couch. She was on top. I let her lead. First came her shirt. I rubbed her breast which made her moan. When she took off her shirt she was wearing this bright red bra that said "bite me". So I did, she giggled. Then, she kissed me from my neck to my stomach. She loved it. I also did. She unbuckled my belt, which didn't help 'cause my pants still sagged. I nodded as she continued to pull down my pants. I felt her mouth on my dick. I moaned. That was the first time in a long time a girl made me moan. I loved it, and loved what was happening right now. When she finished, she let me take her for a round. I wanted to make sure she remembered this for the rest of her life. So I sucked on her breast and took my good old time doin' it too. After that, I kissed her all the way down to her belly ring. She enjoyed it. After I put a rubber on, I put it in her. She moaned again. She wanted on top. So I let her, as she bounced on me I squeezed her thighs making her moan, causing me to get bigger. We both enjoyed the hell out of this. Good think it was dark and the only thing that lite the room was the small lamp. She started dirty talking to me. I never knew she dirty talked. I liked it. She told me how she wanted to get me in the hot, wet shower. And that I got a big bus that fit right. I've never seen this side of her. It was super sexy. I dirty talked her back. Once things started to heat up, the only think I could utter was "You're so damn gorgeous." She and I cummed together. We got dressed after we layed there, holding each other. It wasn't so awkward like it was with Emily. We actually layed in my bed under my covers talking. She brought out the sensitive side in me. I would smile at her, she would blush. "I love cuddling up to you." she told me. "I love to cuddle with you also. Today was great." She looked up at me, blushed and nodded. I kissed her cheek. "I love saying things that make you blush." she looked up at me with these eyes. She wanted me to continue. I could see it. I gave her a tender kiss and continued. "I want to be there to hold your hand and to protect you from anything that would harm you. I'm not saying this because of the beautiful activity we did today. I'm saying this as a friend or anything you want me to be." As I said that, she sat up. I could tell that it wasn't what she wanted to hear. Her eyes turned into something totally different. "D, I like you and all, but we could never work out." I nodded, knowing that. "I know. I shouldn't have said that." Liz looked at me and brushed her hair out of her face, "Good. I didn't know you would say that. If I did, I wouldn't have let the go this far." I sighed. I shouldn't have said anything. "No. It's my fault."
The next morning, Tom and Julie was at work. Erica took Keith to baseball practice. I wish I would have never opened the door. It was Emily. "Erica isn't here." I told her and shut the door in her face. "Wait, Dejuan. I want to talk to you." She yelled through the door. I sighed and opened the door. "Why?" I asked. She just stared at me for a second. "We're on some bad terms." she mumbled, knowing what she did. "Bad terms? Ha you cheated on me, I broke up with you and we're on bad terms. No we're on worse terms." I said insulting her. I was pretty heated the way she was acting like it was okay for her to treat me the way she did. "I'm sorry. I didn't..." I had to stop her right there. I knew exactly what she was gonna say. It was just a lot more lies. "Your such a damn liar. 'I didn't know what I was doing'. You knew you did wrong the next morning. I told you I would never cheat on you. EVER. And what do you do? Go and cheat on ME. I'm hurt. I don't want to talk to you." I said shutting the door and walking away. She follows me. I didn't know she would walk in the house. But she did. "You did fuck Liz." she blurted, I stopped and turned around. "Point." I looked at her. She must have knew all along. "So you sleep with her, 'cause she knows your past." That ticked me off. I slammed her against the wall. I got into her face and yelled. "Don't ever say that again. The past is My Past. Nothing about who knows it or not. I don't care if she knows it or not. You know nothing." I stared at her in anger. I hated the fact that I had to yell at her. I didn't want to. But I did. The one thing that scares me, when I shoved her to the wall. She didn't budge. She sat in calmness. She watched me yell at her. Any other person would have flinched. But not Emily. Now I gotta figure out, if Tommy had hit her before.