Hey guys, is a really short one. It is important, though, so please don't disregard it. Ta!
Sorry about the lack of update yesterday, by the way. I was cliff climbing, and oo exhausted to log in when I got back. Ah well... Enjoy!
From: EdwardMasen
To: CarlisleCullen; EsmeCullen; AliceBrandon; JasperWhitlock; RoseHale; Gizzabearhug
Subject: Letter #8
Forks General Hospital
Forks,
Washington State,
13th September 2009
Hello, Edward
Wow. 19.
I can't believe a year went by so fast. How time flies.
A year without you. Though this year has been incredibly quick, in some ways, it's also been painfully slow. I've had to grow up so much in the last year without you. I've had to deal with so much pain, and so much suffering. I've had to come to terms with things that no-one my age should have to come to terms with. I hate you for not being here, Edward. Sometimes, I wake up in the morning and I think it might all be a dream. Sometimes I wonder if you ever even existed. Sometimes I wonder if this cancer thing is real, or not... and then I see my reflection, with my ugly cropped hair and thin face, and I remember.
You should have been here for me. I can't help but blame you. This wasn't Jasper's fault, it never was. It was always yours. It's your fault now that I have no-one, now. Because when you left, it wasn't just you – though that would have been enough. It was a whole future that I'd imagined. It was parents, in Esme and Carlisle. It was brothers in Emmett and Jasper. It was a sister in Rosalie. It was a very best friend and sister in Alice. You took that from me. I don't know if I can ever forgive you for that.
My only chance of survival now is you. My hope is in you. A part of me still hopes that you'll come back, and you'll save me. But you don't want me. I don't know if you ever did.
And yet, I should still tell you... I love you. Always.
I'll write soon.
Love always,
Bella