IM GOING TO START REWRITING THIS STORY IM NOT HAPPY WITH THE WAY ITS TURNING OUT THINGS ARE HAPPENING WAY TO FAST FOR MY LIKING…I COULD REALLY USE A BETA MY GRAMMAR AND PUNCUATION SUCKS ….SO IF ANY ONE IS A WILLING BETA I COULD USE THE HELP THANKS!!!!!!

My head felt like it was about to explode, my stomach was turning in ways a vampires shouldn't I was dizzy and my back hurt. Nobody had stopped to explain that even though I was a vampire I would still have to go through all the torturous symptoms that came along with being pregnant. I sat in my room for hours trying to figure out what pain would come next, being immortal you get use to not feeling sick so when you become neasous, for lack of a better term, it sucks. This was the exact thing going through my head when Emmitt walked into the room whistling the James Bond theme song, I swear that man thinks his shit doesn't stink. Sometimes it works my nerves the point were a rational thought process is impossible, he makes me want to scream and hit things and kiss him and love him all at the same time. Its so confusing and crazy and here we go once again im sobbing, doing everything in my power to keep quite, I felt a wave of calm suddenly crash into me sending Jasper a whispered thank you I finally turn around to face Emmitt who is still standing at the door to our room mouth still shaped like he's whistling but no noise is escaping his lips, eyes wide cheeks hollowed. He looks like a fish and of course that thought sends me flying into a laughing fit so bad it reminded me of the first time I smoked weed when I was human, Nobody really knows that and im planning on keeping it to my self.

"Bella im trying really heard to understand but all these crazy emotions are really starting to confuse me one minute you're sobbing then you're laughing I don't know how to handle it. I don't know what you want me to do or say I don't know how to deal with this ." Everything about his appearance screamed scared and I wanted so bad to comfort him but how do you comfort someone when you cant even comfort yourself?

"Im scared too papa bear its ok we will get through this, in a couple months when the babies get here everything will get better. Im sorry things are so crazy im sorry im so crazy. I wish I could just act normal and you didn't have to go through this. Im so sorry im putting you through this you should just go and find someone who is better for you I know im not good enough and you're probably so sick of me you don't have to go through this I'll just pack my stuff and leave I doubt the Cullens want me here anyways im probably just a huge pain in the ass to you guys anyways." Emmitt didn't say anything back he just sat there still at the door staring at me. I know im not good enough for them so this was the response I expected. Slowly but surely I got up off the bed pulled my suitcase set out from the closet and started packing my clothes. I guess that got all of their attention because by the time I pulled out and started folding my second piece of clothing I had five very angry vampires staring at me with murderous expressions plastered on their faces.

"God Dammit Isabella Cullen how many times do we have to explain before you get it through your thick skull WE. LOVE. YOU. AND. YOU. WILL. ALWAYS. BE. APART. OF. THIS. FAMILY.

Do you understand me. you are just as much my daughter as Alice is and that will not change I will not allow you to up and tear this family apart anymore then it already has been. You are a Cullen you have been since the day you walked through that front door all those years ago don't forget it and don't make me repeat myself do you understand." for all things that are holy I just got yelled at by Esme that's a first.

"YES MA'AM." was the only response I could form.

"Bella when are you gonna learn that this is your family we don't give up on family I understand that your still trying to come to terms with what they did to you but like ive said time and again its not your fault you didn't do anything wrong you are a great person and im tired of walking around feeling all this self doubt you need to knock it off." Jasper always the voice of reason that one is. My back was against the wall I felt trapped like I couldn't breath everything was in slow motion I could feel myself sliding down the wall before everything went black.

Emmitts Pov

I just sat there will Esme and Jasper said their piece I couldn't move still stuck in my shocked stuper. I watch her take everything they said in at first I thought she was just gonna ball up against the wall and cry untill her eyes rolled into the back of her head and my world stopped.