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Song: "I Remember", Keyshia Cole
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Ooh, yeah, ooh, remember, ooh, I remember
and I wanna know where were you when I said I loved you?
And where were you when I cried at night?
Waitin' up, couldn't sleep without you
Thinkin' of all the times we shared
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Face flushed, bangs stuck to her forehead, Kagome finished her morning exercises. From her very first day of training Sango ordered her to begin and end each day by completing a series of stretches and push-ups. At first she could only manage a few push-ups at a time, but over the weeks she has learned to use her miko energy to increase her strength and endurance. She also found tons of new ways to use her ki; her daily meditation sessions also helping her harness her power.
Kagome had become a hard core warrior since she began training with Sango six weeks ago, her miko ki aiding her in her training. Due to the vast scrolls on mikos in the slayer's library, Kagome now knew how use her powers to create and barriers, illusions, cast spells, and she found that her powers helped her see into the minds of others.
She found that she was skilled in many weapons other than her bow and arrow. She mastered a wide range of weapons, including Hiraikotsu, but found that she preferred fighting with a naginata.
After her training she planned to visit Totosai, and have him forge a naginata for her. But unlike the Naginata of Ken-Kon, her sword would feed off of her spiritual energy. She also planned to ask for new armor and her own personal bow with indestructible arrows (if such a thing were possible in this era).
Honestly, Kagome was anxious to go off on her own journey, despite the loneliness she may feel at times. But she felt it was time to put herself first, just this once.
I remember when my heart broke
I remember when I gave up lovin' you
My heart couldn't take no more of you
I was sad and lonely
I remember when I walked out
I remember when I screamed I hated you
But somehow deep inside still lovin' you
Sad and lonely
As each day went by Kagome grew stronger, both physically and spiritually. Whenever she thought of Inuyasha or how he had betrayed her, she erased those thoughts from her mind immediately and focused on her now uncertain future.
She would sometimes force herself to do tedious tasks to keep her mind off of less pleasant memories. Sango watched her friend struggle with her emotions, but did not interfere. She thought that eventually her friend would confide in her as she usually did. But what she did not notice what Kagome was actually trying to do...
No one knew all the pain I went through
All the love I saved deep in my heart for you
Didn't know, where I would go, where I would be
But you made me leave
And plus my heart it just, it just kept tellin' me so, oh
Determined to heal the wounds dealt to it so fiercely by the one she once loved, a block of the coldest ice began to form around what used to be Kagome's warm and loving heart. Fear settled into the once brave-hearted girl's mind, which was vulnerable and now wishing to protect its self from further fatal wounds.
The once care-free, easy-going Kagome was slipping into oblivion, as a fierce; less quick to forgive Kagome took her place.
She took all the love, anger, mistrust, and adoration she felt for Inuyasha and locked it up in a box in the recesses of her soul.
Whenever she felt the hold on her emotions begin to weaken, she would tell herself,
"Loving Inuyasha brought nothing but pain and agony to your soul Kagome. Forget about him! You have family and friends to fight for!"
I remember when my heart broke
I remember when I gave up lovin' you
my heart couldn't take no more of you
I was sad and lonely
I remember when I walked out
I remember when I said I hated you
But somehow deep inside still lovin' you
So sad and lonely
Saying this to herself repeatedly would usually get her emotions back under control, but sometimes it took hours of crying and (violent) screaming for her to fully relieve herself.
But her training was almost over, and she could feel herself becoming more powerful with each day that passed.
The kami waited impatiently, their gaze focusing mainly on that of the most precious creation.
"She is progressing more quickly that I expected." said Amaterasu-sama.
"I believe that Hachiman's influence had something to do with that," replied Omoikane-sama.
"Amatsu-Mikaboshi's plan will not succeed. Kagome will save Nippon."
"It's time for the one called Naraku to be brought back to life."
"Which also means it's time to shatter Midoriko's jewel."
Banryu's blade sliced through the oni like a hot knife slicing through butter. The owner of the blade grinned with satisfaction as the oni fell and the scent of blood filled the air.
Covered in the remains of his now dead opponent, Bankotsu took a deep breath. Even the thrill of battle was not enough to completely rid him of the emptiness he felt inside.
Most wouldn't notice the way his once fiery-red aura now dimmed to a pale, almost pellucid color, nor the slight slouch of his shoulder when he walked. One would have to be very lucky to get the chance to see the anguish in his sapphire eyes before being decapitated by his mighty blade (though if stricken with fear one might mistake anguish for blood-thirst).
But those of us who are lucky enough to know Bankotsu as well we do, would know that he was suffering. The pain of a sudden connection (what type of connection he did not know) that was lost almost as quickly as it was found was tearing him apart.
The only thing keeping him physically bound to this earth was a vow, a vow to avenge his brethren before embracing death to decipher his connection to the mysterious miko, Kagome.
"Kagome."
There was nowhere else to go, oh
nobody else to turn to, no
for the rest of my life, I promise myself
I will love me first, then you and me
Never before had he met a woman that could ignite such passion within him with one simple kiss. One kiss was all it took for him to become entangled in the web known as Kagome.
Emotions were the downfall of some of the most powerful warriors in Nippon, and Bankotsu swore to never get attached to a woman, or anyone for that matter.
But his resolve was broken with just one… simple… kiss.
(SANGO'S POV)
I was starting to feel worried. Kagome has been very distant lately, and although I am extremely proud of her progress, I can't help but fear the worst.
I feel as if she's hiding something from me, something that could possible affect our group tremendously.
I knew it had to do with the fact that she showed up with her clothes in tatters, and scrapes and bruises all over her body. When I asked her about it she avoided eye contact and told me she went on a walk this morning and tripped over branch.
I could tell immediately that she was lying. But I let her be, figuring that she would confide in me later on. Oddly enough, it has been six weeks since we left everyone back in Edo, and she hasn't even breathed a word to me about what happened.
I can see the pain she goes through every time she thinks of Inuyasha.
But yet she grows stronger every day, and I believe that after her metamorphosis, the world (more importantly Inuyasha) will hold witness to a new, stronger Kagome Higurashi.
And I can't wait to meet her.
I remember when my heart broke
I remember when I gave up lovin' you
My heart couldn't take no more of you
I was sad and lonely
I remember when I walked out
I remember when I said I hated you
But somehow deep inside still lovin' you
Sad and lonely
I remember when I walked out
I remember when I gave up lovin' you
My heart couldn't take no more of you
So sad and lonely, hey
I remember when I stormed out
I remember when I gave up lovin' you
I was sad and lonely