Okay I know where I want this story to go pretty much. And after this chapter I will finally add gallows, Clive and Virginia back in. I just had to get some things out of the way before hand. So no worries! But the question is who would Virginia be better with? Janus or Ian?

Chapter 9: Scars

"What I mean is…my real name isn't Jet enduro…"

When I heard him say that, didn't want to believe him. But…I knew he wasn't lying.

"My real name is Adam Kadmon."

I felt shock quickly take me over when he told me that. The person I had been looking for was…him?

Meaning…I left him just to find him again.

Wait…

Could…could this have been…what he found out…when he returned after the demon pillar two years ago?

I felt angry, so angry…

I quickly turned away from him. "Sara?" He asked sounding confused. "The others knew didn't they?" I quickly asked.

"I…" Jet sighed.

I knew what he would his answer would be, even before he answered me.

"…Yes, they knew."

"…But, you wouldn't tell me? How am I…different?!" I yelled out. "…that's…" He quickly cut himself off.

"I thought you said I'm your best friend as well; you sure aren't acting like it! You can't even tell me the truth! You're unfair!" I yelled. "I know…I am…" He sighed. "You get to know everything about me but not the other way around? You're a jerk!" I yelled standing in front of the window staring out into the starlight sky.

"I know I was selfish Sara…" he started saying. "But…I-I feared what you would think of me." He told me. "What I would think of you?! You think I would act different because you aren't human?! Then you really are a idiot!" I yelled.

"…!"

"You're-You're so stupid!! You are just jet! And you will always be!" I told him. "…You still call me jet…knowing I'm really…?" He started to ask. "You will always be jet. Do you understand, now?" I asked him.

He didn't answer.

"After all…I'm not truly human as well…" I whispered quietly.

Soon I felt his arms quickly circle around me. "…your right…I am a idiot." His voice told me.

How come…he only agrees with me lately?

"You're not going to…disagree?" I asked him. "No, because your right." He told me. "I…I have been a stubborn idiot for a long time now. And I guess it shows…I-I'm just a stupid android…" he told me holding me a bit tighter.

Android…? Is that what he truly…is?

"But…" I could feel him resting his head on my shoulder. I felt him shaking; was-was he crying?

"Jet…?" I asked.

"…I'm a huge idiot." He quickly said. "Why do you say that?" I asked. "Because…look at me! A stupid Android like me keep trying to hold onto hope. The hope…that I will not be turned away, by the person I care for! That's why I'm idiot! To wish for you to love me as much as I love you…is truly foolish…" jet quickly let go of me.

It isn't foolish at all…every person wishes to be loved by another.

Hope…it's the only thing that keeps people going; that have lost so much…

"It's not foolish jet." I told him as I slowly turned toward him. "…yes, it is! Come on just, go ahead and tell me what idiot I really am!" Jet yelled.

"No, you're not! It's only human to wish to be loved by another! To want to care for that person! And to be with him for as long as you live!" I yelled.

"What?" He asked. I could only give him a confuse look. "…we're talking about me right? So…why did you say him?" Jet asked.

"…!!"

How could I let that come out?!

"I-I meant her! I-I just said the wrong word!!" I quickly lied. "…no. you're lying now. Who was this him…you were speaking of?" Jet asked. "…y-you're over thinking this far too much!" I yelled turning away from him.

Soon it was silent…

Jet grinned to himself.

He wanted to push her…just a little more.

"…Oh? Really…then you wouldn't mind me asking one more question, right?" He asked. I felt a bit worried hearing him ask that. "I know I kinda asked you this before but…maybe you have answer now…" Jet whispered resting his head on my shoulder again.

Answer to what?

"Do you? Do you love me?"

I felt all my sense turn off then; well not counting the deep blush that took over my face.

"I…" I quickly cut myself off. I couldn't get anymore words out of my mouth.

He could tell; she was blushing heavy.

"Well I guess I have my answer." Jet quickly said heading toward the bathroom. "…b-but! I didn't answer you!" I yelled quickly turning toward the silver hair boy. "You don't need too. Your blushing heavy aren't you?" He asked keeping his back at me.

"W-What?! H-how can you tell?!"

"Because I know you… Pretty well…"

"…then you know how I feel toward you?"

He slowly nodded as he opened the bathroom door; "I'm going to shower. I haven't done so for a long time now. Plus…I'm sure you would like me more if I messed clean." Jet smirked.

"You jerk! Don't think so big of yourself!" I yelled throwing a pillow at him as he closed the door. I could hear laughing within the bathroom.

I hate him acting like this! I hate it! WH-What a jerk he is!!

Slowly I turned toward the window.

He knew. Along he knew I felt the same toward him…

Was I being unfair all this time? I can't even return those words he told me.

But…after everything that happened…

I…

I couldn't forget him.

But why?

I wondered as I felt tears roll down my cheeks.

"Are you crying?" I heard jet's voice quickly ask. I didn't answer him. I could hear his footsteps right behind me. How did he get that close without me knowing it?!

"Sara you're crying aren't you?" He asked again.

He knew I was…I didn't need to answer him.

"I guess…I am…" I said rubbing my cheeks.

Scars…

Everyone has scars; even if they can't be seen outside these scars maybe inside.

I have those scars inside and I know for a fact…they will never heal. These are scars that cannot be healed by anything or anyone.

Because…these scars are so painful; and hurt too much.

"Why are you crying?" Jet asked as his arms snaked around me. "Because I don't understand you." I quickly told him. "Nothing new about that." He grinned.

"I'm serious, jet!" I cried hearing him sigh, "Fine, what don't you understand then?" he asked. "…why? Why do you love me?" I asked.

"Hmm…that is a good question."

"I'm serious!"

"So am I…really I don't know." He plainly told me. "You don't know why? Then how can you even be sure?" I asked trying to pull free from him.

"Because…whatever I am with you my heart beats faster. Your does the same right?" Jet asked. "I…" I sighed.

Because I knew he was right and truth be told…I had no idea why I cared for him as well.

"But…do I smell nice and clean?" Jet asked rubbing his head against my shoulder. "J-Jet! Stop that!" I quickly yelled as a heavy blush covered my face again. "I will…if you answer the question." He plainly told me.

"Y-Yes…you do…" I whispered to him. I could hear him laughing quietly. "See…? Was that so hard?" He asked.

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Scars…

I have so many of them but so does she.

These are the kind of scars that cannot be healed; not even with time.

And these scars can be the most painful of all…

Because these scars…haunt you forever…

"You should lie down and rest…" I told her as I slowly let go of her. She slowly nodded as she headed past me without saying a word. I slowly turned around to watch her. "Jet…where are the others?" She asked. I knew she would ask that question sooner or latterly. "I don't know." I told her the truth.

I left them behind two years ago when I…when after her; for all I knew they could be dead. Well then again most likely…Clive's life. But…I hope the other two aren't.

Oh god…I hope gallows isn't alive…

That stupid bastard…

"What do you mean…you don't know?" She yelled. "I mean what I said. I haven't seen them in two years…Sara. I left them behind to find you." I told her. "…but…what if they are!" She cried. "Claim down…if you work yourself up…" I started to say as I heard coughing from her.

I sighed.

She really worries me…sometimes.

"You're over reacting…Clive is with them. So…they will be fine." I told her.

Okay maybe just maybe…I was kinda lying.

But just a little bit…

"Yes I know…you're right but…" She said as she sat down on the bed.

I knew now…where this was leading and I didn't like it. I sighed I would kick myself for asking this but I had too.

"You want to go find them…don't you?" I asked her. "Yes…" She quickly told me. "You know that maybe hard…they are on the run as well." She nodded to me.

Her mind was made up wasn't it?

"But…we could go to Humphrey's peak! I' sure Catherine has heard something out of Clive!" She cried.

I just couldn't win this.

"Fine…we will start toward there tomorrow morning but for now…get some rest, alright?" I said with a sigh. She nodded to me.

"Alright, goodnight jet."

"Yeah…goodnight Sara." I whispered back to her.

Soon after that we when to bed. I slept on the floor and let her have the bed.

I could tell…this would be a long night ahead of us…

Scars…

I still had those scars on my chest from two years ago; from that dune monster and I am sure Sara still has the scar on her back as well.

We both had scars that could be seen and couldn't be seen…

But…

We both looked to each other hoping each other could help the other's scars heal.

But in truth…we both knew…it couldn't be healed to start with.