I Just Can't Live Without You
Summary-
Sasuke is in a band called Suicidal Ducktape. Everything was somewhat normal. He had everything; fangirls, concerts, ext. The only thing: He's in love with his older brother. And, to cover it up, he's a slut behind the scenes. What happens when Itachi finds out? Yaoi, incest, other stuff, lemons..
Pairing(s)- NejixSasuke, NarutoxSasuke, KakashixSasuke, KibaxSasuke, SakuraxIno, SakuraxInoxHinata, but mostly ItachixSasuke. Duh, lol.
A/U crossover- meaning, it takes place in out world, but some of the stuff is the same like in their world. (a little confusing, ne?)
Warnings: Lemon(s), lots and lots of yaoi and yuri, incest, lots of cussing, and other.....stuff...... and there is going to be a lot of song..things..
Dun like, dun read!
Notes:
...Yeah...
NEW CHAPTER! XD
This is dedicated to.. uhh..:
... I dunno..
SHEEPY-ONEE!
BECAUSE I LOVE HER SO MUCH. XDD
... Even though, she probably wouldn't.... read this... OHWELL~
IT SHALL WORK! XDD
Quote of the chapter:
"The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense"
- Tom Clancy
Poem of the chapter:
I'm Sorry I Cry
I'm sorry but it hurts to be forgotten
It hurts more to be forgotten and not wanted any more
I'm sorry but it hurts to be forgotten
It hurts even more to know my pain means nothing to you.
For almost a year I reached out to you when the pain got to be too much.
I'm sorry it hurt when I saw nothing but your back.
I'm sorry I cry for all those who were suppose to love me
I'm sorry I got to be too much and now you don't want me.
I'm sorry I cry when all I wanted was for you to hold me
I'm Sorry you could not ask me to stay, so I left
I'm sorry I though you did not want me
But if you did then why did you push me away?
Now you want to hate me for not being there for you when things where bad
I'm sorry but where were you when I needed you to be there for me?
I'm sorry the pain was so bad I was struggling for the will to live just one more day.
I'm sorry the pain got the best of me but I failed and woke up the next day.
I wish I had your ability to just shut off the pain.
I'm sorry the pain just won't go away
I'm sorry that I tried to make it go away
Now I wonder – how mad would you be if I did not fail?
Or would you just think… its what she deserved.
I'm sorry I cry but I cry because the struggle is still there
What if I try again but this time I do not fail?
I'm sorry I cry because you're not there, and now I think you never were.
by Jnnfr on Allpoetry . com
Chapter 10
Nothing good ever lasts
He slowly walked toward us and I could feel my heart beating my in my throat. It got so silent, and I swore even Kakashi, as far away as he was at that moment, could hear it.
He didn't look... disapproving; just.. I don't know how to put it. He looked at us like we were some sort of weird animal that needed to be locked up.
But... I didn't see anything else, since I blacked out at that moment. It wasn't like a quick black out, though. It was one that made time stop, your heart stop, your vision go blurry, and your breath to come out in soft, quick pants.
But eventually... My vision went black and I fell to the floor, no long conscious.
xXx
You know how... when you faint/black out and you... expect all your worries to go away? Or how you want to stay unconscious forever, because if you don't, and you wake up, then the shit that you were supposed to go away from, all comes back?
Well...
Fuck. That's EXACTLY how I felt... except...
I REALLY wanted to either not wake up at all, and I know that's suicidal-ish, but still; OR, wake up in Itachi's arms and then he'll kiss me, and we wouldn't have to worry anymore.
.... Nothing good ever lasts.
It doesn't, it really doesn't. And.. the sooner I learned that, the better. Although, if I think about it, you could do a bunch of karma shit and you'd probably have a a lot of good things... but still.
It wouldn't last.
I really need to learn that, seriously. Because... If I don't... All this happiness and whatnot, will come crashing down and my fantasies will be brutally ripped apart by dream-and-flesh-eating things that will not only devour everything that I love, but me as well.
That aside, I did not wake up how I wanted, is what I'm trying to get through. At all.
I woke up in a bed, and it wasn't just any bed; No, it wasn't. It was Kakashi's bed. How the fuck I even got to Kakashi's house was beyond me.
I didn't want to open my eyes, but I could tell by the texture and smell of the bed, and the temperature, that this was, indeed, his house.
How could I?
Well... I've known Kakashi... since I was... around 5 or so. I am now 13, and he baby-sat me whenever my parents went out. Yeah... I know Kakashi pretty well, as much as I don't want to admit it at times.
Again, that aside, I reluctantly opened my eyes... and then shut the just as quickly, only getting a glance at where I was, since I heard someone opening a door and closing it softly.
What I saw confirmed everything; I was, indeed, at my sensei's house. Awesome. Whoopty-fucking-do. I WANT MY FUCKING ITACHI, DAMMIT!
On that note, I shall continue.
The unknown figure walked toward me gracefully, and leaned over, their breath dancing over my lips; daring me, teasing me to lean up and taste more of the delicious scent.
It was then that I knew that it was Itachi.
I peeked out of the eye that was farthest away from my beloved aniki, and that was hidden under my hair; although I could still see through the microscopic openings that suddenly became larger the more that I opened my eyes.
Black hair, so similar to my own, yet so different in so many ways, covered my vision as the older male leaned down, capturing my lips in a soft, chaste kiss.
I slowly responded and Itachi smirked along ours lips. I refrained from grinning and opened both my eyes, all the way, staring into reddened, older versions of my own.
I smiled as Itachi slowly licked my pinkish, bottom lip and I eagerly opened my mouth for my brother, making said brother let out an amused sound that was akin to purring.
I rolled my eyes and smiled a bit wider as our eyes locked, and our tongues played in a gentle, sweet dance that was made for only us two.
As breath make an annoying but important necessity, we broke apart, leaving us both a little flushed and panting slightly. I grinned and jumped up, wrapping my arms around my lover's neck, burying my head in the long, soft hair that I loved.
Itachi chuckled, wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me closer to him, hugging my tightly, and mumbling, "Kami, I was so fucking worried... I thought.. something happened to you, Otouto..."
I let out a soft sigh, smiling sadly. "I know... I'm sorry... I didn't... I don't know what happened... I just saw Kakashi... and fainted." I explained, a little muffled from the hair I was currently nuzzling.
Itachi nodded in understanding and let out a soft, sad-sounding sigh that made me frown and pull back from my current nuzzling, and look at him straight into the eyes. Itachi was sad. What the hell?
"... Love?" I asked as Itachi didn't realized that I was looking at him, as his eyes were not on me, but somewhere else. I blinked. Why did Itachi have a far away, slightly glazed look in his eyes? That scared me. I don't know why, but it did. It shook my very core.
I shook him slightly. "Itachi." I stated, blinking a few times. Itachi wasn't blinking. I started to panic. What was wrong with my Itachi? "ITACHI." I said, louder this time.
Said male looked at me, finally blinking, although confusedly. "What, Otouto?"
I sighed in relief as I looked back into his eyes; the look in his eyes that made me scared was gone. Good.
I smiled a little and pecked him on the lips sweetly. "Nothing, my love... Nothing." He blinked a few times as I leaned my head on his shoulder and smiled a bit wider.
".... You're... so confusing sometimes." He said, his voice a bit rough. I looked up at him, myself a bit confused. His voice was rough? And then, I realized, that it was only a bit rough and weird, since he was biting his lip to hold in laughter, it looked like.
I rolled my eyes, hitting him playfully and pouting, crossing my arms. "M'not confusing," I mumbled, still pouting. Itachi rolled his eyes a little, pulling me into an unexpectedly soft kiss, chuckling as he separated my lips with his own and broke it. "Are too... But it's cute."
I rolled my eyes again and blushed slightly, pushing him playfully. "... Evil.... aniki... bastard thing... Making me blush... Stupid head..." I mumbled under my breath childishly.
I'm guessing Itachi heard this, since he fell over, laughing and holding his stomach. "D-did you j-just call me a s-stupid hea-head?!" He laughed harder, closing his eyes as he did so.
This... made me pout more and become a bit cold... and.. yeah.
".... Emo bastard..." I mumbled, moving to lay back into the bed that I had claimed mine for the time being, and pulled the blankets over my head, still mumbling random obcenities toward my laughing brother.
It suddenly got quiet, and I just stayed under my blankets. I didn't move, even when I felt Itachi slipping in behind me and wrapping his arms around my waist, pulling me toward his chest. I did, however, move when he murmured, "Kakashi doesn't want us to be together. He thinks it's bad."
I moved to face his chest, and nuzzled it.. and then.. cried.
I cried so hard.. and so long..
Outside, the lights slowly dimmed and.. it became night. I could tell, because I got a little more excited and awake... but.. I didn't care and I dismissed those feelings.. and still just..
Cried.
That's all I did for the rest of the day, and throughout the night.
And Itachi was right there with me, comforting me, falling asleep for a few minutes and then waking up, just to comfort me again.. and then.. somehow, sometime.... he started to cry with me.
We cried.. for everything.
For the fact that we more than likely couldn't be together.
For the fact that we were in love.
For the fact that I cut myself.
For the fact that I was a slut.
For the fact that even though our friends accepted us, there would always be someone who didn't.
For the fact that... we were brothers, and... we were together.
For the fact that Itachi killed our family.
For the fact that... we just needed to cry.
So... we cried.
Wow..
This was...
an..
interesting...
chapter..
Slightly short, but still...
I think it was slightly depressing, but cute, ne?
I like it so far... Do you~?
Anyway...
Please Review! or Itachi and Sasuke don't get laid!
xD
WEASAL AND SASU LOVE YOU!!
See you later!
~Daisy-koi~
~Neji-chan~
~Sasuke-chan~
~Itachi-koi~
~Lily-chan~
~Gaara-san~
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