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A Rose By Other Name
Chapter 10:
Rose settled into her bed back in her apartment, the Doctor setting down a cup of tea at her bedside table.
The Doctor sat down on the other side of the bed, right next to her.
"I guess we need to talk." Rose said.
"Yes, we do." The Doctor replied.
They sat there in silence for a few moments more.
"This is crazy!" Rose suddenly cried. "We love each other, and you've just been in my mind and live parts of life through my memories, I have nothing to hide. So why is this so hard?"
The Doctor sighed. "I don't know. I guess we're both feeling guilty. Over secrets and things we didn't say, should have said. Yes Rose, I…I love you and nothing that happened in your past is ever going to scare me away. Ever. I've done horrible things, and so have you. Let's just say what needs to be said and never block each other out. Okay?" The Doctor said.
"Okay." Rose replied. She let out a sigh. "I'll tell you everything, because you didn't look at every memory and I'm going to fill in the blanks." The Doctor nodded in response.
"I first met you when I was six years old. We had that wonderful snowball fight and that was one of my most cherished memories. It helped me through those days and nights where I just wanted to die. I had such a happy childhood, living in the Russian mountains, learning how to fight and protect myself. I taught myself to create what is called a 'liars place', so if I was given truth serum or something, my conscious mind would break off from the drug induced part and control everything. The drugs may have affected my body, but never my mind. I was and am very proud of how I was able to protect myself. I stopped myself from losing my sanity. For awhile, after you rescued me, I went a bit rouge, killing everyone who had ever hurt me, losing my ability to feel remorse, becoming sort of numb to it. And after I killed Gregor, that's when it hit me, everything I had done everything I had been through. That's when I went to the Government and they gave me a new life. I owe them so much. They saved me from who I was but you Doctor, saved me from my memories, from my self-loathing. You gave me a chance to redeem myself, to help me save lives instead of taking them away. I was a contract killer for quite some time. I guess it was whatever humanity I had left that stopped me from killing good people and actually trying to save them. You said to me once that I made you a better man, well; you made me a better person, a better woman. And I can never thank you enough." Rose said. The Doctor smiled.
"Even after everything you have done, you are still the most amazing person I have ever met." The Doctor said with a smile, stroking her face softly.
"The only thing now that really makes me hate myself, what makes me feel sick to the stomach is how much I enjoyed torturing these men. I didn't get off on it or anything, like it didn't turn me on. I just felt so happy knowing that these men were dead. That I was the one that finally put them in the ground so they couldn't hurt anyone ever again. I mean, when you say it like that, it doesn't sound so bad. I just felt such enjoyment at their pain. Does that make me a sadist? I guess, in a way, it does. I mean, I could never hurt an animal or a child or even an ordinary person, but killing these men gave me such satisfaction. I can't describe it to you, Doctor." Rose said.
"I understand what you mean. What these men did to you was unspeakable, horrible. Killing them may not have been right, but it certainly wasn't wrong. When I think about those men doing those things to you makes me furious. But they're dead now; they can't hurt you any more. I promise." The Doctor said, kissing her forehead.
"I bet this question has been burning you for hours and you've been so patient, so I'll just tell you. You know that last night? Before you dropped me back with the clone, how we, you know, in that valley next to those beautiful mountains? Well, that was when I fell pregnant with Jules." Rose said.
"That shouldn't be possible! Humans and Time Lords can't reproduce! It's just not physically possible." The Doctor said.
"Well, I wasn't completely human when we, well, did the do. Remember Bad Wolf? Remember all the experiments that those scientists did. I was so much more than just a simple human. I just have to say, that that day on the roof when I was stealing that piece of tech? Well, the look on your face as you were trying to work me out was absolutely delicious! I was trying so hard not to laugh." Rose said, giggling. The Doctor chuckled in response.
"Funny was I?" The Doctor asked.
"You're always funny, my funny funny man!" Rose said affectionately. Rose leaned in and kissed the Doctor on the cheek. The Doctor smiled again.
"You know, that still doesn't explain how you became a Time Lady." The Doctor said.
"Yes, well, that's when things get tricky. I was eleven months pregnant, about ready to pop, had no idea why I was still pregnant, about ready to drop, terrified that something was wrong, and I cut a small hole in the wall separating our worlds and slipped through. I couldn't find you and I had no idea where to find Jack. After the stress of it all, I found the closest hospital and began to give birth. After Jules was born, I was given my own room. Then something weird started to happen. My hands started glowing, and then all of a sudden, like a sneeze, it was over. There was a mirror near me and checked to see if I'd changed, which, luckily enough, was not a lot. I'm now naturally blonde with these really nice red undertones. I had a brand new body. I got my clothes on as fast and possible, grabbed Jules, her birth certificate and legged it back to the other dimension. I thought it would have been the best environment for Jules to be in, with a loving family and so on. Guess how old I am. Guess guess guess!" Rose said.
"I've been led to believe that asking a woman her age is very rude." The Doctor replied with a smirk.
"Well, I'm lucky then mister rude and still not ginger! You are quite rude!" Rose said, smiling the smile she reserved just for him. "So guess."
"Well, considering you were about 33ish when I last saw you and taking into account how long it takes for a female Time Lord to grow to Julianna's looks and apparent age, I'd say you were about 160." The Doctor replied.
"Ah, close enough. I'm 162 next month." Rose said.
"You're so young." The Doctor groaned. "I feel like such a paedophile."
"Well, considering you slept with me several times through my thirties, I don't think 162 years old is as bad!" Rose replied grinning.
"Of course." The Doctor replied with a grin. "Now, the Tardis said there were now four Time Lords in this dimension. Jules didn't happen to have a twin, did she?"
Rose frowned. "No, Jules is my only child. I wonder who the fourth one is."
"I don't…" The Doctor broke off his sentence.
"What?" Rose said.
"There is only one other possibility, but she's dead, it shouldn't be possible. Unless she had a delayed regeneration…" The Doctor trailed off.
"Who?" Rose said urgently.
"Jenny." The Doctor said.