Sookie,
It was good to get your letter today. I was beginning to wonder if you
had perhaps decided to stop writing in your effort to separate
yourself from all supernaturals. I know that must be extremely
tempting for you at times - to just walk away from the drama
of the last year and never look back. As a vampire, I admit that
seems tempting even to me. A nice fantasy, to be certain, though we
both know reality rarely works out the way our fantasies do.
You're very correct in your statements about my quest for normalcy.
It is something I have spent centuries searching for, and yet I feel no
closer to grasping it than I was a thousand years ago. I often wonder
if the idea is nothing more than a clever illusion made for us to
chase endlessly without ever quite achieving it.
Perhaps, though, normalcy is something we find only with another being.
Perhaps it truly is a joint effort - we find our normalcy as an
extension of who we become when we experience a true emotional
connection with someone we care deeply about. Maybe that is why "your
Eric" seemed so different than who you believe me to be now. Perhaps
my vampiric nature gave way to my humanity while with you. Honestly,
though I am still struggling to recover my memories, I suspect that
in your care, being "human" would be an easy thing to be. It is for that
reason that I still hold hope that you will assist me in regaining my
memories – so perhaps I can come to know "your Eric" and discover how
he relates to me as a whole.
Also, I am sorry to hear about your difficulty at work. Arlene is an idiot
who's easily led by anyone who shows her the least bit of interest.
She's useful only for feeding and serving drinks. Beyond that I believe
there is little hope for the woman. Please let me know what Sam does
with your schedule. I can only imagine a few things worse than eight
hours spent with that useless bag of blood. Her involvement with the
Fellowship will only lead to her getting hurt. These people, as I'm
sure you remember, are brutal and will stop at nothing if it means
sending a single vampire to the true death. Perhaps your problem will
take care of itself given time.
Yes, I am aware of a vampire named Mickey. I'd heard rumors that he was
in Louisiana and, I have to admit, it doesn't surprise me that he has
become connected to you in some peripheral way. As I've said before,
you are a magnet for trouble, Ms. Stackhouse.
We need to meet face to face to discuss Mickey. For now, it would do
your friend well to warn her to stay away from him. He is not what he
appears and is quite dangerous indeed. I will tell you more when we
meet. If you work Saturday evening, I will come by Merlots for that
blood and a friendly chat. Perhaps we could help each other out with a
bit of give and take. If you do not work for the shifter on Saturday night,
may I come to your home instead? It is very important that we discuss
Mickey face to face. I look forward to seeing you on Saturday.
Yours,
Eric