Hello! i'm thrilled to present you the tenth chapter of this fic. So a lot is going on , and a lot is about to happen too! They are Amanda/Olivia scenes (not friendly though lol) and Finanda! i know i've neglected Finanda a lot but it's about to change don't worry, i'm just taking it one step at a time ! i hope you're enjoying reading this fic as much as i'm enjoying writing it, feedback is always appreciated of course!

Monday, November 25th. 9:30am. The special victims unit squad room.

Olivia and Amanda were facing each other silently. Amanda extremely calm, just confessed to Olivia that Miller called her that morning, which meant that he found her and he knew where she lived. Olivia took some time to process what Amanda just told her. It was the first time one of her detectives was facing a great danger and that she was in charge and had to make a decision to handle it properly. The kind of danger she faced many times herself.

Olivia was upset. Not only her friend was in danger, but images of William Lewis burning up her flesh with cigarettes and all what she went through with him kept screwing with her mind. She had to contain herself in front of Amanda. But Olivia knew what she had to do, even though Amanda was probably not gonna like it. Olivia didn't like it either when she had to go through it.

"What did he exactly tell you?" Olivia worried, demanded.

"... Hum... he said that he'd been missing me... And my... wild Body... and that he wanted to see me... i think he was just trying to intimidate me that's all..." Replied Amanda confused, trying to avoid Olivia's eye contact.

"That's all? You've got to be kidding me?" Replied Olivia with what it looked like anger in her voice but she was genuinely worried for Amanda.

Olivia took the phone and started dialing as she said "Amanda, you're in danger... he's targeting you... he knows where you live! I'm gonna put a protection detail on you... we can't take...". But before Olivia could finish her sentence, Amanda canceled Liv's phone call and blurted out angrily, standing up from her seat " What? You can't do that! I don't need to be protected!".

Olivia with the phone still on her ear behind her desk, froze, surprised by Amanda's sudden outburst.

Meanwhile, Nick coming back to his desk to recuperate his forgotten phone, heard screams coming from Liv's office.

"Detective Rollins. It is under my responsibility to protect my detectives... Mike Miller assaulted you three years ago... IAB was on his ass, and he resigned! do you certainly think he's gonna let go of one of his victims without making sure that she wouldn't talk?" Reasoned Olivia Calmly while putting the phone down, with clear anger in her voice.

"Oh... so that's what it's all about?" Sassed out Amanda while releasing a sarcastic snort and turning away. Then she added angrily "You! It's all about you! You're the boss in here and you're just worried about your ass! what am i ? just another victim to you, is that it?".

"Detective Rollins! tone it down! you're out of line!" Warned Olivia extremely upset.

The atmosphere was so electric between the two ladies in the office, that all the people in the squad were looking at the office, trying to figure out what was happening.

"I don't need your help! I can protect myself! I'm a big girl!" Contended Amanda.

"...Like you protected yourself three years ago?" Stroke back Olivia.

Amanda froze there devastated, with teary eyes. She could feel a sharp pain tearing her heart apart. A pain that "her friend" just caused her.

Once Olivia realized what she just said, she put both of her hands on her hips and lowered her head down trying to find appropriate words to apologize.

"I'm sorry... i didn't mean to..." Started Apologizing Olivia.

"Save it..." Amanda interrupted her while putting her hand up. Then she muttered, trying to contain her tears in vain "... I put my trust in you Liv, i talked to you as a friend... I opened up to you...i exposed my vulnerability to you expecting you to treat me as your friend... but instead... You're using what i confessed to you against me?! ...".

"I didn't mean to ... I'm sorry Amanda. But This is for the best. You are my friend but i'm also your boss and this is how i'm helping you. It's for your own good. You are under my responsibility, and if anything happens to you, it's on me! Not just on the job! But on every level ! i wouldn't be able to live with it and have a clear conscious... I wouldn't be able to look at my reflexion in the mirror knowing that i've failed at fulfilling my duties... and most importantly... failed at protecting my friends... " Replied back Olivia trying to keep her calm But showing clear signs of anger.

Amanda still upset and hurt by what Liv told her, kept quiet facing the interrogating room's window.

At the same time, Nick approaching Olivia's office, knocked twice before entering.

"Hey, is everything alright?" Asked Nick worried. He took a quick glance at Amanda and noticed how upset she was.

"Yes. We're done here detective Rollins. Nick wait up, come with me to interrogate Sam. Rollins you go with Fin and get Becky here." Ordered Olivia.

...

Monday, November 25th. 10:00am. The special victims unit parking lot.

Fin in the car, waiting for Nick to show up after getting his phone back from his desk, saw his partner Amanda instead, getting close to his car, then she opened the door and climbed in without saying a word. Fin didn't understand what was going on, he clearly noticed that Amanda was extremely upset.

"Hey Amanda, what's up? What happened to nick?" Asked Fin confused.

"Back with his partner." Amanda replied dryly.

"What is it? You wanna talk about it?" Asked Fin worried for his partner.

"Just drive..." Replied Amanda sharply.

Fin not wanting to upset his partner even more, didn't ask further questions and started to drive.

The atmosphere in the car during the trip to the NYU campus was icy cold and silent. Once they arrived, Fin and Amanda headed directly to the administration. Greeted by The director's assistant, the two detectives followed her to Mrs Anderson's office.

"Detectives! i'm sorry i didn't catch your names..." Said Mrs Anderson inconvenienced.

"I'm detective Tutuola and this is my partner detective Rollins" Replied Fin sharply.

"Oh yes i remember you, but i recall you came with another male detective... anyway, what can i do for you this time?" Asked Mrs Anderson hesitant.

"We're looking for your daughter Becky, we need her to come down to the station, we have few questions to ask her." Explained Fin.

"My daughter? Regarding what? Is this about Samantha?" Replied Mr Anderson confused.

"We just need to clear out some things with her. Simple routine questions Ma'am." Clarified Amanda, finally breaking her heavy silence.

"Hum... fine... but she's in class right now... it's midterms week... once she finishes her today's exam... i'm gonna get in touch with her and she'll come to your precinct right after." Replied Mrs Anderson bothered.

"Don't make us wait Ma'am." Amanda said in a threatening voice.

Fin shot a look at Amanda as they were leaving Mrs Anderson's office heading to the car.

As they both climbed in, Fin couldn't take anymore of her silence and said calmly "Look Amanda, talk to me I'm your partner! you know i've got your back, right!".

With teary eyes, Amanda kept looking ahead not wanting to pay attention to what he was saying, but she couldn't contain herself anymore.

"I was raped three years ago by my ex sergeant, it's the reason why i got transferred here and he's stalking me. And according to your boss, i'm in great danger and she wants to babysit me." Blurted out Amanda shedding a tear. Then added while wiping that tear away "Happy? now you know everything.".

Fin couldn't believe what he just heard. All this time he spent with his partner and she never mentioned this once. He never tried to dig deeper either. But still, he was upset that she didn't trust him enough to tell him about it.

"I'm sorry about that Amanda... But why didn't you tell me about it? i'm your partner come on!" Replied Fin slightly upset.

"So what? It's not because we've been partners for three years that you should know my bra size! i don't know everything about you either..." Stroke back Amanda.

Fin chuckled in disbelief while looking away.

"Why does Liv think he's gonna get to you?" Asked Fin.

"... My ex sergeant... Miller... he resigned... IAB was on his ass... because of... a letter they anonymously got two years ago... accusing him of multiple rapes and assaults. Now he's in town, and he called me this morning." Hardly explained Amanda to her partner.

Fin was intrigued by this whole story, but his attention was fixated on the anonymous letter Amanda just mentioned "Did IAB track down the person who sent that letter?".

"No." Replied Amanda sharply, hesitation fastly gaining her.

"Okay... So let me guess... Now Liv wants to put a protection detail on you, right?" Guessed Fin.

"Touché!" Smirked Amanda.

Fin felt sorry for his partner, he was genuinely concerned for her but still a little upset that she never mentioned Miller. But he wanted to help her and show her that he was there for her no matter what.

"I'm gonna talk to Liv. I'll tell her that you don't need a protection detail... Nick and i got your back Amanda... you just need to trust me. Okay?" Explained Fin.

"Oh so you volunteer to babysit me now?" Smirked Amanda slightly pissed at him.

"Better be me than a bunch of dickheads! or what do you say girl? it's your call!" Replied Fin smiling.

"Oh Shut up and drive..." Chuckled Back Amanda.