She looked around to where Lauren and the kids were. She found a note on the coffee table.
'I took the kids to the store. I didn't want to wake you.'
Catherine relaxed as she read where the kids were. 10 minutes later Lauren stepped in.
"Hey Cath," Lauren greeted her.
"Hey Lauren, thanks for getting the groceries."
"No problem," Lauren responded as she put the car seats on the table.
"Hey my little sweeties," Catherine spoke and Kye and Kailani smiled as they heard their mommy. Catherine picked them up and sat down on the couch with them. "Mommy loves you." Catherine gave both of them a kiss.
Catherine was glad that she had Kye and Kailani but she was still sad that she had lost the babies. Catherine held them until they started fussing. Catherine walked upstairs with them and put them down for their naps. Catherine stood over their cribs and watched them as they fell asleep. She felt so lucky to have them after everything that happened lately. Catherine stood over their cribs for a few minutes before going back downstairs.
When Steve came home just after 5.30pm Catherine was sitting outside with the kids and Lauren was in the kitchen making dinner.
"Hey Lauren," Steve greeted.
"Hey Steve."
"How was she today?"
"Good. She slept for a few hours after lunch. I believe it helps that she has she twins near her."
"Yeah it does. Thank you for looking after them."
"It's no problem at all."
Steve walked outside.
"Hey Cath."
Catherine looked up as she heard Steve's voice. "Hey Steve."
Steve walked over to her and gave her a kiss. "How was your day?"
"Okay, it's getting better. It still hurts that we lost them but I'm learning to deal with it."
"We'll be alright honey," Steve spoke as he gathered her in his arms and gave her a soft kiss on her head. "I'm here for you if you need me."
"I know and I'm really thankful for that. I couldn't handle this if I didn't have you near me."
"I'm here honey."
Suddenly Steve felt something on his leg. He looked down and saw it was Kailani. She had crawled over to him.
"Hey sweetie," Steve said as he picked her up and gave her a kiss.
Shortly after Kailani Kye was at Steve's feet as well. Catherine picked him up and together they sat outside until Lauren called for dinner. After dinner Lauren went back home as Steve cleaned up after dinner. Catherine sat on the couch and read a book to the kids. Once Steve was done cleaning up they took the kids upstairs for their bath.
For the first time since the accident Steve saw a smile on Catherine's face as the kids played in the bath. They dried the kids off and put them in their cribs. They gave them a kiss before going back down. They went outside and sat in the hammock enjoying the evening sun. Steve lay on the hammock with Catherine against his chest. After a while he could hear Catherine sobbing.
"You okay honey?" Steve asked concerned.
"Yeah I'm okay. It's just this whole situation. It's hard."
"I know it is honey but we'll get through it together, I promise."
Catherine turned around so she was with her face towards Steve and she lay down against his chest. Steve wrapped his arms around her and held her tightly.
"It's gonna be okay honey. We'll get through this. It's okay honey."
He rubbed her back trying to calm her down. After a while Catherine stopped crying and relaxed a bit in his arms.
"I'm sorry Steve."
"It's okay honey. You don't have to be sorry. I told you I'm here for you. It's okay honey."
"I love you Steve."
"I love you too honey."
Steve gave her a soft kiss on her head and pulled her close. Steve held her until he noticed she had fallen asleep. Carefully Steve stood up and cradled her in his arms. He brought her upstairs and lay her down on the bed. He pulled the covers over her and gave her a kiss on her cheek before going back downstairs. Steve sat outside in the chairs near the beach. He hated seeing Catherine like this. He tried to be strong for Catherine but he was hurting inside as well. He looked out at the ocean and couldn't stop the tears from falling. Steve sat there for a while before going back inside. He locked up before going upstairs and checked on the twins. They were sleeping peacefully in their cribs. Steve went to their bedroom and got in the bed next to Catherine. As soon as he was in the bed Catherine crawled over to him and lay her head down on his chest. Steve put his arms around her and fell asleep as well.
….
It had been 3 months since Catherine and Steve had lost the babies. Catherine was feeling better physically. It still hurt a bit that she lost the babies, but she was learning to deal with it. Steve was glad that he was getting a bit of the old Catherine back but he missed being with her. They had made out a couple of times but as soon as Steve wanted to take things further Catherine stopped him. Steve understood but he missed being with her like that.
Today was the first day Catherine came back to work.
"You sure you're up for it honey?" Steve asked as he parked the car at HQ.
"Yeah, it'll be good for me."
"Alright. Just take it easy okay."
"I will Steve."
"Hey Cath," Kono greeted her with a hug as they walked into the office. "Welcome back."
"Thanks, it's good to be back."
"How are you?"
"Better, it still hurts a bit but I'm dealing with it."
"Alright, it's good to have you back."
The welcome back party was interrupted when Steve's phone rang.
"We have a new case, guys."
The 5 of them went to the crime scene. It felt good to Catherine to be back at work. She only went with them to the crime scene. The rest of the day Catherine stayed at the office, searching information on the computer.
It was a pretty easy case so they managed to wrap it up within the day. Catherine was sitting in her office when Steve came back.
"Hey Cath," Steve greeted as he walked in.
"Hey Steve, he confessed?"
"Yep he did, case closed. How was your first day back?"
"Good. I think it'll help me to be back at work, get my mind off things."
"Alright, just don't rush anything."
"I won't Steve."
"Alright. You ready to go home?"
"Yep."
"Alright, let me just grab my stuff."
Catherine was happy to be home again and see the twins. As soon as Steve and Catherine walked through the door the twins came crawling up to them. Steve and Catherine picked them up and pampered them with kisses.
When Steve went up to bed Catherine was already in bed. She was reading a book when Steve got in the bed. He crawled close to her and placed kisses on her shoulder and worked his way up to her neck. Catherine loved what he was doing. She had missed being with him but she didn't know if she was ready for it.
"Steve."
Steve took the book out of her hands and placed it on her nightstand before turning her over on her back. Steve crashed his lips down on Catherine's. His kisses felt so good. Steve deepened the kiss and moved his tongue over her bottom lip. Catherine eagerly opened her mouth to give him access. Steve kissed her even more when he heard her moan. Steve pulled his mouth away from hers and kissed down her neck. Catherine couldn't help but moan as Steve found her spot. She loved what Steve was doing but something inside her told her to stop. She tried her best to suppress it but she couldn't.
"Steve, stop."
Steve stopped kissing her and looked into her eyes. "What's wrong Cath?"
"I'm not sure if I'm ready for this."
Steve took a deep breath. Every time it was the same. He understood that she was hurting but he missed being with her like this so much. Steve figured it might help her deal with things if they made love again.
"I promise I'll be gently honey."
Catherine never told Steve what the real reason was she didn't want to have sex just yet. She figured she should tell him now. "But what if I get pregnant again, I don't know if I can handle that just yet."
"Is that why you don't wanna have sex?"
Catherine nodded. "I'm afraid I'll lose it again."
"I had no idea you felt this way, why didn't you tell me sooner?"
"Cus you probably would think it's stupid."
"No, not at all honey. I get why you're saying this. I understand."
"You do?"
"Yes I do. I know how much it hurt to lose these babies, I don't wanna go through that again."
"Me neither, but that's what I'm afraid off if I get pregnant again."
"You don't know for sure if this will happen again. It wasn't because you did something wrong, it was because of the accident."
"I know, but I just can't help but feel this way. I'm sorry."
"Hey, you have nothing be sorry for. I love you and I miss making love to you but if you're not ready I understand."
"You do?"
"Yes I do. I get where this is coming wrong but I miss you. I wanna make love to you again."
"I want that too, I'm just afraid to get pregnant again."
"I may have an idea then. If you really want to make love we can do it at a time you can't get pregnant in your cycle."
"That might be an idea." Catherine grabbed her phone and looked at the cycle calendar. "I'm right in the middle of my period so now won't be a good time. Starting next week would be safe."
"Alright, I guess I can wait one more week," Steve smiled at her. "But only if you're sure you're ready for it. I don't want to push you."
"No, I'm ready Steve I think. It'll be better for me to try having sex again without the change of getting pregnant."
"Alright." Steve gave her one more kiss. "I love you."
"I love you too."
Steve gathered her in her arms and together they fell asleep.
…..
The next Monday Steve carried Catherine to their bedroom after they put the babies to sleep. Steve slowly put her down on the bed and lay down on top of her. He kissed her passionately. They just lay there for a while just kissing each other. After a while Steve moved his hands under her shirt. Catherine moaned against his mouth as she felt his hands on her bare skin. Steve slowly pulled her shirt up and took it off. He moved his lips down her neck and kissed her spot.
Catherine tried her best to relax but she couldn't help but feel a bit tensed. She pulled at the hem of Steve shirt and lifted it up over his head. It felt good feel his skin against hers again. Steve kissed her down her body as he reached behind her to unhook her bra. Once free he tossed it aside. Slowly he made his way to her breasts and kissed them. It felt good to feel his mouth on her breasts again. Catherine arched her back as Steve took the nipple in his mouth. She could feel the wetness starting the pool in between her legs. She was still a bit tense but she was starting to feel more relaxed by the minute. Steve lingered on her breasts until he felt her body relax. The tension was now out of Catherine's body and she focused on the pleasure Steve was giving her. The man was always so passionate whenever they made love. If Steve kept sucking her breasts Catherine was sure she was going to come from just that. Steve pressed into her. He felt good, even through 4 layers of clothing. When he started dry humping her Catherine's peak was coming close fast. She pressed Steve's head against her breast. Steve heard her moan and pressed against her a bit harder. He felt her body beginning to quiver. Catherine moaned loudly as she reached her peak.
"Wow," was all that Catherine could speak.
Steve crawled up to her face with a smile and kissed her. Catherine moved her hand over this muscular chest until she reached the waistband of his pants. She undid the button and the zipper and felt Steve sigh against her lips as she did so. His pants had gotten a bit tight. Catherine moved her hand down lower until she found what she was looking for. Without warning she grabbed him hard causing Steve to pull away from the kiss.
"Fuck Cath," Steve cursed.
Catherine smirked at him as she moved her hand inside his boxers and stroked him. Steve lay his head down on her shoulders and enjoyed the feeling she was giving him. After he while he couldn't take it anymore and pushed her hand away. Quickly he took of his pants and boxers and Catherine's pants and panties followed.
"Are you sure you're ready honey?" Steve asked before going any further.
"I am, just be gentle okay."
"Of course."
Steve made sure she was ready for him before he pushed in. He kissed her as he slowly pushed inside of her.
At first it was a bit uncomfortable for Catherine but soon the pleasure took over. They took their time, enjoying the feeling of being together again. The slow moves Steve made felt so sensual to both of them. They made love for an hour before they finally reached their peaks. Exhausted but very content the fell back down on the bed. Once Catherine had regained her breath she crawled over to Steve and looked him in the eyes.
"Thank you Steve, that was really nice."
"You're welcome honey. I missed this."
"Me too. It was very good."
"I'm glad you liked it."
Catherine looked at Steve for a while. She was glad they had made love again.
"I love you Steve."
"I love you too Cath."
Catherine gave Steve one more kiss before she put her head down on his chest and fell asleep in his arms.
The next morning Steve woke up and saw Catherine lying on his chest. He thought back to the night before. He was glad they had made love again. Catherine was slowly starting to heal from losing the babies. It had been a rough few months for them. Steve was just glad that Catherine and the twins hadn't been seriously injured in the accident. Steve pulled her close and snuggled against her, not wanting to go out just yet.
10 minutes later they were interrupted by a cry coming over the baby monitor.
"I'll go," Steve told Catherine and gave her a soft kiss on her head. Steve got out of bed. He put on a shirt and boxers and walked to the twins' room. He found both kids awake. "Good morning my sweeties."
As soon as they heard their father's voice they were begging to be held. Steve first picked up Kye and then Kailani. With the two kids in his arms he walked to the bedroom.
"Look who I have here," Steve spoke as he walked into the bedroom.
"Hey Kye, hey Kailani."
Steve handed Kailani to Catherine and got in the bed next to them with Kye.
"Good morning my little princess," Catherine spoke to Kailani and gave her a kiss.
Steve turned on the TV and together with the kids they watched TV in bed for a while. They were about 10 minutes into the movie they were watching when Steve's phone rang.
"McGarrett," Steve answered the phone. "On the way." Steve hung up the phone. "Sorry Cath, I have to go, we have a case."
"It's okay."
Steve handed Kye to Catherine and went to get dressed. Before he left he gave each of them a kiss. Catherine stayed in bed with the kids until the movie had ended. She got dressed and took the kids to their bedroom to get dressed. She put the kids in their chairs as she got breakfast ready. After breakfast she put the kids in their playpen and went to do some laundry.
After doing the laundry Catherine sat on the couch and watch her kids play. She felt relieved now that she and Steve had made love again. It had helped her to deal with everything that had happened. She smiled as she watched the kids play.
….
It was time for the twins 1st birthday today. It was on a Saturday so Steve and Catherine didn't have to go to work. The kids woke up around 8am. Steve and Catherine went to get them.
"Good morning, happy birthday," Steve and Catherine spoke as they walked in.
Steve picked up Kye and Catherine picked up Kailani.
"Happy birthday buddy," Steve told Kye.
"Dadda," Kye replied.
"Did you hear that Cath?" Steve asked with a big smile on his face.
"Yes I did, he said dadda. That's my big boy." Catherine gave him a kiss. "Can you see dadda too Kailani? Say dadda."
"Dadda," Kailani said.
"Good girl."
"You're daddy's little girl," Steve told her as he gave her a kiss.
"I can't believe they are already one year old," Catherine voiced as they were getting the kids dressed.
"I know me neither, it seems like just yesterday that they were born."
"Yeah it does."
"And they are talking now too and pretty soon they'll be walking by themselves too."
"Yeah, they are growing up fast."
Once dressed they took the kids downstairs for breakfast. In the afternoon their family and friends were coming over for the birthday party. It was a hot summer day so they were having the party in the backyard. After they had finished breakfast Steve and Catherine went to get the backyard ready for the party. They put the kids in their playpens outside so they could keep an eye on them while they decorated.
They put up balloons and garlands. They also put up the big pool so the kids could go swimming. They put tables and chairs up for everyone to sit and a table for the drinks and snacks.
After they were done with the decorations Catherine pulled the kids out of their playpens for their presents. Catherine sat with them on the chair as Steve went to get their presents. The kids' eyes went with as they saw Steve with two new bicycles. They wanted to get off Catherine's lap immediately so Catherine brought them over to the bicycles and put them each on one bicycle. The kids squealed with joy as Steve and Catherine pushed them. After a while they started pushing themselves. They protested when Steve and Catherine took them off 30 minutes later to eat lunch.
They put the kids down after lunch for their nap before the guests arrived. As soon as they were out the kids' room Steve pulled Catherine to him and kissed her.
"The kids are asleep and we have a while before the guests arrive, how about we have some fun until then," Steve suggested with a smirk.
"I like the way you think."
Quickly they walked to the bedroom and took each other's clothes off. In a matter of minutes they were connected together. Steve wasted no time to get into a fast rhythm. It didn't take them long to reach their peaks. Still joined Steve picked her up and carried her to the bathroom. He got into the shower and put it on as he pushed Catherine against the wall. Catherine jumped when she felt the cold water on her skin but soon started to giggle as Steve kissed her neck. They made loved once more under the shower before they washed each other. They couldn't help themselves as they pleasured the other with their hands while washing them which led to another round of love making.
They were just done getting dressed when the kids woke up. They dressed them in their birthday outfits and walked downstairs. Just as they got downstairs there was a knock on the door. Steve opened the door and found Mary and Joan there.
"Uncle Steve!" Joan squealed and hugged his leg.
"Hey Joan, hey Mary."
"Hey Steve, Hey Catherine."
"Hey Mary."
"There are my little birthday niece and nephew. Happy birthday." Mary gave both Kye and Kailani a kiss and handed them their present.
Steve and Catherine sat down on the couch with the kids and helped them to open the presents. They both got stuffed koala bear.
"Aw these are cute, thank you Mary," Catherine told her.
"You're welcome."
Over the next 30 minutes the others guest arrived as well. Joan and Grace were in the pool playing. Kye and Kailani wanted to go in too so Catherine went to changed them into their swimsuits and changed into her swimsuit as well. Together with Grace and Joan she played with the twins in the pool.
"I can't believe they are already one year old," Danny told Steve as he sipped from his bear.
"I know me neither. I feel so lucky to have them and Catherine."
"Yeah, you 4 seem really happy together."
"Yeah we are. Losing the babies has just brought us closer together."
The twins protested when Catherine got them out of the water.
"We're going to get the cake out," Catherine told them and they stopped protesting.
Steve and Catherine dried them off and put them in their chairs. Steve went inside and retrieved the cake. Everyone sang happy birthday as Steve brought the cake out. Catherine filmed. Steve brought the cake over to the twins and they did their best to blow out the candles. Eventually they succeeded. Steve pulled the candles out and handed everyone a piece. Kye and Kailani had more cake on their faces and bibs than actually went into their mouths. Catherine cleaned them up.
The twins had a lovely day. They were tired when they guests had left. Steve and Catherine put them in bath before taking them to the bedroom. They were asleep in their cribs before Steve and Catherine left the room.
Steve and Catherine went downstairs and cleaned up outside. Catherine was in the kitchen cleaning the dishes when Steve walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist.
"They had a lovely day today," Steve spoke.
"Yes they did. They loved their new bicycles."
"Yes they did. It was nice to see them smile all day long."
"Yes it was. I still can't believe that they are actually one year old already."
"I know me neither."
Steve couldn't help but kiss Catherine's neck.
"Steve, not now, I have to finish the dishes."
"They'll still be here later."
"But if we go to bed I don't wanna get out anymore tonight. Just give me 5 minutes."
"Alright."
Steve took out the trash from the party and helped Catherine putting the dishes away. Once they were done Steve scooped her up in his arms and carried her upstairs. He put her down on the bed and lay down on top of her. He wanted to kiss her but Catherine stopped him.
"Steve, there's something I have to tell you."