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Chapter Ten – Meeting
West Springs Treatment Centre, Connecticut
June 7th 12.30 pm
Straight after lunch Olivia had made her way to the therapy room where she would spend an hour talking to Mary about her kidnap. This was a routine now, she's been in the place four days and she was quiet used to how things works. She'd ended up in exclusion more times than she thought possible because of Amanda, she didn't seem to like Katie and Olivia's closeness and seemed to intervene quite a bit which almost always ended up with Olivia in the exclusion room and if not Olivia then Katie.
Today would be the day she would talk to Mary about the rape. They hadn't mentioned it since the first time Olivia had been sat in this office meeting the doctor for the first time but they'd ended the conversation last time on when she'd gone to sleep and the next thing to happen was the rape and rescue.
"Good afternoon Olivia." Mary smiled coming into the room.
"Hi Mary." Olivia smiled back as Mary took her legal pad and pen and sat down.
"Right we'll pick up right where we left off yesterday, last thing you told me was that you went to sleep what happened next?" Mary asked.
Olivia hesitated for the first time. She chewed nervously on her bottom lip and played with the water bottle in her hand. Mary could see she was nervous, every other day she'd been quite straight with her answers giving her account of what happened from memory.
"I was asleep." Olivia started and Mary noted how quiet and timid Olivia's voice was, very unlike the strong willed Detective she'd seen so far, this was Olivia the woman coming through.
"Ok." Mary nodded to show she was listening.
"I woke up when I felt the weight of the bed change." She continued her eyes fixed firmly on the floor and her hands still fumbled with the plastic bottle. "I went to scream but his hand covered my mouth and ... I ... he said 'Don't bother wasting your energy screaming.'" Olivia closed her eyes as the memory started to play out in her mind.
"I was terrified." Olivia whispered. "He told me not to scream and moved his hand and I just managed to say Don't because I knew ... I knew what he was going to do." Olivia's voice cracked a little as she spoke and as much as she was trying to keep it together she wasn't.
"He said I'm sorry but it has to be done." She continued hearing his voice in her head as she said the words. "Then he kissed me."
A tear made its way down her cheek and she took one of the tissues that Mary handed to her and wiped it away before continuing.
"I fought him. I had too and I managed to push him off me and he yelled at me that it was a mistake and chased after me. It was dark in the room so I rushed to the furthest corner he yelled again that I shouldn't screw with him I tried to move slowly so he wouldn't be able to hear or see me but it was like he sensed me you know? Then he grabbed me and threw me onto the bed but I bounced off and onto the floor. He got on my back and I was screaming for him not to begging him to stop ..." Olivia stopped to wipe more tears from her cheeks. "He handcuffed one of my hands as he was on me and I struggled and he snapped my other wrist before he managed to lock that one too. He picked me up again and I kicked against him but it didn't make any difference, then he shoved his hands up the night gown and started touching me ..." Olivia felt nauseous but she wasn't going to stop.
"I was still screaming but it didn't make a difference it just made him more aroused, he thrust his fingers into me and it hurt so much then he told me to just in enjoy it." It was obvious to Mary that Olivia became angry the further on she went into her story. "I kicked him and ran for the door just hoping maybe he hadn't locked it this time but he ran after me and pined me into the door and he tore the dress off and I could feel his erection and before I knew what was happening he was raping me and I kept screaming over and over again, but he told me again to enjoy it. He screamed my name when he climaxed and then he carried me back to the bed and I'd given up, I couldn't fight him anymore and then he put his tongue to me and commented that he could taste blood and I was so tired and that's when Fin's voice echoed across the room." Olivia dropped her head into her hands as her body wracked with sobs, this was the first time she'd really told her story as no one had needed her to say it all before as they had the tape.
"Who's Fin?" Mary asked not wanting Olivia to shut down when they'd gotten this far.
"SVU Cop, closest thing I've ever had to a brother." Olivia replied once she'd gathered enough energy to speak.
"Do you remember what he said when he came into the room?" Mary asked.
"Yeah he said NYPD Step away from the girl." Olivia replied with a soft laugh. "Always a cop."
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West Springs Treatment Centre, Connecticut
June 10th 3.07 am
Katie and Olivia were used to sharing a room to the point any noises emanating from the other didn't disturb them. However, Katie woke to Olivia tossing and turning and almost yelling in her sleep. She slowly climbed out of bed and went over to the detective. She sat on the bedside and grabbed Olivia's shoulders gently as she tried to wake her up.
"Come Olivia wake up for me." She cooed.
"Don't Toby please don't!" Olivia was yelling.
Katie and Olivia talked about a lot of things, mainly their families but never the reason they were there. Katie had PTSD in every sense of the word. She'd had it after a stint with the marines that cost her three comrades lives and she had to discharged. Olivia's story was not one she had shared, she hadn't told Katie why she was there but Katie guessed it was after being almost shot and losing a fellow detective, she didn't know how wrong she was.
"Toby get off me! Please don't do this again!" Olivia's voice echoed around the room.
"Come on Livia you need to wake up." Katie chanted hoping to stir the detective from her sleep.
Katie started to think of all the people she had been told about in Olivia's life. There was a man named Fin and another called Munch (she'd laughed for hours at this name!) and then her fiancé was called Elliot. Her boss was called Cragen and the psychiatrist had some Chinese name. Then Olivia's best friends were called Alex, Casey and Melinda and she realised she'd never heard anyone talk about Toby.
"Don't touch me Toby!" Olivia's voice was getting louder and louder and her thrashing in the bed was almost too much for Katie to handle as she tried almost desperately to rouse Olivia from her nightmare.
The door to the bedroom swung open just as Olivia shot upright and started screaming still thrashing about. The six who had entered the room dived towards the bed. Two moved Katie out of the way while the others pinned Olivia down just long enough to stab her bicep with an injection sending her into a calmer sleep.
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West Springs Treatment Centre, Connecticut
June 10th 11.22 am
"Hey." Katie smiled as she came into the bedroom, Olivia had just opened her eyes.
"What time is it?" Olivia asked her voice still slurred, the after affects of the drugs.
"Twenty after eleven." Katie replied smiling happily.
"I slept through the alarm?" Olivia asked frowning, that alarm was so loud she thought no one could sleep through it.
"Yeah with the help of the injection you got at three this morning." Katie laughed but Olivia just looked even more confused.
"Injection?" She continued, she felt the need to know what happened.
"Yeah you had a nightmare around three this morning I tried to wake you but you just got louder and louder and then the orderlies came in and knocked you out." Katie explained as Olivia rolled onto her back and clutched her hand to head.
"Olivia?" Katie asked sitting on the edge of her bed.
Olivia rolled onto her side so she could see Katie and she could see whatever it was she was going to ask was serious.
"You can tell me to mind my own business but ... who's Toby?" She asked a little weary of asking but she was intrigued and wanted to know who had been haunting Olivia's nightmares.
Olivia sighed and sat upright shifting her pillows into the corner of the wall so she could sit comfortably and look at Katie.
"You don't have to tell me." Katie said hurriedly because she could tell that Olivia was uncertain.
"No I want to, I guess it's just hard to talk about." Olivia replied. "You know you're here because you have PTSD from the marines..." Olivia began and Katie nodded in reply. "Well I'm not here because of my job not really anyway." Olivia shrugged, she hadn't been very open at all in group therapy preferring to listen and offer advice like she did to her victims in SVU than open up about her own experience. "I was kidnapped on April the first, I was held captive by a Behavioural Analyst Scientist named Toby McArthur, I was captive for twenty hours, he gave me mild Stockholm syndrome because in between beating me to bloody pulp he would be nice and kind and he only beat me when I did something wrong..." Olivia sighed at the memory flooding her mind. "Then he raped me." She said and Katie quickly wiped the tear coming down her cheek and got onto Olivia's bed and Olivia pulled her into a comforting embrace, she was fifteen years older than Olivia and she felt the need to give her comfort from what she was telling her.
"Did they get him?" Katie asked.
"Yeah, he's spending the rest of his life behind bars." Olivia replied as she stroked her hand down Katie's arm as Katie snuggled into Olivia's shoulder with her arms wrapped around her waist.
"You didn't deserve that." Katie whispered into Olivia's shoulder.
"No one deserves anything like that." Olivia replied. "In the same way you didn't deserve to lose your friends and Elliot didn't deserve to have to watch my kidnap and beatings and rape on a live feed."
"Oh my God." Katie exclaimed.
"Yeah as did George Huang and my captain and Alex and Casey, none of them deserved to have to watch that." Olivia wiped a tear away.
"So that's why you're here?" Katie asked just to clarify.
"Yeah, I have a form of PTSD known as Rape Trauma Syndrome." Olivia explained with a sigh.
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West Springs Treatment Centre, Connecticut
June 13th 8.26 am
Olivia was sat in the cafeteria sipping her coffee and eating a round of toast that Amanda had managed to get her to eat every morning after the fourth she'd ended up in the exclusion room for refusing breakfast.
She'd been a patient at West Springs for ten whole days and she was finally starting to get better, she was still jumpy and had some flashbacks but she was definitely feeling more herself for the first time since the night Toby kidnapped her.
"You're excited!" Katie smiled as she observed Olivia finish off her coffee.
"Of course I am, I haven't seen my family in ten days, I don't think I've ever gone ten hours without speaking with or seeing them!" Olivia laughed.
"What time will they be here?" Katie asked, she didn't want to admit it to Olivia but she was actually looking forward to meeting the men Olivia openly called her family.
"Nine, I'm going to let them come in here and have a coffee first then maybe a walk before lunch." Olivia smiled, she just couldn't wait to see everyone.
"It's going to be a good day Olivia. Just enjoy it." Katie smiled as she sipped at her own coffee.
"I just hope I look more like myself, I kinda let go a bit the first few days." Olivia laughed, she'd made sure to put on some make up and do her hair like she did for work for today knowing that it would have a big effect on the guys.
"You look fine Olivia, I don't think they'll really care about how you've styled your hair or that you've put on some lips gloss!" Katie chuckled just as Amanda approached their table.
"Oh here we fucking go." Olivia mumbled making Katie burst out laughing while Olivia shared a cheeky grin.
"Good morning ladies." Amanda grinned coming to sit down beside Olivia and opposite Katie on the bench.
"Morning." They both mumbled avoiding each other's eyes because they spent so many hours making fun of Amanda when she wasn't around it was hard to face her when she was.
"So Olivia are you looking forward to seeing your family?" Amanda asked.
"Yup." Olivia replied having learned to stick to one word answers with Amanda.
"You don't sound too excited." Amanda sighed.
"Oh I am, just I'm cold hearted and don't show my emotions." Olivia replied and she could see Katie convulsing with laughter.
It was Katie's fault Olivia had come out with this comment, she'd heard Amanda telling another orderly that she wasn't sure Olivia had any emotions beside anger and Olivia had made game to play on that without telling Amanda she knew.
"You're not cold hearted Olivia." She smiled broadly her tone as patronising as ever.
Katie couldn't control herself, she was trying to hide her laughter but Amanda had seen it and sighed making Olivia get a fit of the giggles.
"You two behave like teenagers did you know that?" Amanda laughed a fake laugh as her own paranoia increased.
"Of course we did, it makes this place not seem like the dungeon it can feel like." Olivia replied as Katie took very deep breaths trying to pull herself together.
"You feel this place is a dungeon?" Amanda asked a little bit surprised.
"No it's a prison." Katie laughed as did Olivia while Amanda frowned.
"You two really need to behave your age, I'm going to be having words with Mary about separating you two I think you're too much influence on each other." She sighed getting to her feet and she wasn't even out of ear shot when Olivia and Amanda burst out laughing.
The truth was they were an influence on each other, they were practically inseparable. Olivia took the same therapy classes as Katie, they shared a room, they spent their free time together the truth was they were slowly becoming dependant on one another.
"Olivia." Mary smiled coming towards her table, this was a rare occurrence to see Mary at breakfast so everyone had turned to look.
"What is it?" Olivia asked placing her now empty coffee cup on the table.
"Your family are here." Mary smiled and Olivia beamed and looked at Katie who nodded, Olivia had asked her to come with her when they arrived so they quickly clasped hands and followed Mary towards the main entrance.
She was a bubble of emotion. She was excited to see them again, Alex and Casey was in court and Melinda had apologised that she had too much else going on but Cragen had managed to get the 2-1 to cover all SVU for a day and Munch, Fin, Elliot, Cragen and Huang had travelled up to visit her.
As soon as she saw Elliot she dove into his arms and he swung her around before they shared an earth shattering kiss.
"God I've missed you." She whispered as he held onto her tight.
"I've missed you too baby more than you'll ever know." Elliot replied trying to hold back on his tears.
Everyone just smiled at the scene taking place in front of them. Katie felt like she was intruding and even felt shy but at the moment all attention was focused on Olivia which she was very grateful for.
"Cap." Olivia smiled wrapping her arms around her surrogate father's neck and planting a gentle kiss on his cheek.
"Hey Liv." He smiled returning the embrace.
She then moved on to Fin who also picked her up and swung her around.
"Hey baby girl hows it goin'?" He asked as he placed her on the floor again.
"Great, better at seeing your ugly mug though." She laughed as she playfully punched him in the shoulder.
"Am I invisible or something?" Munch asked as Olivia turned to face him.
"Never!" Olivia laughed as she received an awkward embrace from the man.
"How are you Liv?" He asked as she stepped back.
"All good." She smiled before stepping to Huang and giving him an embrace that told him how thankful she was.
"You're looking good Liv." He smiled gently.
"I think I owe all this down to you and Mary." Olivia replied as she stepped back to look at her 'family'. "God I've missed you guys!" She sighed trying to pull them all into an embrace which they all stepped into, hooking their arms around each other knowing Olivia needed to feel that connection. "Now..." Olivia stepped back and grabbed Katie and pulled her towards everyone. "This is Katie my new partner." She winked over at Elliot.
"In crime!" Mary pointed out making everyone laugh but mainly Katie and Olivia.
"Well she say's crime but we're not criminals we're delinquents." Olivia whispered into Katie's ear making both of them laugh hard and leaving everyone else clueless to the joke, including Elliot who felt a little put out by this.
"As you can see Olivia has made a real friend in Katie, they're like this all the time." Mary smiled as Olivia and Katie desperately tried to regain themselves.
"Ok Katie I've told you about everyone but here they are in person, my darling fiancé and partner Elliot, my brothers and fellow cops Munch and Fin, then my Captain Don Cragen and the squads shrink Doctor George Huang." Olivia explained happily.
"Nice to finally meet you all." Katie smiled shyly.
"Now who's for coffee?" Olivia asked and she laughed with Katie as relieved smiles filled the men's faces.
Olivia took Elliot's hand as she showed everyone to the cafeteria, she'd missed him more than she could even begin to explain to anyone, it was like she'd been without a limb for ten days, without her crutch and they'd barely spoken on the phone as she had been calling Huang and Cragen a lot as well as some phone calls to her friends. She couldn't begin to explain to Elliot why she couldn't call him as often as she could use a phone, she felt nauseous every time she hung up the phone.
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West Springs Treatment Centre, Connecticut
June 17th 12.25 am
"Good afternoon Olivia how are you feeling?" Mary smiled as she came into the therapy room.
"Fine." Olivia mumbled and Mary could see that she was far from fine.
"What's bothering you?" Mary asked.
"Nothing." Olivia shrugged as she sat back into the couch, she was bored and wanted to go home now more than ever.
"Are you sure?" Mary questioned her eyes narrowing with suspicion.
"I'm fine now can we get on with this?" Olivia snapped through gritted teeth.
Mary was shocked, she'd not seen Olivia react like this towards her so she put down her notebook and leaned forward her eyes fixed firmly on Olivia.
"What's got your rattled?" Mary asked softly.
"Nothing." Olivia replied instantly.
"Olivia, you've been a patient here for fourteen whole days and not once have you behaved like this especially not with me, I've seen you rattled with Nurse Amanda a few times but something's bothering you and I need you to open up to me so I can help you, it's why you're here." Mary tried.
"It has nothing to do with why I'm here." Olivia replied angrily.
"So you admit that something's bothering you then." Mary noted out loud and Olivia nodded and sighed relaxing her face a little.
"If you talk to me Olivia I can help you but if you don't then I'm stuck." Mary explained and Olivia nodded again. "So what is it?"
Olivia played with the edge of her cardigan nervously, she wasn't sure how to say but she knew she had to say something before this ate you alive.
"I'm late." She croaked.
"Late?" Mary asked with a confused frown.
"My period is late." Olivia explained.
"By how much?" Mary continued.
"Four maybe five days." Olivia shrugged.
"That happens with stress Olivia, are you feeling particularly stressed?" Mary continued.
"No, or I didn't until I was late." Olivia sighed.
"Olivia they conducted a pregnancy test when you arrived and it was negative." Mary replied but Olivia chuckled and shook her head.
"If I was pregnant when I arrived it wouldn't have shown up Mary, I only had sex two nights before I arrived." Olivia explained. "Barely thirty six hours had passed when you took that test."
"Ok." Mary nodded. "Let's go to the physical room now and we'll take a blood sample." Mary smiled. "But it could take some time for the result to come back."
Olivia just nodded and followed Mary out of the room hoping that the result would put her mind at some ease, she wasn't sure if she wanted this or not.
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Liv is she pregnant or not?
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