Okay before I start the story I would like to say thank you for all of the reviews! (I have now passed 30 woot woot!) You all are so nice and I love that you love my story! It really means a lot to me that you all actually read it! So thanks. And to Serenaisbestezrq387, you are awesome. You have reviewed for every single chapter and I decided that that deserves a special thank you so BAM here it is :D
One more thing before I get started. I might not be able to update very much for the next week because my laptop charger broke. So it really depends on whether or not my sister is being nice and letting me borrow hers or not. I should get my new one shipped in within a week but if I don't update that's why.
Alright, so that was a really long A/N but now ON WITH THE STORY!
I hear Fang before I see him. I can hear the front door swing open followed by heavy footfalls leading to my room. I try to wipe the tears from my face but I know that it is pointless.
A light knock comes from my bedroom door.
"Come in." I try to say but it comes out as barely a whisper.
Fang seems to have heard me anyway because he slowly walks into my room. Not knowing what to do, he just stands awkwardly in the doorway until he sees my tear streaked face.
He immediately walks over to me and holds me close to his chest.
"It's okay, Max. I'm here."
"But I won't be." Fang looks at me, his face emotionless and unreadable.
"What are you talking about, Max?" Although his face is impassive, I can hear the fear in his voice.
When I try to tell Fan what my mom told me I realize that I can't. The words keep getting caught in my throat and I can't say them. If I say them then they will be true.
So instead of talking I decide to just cry. Why not? He already knows I was crying and who cares anyway?
I cling to Fang and cry on his shoulder.
After about half an hour of Fang just holding me I decide it's time I tell him.
I look into Fang's eyes. "My mom is shipping me off to Florida to live with my dad." Immediately I see the emotion from Fang's eyes disappear as he puts up a shield against it.
"You can't go." Fang says looking into my eyes and I know he means it.
"I know. I don't want to leave you. But I don't think I have much of a choice." My voice is thick with tears but I need to tell Fang how I feel. "Something good finally happened to me and now it is being taken away. I finally met you and now we can't be together."
When I say this Fang stiffens beside me.
"Does this mean you want to break up?" His voice betrayed him and cracked as he asked.
"Do I want to? Of course not, Fang! I just don't know what to do. I have never even been in a relationship before, and I didn't think I would have to be in a long distance one. Do they ever even work out?"
Fang looks hurt but I try to look past that. "We have time though don't we? When do you have to go?" I look away as he says these words because I can't stand to see the pain on his face any longer, knowing that I caused it.
"I leave next week." I look back up at Fang only to see him looking out the window. After a few minutes he turns back to me with a look in his eyes I have never seen before.
He starts to lean toward me and I don't back away. As soon as his lips touch mine I realize the look he had on his face was passion.
Fang kisses me fiercer than he ever has and I find myself getting dizzy from it. I pull away and look into his eyes.
"What am I going to do without you?" I whisper.
"I'm sure you'll manage just fine." Fang sits back up on the edge of my bed and sits as far away from me as he can. "You don't need me Max."
"You didn't know me before. You and the rest of the group are the first real friends that I have had. I haven't felt like I fit in anywhere but here, with you. So no I don't think I will manage. You've got it all wrong. All of it." I add the last part on hoping Fang will realize that not only do I mean I won't manage but that I need him as well.
Fang looks doubtful of my words but he lets it go.
"So what do we do now? Do we try long distance? Wait until you leave and then break up? Or…" do we break up now? I finish the sentence that neither of us could say aloud in my head.
I don't even know what to say. I don't want to break up with Fang at all but is it fair to make him stay with me even though I live all the way across the country?
Before I can answer my mom walks into my room. She looks shocked when she sees Fang on my bed but doesn't mention it. Instead she says, "Max, honey you need to start packing. Your dad changed his mind, he wants you to leave the day after tomorrow."
Of course, why would I expect a whole week? This day just keeps getting better and better.
My mom left my room, leaving my door wide open. Very subtle, Mom, very subtle indeed.
I look at Fang and see that he isn't even trying to shield his emotions anymore. He just looks sad. Worse than sad, more like slit your wrists type of depressed. He really is starting to fit the whole emo stereotype.
"Fang, I…" Instead of letting me finish my sentence, Fang leans over and kisses me. Although not passionate and rough like before, this one is soft and gentle like he is afraid he might break me.
Fang starts to push me down on my back and deepen the kiss but I don't let him. Instead, I just give a pointed glance at my gaping doorway.
He expertly takes my pillow and throws it at the door, effectively shutting it.
"Impressive." I say and Fang just laughs at me. "Now where were we?" Fang lifts his eyebrow at me in a questioning glace.
Letting out a sigh of frustration I grab his shirt and pull him down beside me. I lean over and brush my lips across his.
"I don't want to break up. I don't want to ever break up, Fang."
"You don't know how much I was hoping you would say that." Relief filled his tone but I can still see the pain in his eyes.
"Are you sure? I'm going to be gone a year. What happens if you change your mind while I'm gone and don't want to be with me anymore? What if you find someone else?"
Fang looks at me with shock evident on his face.
"Are you seriously worried about whether or not I will change my mind? I have never even liked anyone other than you, Max, and that is not going to change. It doesn't matter if you live in Florida or Poland." Fang seemed to think about something and then added. "But if you, you know, find someone else there then…"
He must of saw my are you and idiot face because instead of finishing his sentence he says, "Don't look at me like that. You don't even realize how amazing you are. You are kind, and smart, and beautiful. Some guy in Florida is bound to notice and if you feel the same way… well then I don't want to hold you back, okay?"
I nod. "Okay, but you don't have to worry about that Fang. It is a miracle that Nudge wanted to be my friend in the first place. Most likely when I get there, everyone will treat me like I have the Plague and run away in fear. That's what always happens when I move someplace new. Moving here was an exception."
Fang starts to kiss me again but before he does he whispers. "You don' t even realize the effect you have on people, Max."
The next day went by in a blur. Nudge and Ella helped me pack the majority of the day. Ella, unlike me, is not being forced to go to Dad's. My dad said that he wouldn't take us both away so my mom decided to send me. I only wish I was so lucky.
So when we finished packing up my room I called Fang and we spend the rest of the day together at his house.
I have never been in his room before but was not surprised to see it completely black.
"Nice choice in colors." I say, trying to lighten the mood.
"Max…" Fang looks at me with eyes full of intensity. Before he can say he doesn't want me to go for the millionth time, I cut him off.
"I know."
We decide to spend the rest of the day watching movies so Fang goes off to order pizza and I lay down on his bed.
Suddenly I feel all of the energy that was keeping me going while packing slip away and I close my eyes.
"Max, wake up." Fang shakes me awake.
I look around the room and notice it is dark so I glance at the clock. 10:00.
Jumping out of bed I start to pace. "Crap. Crap. Crap. How could I have fallen asleep?" Turning toward Fang I start to yell. "Why didn't you wake me up? You let me sleep away our last day together!"
And then I start to cry again. Immediately, Fang is pulling me close to him, comforting me.
"I wanted today to be special. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to fall asleep, Fang I'm so so sorry."
"Max, it's okay. I enjoyed watching you sleep. You looked so peaceful, I couldn't bear to wake you up. And besides you can stay all night if you want. What's your mom going to do? Ground you for an hour tomorrow before you move out?" I can't help but laugh and in the end I agree. I mean come on, who in their right mind turns down spending the night with Fang?
Looks like we are going to have another sleepover.
Bamm! Chapter 10 is now complete :D Now it is time for you to press that nice little review button and tell me what you think :D Again sorry if I don't post again soon! I will try my hardest!