When Jane woke up Saturday morning, it was the first time in weeks she didn't have a headache. She took a minute to assess things and realized that her dreams hadn't been plagued with visions of Maura and whips and crosses. In fact, she had actually slept so well she couldn't even remember if she had dreamt of anything. And also for the first time in weeks, her shorts weren't soaked through. Jane wasn't sure how she felt about this last part but she was going to take all of this as a win.
After Maura's crazy reaction last night when she had told her about Todd, which thank the heavens she had not lied and just kind of let Maura think of events in a slightly different context, they had had a very cozy night. The sexual banter had not been prevalent and they just cuddled on the couch watching 13th. It wasn't the most romantic subject matter to say the least, but being able to be close to Maura and hear her adding statistics to the ones being presented had felt like coming home to Jane. She really wasn't trying to overanalyze her feelings but it was becoming harder to ignore that she may have real feelings for Maura. Not just the love for a best friend or even the love for a potential lover. Jane was starting to think she was falling in love with Maura. And as unsettling as that thought should make her, she was surprisingly ok with the idea.
Jane always knew that she and Maura had a special connection. Even a blind man could see that. But lately, that connection had deepened in a way that was completely unexpected to Jane. It wasn't just Jane's awakening to her sexuality that had changed their dynamic. It was something much deeper. Jane was still too afraid to really look at what lay down in those depths but she knew it was something profound and for once she wasn't going to let her Catholic guilt get in the way.
Jane had decided not to talk to Maura today for fear of letting slip any details about the play party tonight. She knew she was lucky getting away with using Todd as a shield to not have to lie to Maura but any more communication would lead to something Jane didn't want to deal with. Besides, Jane was about to put herself so far out of her comfort zone it might as well be Pluto, that she needed all day to get her wits about her and make it to the party at all.
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Maura awoke Saturday morning feeling refreshed. As she cracked her eyes open, she actually let out a little hum of pleasure and stretched like a cat who had all the cream. Maura had had such pleasant dreams of being wrapped up in Jane's arms. She had been transported to another dimension where everything was warm and glowed. Even upon waking up, Maura still felt her skin tingling as if she had just come out of pool of hot springs.
Last night had been spectacular. Well, after she almost ruined it. Seriously, she really needed to get this other self in check because these outbursts were getting out of hand. Maura never has had so much trouble controlling her temper like she has lately. I mean of course she has a temper. She has strong Irish blood flowing through her veins but she had always been in control. Something about Jane lately had made her unable to rein in her need to possess Jane. If she really looked at it, she had always been possessive over Jane but never to this degree. Was it because of all the flirting? Maura wanted to unpack this but she also remembered that she wouldn't be seeing or talking to Jane today and the last things she wanted to do right now was get herself all worked up.
As the tingling subsided with the cold dose of reality of not seeing Jane today, Maura decided that she would make herself a healthy, hearty breakfast, spend some time doing her mindfulness meditation, and try to prepare herself for her own Saturday night plans. Maura was looking forward to picking out an acceptable outfit for the play party. She wasn't planning on participating but she still wanted to look her best for the community. To do this, she was going to have to do some more research and maybe even go shopping! This thought put a huge grin across her face, and Maura finally got out of bed, feeling again like she was back in that pool of hot springs.