A/N: I am sooo sorry! I know I haven't updated in light years and I won't be surprised if no one really wants to read it anymore. Anyways I have been crazy busy with school and the sad part is is that I'm not even doing that great at it! Anyways I had this crazy urge to write and all these ideas came to me for this story so here it is!

Oh yeah and to my reviewers I know how you must be feeling about Kai and I am sorry he is such a pain, but I can assure you there are a lot of events to happen and who knows if Kai will turn out to be the person you all thought he was.

P.S. I don't know if anyone noticed but I label each chapter number and well um ehem this is embarrassing, but I don't know if you guys noticed that there was no chapter seven cause I sure didn't! Anyways seeing as I am too lazy to go and fix it all from here on I am not going to label the chapter numbers because it is not vital to the plot line and to be honest I really don't think anyone cares! So without further ado after this painfully long authors note that probably no one read cause who really reads the authors note anyways, here is the next chapter!

Disclaimers: All the characters belong to the brilliant Arina Tanemura!

'I could feel a hot one taking me down
For a moment, I could feel the force
Fainted to the point of tears
And you were holding on to make a point
What's the point?

I'm but a clean man, stable and alone man
Make it so I won't have to try
The faces always stay the same
So I face the fact that I'm just fine
I said that I'm just fine.' Manchester Orchestra

Chapter: Just Fine...

"W-what?" I panted, as his unexpected tongue slid into my mouth. It felt amazing to have the hot flesh slide against mine, only I felt as though there was someone else who had kissed me before...and, although I would never admit it I think I liked the other kisses better.

"Mitsuki," he whispered, his hands trailing down my back leaving a sinking line of fire as they ran back up, only this time on the inside of my shirt. I gasped at his hot touch along my skin as a soft grin grew along his lips. I looked into his green eyes lost for a moment, before I realized he had asked me a very important question and was indeed expecting an answer.

"K-Kai...before I give you an answer, c-can I ask you a few questions?" I wondered, hoping I didn't offend him by putting off his own request. Slowly pulling back he nodded with a gentle smile.

Kai slowly leaned back in his chair placing his hands on his lap as his soft grin never faded. I smiled back crossing my hands over my lap as I tried to think of an appropriate way to ask the mind boggling questions rattling in my head. I wanted to know why when he touched me there was always another stronger feeling on the peripheral of my mind that was not connected to him. I wanted to know why he was the only person I knew when I lived in a world full of them. And most importantly, the one I had refrained from thinking, let alone speaking out loud. I wanted to know who that man was last night, and how he gotten into my apartment. Although I didn't know anyone, he seemed to know me. And what was even more mind boggling was that he had mentioned something about being apart of Route L...and I found that shirt in my dresser that was a man's large labeled Route L.

"Mitsuki?" A soft hand ran along my cheek, distracting me from my reverie. I wanted to scream at all of these confusing thoughts, but I had to trust that Kai would not lie to me. I did love him after all.

"K-Kai, w-why do I only know you?" I did it, the first of my many questions out in the open. I watched Kai's reaction like a hawk, making sure that he would be feeding me no lies. I slightly leaned forward in my chair as my heart took off at a running start. I never realized until now, but I was actually excited to find out what the answers were.

"Mitsuki, you were in an accident," he replied, never taking his eyes from mine.

"An accident?" I replied, touching my head. "W-what kind of accident?"

"A car accident," he replied. "You were driving home one day when you collided with another vehicle. It was awful, you were raced to emergency and the doctors weren't even sure you would survive. You ended up with eight broken ribs, a broken leg, many stitches and blood transfusions. And worst of all, major head trauma. You lost all of your memories, but you remembered me your lover. I stayed by your side Mitsuki because I love you too much." It all made sense, he must just be protecting me from everything else so that I don't get hurt again. I sighed a breath of relief. He really was an amazing man.

"Thank you for staying by my side," I replied, resting my hand over top of his own.

"Did you have any other questions my love?"

"No...w-well actually." I looked down to our hands biting my lip. What would he say about the other feelings? Would I hurt him by saying I felt other stronger emotions that were not connected to him? Would he even understand what I was trying to tell him?

"Tell me," he breathed, brushing his silky hand gently along my cheek.

"I...I have these other feelings," I started, watching his reaction. He lifted his hand, prompting me to go on. "Please don't take this the wrong way Kai, but when I'm with you I am happy. However, there always seems to be other emotions tingling inside of me."

"That's only natural my love, you feel those because you love me so much-"

"N-no," I interrupted, seeing his eyes tighten the slightest bit. I knew he would think me crazy if I asked him this, but I still needed to know.

"I feel like there is this over powering love at the back of my heart begging to break through...but I...I don't want to hurt you Kai but that love I feel is not directed to you! It's like a volcano within me, I don't know when it will erupt. And worst of all I don't even know why it is there or who it is directed to." I waited for my answer, as Kai just continued looking at me. When no answer was given I sighed. "And then there was a man-"

"A man?" he pipped up. I thought I heard anger and almost worry in his tone. Like he was being threatened over some looming fate.

"Y-yes, after you left yesterday some man got into my apartment and started saying weird things."

"Weird things?"

"Yeah, like that he knew me and I was married to him and had his child...I've never been pregnant before right?" I asked, glad to have found the courage to ask such a question.

"Mitsuki what did he look like?" I didn't miss how he did not answer my previous questions, but I assumed he would later. "Um, well he had dark hair, blue eyes, and a handsome face." I blushed, hoping I didn't offend Kai by finding the man attractive. I mean at the time I was terrified that there was a trespasser in my apartment, but now that I look back at it the man was indeed attractive. Like he was some sort of angel or Greek god. I would never admit that I may or may not find the other man more attractive then Kai himself.

"Did you catch his name?" he asked, eyes slightly tightening.

"N-no," I replied, honestly. "I asked him to leave, and then he was gone." Now that I think back I don't even remember the hearing the man leave...it was as if he had just disappeared out of thin air.

"Mitsuki, you should just forget about it. When you first came home from the hospital after the accident you were always seeing weird illusions, for a while you thought you were married to the lead singer of Route L," he chuckled.

Route L...that was the name I had found on that shirt in my dresser. I had just been collecting items from the band. I smiled looking back up to Kai, I guess this did all make sense and it was something I was just going to have to get over with Kai's help.

"Thank you," I smiled, brushing my had over his cheek. "I don't know what I would be able to do without you...and I guess...I guess that answers your first question," I replied with a blush. I watched as pure stark surprise spread across his face.

"Mitsuki you mean...?"

"Yes Kai," I smiled, taking his hands. "I will marry you. Before I felt so lost over everything but just having you around I know that you are where I am supposed to be."

"I promise Mitsuki, I will make you the happiest women in the world!" he replied, leaning over to once again press those tender lips to my own.

"I love you," I whispered.

I had to find Eichi, he was my only hope of trying to recover Mitsuki. I flew all over the angel world, like literally, everywhere. If there was a nook it was searched, if there was a cranny it was stalked to its full potential. There were no spaces of the angel world that had not been violated by my eyes. And yet throughout everything I still couldn't find him!

"Argh! Where is that blonde bastard! He only shows up when I really don't want to see him, never when I actually need to talk to him!" Sighing I decided I would have to find another way to summon the stupid angel.

"You know, for being the only guy who is allowed to have my babies love you are doing a damn poor job." I spun around to see Aoi, Mitsuki's father, with a smirk on his face.

"What was that?" I asked, hearing a chuckle come from beside him. It was then I noticed Mitsuki's mother Hazuki, standing beside him.

"Hazuki," I whispered. She nodded floating over to me with a grin.

"Long time no see," she whispered, pulling me into a hug. "I think the last time I saw you, you were twelve and fighting with Keiichi over a chocolate bar," she giggled, patting my head as she pulled back from our embrace. I grimaced at the memory, I never did end up getting that chocolate bar...worst day ever. "And then I got to watch you grow up into a handsome young man who wins over the heart of my daughter. You know I always wanted you two to be together," she smiled.

"Yeah but he's not following any of the guide lines I made for him," Aoi grumbled, earning a glare from his wife. "What? I told him that he was the only one allowed to love her, yet here he is letting some other man take her hand-"

"Take her hand!" I cut him off. "What the hell are you talking about! I never said someone could take her hand, I was trying to find a way to get her memory back-"

"Memory?" Hazuki cut in. Apparently we were playing the cut people off mid sentence game...

"Yeah, she lost it somehow and she doesn't remember anything...not even our son..." I spoke, looking to my feet. Of all the people she could forget she forgot the one being who was the creation of our love. It was an understatement to say it hurt that she forgot...hell, to say it 'killed' would be the nice way of saying how much that girls loss of memory destroyed my very being.

"Was she given a potion or did someone simply put a spell on her?" Aoi spoke.

"I-I don't know! I left her for a bit with that guy Kai, and then when I got back she had no idea who I was...wait...Kai. But Kai was just a normal guy, I was the one who found him and brought him and Mitsuki together, why would he erase her memory?" This didn't make sense, Kai shouldn't have a motive to go after Mitsuki, should he?

"I don't know, but if we knew how she lost her memory then that would help a lot," he spoke, rubbing his forehead.

"Why is that?" I wondered.

"Well if who ever did this to her took away her memory with a spell then all you have to simply do is reverse the spell. But if it was a potion then only a kiss can undo the results-"

"Alec told me about that, how only her truest love can break the spell. But he also told me about the being erased from existence part..."

"Would you do it for her?" Hazuki whispered. My eyes shot to hers for a moment, only to see tears in her eyes. "Would you bring back her memories, even if it meant losing yourself?"

"Hazuki," my voice was just as hushed as her own. "If I knew for a split second that I was where your daughters heart lay then I would take her into my arms and make sure that she remembered everything we once had...but I. I don't think that is the complete truth I...I think that Eichi is where her heart still is. I mean I know that she loves me- or at least did love me. But to be labeled her 'truest love', I don't think I posses such a title. The only man I can think of that could hold such a strong place in her heart is Eichi." Lost in my speech I didn't notice that both Aoi and Hazuki had come to my side until I felt both of their hands placed on my shoulder.

"Takuto," Hazuki spoke. "Don't lose faith in her just because-"

"She forgot me Hazuki!" I burst. All of my built up anger was finally erupting from inside of me. I couldn't take any of these confusing games anymore, I just wanted my old life back. "Of all the people to forget, she forgot the man she dubbed the 'love of her life'. How the hell do you forget that! I mean she's on earth right now being coddled by some guy she hardly knows and I bet that she doesn't even have an ounce of that love she said she felt for me anymore. Hell she probably thinks that it's all for Kai! I mean, how am I supposed to think that I am her greatest love when she..." Fuck, I was crying. I tried my hardest not to let anything but my anger show at this point but it was so damn hard. I took in a sharp breath trying to ignore the occasional droplets that fell down my cheeks. "When she has forgotten who I am."

"If it were her," Hazuki started, as her hands rubbed gentle circles on my back. "She would look past the fact that you forgot who she was, she would know that deep down, somewhere inside of you was that love. That love that you two share that is so incredible that I myself cannot even begin to understand how powerful it is. Takuto, I know you didn't see it but when you died she...it was almost as if she herself lost her life. She was so drawn out of this world and for a good while Keiichi thought she was going to commit suicide. That's not healthy, that kind of love," she whispered, almost mesmerized herself.

"Yeah well it was all for nothing," I whispered.

"Listen here you heartbroken fool!" Aoi spoke up, grabbing the front of my shirt. "I know you think I'm some ditz who doesn't know what is going on most of the time, and while that is only half true, you two did not come this far just to fall apart! She loves you, I know she does. You know there is more then one way you get her memories back."

"We have been over this so many time!" I snarled. "The kiss, that's all it takes!"

"Yes, if you want to get her back the easy way."

"The what?" I replied.

"The only reason no one knows about the second method is because it rarely works. If the person under the spell is in love with another person after having their memory stolen, then it is next to impossible for them to remember those old feelings."

"Fine...what is the second method then."

"You have to make her fall in love with you again."

"An engagement party?" I asked. Kai nodded with a smile.

"Of course silly, we have to tell all of our friends about the big news!" he beamed.

"Well, yes that is very important but...it's going to be kind of embarrassing when I don't know who any of the people are," I replied.

"It'll be fine," he whispered, pulling me into his arms. "I'll be there." That was all the answer I needed.

"Okay," I whispered, into his chest. "When are we having it?"

"Tomorrow," he replied. Wow he worked fast, he proposed to me just today and he had already set up a party for tomorrow. A small giggle made its way up my throat as I looked into his eyes.

"You were that confident I would say yes?" I asked.

"I only had our love to rely on," he smiled, leaning down for a small kiss. Or maybe it wasn't that small...I kind of lost myself in his lips as his arms wound around me, and my hands tangled in his thick blonde hair. "Mm, Mitsuki, I'm sorry honey," he breathed against my lips. "But I have to go." He pulled back, making a pout form on my lips. "But I will be back tomorrow at four to pick you up for the party," he replied.

"Okay, I'll see you tomorrow. I love you."

"Love you too," he replied.

When he was gone I made sure to put the baby to bed then went to my own. I lay down letting out a small sigh as I thought over everything that had happened. I was going to get married! This was all so crazy! I mean I couldn't wait to re-meet all of mine and Kai's friends and to see my parents. It was probably not a good thing that I forgot who my parents were but I'm sure they would understand. Actually now that I think back I wished I had asked Kai about them. At least I had a chance tomorrow to ask them about my past so that I could put all the pieces of my life back together.

It did not take long for me to succumb to unconsciousness where I was sure sweet dreams would be awaiting me.

"Make her...fall in love with me?" I whispered.

"Well you seem to be good at stealing her heart from other men so this should be a cake walk for you!" Aoi smiled, suggestively nudging my arm.

"Aoi!" Hazuki scolded. "Takuto, don't listen to him." She spoke, placing her hand over my heart. "Just remember all the reason you fight so hard, all the reasons you keep going back, and all the reasons you are so desperately in love with her, and show her how much she means to you."

"Go get her," Aoi whispered. "Go show my baby girl who her truest love is."

As I flew away from the angel world I tried to shake off all the emotional and cheesy speeches I had just heard. I had to focus on my main objective. I knew that everyone wanted me to do something different in order to restore Mitsuki's memory, but to be honest I didn't really believe that any of them would work. I mean making her fall in love with me or a kiss?

I decided that first I would try Aoi's approach in making her fall for me once more. I knew that I could only make myself immortal for only a certain amount of time before the pain became insufferable, but I would do my damn best to ignore it and fight for her. And then if that didn't work then...then I would try kissing her. Even if I was gone it would be alright because she would remember our love. But...but if non of those worked then...then I would have to go back to my original plan. I would have to find Eichi and have him kiss her.

And I hated to admit it, but at this point I could only see my very last plan working.

"Why do I love you so much?" I whispered, as I landed inside of her apartment.

I was in a dark room sitting on a cold steal chair. A sharp pain ran up my back and my back side was numb. Yet non of this pain was comparable to the insufferable anguish in my heart. With each beat it took sent tiny sharp pebbles pumping throughout my veins.

My attention was quickly caught by slow, parted, painful breaths, only...they weren't mine. I leaned forward on my chair only to be shocked when my stomach hit my legs. Why was my stomach on my legs, I wasn't that fat, was I? My hands shakily ran over my most definitely bloated mid section, and I took in a startled breath when I realized that it wasn't fat that made my stomach expand. I was pregnant.

"Mitsuki," a wispy voice spoke, the same voice that had matched the pain filled breaths. My eyes followed the sound to see the black shape of a bed with a man on it. I squinted my eyes trying to pick up some sort of detail from the mans face to identify him, but all I saw was darkness. The figure reached out to me and without thinking I took his hand. The pain in my heart only intensified when the man started coughing. A terrible, choppy array of coughs attacked the man as the pain in my heart spiked. "Help me," he whispered. It was as if those two words were all the motivation I needed to find some way to save this man.

"Stay with me!" I screamed, as I felt his hand slightly slacken. Why was I so attached to this figure, why was I so terrified of loosing him?

"I love you," his voice wretched, he was trying to smooth out his voice, trying to act as if nothing were wrong. I tried to stand so that I could help him but my legs were dead weights leaving me to only stare at the dying man I didn't know.

"Please," I begged, "Please just-just don't!" I sobbed, gripping his hand tighter. "Don't leave me again, you can't!" I bawled.

"You're strong," he whispered.

"Not without you," I whispered, bringing his hand to my cheek.

"Kiss me," he whispered. I tried to get up, I tried to move, but my legs just wouldn't allow it. It was then I heard the beat of a heart monitor. "Mitsuki," he whispered one last time before the loud ringing of the heart monitor announced the mans death.

"NO!" I screeched, shooting straight up in my bed in a cold out sweat. It was a dream, it was just a dream. I placed my hand against my forehead as silent tears trailed down my skin. What was that, why would I have such a horrifying dream? The feelings that had ignited from that dream were so intense it was as if... as if I had experienced that before.

Something was off, I knew I was missing something. I was glad that I had Kai's love...only I still felt empty, like I was a container with a label but nothing inside of me to keep me sustained. Like I had no purpose.

I got out of my bed and walked to my dresser. It was as if my body had a mind of its own as I opened the top drawer and pulled out the Route L t shirt I had found before. Without even thinking about it I climbed back into my bed, hands clenched around the shirt. I held the fabric to my face as the tears continued falling down my face without rhyme or reason. A small sob escaped my throat as I tried to calm my breathing. I didn't no why, but just by holding the simple fabric in my hand seemed to be healing some unexplainable void in my heart.