Everyone had heard about Jay being arrested..ofcourse they did, news in Degrassi traveled fast.

He walked up the steps, and sighed seeing Alex, going to her and ignoring the stares and whispered. The cheerleaders were huddled together, pointing at him and then another.

"look at that," taunted Jay, stopping beside Alex and glancing at them, "No need to call me Jay anymore, just name me Mister rapist"

Alex snorted, rolling her eyes, she didn't think most people actually thought he did it but..look at Ted Bundy..he was an attractive serial killer and ladies man..but he got off on drugging the women.

Alex told Jay while glancing at the cheerleaders specifically, "they're just probably wondering why Hogart thought he'd need a drug to get a girl into bed."

Jay grabbed a cigerette out of his pocket, sick of this already and lit it, breathing it in heavily.

Alex looked around before stepping closer to Jay and whispered, "I Stole the evidence."

Jay coughed up and his lungs collapsed on his smoke, coughing harder and looking at Alex like she was crazy, "You what?!"

"I knew you didn't do it Jay." Alex rolled her eyes, "And they won't find out it was me. The case is closed.. but.." she looked around again, "A told me to do it."

"A?" repeated Jay, his blood boiling by just one simple letter and he scowled, "Yeah, think he/she put the drug into my pocket at the party."

"You think A drugged Nelson too?" Alex asked curiously, watching Jay's eyes fall.

"..I don't know, probably.."

Before they could ask any more question, the whispers got louder, and that could only mean one thing. Emma was here, and she walked pretty quickly passed them.

"Should you.." Alex drifted off, watching Emma go, wondering too even if Jay should go talk to her.

Jay even had a hard time just LOOKING at her and shook his head, "I don't know. I don't know if she's safer with me around or without."

Alex crossed her arms, nodding and clenched her jaw. That was true, "Seems A already has her wrapped into the game anyways.. I don't think you're fooling anyone if even 'A' knows you got a ..'bond' with her."

Jay crossed his arms, nodding..true. 'A' had to know Jay had something for Emma or she wouldn't be such a target.

"'A' knows your weakness, Hogart." Alex whispered and his eyes shot to hers, before guilty-like looked where Emma left.

She was, wasn't she? His weak spot..his soft spot.

Shit.

"Are you going to talk him?" Manny whispered, sitting beside Emma who glanced at her and then snuck a glance over her shoulder to Jay in the back.

Emma looked back down at her paper and just shook her head no, looking upset

"You said you don't think it was him, though?" Manny said.

"Can we not talk about it?" Emma hissed and thanked the lord when the bell rang and got up quickly, grabbing her books.

She thought Jay was one thing, then turned to another the next day. Take their last encounter for an example.. being nice to her, then being awfully mean.

She didn't know what to trust anymore, she didn't even know about trusting her own gut.. so maybe it was better to just stay away from him.

SMACK.

Emma ran right into him at the door, both leaving at the same time and Emma scowled. Ofcourse, spoke too soon.

Jay stared at her a bit and went to open his mouth but Emma just quickly looked away and left in a hurry, Manny behind her and tossing Jay a curious look til leaving.

Jay stayed back, watching everyone go and frowned deeply, leaning on a wall... did she think he did it?

His phone beeped, and Jay wanted to grab it, and smash it against the wall..but lately he'd already broken two of his phones.

He looked at it, and 'A' had texted him.. 'If she looks at you this way, imagine if she found out the secret'

Jays stomach turned without even having to think about it.

A week had gone by, and Jay sat at a cafeteria table with his friends as Emma walked by, eyes on her table that she was aiming to get to

"Well isn't she just avoiding you like the plague?" Spinner asked Jay.

Alex nodded, agreeing.

"It's fine." Muttered Jay, looking down at his can of pop, "Better that way."

"better that the girl you want, thinks you're some ruffie giving man whore pig?" Alex taunted.

Jay glared but shrugged, not knowing if trying to talk to her would be any better or make her think different.

Emma sat alone in MI, Manny was sick that day and she typed on her computer as everyone did their assignments until a chat showed up on her screen..

JayH: Can we talk? Privately..

Emma stopped typing completely and looked around, Jay wasn't in this class, and the windows were shut so any other class couldn't see them.

Did she want to talk? Lots of her screamed yes but the fear said no. She could log off without him knowing she saw his message.

After some thought, her fingers did some typing.

Emma: Alone?

a moment of silence.

JayH: If you're okay with that.. I swear it's not what you think.

Emma tilted her head, trying to think about this but nodded. She didn't think it was either.

Emma: After school behind the Dot

JayH: Got it.

Emma logged off, and when the bell rang for everyone to leave, she grabbed her back pack to go meet Jay.

Jay sat on a hard box behind the dot, his head handing and leaned forward with elbows on knees, the way he usually did when it deep thought.

Emma slowly walked over, carefully eyeing him as he looked so.. sincere, and in deep thought

"Hi."

Jay looked up quickly and stood up. Emma crossed her arms and shifted in her spot.

"You came." he said bluntly.

Emma softly laughed while shrugging, "Said I would.."

Jay blinked and looked around, glad they were for once, alone.

He got straight to the point, "It wasn't me who drugged you, I wouldn't do that, and I really hope you know that." he looked desperately at her.

"I do." Emma whispered, not letting a moment past and he blinked.

She did?

He exhaled deeply, a sigh of relief and he rolled his head back, "Thank-"

"but I want to know how the cops found the drug in your pocket." Emma blurted, wanting answers. Jay's been acting so funny and like anyone knew, Emma was smart... something was up with him.

Jay stared at her, a bit of a deer look covered by the bad boy unreadable face, "I can't tell you."

"you want me to believe you but you won't tell me how the drug ended up with you?!" Emma exclaimed in disbelief, shaking her head.

Jay looked around worriedly, afraid they were talking TOO much about this.

He said quickly and snappily, "Emma, it kills me that someone did this to you, and I would tell you, I would, but I can't... it depends on my safety too, plus my friends and yours aswell again. I don't want to put you through more shit."

Emma was a bit shocked...one, since Jay was showing he cared about her. Two, because he was saying HE was in danger...by who? Who could have Jay Hogart on the edge of his seat?

"I can handle myself." Emma snapped, getting mad now he wouldn't tell her after what she'd been through.. she had the right to know! And quite frankly, she wanted to know what he was afraid of.

"Dammit Emma!" he yelled.

She yelled back, "Well if you want me to trust you-"

Jay leaned in and grabbed the back of her neck to lean her up and he crashed his lips down to hers and kissed her hard, he then relaxed..letting the tingles fly through him, and he kissed deeper, but slower. Emma whimpered a bit but fireworks exploded and she slowly put her hands on his shoulders as his hands gripped her hips, moving his lips with hers.

He pulled away breathlessly and Emma blinked, shocked, and tried to catch her breath.

He looked at her seriously, saying quietly, "If you don't trust me, fine..run for the hills, you're probably safer that way. Just stay away from me." he warned with a begging look in his eye.

Emma looked at him like he had three heads, "You.." she shook her head, trying to take this all in, "you kiss me, and then you tell me to stay away from you!?"

Oh my god, she could slap him right about now!

"What do you want from me, Jay!?"

Jay let her go almost like fire, and turned away from her, crossing his arms and thinking hard.

Emma snickered bitterly, fighting the confused tears that were trying to force themselves out, "Fine! I'm sick of your moods anyways and you trying to mess with my head! I'll stay clear of you, don't worry." Emma turned and Jay cursed under his breath and as she turned to storm off, he grabbed her hand and yanked her back to him.

Mess with HER head? She had no idea how much she turned his world upside down.

Her phone fell out of her pocket and she yelped, putting her hands on his shoulder as he stared down wantingly at her and she lost her breath.

She then looked down at her phone that vibrated and Jay ripped his eyes off her, glancing at it too.

He tilted his head, seeing it light up...and couldn't believe his eyes to what was written on the screen from her text message.

"Jay." Emma warned, trying to clutch his shirt in her fists but he simply grabbed one hand off him and grabbed her other wrist in his hand hostage like when he bent down to the phone.

On the screen read..

'Nice working with you, Em.. thanks for distracting Jay while I deal with Spinner. -A.'

"what?" Emma asked fearfully, seeing his face cringe up and her eyes widened at him, glancing at her phone that was in his other hand, "What is it?"

After a moment of shaking in anger, and Emma whimpering as he tightened his hand around her wrist.

How could she do this to him? Was she making him fall for her for a reason? To hurt him? Plan worked!

Emma yelped, shutting her eyes and jumped as Jay threw her phone at the wall and into pieces.

"You're working with 'A'?! You are 'A' ?!" he shouted madly at her, grabbing her other wrist to as she tried to sheild her face from his yelling.

Emma began to cry and tried to explain, "No, Jay, I-"

"Save it!" he let her go and she fell back against the brick wall behind her, staring up at him fearfully and almost hurt like.

Jay bitterly snickered, shaking his head in hurt, "You could of killed Alex! You and your partner," he sneered in disgust, "Could of killed everyone at that play!"

Emma shook her head at him, trying to talk but he wouldn't let her, so much betrayal in his eyes.

"You put ME in jail!" he yelled at her.

Emma's mouth fell slowly, "Jay, you don't get it-"

"I don't want to." he sneered at her and watched her rub her sore wrists that his wrists may of hurt, and he found himself still caring and that's when he figured it out. He fell for Emma, he was in love with Emma. "You sure played me." he said in disgust and pain, and went to leave but turned back, "Tell your boyfriend or whoever it is that this is DONE."

Emma sniffed, and let the tears run down her cheeks, watching him like a small scared kitten and Jay leaned down, grabbing her phone and walked off.

Guess Spinner and Alex had the right to know..

His heart felt twisted and torn, and ripped.. and he walked all the way back to school where it was now night time and dark out, and he slammed his fist into his own car window, setting the alarm off and he cringed, leaning his back onto his car and held his probably broken hand now.

He just couldn't believe it was her... she was suppose to be his perfect Angel.. his Greenpeace.