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Renesmee's POV
I tried my hardest not to make eye contact or spend time alone with Jacob after our interesting evening. I couldn't believe I had been so stupid as to allow myself to fall for Jacob! It was completely ridiculous. He deserved so much better. Someone who wouldn't ruin his life with every chance she got.
"Need any help?" I asked emotionlessly as I walked into the living room where Alice was in the middle of decorating for my party.
"No, not at all. Go away, your not to see this." she replied as she teetered herself precariously on the arm rest of the couch so she could string twinkle lights in the corner. I sighed.
"This isn't my wedding, Alice; I'm aloud to see my fake birthday's decorations." Emphasis on FAKE.
"Leave." was her only, stern, answer so I did as I was told. Rosalie wanted me in my room at 6 o'clock so she could do my hair and make-up for the party and I was meeting Nick at four-thirty. It was only three. I sighed again. I need to get a life…or a hobby.
I walked slowly through the house and came across the grand piano in the sitting room. I would play it but that would remind me of Daddy and that isn't what I want right now. So I kept walking. I didn't stop even after I left the house. I went out to my car and got in. Turning on my iPod, I listened intently to the song describing my life.
"I don't mean to run. But every time you come around I feel more alive then ever. And I guess it's too much. Maybe we're too young and I don't even know what's real. But I know I've never wanted anything so bad. I've never wanted anyone so bad." the lead singer of Paramore, Hayley Williams, sang in my ear. I sighed. Okay so it should be illegal to write a song that speaks directly to somebody. I hit the NEXT button with zealous attitude.
"That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. I drowned out all my sense with, the sound of its beating. And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa."
"Damn, you Hayley Williams." I shouted at my iPod and punched the NEXT button again. Shuffle was betraying me and I could tell that darn piece of plastic enjoyed it.
"I'm sorry that I hurt you. It's something I must live with everyday. And all the pain I put you through. I wish that I could take it all away." I slammed my thumb against the NEXT button once more with an angry expression. Now Hoobastank was betraying me too. I see how it is.
"I love playing with fire! And I don't want to get burned. I love playing wit fire! And I don't think I'll ever learn."
"Not you too, Joan!" I yelled at Joan Jett's voice as she sang through my car speakers. I sighed. Not a single musician wasn't against me.
"Acting tough with looks that kill. You got me and I can't stand still. My arms are dying to hold you tight. You're my dark dynamite, you know. I love playing with fire! And I don't want to get burned. I love playing with fire! And I don't think I'll ever learn." Joan continued to sing and I finally had enough. I hit the STOP button.
"Why the hell are you sitting in your car?" Jasper asked, his head at my driver's window. I jumped clean off my seat and cursed all too loudly. "Sorry." he murmured but chuckled lightly.
"I'm umm, listening to music." I stammered, feigning a smile. He looked past me to the garage door and his smile faded.
"The red coats are coming." he whispered then disappeared from sight. I turned to the door where Alice now stood.
"I'll kick your little ass for that, boy." she threatened Jasper despite his lack of presence. "Renesmee I need you."
"I though I'm not allowed to see the house?" I didn't move from the car.
"You won't. I need your help decorating your room."
"My room?" I scurried out of the car. "Alice no one is going in my room tonight. There is absolutely no need to decorate it."
"Oh, I know that. But just in case someone gets lost, we at least need to clean it up a bit." I sighed. I suppose I can't argue with that.
I shuffled dejectedly towards the door.
Jacob's POV
I climbed into my car, headed to Nessie's for her party. I wanted to catch her before she left for her date with Nick Heartly. Even if she didn't know it- which was how it appeared to me- Nessie was going on a date tonight. I needed to make sure she knew what she was doing. Even if she got mad at me.
Naturally, when I turned on my car the radio kicked in. I was shocked at what was playing when it kicked in.
"And when the sky is falling, don't look out the window. Step back and hear I'm calling. Give it up, don't take the fast road. It's just your doubt that binds you. Just drop those thoughts behind you, now. Change your mind. You let go too soon." All-American Rejects' lead singer Tyson Ritter sang through the speakers in my VW Rabbit.
I switched the channel for the song spoke volumes to me and Renesmee.
"Seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us. Days grow longer and nights grow shorter. I'll show you I'll be the one. I will never let you fall. I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be here through it all. Even if saving you sends me to heaven." I took a deep breath. That spoke louder then Change Your Mind had.
It was so unbelievably true that I would do anything for Renesmee. Even death wasn't out of the picture for me. If Nessie was in trouble I would be there to help. No matter what.
I changed speeds and began breaking the law so I could get to my Renesmee.
Renesmee's POV
Alice had moved the grand piano into my bedroom and circled it in star shaped twinkle lights. Okay, so I wouldn't mind if that little improvement stayed. I was sitting in my room playing the piano (twinkle lights lit) when I decided to write down the melody I was playing. But it needed more…so much more.
Lyrics. Can I sing? I've never tried.
I grabbed a pen and a piece of paper and sat back down at my piano. Lifting my hands to the keys I played. I sang whatever came to mind first and soon enough I had an entire paper filled with lyrics that meant more to me then any song ever should.
I played it once more.
"We're more then just friends. You're more then human. Your sunny hot skin-" That's when Jacob walked in.
My fingers faltered on the keys as I noticed his presence. How much had he heard? I struggled to remain myself in his presence.
"But every time you come around I feel more alive then ever." Shut up Hayley!
At first he made no movement and I wondered if maybe I was hallucinating. Then he moved and everything was all too real to me. He moved slowly across the room towards me. I froze, unable to move, unable to breathe. But he moved past me. Towards the door. To close it. Then turn to me.
I'm an idiot. I should be stopping this. I should be delivering him from this mistake but I couldn't do it. I wasn't strong enough. Mentally and physically I was not strong enough to fight off Jacob as he spun me around in my seat and leaned his head close to mine.
He cupped my face like he had in the garage but this time he didn't wait. His lips connected with mine and firry passion leaked through both our lips and mingled in the middle where it exploded into a fireball. It burned us both.
Simultaneously, we both gasped a half-moan/half-sigh at the contact. Then we both pulled away painfully. My lips vibrated and tingled. I wanted more! So much more! I needed that fireball again. I needed to feel that soft heat tingle through my lips.
I reached out to him and stood, kissing him with my full body's ability. He lifted me up with one arm around my waist and kissed me back. Song-shmong. I don't need music. This was infinitely better.
But my song reminded me of one thing. I was hurting him. I was ruining his life yet again. I pulled back violently and dropped from his arms.
"I'm sorry." I whispered, whipping the fresh tears on my cheek. "I'm sorry." I repeated as I ran for my bedroom door. He followed hard after me but I heard Rosalie stop him at the garage door. I though fast and ran past my car. That wouldn't be fast enough for me.
"Drop it off at Stan's?" I asked Jasper lightly when I passed him at the front door. He placed a hand on my shoulder- knowing what I was talking about just because Jasper is cool like that- and nodded.
I took off towards the trees.
Lonni's POV
I watched her run towards the trees- towards me. This was my chance!
But, wait. She's crying. Tears streamed her cheeks and her eyes were red. Crying!
She stopped and I watched her pull a ringing cell phone out of her pocket and answer it.
"No, Daddy don't come home. That's not necessary. I have to meet Nick soon anyway. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine." she told the man on the lime, Edward.
I sighed. So this isn't my chance. She was running off to be with some Nick.
"No, Daddy it wasn't Jacob's fault I promise. It's me. I'm an idiot." JACOB? This is Jacob's fault! I was now officially furious. I only saw red.
"Love you, too. Tell Mom I love her too. Come home soon." she said then hung up. I debated what would happen if I revealed myself now but then thought differently. I would wait until after her party tonight. Yes, later tonight. Once all the little townsfolk have left. I'll let them know my intentions are good and that I only wish to speak to her.
I watched her run off towards town and sighed yet again. Renesmee. Oh how I longed to meet dear Renesmee.
Nick's POV
I waited impatiently for Nessie to show. I sat all by myself at a table in the back corner with two menus, glasses and plate settings. I had to pee so freaking bad but I didn't want to get up in case Nessie came while I was gone and thought I'd stood her up. So I stayed. Nearly peeing my pants; I stayed.
I planned out the evening in my head.
I would be waiting patiently for Nessie when she arrived in a little black dress with no back. She would rush over to my table and tackle me with a hug. "I'm so sorry I'm late, Nicolas. I just couldn't decide what to wear. I didn't know what you would like me in most." she would whispered, and spin in a circle to show off her outfit. I would look her up and down approvingly.
"Don't worry about it, doll, you look pretty in anything." I would say smoothly and she would fall all over me and my charm.
"Oh, Nick, your so romantic." she would coo. I would simply shrug and show her to her seat. We would make pleasant conversation then order. I would compliment her and she would loose her mind in my eyes. And by the time our food was done she would be in love with me. I would lead her out to the parking lot with one hand on her back.
"Here's my gift to you, Renesmee." I would murmur seductively while I hand her my gift. She would gasp and stare in awe at the gift in her hand.
"Oh, Nick, you didn't have to buy me anything. Your presence in my life is all I need." she would say, tearing up at my thoughtfulness.
"Open it anyway." I would say and she would do so. The beautiful butterfly necklace from Target would take her breath away and she would cry softly.
"Oh, I love it! It's simply amazing. I'm touched you remembered I love butterflies." she would coo in awe and reach out to hug me. I would allow her that- a hug. But soon I would allow her more. I would allow her to kiss me. But only because I was hungry from the outfit she wore and the way she looked. We would kiss hungrily in the parking lot.
"Screw my birthday. Nick, can we go somewhere?" she would whispered to me.
"Where?"
"Somewhere…private." I would become excited and give her what she wanted again.
"Why, Renesmee?" I tease and she flings herself at me.
"I want you to-"
"Do you want me to take this away?" the waitress asked- again- motioning towards Nessie's place setting. I shook my head theatrically. Shit. That was a good fantasy.
"No, my date is coming."
The black haired, thick eyeliner wearing woman stared me down with her head tilted. "Honey, you've been here for a while now. She is not going to show." she said but left- without the place setting. I sighed. My gothic waitress was right. Nessie wasn't going to show. She was probably off with that Jacob.
Just because he has muscles and a motorcycle doesn't mean he's perfect. And besides, I never pictured Nessie to be superficial. Then again, that man was buff and no girl could resist that- too many sisters taught me that.
I began shuffling to gather my stuff to leave. I took one more look at the door hopefully. And at that very second my horrible luck finally ceased. Nessie walked in and I smiled impossibly wide. We caught eyes and she smiled back at me. She wasn't wearing a backless black dress though. She was wearing machine tattered jeans and a Beatles T-shirt. Her black Converse high-tops squeaking a little when she walked. I sighed.
"Hey, Nick. Sorry I'm late, I had some things go down at my house." she replied as we took our seats. Goth waitress came over then.
"That's alright, Ness. I understand. Family things happen all the time. I hope everyone is alright."
"Yeah, everyone's fine." but she didn't elaborate any further. We ordered and sat in awkward silence while we waited for our food. I tried to think of something to say but nothing came to mind. Until she pulled out her phone when it rang.
"I have to take this. Give me a minute?" she asked after checking the caller ID. I nodded her on encouragingly. A minute later the waitress came over with our food.
"She leave?" Goth asked. I snuffed at her.
"No she did not leave. She's taking an important phone call."
"Mhm, here's your food." Goth practically through the plates down. I waited for Nessie to come back before I ate.
"Sorry that was my father. He's a tad worried about…the party and everything." she said as she took her seat again.
"That's alright. He's not home?" I asked as I began eating.
"No he went someplace with my grandparents and mom for a few days. They'll be back soon though." And after that we ate in silence. I just hoped things weren't this awkward when I gave her her gift.
I decided to do the gift-giving aspect of the evening while we were out at her car. Did I mention that car was sick? And totally not fair that I was stuck driving my dad's Yugo.
"No man your car is different. You definitely can not loose it." Renesmee giggled, taking in the sight of my pathetic yellow 1982 Yugo.
"Different. Sure." I murmured dejectedly. I mustered up the confidence and reached into the front seat for Nessie's present. "Well, I bough this for you for you birthday."
She looked embarrassed. "Umm, why don't you just bring it to the party." she offered lightly. I suppressed a sigh. No, because I'm hoping this gift will change the way you look at me and I don't think that will happen in a room full of people.
"Nah, I'd rather you just open it now." I replied as smoothly as I could. She sucked in a deep breath and let it out slowly, nodding.
"Sure," she practically whispered. She unwrapped it and opened the little jewelry box.
"I thought of you when I saw it. Because you like butterflies." I murmured eagerly. She looked up at me expressionlessly.
"I do?"
"Yeah, you told me you liked butterflies in biology once." I think it was her…oh shit.
"Oh, well thanks. Its cute." and she tucked it in her pocket. In her pocket!
I stared for a minute. Where was the passionate kissing? The lovemaking to come? Ugh! That is not how I pictured the evening to come!
"I've got to run. Alice and Rose want to do my hair and stuff for the party. See you latter. Thanks for the gift." Nessie said easily then waved as she walked away.
Okay, so if it weren't for the fact that Nessie was going to be "done-up" by Alice and Rosalie for the party (and she would look unbelievably sexy) I wouldn't be going tonight.
"Girls suck."
A/N: More music…obsessed? Just a tad teehee. Not to mention the song Nessie wrote is a song I actually wrote; pathetic? Yeah, yeah I write songs about Twilight characters…oh well. Lol. I actually feel kind of bad for Nick...a little lol. It's hard to feel bad for a kid who fantasies of Jacob's Nessie that way...
OMG THEY KISSED! YAY :D hehe. Poor Nick though =(