Sorry that it took so long guys but here's the next chapter.
Fighting
Friday April 30 – School
Clary opening her locker to grab her stuff yawning as she slips what's needed into her bag. "Clary, when's the last time you slept through the night?" asks Simon.
"Three days ago," she responds.
"Clary!" he screeches at her, worried.
"It's not like I haven't been trying, it just all of the fights with Jace and now him," she nods towards Gabriel, "have caused the nightmares to get worse. Luke took me back to the doctors and to the psychiatrist, they say there's nothing more they can do but to let my subconscious work all this out," she tells them.
"Clary, you need to tell Jace," says Izzy.
Grabbing onto her locker door for support, she takes a deep breath and says, "No, I'm not ready to tell him."
"Clary, it's been over five months, that's bullshit and you know it, why won't you tell him?" demands Simon.
Pissed off, she responds in a bitter tone, "Because I don't want to relive that day again. I already have to in my nightmares," and them mumbles "plus if Jace knew, who says that he's not going to leave me. I'm messed up and nobody wants that."
Giving an exasperated sigh, Izzy assures her. "Jace won't do that, he's not that type of guy…" but Clary just tunes her out.
Kaelie
Kaelie standing a ways down the hall, out of sight turns to Camille. "So have you heard about Jace and Clary" ask Camille.
"Yup, they been fighting non-stop for weeks now" she says with a spiteful smile. "Just my luck," she adds.
"So what are you going to do," asks Camille as they walk out of the school.
"Well there going to Acadia tomorrow, and with the fighting that's been going on, and I highly dough they will be making up anytime soon, I'm going to seduce Jace. It shouldn't be that hard since what a man whore he is," she answers giving a little laugh but, continues on with her explanation. "We are going to also go tomorrow; I will then somehow pull Jace into one of the booths."
"Do you think that will work" ask Camille with an eyebrow raised.
"Trust me, Lightwood will be bagging me to get back together with him by the end of the night" she replies with an evil smirk on her face.
Clary
"Clary?" says Izzy.
"Sorry, what were you saying?" she replies. Izzy giving an exasperated sigh, shakes her head and says "Are you still coming over, we have to finish our project."
"Yup, I'll follow you" she answers as they leave the school. Hopping onto her bike, she follows Izzy out of the parking lot and to Izzy's house.
Clary finished with her side of the project, she sits cross-legged on the floor with her sketch pad. "God dam it" she curses as she rips another page from her book.
"What's wrong" asks Izzy looking up from her computer.
"I haven't been able to draw in weeks" she starts to explain but is cut off by a knock on the door.
"Come in" Isabelle yells not looking up from her computer this time. Jace pops his head in, "Izzy do you mind if I steal Clary from you for a little bit," he asks.
"Sorry Jace but we have a project due for Monday, maybe some other time" Clary answers, but Isabelle seeing her opportunity, looks up at her brother.
"Actually you can, Clary is done with her side of the project and all I have to do is put it together. So she free to go" Izzy says returning back to her computer. Clary looking shocked at what Isabelle just said, gives her a pissed off look. Just then Jace enters and helps her up. He then takes her hand and leads her out of the room. With one last look at Izzy, Clary sees her mouth "Talk to him."
Once in Jace's room with the door closed, he turns on her. "Why are you avoiding me" he demands. Here we go, she thinks, but says "because I don't want to answer the questions you ask."
"God damn it Clary, we wouldn't be in this mess if you would just talk to me. If you would just trust me!" he yells.
"I do trust you, just because I don't want to relive my past, it makes me the bad guy!" she yells back. Frustrated he sits down on his bed and runs a hand through his hair, "Look, I'm sorry. It frustrates me when I see you not sleeping. And when you won't talk to me about it, it scares the hell out of me, ok," he says to her.
"Jace I don't talk to you about this because it's not that I don't trust you, I don't talk about it because I don't want to," she tells him. Putting his face in his hand, he groans.
Clary starts to continue but Jace stops her. "Clary!" he says in order to get her attention, "do you know that I'm adopted by the Lightwoods" he ask. Maybe this will get her to talk he, thinks as her waits for her to answer.
"I figured, but I also knew you would tell me when you were ready," she answers him.
Taking a deep breath, Jace continues. "My biological father died before I was born, he was murdered. But as for my mother, well she's the reason I'm telling you this. After my father died, my mother fell into a deep depression while still pregnant with me. She wouldn't talk to anyone. For two whole months, she shut everyone out, and when she reached being eight months pregnant with me, she killed herself. If it wasn't for Maryse checking up on her, I would be too. So when I say it scares me when you won't talk to me, you need to know how much I'm actually scared right now. I don't know what's going on with you're mom but there no reason not to talk about it, or your father for that matter, if he's around" Jace claims.
Clary taken aback by what Jace has told her, feels sad for him at first, but soon realises why her had told her. "You think I'm going to kill myself, you told me this so I would talk to you" she shrieks at him. After a few second he shakes his head yes, "I thought if I told you, maybe you would talk to me…" he says but is cut off by a very pissed off Clary.
"I am not going to kill myself you jerk. I talk to people when needed; I just don't talk to you about it because I don't want to. What do you want me to say, that my mother is dead, because she is! That I watched her die and that I don't tell you any of this or more because I don't want to relive her death you asshole!" she screams at him. "Fuck you Jace Lightwood! Fuck you!" and with that she storms out of the room, grabs her stuff from Izzy's and then storms out of the house.
Alec, Izzy and Jace
"WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED!" yells Izzy as she enters into Jace's room. Just then Alec comes in right after her, "What was all that yelling" Alec asks.
"Me being the biggest idiot in the world, I really fucked up this time" he tells them.
"What the hell did you say!" shrieks Izzy who is still fuming.
"I may have said that I was scared that she wasn't talking to anyone, and then told her about my parents in order to get her to talk. I also kind of told her that I was afraid that she might kill herself" he says, feeling guilty, as he waits for their reactions.
"WHAT!" they both scream.
"You're an ass and an idiot!" yells Alec.
"You fucking dumbass" screams Izzy.
"I didn't know her mom was dead, or that Clary was around for her death. I GOT DESPERATE!" he yells back at them.
"Is that all you she told you" asks Izzy. Taken aback by her question he just nods. "Well at least it's a start" Izzy says. "Look, let me talk to her and see what I can do, let hope you didn't fuck this relationship up to badly" she finishes, rubbing her temples. Just then Jace moves with lightning speed and picks up his sister. "You are the best sister in the entire world" he says hugging her so hard. "I'm not doing this for you, I'm doing this for Clary but I'll remember that for the next time I need something" she retorts back and then leaves.
Clary
After leaving Izzy's house, she arrives at home no longer angry but hurt. Clary entering the house, beelines to her room and shuts the door, hoping that Luke doesn't know she's home. Lying down on her bed, she starts to sob. "Clary?" asks Luke opening her door; he then looks at her bed where she lays crying. Heading over to her, he says "come on talk to me, I know this has to do with Jace." Clary crawling onto his lap, cries into his shoulder for a little while. When done, he holds her and asks again, "What happened." Keeping her head tucked into his shoulder, she mumbles out "we had another fight, he was worried that I wasn't talking to anyone about what was going on. He used what happened to his biological parents to get me to talk." Luke taking all this in gives a little laugh. Clary head snaps up at the sound of this, "Why are you laughing it's not that funny" she grumbles.
"Sorry" he says being serious now, "Clary I want you to listen to me, and then think about what I say. After that you're free to choose what you want to do." She nods and Luke continues. "That boy loves you, anybody can see that, and I know you love him too. Now however misguided and idiotic his thinking maybe, he was thinking about you and your safety. He may have gone about it the wrong way, but he was worried and scared for you and about you. And to me, that is commendable; now I'm not telling you that you should tell him about you mom. That's up to you and he needs to understand that, but I do think you should talk to him about respecting what you willing to tell him. He's worth it Clary." Clary looking stupefied by what Luke is saying just stairs at him with puffy eyes. "Plus he's a guy, we do stupid things sometimes, but we usually have the right intentions" he adds.
Clary still taking everything in finally come to the same conclusion, Dam it, he's right, she thinks. "Ugh I hate it when you're right, but I love having you for a father" she expresses to him. Luke knowing what she means gives her a hug. "How about we go out for dinner" he asks; she then nod and gets a jacket. Walking out to the truck, she feels her phone vibrate in her pocket. Pulling it out she sees 3 texts, opening them she reads,
Izzy and I need to talk to you. Simon
Can we talk? Izzy
Clary, you're right, I'm a jerk; I'm so sorry, can we talk. Jace
Getting into the truck she replies to Simon and Izzy.
Not tonight, Luke and I are going for dinner. I'm off at 12 tomorrow meet me at the diner. DO NOT BRING JACE.
She then slips her phone back into her pocket and continues enjoying the rest of her night.