Yes, kinda short, kinda a filler. but I updated!! Yay!! Lol... So I dunno if I like this chapter!! ANd omg did anyone notice my fast update?? Just updated yesterday and now I'm BAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!! lol... I'm starting a new thing where I'm gonna decated each chapter to someone. These peole will be chosen through reviews, PM's and my friends who are alson on FF. So I would like to dedicate this chapter to two people ThenxtMrsNickJonas for being the 100TH REVIEWER!! And omjb who told me about her friend who has diabetes... So their ya go... Read on...Oh Yea, the song is GOODBYE by MILEY CYRUS!! lol..

22nd July 2008

3.30pm
Tuesday! It was freaking Tuesday!! I hadn't spoke to Nate in two and a half days! Not since Saturday night!

Mitchie's still not talking to Shane and Shane's still not talking to Mitchie.

Let's just say…meal times, well they're an awkward occasion! Like really really awkward. Mitchie and I sit at one table and the guys sit at another. This is how we sat.. every breakfast, lunch and dinner. Since Sunday.

Poor Jason. He didn't know where to sit. He had three choices. Sit with us! The girls. The right place to sit. Or to sit with with the guys, the absolute son's of bitches! Or sit with Ella.

He opted for the third option.

He apologised over and over to me. He said that he didn't want to get involved or take sides. He said that sitting with Ella was the safest place to be. I know he gave the guys the same speech!

Even though I hated to admit I, I missed the guys. I missed Nate. Heck, I even missed Shane. Meal times weren't fun anymore. They were dark and depressing. We didn't talk. We didn't tease each other. No hugging, no kissing. Just silence!

I knew the guys were goin through the same thing. Every now and then I would sneak a glance at their table. They looked exactly the same as me and Mitchie. Now all they had to do was make the first move and apologise…

WAIT! Who was I kidding?

They weren't going to apologise! They were boy's for christ sake! They never thought they were wrong. In their mind, this was all our fault!

Well, technically it was all mitchies fault that her and Shane broke up. But me? I didn't do anything! This is so not my fault. And besides we didn't break up. We're just in a fight. But he's stuid and he needs to apologise!

Still, I can't help think of him. About his diabetes. Why won't he tell anyone? He didn't want people to think he's weak! Who would think that? His friends? Me? Why would we think that? We all love him, we're all ther for him!

Maybe I should talk to him…

What do you think I should do…?

Wait, what am I asking you for? YOU'RE A FREAKING BOOK!!

I really don't know…

Why does life have to be so complicated? It's so damn complicated!

9.12pm
Ok, it wasn't spying! No matter what anyone says, I wasn't spying. The notebook was open on her bed. Clear as day. Well…on a day that's clear, not a cloudy day. You know, I never got that phrase…

Anyway, where was I?

Oh yea, I remember…

So it wasn't exactly spying. But I found out where Mitchie's been venting, when she hasn't been venting to me that is.

No, she hasn't started a diary. Which, is actually a good idea, considering she is the one that made me start this diary in the first place when I was going through a lot…. Oh Caitlyn, you are brillient!!

Anyways, when I walked into our cabin after dinner I expected to see Mitchie there. She hadn't gone to dinner. She said she wasn't hungery… So I had expected to see her when I walked in. But she wasn't.. but her songbook was. And it was open!

What else was I supposed to do? It was practically SCREAMING "look at me Caitlyn!!"

Okay, so it wasn't one of my proudest moments, But I'm glad I looked. She's really going through a lot! Mitchie's songs are normally so happy, so upbeat. But this one was…well, sad. Yes, she did only have a few lines, but it was sad!!

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me With no music playing
I remember those simple things I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I want to forget is goodbye

I nearly cried! Seriously! The notebook was dated today, she had obviously written it during dinner. OMG these boy's are so stupid! Can they not see the misery their putting us through? Why can't they just…? Gurg, I dunno!!

Maybe I should write a song! It seems to be helping Mitchie. I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING!!

Nate I'm sorry
Don't be mad
Now we're fighting,
I'm so sad.

Yea, I suck!!

11.46am

Okay, what just happened? Nate just text me:

We need to talk

Uh oh…

Uh-Oh Spagetti O ; )