A/N: Hey guys….well I'm assuming mostly gals but anyways….i'm sure that those of you who read all of my stuff will be a little sick of the slushy incident by now but it seems I'm still enraged enough about it to come up with more stuff so I put it here. Did you see the new warblers performance? Blaine is cheering them on! What the actual fuck? I also kinda wanted to include this b/c AngelisIgniRelucent suggested I do something about Sebastian. I know this wasn't her original idea but I definitely wanted to honor her in some way for simply being one of my most loyal readers! I hope everyone enjoys it. Feel free to leave prompt ideas
Lessthanthree
Katie
Hey, mom. How's life treating you? Schools been pretty exciting. Mr. Shue asked Ms. Pillsbury to marry him. She said yes, of course. Unfortunately he had to plan this big elaborate proposal which involved me in swimming trunks, with wet hair, in a pool, in front of people. I was not impressed. Blaine looked pretty cute though. I swear that boy is like a puppy. It was like he'd never seen water before in his life and he was bouncing all over the place, grinning like an idiot. I miss his grin.
I haven't seen it in a few days. He's been in the hospital and he has to have eye surgery. That's not why he's sad though. He's sad because it was his friends that put him there.
I don't know why he puts up with Sebastian. I know he's not interested in him in any way but he still talks to him. I don't get it. Doesn't he see the way Sebastian looks at him like he's some piece of meat? Doesn't he see that Sebastian doesn't care about him in the least and is only looking for his next drunken, horny, hook up that he can just dump the next day? I don't see why Blaine humors him. He's so touchy about that stuff as it is. He almost got into a fist fight with Sam when Sam insinuated that his only worth was his ability to sell his body to the judges. I know Blaine doesn't know what Sebastian's said about me. The little twerp seems at least smart enough to not say that stuff in front of Blaine. He knows Blaine wouldn't have anything to do with him if he knew the truth. I hope that's the case. Although I was truly surprised when Blaine said they talk so who knows. My guess is that Sebastian always initiates it and Blaine being his dapper self doesn't know how to stop it. Hopefully he'll use this horrible mess as a good excuse. I don't know how he couldn't. I'm scared he won't though. I'm scared that he loves the rest of those boys too much to not forgive them and will therefore include Sebastian in the mix simply because he's a Warbler; he's part of the team. They kinda do function like one being.
I don't know if I want him to forgive the boys. That one's tough. I mean, they got together and hashed out a plan to throw a slushy in my face and then walked away from Blaine while he was screaming on the ground in pain. It was scary, mom. He was screaming and writhing around in the fetal position and was too worked up to tell us what was wrong. I tried to hold him, calm him down, but I was so shaky. We were all so lost on what to do but we could tell it was his eyes. It wasn't like he broke his arm; it was those beautiful golden eyes. All I remember was the sound of him screaming and the girls crying softly and then that deafening siren of the ambulance. God, I hate hospitals. Everybody met us there though to make sure he was ok. I'm so glad they came. I couldn't stand to break down in front of all of them. They kept me strong. The Warblers never showed up, they never called or texted. They just walked away like they didn't care, like they wanted to hurt him. I know they didn't. They didn't know about the rock salt and they thought I was the target so how could they just walk away and not even call when everything went so wrong?
I think he needs them though, mom. I think he needs them on his side because they know so much and it's scary to think of them suddenly becoming the enemy. It'd almost be like if we turned on each other. Karofsky would look like child's play if Blaine decided to use all my demons, all the things I told him in secret and in trust against me. If we do ever break up, it'd need to be amicable or I would die in fear of him unleashing those dark parts of my mind back on me. I don't think he'd ever do that; I'm just saying. We didn't think they would ever do it either though. Don't think it slipped past me that they picked a slushy to throw at me, something that's a sore spot from when I brought a change of clothes to school every day because of it.
I think that's why he'll end up forgiving them though. So many people have turned on him and if he had to add the Warblers to that list, I don't think he'd ever be able to trust again. I think he also just really likes them. They're his boys. They're like Rachel and Mercedes to me but even more so. No, you know what they're like? They're like what Blaine was to me when we first met. He just brought the hope and joy and comfort back and that's what they did for him. He gets along with the guys at McKinley but it's not the same. I know he misses them and I know he was scared of losing them when he transferred. That was the biggest thing holding him back and I can see him just moving past this so he doesn't have to admit that it happened.
I know this is probably selfish of me but because of all that I kinda hope he can forgive them. I asked him to transfer. I know he said he wanted to but I really don't think he would have if I hadn't asked. But now, because he did transfer, if he doesn't forgive them, than he loses them because of me. He just looks so heartbroken and lost and I can't help but think that if he had stayed at Dalton he'd still be that happy little puppy. I don't know how to help. I even offered to have him teach me how to play guitar and shot me down. He loves his guitar. And I don't know if I should encourage forgiveness of finding ways to be strong without them. Uggg, I'm just so mad at them. How could they do that to him? It's Blaine, the boy who's so sweet that he jumped in front of that horrid thing to save me.
He jumped in front of me and took the blow himself, mom. I've been slushied countless times and no one's ever tried to save me. Mind you, I'm usually with the girls when it happens and I don't expect them to take it for me. See, I can be chivalrous too. It's not just Blaine. Do remember that time Finn did it? He couldn't do it himself but he selfishly got all the way to me before he chickened out and unloaded all the crap he was getting from all of the stupid jocks about being in glee club. He had the nerve to make me feel guilty about what those Neanderthals say behind my back and what would happen to him if he didn't go through with it. So I did the chivalrous thing; I threw it on myself so he didn't have to. I paused, you know, after I grabbed it from him. I was hoping he would stop me. He didn't. Blaine's the only one who thought that maybe I'd had enough humiliation for one lifetime. Sometimes I think he's the only one who really thinks about me.
That shouldn't be how it works though. We shouldn't have to be each other's one and only. That's a lot of pressure, mom. It kinda scares me because if that truly becomes the case, I don't know how long we can handle it.