Ha ha! (yes, XMizzTuraX, totally stole that from you lol :D) Gotcha my lovelies ;) Here's a little surprise! Chapter 10 is already here XD Lool, I knew you would want to know what would happen quickly so here it is :) I also felt really bad about my irregular updates of this week so I thought I could be forgiven by posting two chapters tonight... did it work? ^^ I hope it did! So here we have a little bromance talk between Jace and Alec and I must say I've been inspiring myself a lot with my sister's way of talking to me loool... As she is older, she often called me off on my stupidity and pride :) She was already like a mother to me and now she's one for real so this is a bit of a shout out for her ;) She have her Izzy moments too and I just hoped I haven't got Jace or Izzy too OOC with that. Anyway, hope you enjoy this chapter, lovelies XD I'm already working on the next chapter tonight but! You'll have it tomorrow only ;) Can't spoil you guys too much, right? lol!

Disclaimer : Don't own nothing *sobs* :(

P.S. : Yes Mads-hatter-15, my nephew is doing super well, thanks for asking! He's gorgeous, already holding his head up and being an angel altogether :D He'll become an amazing little fellow in no time ;)

Chapter 10: A Way With Words

I was sitting on the concrete stairs in front of one of the many buildings of NYU, smoking a cigarette, something I hadn't done in years, and looking as if someone had killed my little brother. Which was exactly how I felt. I was waiting for Jace to get out of his final exam, being the only one between him, Clary, Simon and Izzy who had had to present himself on December 23, which angered him to no end, rambling about inefficient teachers who couldn't grasp the meaning of holidays. I didn't even know how I ended up here. We had planned to meet, yes, before leaving to our 'teenager's party' that had been scheduled for Christmas, without the obligations of seeing parents that my siblings and friend would face the following days. I think it was their ways of letting me know I was still part of their loving group even if I wasn't allowed more than ten feet close to our childhood's neighborhood. Although, now my brain felt empty, my heart numb and I couldn't recall how I came here. Why was I smoking, when had I bought a pack of cigarettes, how have I been able to take the metro up here and most of all, how have I been able to get up from my bedroom floor where I had been lying, curled up in a sobbing mess, for the past hours? I had no ideas.

I kept replaying the morning in my head, disbelieving. How could I have been so oblivious? I know why, I sneered at myself, cynical and hurt. The only thing you saw was how beautiful he was and how desperate you were to have him in your arms... pathetic. I face-palmed, trying to rub away the disturbing thoughts. I wasn't so off the mark but I still hated myself for it. I was so naive; thinking someone as beautiful as Magnus could glance my way without pretenses. He probably thought I was an easy catch... But he said he loves you, my mind uttered again, out for the kill. I really needed a drink; I wouldn't have any peace any other way. I flicked my cigarette's butt in the street, trying to fight the urge to light another one right away.

He hadn't even stayed... hadn't waited for me to change my mind. I was about to and he just ran off. This was what had been the hardest. If he loved me as he had said he did, wouldn't he have fought? Why didn't he try to make me change my mind? I knew I was being ridiculous but I felt so lonely without Magnus's arms around me that I was suffocating, wallowing in my dreadful sorrow. I wished he had sweep me off my feet and threw me in bed, giving me no other escape but to give in to him and forgive him just like I had wanted to do so badly. But I am a coward... so here I was, on the verge or crying, and waiting for my best friend to go to a party I had no inclinations in enjoying.

- "You look like shit." Jace said behind me, with his usual delicacy... which resumed to rude and painful truth.

- "Shut up Jace. I don't need your crap right now." I answered half-heartedly. He came to sit by me and took a long glance at my face, probably sniffing the remaining smoke smell on my clothes as he furrowed his brows disapprovingly.

- "What's up with you? You haven't smoked in ages... In fact, not since your parents kicked you out." He winked at me in an attempt to make me feel better. "Feeling lonely, sugar? I could try to get you laid tonight but you never even looked at any of the dates I brought you... And well, even if I wished, my fabulous self isn't available for that. If I was gay, you can be sure I would have fucked you senseless ten years ago, if that makes you feel any better." Jace said coyly. Usually, I would have turned beet red, shushing him about his coarse use of my second biggest secret I had hidden for so long, sure he hadn't known about it back then, years ago. I had been wrong. It had taken a very drunken night out, the day after I'd been kicked out, for him to tell me all about it... almost crying and telling me how sorry he was for not being gay and how he had been feeling bad for hurting me without being able to do anything about it. We had laugh about it ever since. But not today. It didn't even give me a flicker of embarrassment or laughter.

He kept quiet for a while, staring at me. This was typical Jace's behavior. If irony or ruthlessness didn't get it out of you, it would be the staring contest. He was right. Soon enough, I was spilling my beans, half-choking, half-crying. He didn't say a word the whole time, letting me get it out of my chest, although I could see his hurt expression, remembering at this moment that he hadn't know about Magnus and I. I felt bad but speaking helped me and my verbal diarrhea went on. When my words ran out, I realized the sky had darkened and that we had been sitting here for a long time. I was frozen and my shoulders slouched in an attempt to bring warmth to my poor body but also in defeat. I felt even emptier now that the words were out there, my stupidity laid out for all to see... well, for Jace to see, mostly. But I couldn't deny that somehow I felt better. I had shared my burden and it wasn't hanging so heavily on my shoulders anymore. The silence stretched and I lifted up my eyes to meet the golden ones, all thoughtful and pensive. He spoke as soon as our gazes met.

- "You know you're being a complete drama queen, right?" My best friend said, cutting off through the heavy air and leaving me flabbergasted. I was the drama queen? What the hell! But Jace, knowing me as he did, spoke up before I had a chance to shout at him about his unjustified comment. My face was already getting red with the righteous unfairness I felt... or so I thought.

- "Calm down, Alec! Angel, you're so impulsive sometimes!" He said with a sneer. Damn Jace... always the condescending bastard. "And anyway, you know I'm right!" I was coming close to the point of combustion again when he continued. "You love the guy, it's obvious! And you let him walk out for some petty argument?" I opened my mouth again but Jace seemed intent on hitting me hard with his all-knowing speech. "It is petty, Alec! He lied to you, so what? Yes, I know you hate liars but it's not as if he suddenly gave you HIV or became a drug dealer or a prostitute for god's sake! And most importantly, he told you all about it." I raised my eyebrows in disbelief but was quickly silenced with one of Jace's famous glares. "Yes it is important, my friend. He could have kept on fucking you and living for free under your roof till his heart's content. But he didn't. He's been honest. Yes, it took a while but he did... And seeing as he didn't want to take advantage of you..." He chuckled when I looked back at him, snorting from his last words. "Well, not too much... But again, you're really hot Alec. Who could resist you?" He laughed out loud at his words, leaving me blushing like a maiden.

- "What I mean is that, even if I can understand why you feel betrayed, you should give him credit. Yes, he lied. Yes, he waited for a month and a half to tell you what he really is. And yes, it was rude and stupid to do it after he gave you the best fuck you ever had..." He raised one of his eyebrows at me when I tried to stutter my denial. "Please, don't be impolite. You can't lie to me. I know he's been your best fuck ever. I never saw you blushing like that. It's rather amusing to be honest." He chuckled again. God, I hated Jace for knowing me so well sometimes. His golden eyes softened suddenly and he wrapped up one of his arms around my shoulders, speaking his next words cautiously.

- "Alec... I think you should give him another chance. I know that somehow you feel like you don't deserve happiness and maybe that's why you freaked out so much. You let yourself believe that finally, you could be happy this time and it's like it all blew up in your face, once again. And as you're such a girl..." I hit him hard on his arm, shouting in protest but he laughed again and just kept talking. "You're surely sulking about the fact that he didn't fight for you or that he didn't take your refusal for the huge shouting yes it was meant to be. And you're too stubborn and proud to do something about it now." I looked at him distrusting, my lower lip pouting slightly as I knew he was right. I kept silent, refusing to acknowledge his victory.

- "Now Alec, why don't you both do us a favor and run back to him? We both know that's all you've been thinking about as soon as he walked out of your bedroom. Allow yourself to be happy once again, Alec. It will do me the service of not having to find you lousy lays tonight."

My best friend looked at me with fondness in his golden orbs, letting me know that even if his words were harsh, he loved me nonetheless and wasn't judging me in any way. He just took his job really at heart; which was to tell me when I was being a complete moron. Nobody but Jace could do it so well. I left my head hanging and went silent for some seconds. I finally sighed deeply and glanced at my once-upon-a-time crush and wondered about how I had been drooling over his built frame, his golden locks and piercing amber eyes. I was glad we had passed through my stupid crush without being broken. I couldn't wish for a better friend. And as now my heart was melting for a tall lean green-eyed sexy man, with the most mouth-watering flawless caramel skin, I understood that what I once felt for Jace wasn't more than a very strong friendship. He had been one of the pillars that had held me through the storms that marked my young life. He would always be an important part of my life. But I loved Magnus. That was undeniable.

- "You really choose your master well, brother." I said with a playful voice, calling him the way we used to when we were kids. Jace looked at me inquiringly. "You really have a way with words." I said cheekily. He laughed again. "Can you..." He cut me off, knowing what I was about to ask.

- "Yes I'll excuse you to your sister. I'll try to be convincing enough so she won't cut you in little pieces next time she see you." He chuckled at the thought. I stood up, starting to walk away, waving behind my back when I heard his shouting voice.

- "Go get him, tiger!"

I went red all over and ran away as I could still hear his muffled laughter in the distance. Damn Jace... He was a benediction and a malediction altogether.

My feet moved faster, eager to join our lover. Just before I step into the metro, I typed a quick text to Magnus. I had found a scrambled note on my coffee table, this morning. I should have answered then...

'I will never be able to say properly how sorry I am... but if you ever change your mind about us, here's my cell phone number. I love you. Magnus.'

It was about time that I told him how sorry I was myself...

Magnus's pov

I had cried all day. I didn't know what else to do. I had screwed up so badly and all I wanted to do was to crawl back to him and beg him restlessly to take me back. I was about to resolve to this solution when my cell phone biped, informing me of a new text message and sending my heart in a whirlwind of frenzy. I flipped it open, hopeful. I was rewarded with the message I had waited for.

'Meet me in front of our cafe in an hour. I love you. Alec.'

Woohooo! Malec will get back together next chapter! Are you excited? I know I am ;) Lool see you soon lovelies! XD