Okay, my lovely readers, this chapter is written differently. The scenes go from flashbacks to present. And on top of that, it's only fragments. You will find out how they acted around each other right after the kiss and before the break-up, just not in this chapter. We're almost at the end now. But don't worry c; Staying Sane Inside Insanity will be posted right after I'm done with this one. Only because I don't like waiting for things like that, so .__. Yeah.

I do not own Kuroshitsuji. If I did, why would I be writing this?

I always make mistakes, I know. So don't mind 'em.

Song is: Second Chances by Paper Route.

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Sebastian knew very well what he had said was unforgivable. So why was he so disappointed when Ciel told him their relationship was nothing? He didn't know. Had he expected the worst but hoped for the best? He had carried the boy's almost lifeless body back to the mansion that night, the angel's kiss still lingering disgustingly on his thin lips. Why had he let that happen? He never wanted that. Why had he led the boy on just to break him down merely hours later? Why had he told Ciel he couldn't promise that he'd stay by his side, when really, he would have if that's what Ciel wanted. But Ciel did want that, he had, he would have always wanted it if he hadn't broken the boy's heart. He seemed to muster up all the hatred inside of him just so he could express it when the demon was in his presence now. Sebastian was still confused about how Ciel had come to the conclusion that a nice "break-up" gift and replacement for himself was Chibi, the cat, who Sebastian had been playing with before Ciel took a step closer to him, admitting he wanted to be with him. Even now, almost a month later, he'd re-live that night a week after he kissed the angel.

"I don't see how I thought this would work." Ciel stated coldly, not even looking at the demon.

"What are you saying?"

"I'm saying I don't want to love you anymore and I don't want to pretend that you love me back."

"I do love you, Ciel."

"I believe when you love someone, you do what you can to make them happy, to keep them with you. You didn't seem like you were trying at all when you told me you'd leave!" Ciel turned around, slamming his hands down on the desk that was now in front of him. Tears were streaming down his cheeks and his eyes seemed empty. Sebastian knew at this point, he couldn't get the boy back.

"I didn't mean tha-"

"You did. Why try, Sebastian? Huh? Why even attempt to tell me that what you said that night, what you seemed so sure about, wasn't true? It was a lie, really? There was no reason to lie."

"I can give you everything you want, Ciel. Just don't do this." Sebastian took a step forward, only to have Ciel move away from him.

"You make it sound like it's something truly difficult, when, really, it's so easy."

"How so?"

"Because I've grown to only want you, Sebastian."

"You can have m-"

"No. Sebastian, I already had you. And guess what. I lost you in less than 24 hours."

"You never lost me! Don't try turning this thing around and blaming it all on me! You're the one telling me that you don't want to do this, that you don't want me. And that's not even the worst part. You're also telling me how I feel and what I want, when you aren't me! You have no right to tell me how I feel."

"How am I supposed to believe otherwise? Your actions seem to prove this was only a joke. A sick, stupid, joke."

"You know very well my actions didn't prove that."

"Maybe not. But I'm positive that your actions did prove that you planned on leaving. The only thing keeping you at my side is the fact you'll get something in return, neh? Doesn't sound like you care about me at all."

"Ciel.."

"Sebastian, listen. We're not going to continue this little.. affair of ours. If you have a problem with that, you can leave. If you don't want to leave, finish the contract. I think the fact I seem to only be creating more problems for myself proves I shouldn't have tried getting revenge in the first place."

"Do you regret this? If I stay, do you think we could try again?"

"I don't regret anything. And maybe."

"It's a yes or no question, Ciel."

"Yes. We will try again if you stay and still want to."

"How long?"

"Hm?"

"How long until then?"

"A while."

After that, things seem to go back to normal, meaning the normal before they had admitted their feelings for each other. Things were going well until, that is, Gilbert came back a month after he had left for his mother's funeral. Sebastian had been preparing the tea while Ciel was in the other room, his arms wrapped around the other man's body, trying to comfort him.

"I should have been there.."

"You didn't know."

"But-"

"Sh." Ciel was running his small fingers through the man's hair. His mind wasn't actually set on the current situation, but the tea that seemed to take a very long time to be prepared. Gilbert suddenly sat back up, pulling away from Ciel. He looked at Ciel with red eyes, then slowly leaned in closer. Ciel had expected the man to break down in his arms again, but was surprised when the man kissed him softly. Too shocked to pull away, he sat there frozen as the man in front of him ravished his lips.

That's when Sebastian chose to finally walk in with the tea. His eyes went wide when he saw the two sitting there having their own personal make-out session. Overwhelmed by the situation he leapt over to the couch and tore Gilbert away from Ciel. He wrapped his hand around the man's neck, slamming his back against the nearest wall, choking him. Ciel got up quickly, grabbing the demon's arm, attempting to stop him.

"You're going to kill him, Sebastian! Let him go!" But he continued, ignoring the cries from his former lover.

"How am I supposed to believe we can fix things between us when you're already finding someone else?"

"I order you to let him go." Ciel's arms dropped to his sides, he looked Sebastian in the eyes.

"You think that'll work now?" Sebastian swiftly let go of his victim, then quickly grabbed Ciel by the neck. "You're a liar, young master." Gilbert slid down the wall, rubbing his neck while staring at the two above him. Ciel didn't seem to be struggling at all, he only smiled softly which seemed to infuriate the demon even more.

"I am."

Sebastian had let go of his master, huffing, then turned on his heel and left. Ciel only followed after. When at the staircase, Sebastian turned around to see Ciel, still smiling. His hair was slightly messy, his eye patch barely clinging to his head. Sebastian knew very well that the situation wouldn't end well at all.

"I want you to leave, Sebastian." Sebastian wanted nothing more than for that smile to disappear. It wasn't a true smile, not at all, it was a smile expressing the disappointment, anger, and pain his lover felt.

"You want me to leave?"

"Yes, I never want to see you again."

"Why?"

"You're a terrible butler."

"What about-"

"It's for the best." In Sebastian's opinion, the boy was a good liar. The way he could tell him he never wanted to see him again, then say it'd be for the best, with honesty still marking its place in his tone.

"How can you say that?"

"It's only the truth."

"Have you already forgotten what you told me the other night? When you love someone, you do everything you can to keep them with you. Now you're trying to get rid of me when you know you love me."

"I thought I lied about loving you in the first place?"

"You wouldn't have cried if you didn't love me, Ciel. You wouldn't have gone out of your way to make me jealous."

"You're right."

"So why are you asking me to leave?"

"Because you've gone too far. I know I can stop loving you, I'm sure. And that's what I plan on doing." Sebastian didn't reply, he knew if he did, he'd only make things worse. He turned around and walked away, missing the hurt expression the boy had.

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Okay, I'm a little bit more confident about this one since I had a few people read it before I posted it. Most said this was their favorite. My dad (Yes, I let my father read some of the chapters that are sex-less) said it wasn't general, that it showed how both characters expressed their feelings without me telling you guys exactly how they felt. So, I believe this is one of my better chapters. I hope you liked it. I'll update either later today or tomorrow. O;

R&R? It inspires me.