Can You Look At Me Now?

JPOV

It was hard not to stare at her while she ate Emmett was still sitting in front of her I am sure to wait for her to do something funny, I leaned back on the couch and closed my eyes I knew I had to tell her things that were going to be hard on the both of us, but what is going to happen when I tell her about Edward.

Then it dawned on me like a dumb shit, go ask Alice, I leaned forward and looked at the two laughing and making food jokes, right now Emmett was comparing her cheeseburger to dog food which I will admit it smelled just the same. Just as I looked over at Bella she was giving Emmett a lesson in see-food, I would not even fall for that one.

"Bella.. " she looked at me and closed her mouth the familiar red rushing to her cheeks I smiled. " darlin I am going to go talk to Alice real quick, you can hang out here with Emmett".

I felt a small pang of jealousy from her I kinda liked that feeling, I leaned over and gave her a soft kiss to the temple and whispered " Angel I will just be a little bit, then I want to take you somewhere ok " she gave a small nod and I got up and headed to the stairs then Emmett spoke up " Bells… you haven't even looked at your toy what is it"?

As I was walking down the stairs I heard both of them crack up laughing and Bella squeal " oooo how cute, lets go see if he sparkles" . I just got into the hall when Emmett blew past me Bella flung over his shoulder and in her left hand she held a little plastic vampire chicken mcnuggett with fangs a cape and a little black bat I laughed and went to find Alice.

I found her in Emmett and Rosalie's room, she was knee deep in the things she was tossing out of his side of the closet Rose was sitting on the bed flipping threw a Cosmo she didn't even bother to look up at me but her emotions rang loud and clean she was not thrilled with me in the least bit.

I leaned on the door way and looked down at Alice and she gave me a 100 watt smile I shook my head and headed out of the room, knowing she was right on my heels. "Alice, your ass better be back in here to clean this shit up".

I walked into Carlisle's office, knowing had taken off for the hospital in Port Angeles for an interview. Alice flittered over to his desk and sat on it I walked over to window and looked out.

I saw Bella and Emmett sitting in the grass playing with that toy it seems like for now she has forgotten all her worries. I smiled and turned to Alice. " ok Jazz, taking her to the lake is a wonderful idea, don't forget a blanket … and telling her about Edward is the best thing, and I should tell you and you can chose what to do with this, Edward is not coming alone."

I blinked a few times, " what do you mean not coming alone", " exactly like I said, he is not going to be alone, he is bringing his fiancé , and she is bringing a friend". The way she said friend and beamed I knew right away this is the person she has been waiting for, "Alice .. You sneaky lil pixie, that is the best news I have ever heard". Nothing could take the smile off my face now.

She got off the desk and went to the window and looked out over the two in the yard I joined her. " ya know Jazzy, this is going to take time, she is very fragile still and Jake is going to be hovering like a bird of pray, and you know I will not tell you everything but I will tell you this cause I can see your unsure, its going to all work out Jasper", she headed for the door but stopped and turned back to me " 3 days Jazzy, just 3 days to heal her…make it count" with that she danced out of the room.

I headed out and I got to the top of the stairs and Alice stopped me and threw me something, I caught it and looked at it, it was a little vile of sliver shimmer power what the hell do I need this for its fuckin sunny out I am going to shimmer enough. She gave me a little wink and said " trust me you going to need this" and she disappeared back into Rose and Emmett's room.

I ran down the stairs and out the back door and then slowed when I got close Bella noticed me at once, the sun glinting off my skin and my scars especially but she didn't even flinch at the site of my mangled skin, I thought back to see if she had ever seen me in the sunlight before, but she hadn't Edward always made damn sure I kept my distance.

" Jasper! What does a girl gotta do to get a little mcnuggett sparkle around here"? I smirked at her bad attempted at a Texan accent. "well darlin, I might have somethin here for ya" I laid it on thick. I tossed the shimmer to her, it bounced off her nose and rolled away Emmett was on his back laughing so hard it sounded like he was choking.

She picked it up and looked at it and grinned opening it and pouring some on the little toy. She looked the toy over and huffed a little " nothing like the real thing, but it will do"

I did my best to hold in a laugh myself Emmett still rolling around busting a gut. I crouched down and kissed the tip of her nose " my apologies Miss Bella" I kept crouched next to her.

" Are you ready for that trip I was talkin about " I watched as Emmett got up and smiled, "Bells .. don't do anything to funny while I am gone" he took off before she could retort. She looked back over to me " sure Jasper, I am ready when you are".

I stood and held out my hand to her and she took it, holy shit she took it and I felt her warm soft hands, I began to feel excitement from her and I realized it was more from me projecting it to her but she didn't say anything about it she just laced her fingers with mine as we walked around to the front of the house.

I think now would be the best time to inform her she had left her truck running and had ran out of gas, we stopped about 8 or so feet from her truck and I stopped her " ah Bella, I think we are going to have to take something other then your truck" she looked at me a little confused.

" well it went like this, you were so upset and I didn't want to leave your side so it just kinda ran out of gas" , she softly head slapped herself " god I feel like a dumbshit , what the hell am I going to do". I opened my mouth but before I could get a word out Emmett came running out in his super hero stance again " don't worry a bit Bells I will take care of it" and he was off again.

She looked at me and burst out laughing " I so have to find him a cape" " Bella…you know that will only encourage him more" I smiled and lead her to the garage and opened the furthest door and sitting there was the second love of my life, my Ducati super bike gloss black I was hit with a blast of excitement, hell yeah she liked the bike.

I walked the bike out of the garage and she fallowed with a smile on her face I got it to the front of the house and turned to her "have you ever been on a bike before" she gave a sly smile " well …actually me and Jake used to ride all the time". I think this excited me more then it should, I looked at what she was wearing" stay here be right back" I ran into the house and to my room grabbing a leather jacket, it was nice and broke in so it would not be all stiff on her, I also grabbed the blanket Alice told me to. I was down to her side in a second and held the jacket open for her to slip into.

She smiled at me as she slid into the jacket and I saw her take a smell of the leather, I hoped it was not just the sent of the leather she liked but that she was also taking in my sent.

I got on the bike tucked the blanket in front of me and looked back to her for her to get on.

She had a look on her face that she was working something out in her head, then I saw her hike up her ankle length skirt, I could not help my eyes from looking her over.

She managed to get on the bike and I turned the key and hit the starter and the bike roared to life under us, her arms slipped around my waist and I felt her head rest in between my shoulders I smiled. "Hold on tight angel" I took off I wanted to excite her but I kept it reasonable I didn't want her to freak out.

We hit 80 before we got to the main road, and she was still doing ok not one hint of fear. I remember Edward once told me she would freak out when she would ride on his back when he ran, does that mean she trusts me more, or is she just not scared of anything anymore. Not once did she tense up or ask me to slow down we got to her house in no time and she was confused.

I stopped the bike in front of the porch and killed the engine and I sat up straight. "why are we here Jasper" " well I thought you might want to change, it might be a little cooler where we are going, and to be honest I am fond of your clothes I am kinda over Alice clothes, not that you don't look wonderful, but I figured you would be more comfortable in your own clothes especially on the back of the bike.

Just as she was getting off Jacob came out of the house anger just poured off him I had to do everything I could to hold in the growl that built up in my chest, she turned to me with pleading eyes wordlessly telling me to be nice. I gave her a nod and she got to the porch giving her friend a glare and she disappeared inside.

"I would really be grateful you would clam your anger Jacob it is not going to help anything" he headed down the steps, I gripped my bike a little more his anger was really pissing me off " I don't care what you would be grateful for you fucking leach you lied to me and now Bella knows and you show up here with her on your bike" " I thought Alice cleared things up as far as that goes Jacob, I did what I had to, to keep Bella safe I thought you could respect that" .

A soft rumble came from deep in his chest, " don't you dare question me not making the right decision to keep Bella safe, I was the one who has been picking up pieces of broken Bella for the last three goddamn years, picking up the mess you assholes left behind with out a glance back…..but thank you oh so much for bringing her home safe, you can go now."

"well see Jacob , I am bringing Bella out tonight", his anger almost knocked me off the bike and I hissed at him" will you fuckin control yourself I don't think it would make Bella to happy for us to be out here ripping each other apart."

This is when I decided I was going to do the calming for him and I saw him relax a little.

" Don't fuck with my emotions bloodsucker" "I had no choice Jake, now .. I am taking Bella out, mind you something she is willingly doing, I need to tell her a few things, some things I need to tell you as well". He folded his arms and waited for me to go on.

"Edward is coming back, soon, in about three days and he is bringing home the new love of his life" the anger was overwhelming we both roared out "damnit Jacob stop that" he was shaking and his fists were balled tightly I knew he was trying to keep his shape. I am going to do this the best way possible, I am not going to let Bella get hurt if anything trust me with that."

His glare was hard " ok yeah sure sure, trust the bloodsucker that took a fucking snap at her on her birthday" he was about to say something else but the front door opened and Bella walked out, she was in black dickie like hip huggers and a black pull over hoodie that said 'Got Type O Negative?' and her hair was down and brushed my jacket was slung over her arm, she came over and stood next to the bike and looked at Jacob.

"I will be back later Jake we are just going for a ride, we will talk about it later" she handed me my jacket with a smile " here Jasper thought you would want this back" I was a little disappointed she didn't want to keep wearing my jacket but I took it and slipped it on. She climbed on the bike and I started it again . With a huge grin on my face she leaned in wrapping her arms around me once more as I took off I felt jealousy and anger and hurt and I heard the wolf howl as we flew down the road.

Even through the leather and her hoodie I could feel her warmth I kept a big smile, she moved her head from my shoulder and asked "where are we going Jasper", I had to speak a little louder for her to hear me and I turned my head back slightly " it's a place I think you will really enjoy its peaceful" I knew she hated surprises but she nodded and her head was right back it took us no time to get there at all, she sat up on the bike a little more I am sure to look around, the sun was getting ready to start setting it was far enough down and away that I was no longer blinding sparkle boy.

I parked the bike close to the shore of Lake Crescent over looking the mountains with the sun setting it was remarkable, I turned off the bike and she hoped off but her leg caught and she started to topple. Her face was scrunched waiting for impact, it took her a few seconds to realize she had not hit the ground yet, her eyes opened meeting mine she smiled softly " I knew it would be a matter or time before I did that" " don't worry darlin I got ya ". I set her back up on two feet and picked up the blanket and headed to the shore line. " Oh Jasper, this place is beautiful", she looked around taking everything in I just took her in.

I laid the blanket out and we both sat down, I wanted to read her emotions but I was going to control this need, I wanted her feelings to be hers right now I was going to let her open up to me on her own. She pulled her knees tightly to her chest and wrapped her arms around her legs resting her face on her knee caps, I stretched my legs out crossing them at the ankles I leaned back on my hands. " Thank you for taking me here Jasper" she smiled at me, hopefully that smile will stay.

We sat there for just a little bit not saying anything just enjoying the sights and company, then I spoke up " darlin " she looked over to me resting her right cheek on her knee " there are a few more things we need to talk about, I am not sure how you feel about talking about this but I was wondering….what happened the day we left?" She looked back out over the lake and her face told me she was in a different place and a different time but I waited.. I was not going to press her.

After a few good few minutes she sighed and spoke softly " after school Edward was at my house, he beat me there and he said he wanted to go for a walk, so we walked but this was a short walk and he stopped", she paused and her emotions were breaking. " He told me…." she closed her eyes " he told me he didn't want me anymore, and that he didn't love me, I was just a distraction" all I could think about once those words left her soft lips was ' that fucking grade A asshole' but she went on " he said it would be as if he never existed and my human mind would forget".

How in the hell could he have done that to her, I mean he broke her in so many ways with just a few words. She was spiraling down fast, I decided to clam her I reached over and caressed her cheek she once more leaned into my touch she was going to need all the help I can give once I drop this on her.

"Bella, I need to tell you something and I am not really sure how your going to take it but I need to tell you because you deserve to know I will not keep things from you like he did". She looked back over toward me her eyes so deep and thoughtful, " Bella Edward is coming back, in a few days he will be home" her heart rate spiked, I was not sure how to take this then I saw her hands balled into tight little fists. "Bella there is more, he is not coming home alone…" I told myself ' just like a band aide Jasper' " he is bring home his fiancé " . Here it comes… her heart was racing and she went threw hurt betrayal anger worthlessness and all back around again like her emotions where on a turn table.

I closed my eyes as I took in everything she was throwing out, and I had my own hurt on top of that, she does not want me I was just a connection to him everything Alice said didn't matter she had been wrong before. I just worked on the task at hand, fix Bella so she might have a fighting chance with him again, once I got her calm she looked over at me. "Jasper, I am sorry I know this must be hard on you" more then you know…more then you know. " No Bella its fine remember what I told you in Phoenix …you are worth it."

Her feelings settled on realization "Bella what's on your mind" " its just, I knew I was never enough for him it was never about my soul he was trying to save it was he didn't want me forever how could I be so stupid" " look I know this is not what you wanted to hear right now but he did love you Bella, it was real at the time and he truly thought he was doing the right thing" .

We sat in silence again before she spoke again, "Jasper, I am not a mind reader but I can tell something is bothering you, and I am going to take a shot in the dark here, but I want you to know I am over him, yes it still hurts but he wanted me to move on and he obviously has himself, its just I a so confused on so many things" . I opened my eyes and looked at her " like what darlin" " well for starters, why am I not feeling like I am being ripping apart from the inside out".

"Bella, I am not doing anything… " she cut me off " no that's not what I am saying, well I am not sure what I am saying but I know what I am feeling, and I know its taking a lot out of me to keep my feelings from you" she gave a little smile. "I want to feel it Bella please let me in" she moved over and rested her head on my shoulder, I thought about it for a half second and wrapped an arm around her holding her close to my side. It was then I felt it, comfort peace and gratefulness, I smiled "thank you". "No Jasper, I should be thanking you, I really believed I was no good anymore and that feelings like this were something I could never have, but you are showing me I am not broken"

I leaned over and kissed the top of my head, "anytime angel anytime, I am here like I said before, Bella I was wondering if tomorrow… you would like to go on a date with me". I heard her heart rate speed up again, and she was quiet for a bit. " Yes Jasper I would love to". I was grinning from ear to ear as we sat there and she started to shiver I slid my jacket off and slipped it over her shoulders and she put her arms into it pulling closed " I should be getting you back".

We were back on the bike her head in between my shoulders her arms snugly around me I took my time getting back I didn't want the night to end, but before I knew it we were back at her house, I left the bike running as I walked her to the door, she turned to me and smiled her cheeks only a faint pink of blush. " goodnight angel, I will see you tomorrow, I will come get you around noon ok?" "ok Jasper, goodnight". With out thinking I leaned down and kissed her a sweet kiss, her arms wrapped around my neck and we held the kiss till she needed to break away for a breath, she smiled at me again and with another goodnight she went inside and I headed for my bike feeling like I was on cloud 9, I never really understood that phrase till just now.

A/N …. some pics for this chapter should be up in the next couple days ^.^