Hey guys! So I've kinda rewritten this chapter several times, still not sure if I'm happy with it… Anyways onward with the plot (which by the way will come back to connect to the title) and please leave a review or PM me to let me know your thoughts!

Meredith

The bright beach sun shone through a window and Tony could barely make out the movie menu playing as he tried to clear his vision. He briefly remember watching very little of the movie and watching very much of a sleeping Ziva. He couldn't stop thinking about how much he just wanted answers. He was so impatient and often went off just instincts which made for a great cop but not always the best quality to have. Taking a deep breath he felt pressure on his chest and could smell perfume, Ziva's perfume. Tony fully awoke with his arm protectively around Ziva, who was peacefully lying there, cuddled next to him.

"Good Morning" she said softly, and leaned up to kiss him.

"That's the best way to wake me up." He smiled.

"Did you not like the cold water from our last vacation Justin?" She smirked playfully but he caught it. She called him Justin in the house, in this moment, and it hurt. But being Tony DiNozzo he recovered quickly, "Ha. No. Do you want to go to the local market today? I know you like that kind of stuff, Lillian" He flashed a charming grin, but the last part came off a little more aggressive than he meant. Her deep brown eyes locked with his waiting for an answer, the hostility melted momentarily.

"Sure, I'll go get dressed." Her voice was barely above a whisper, holding back tears. Now he was pissed. She can't pull the hard ass and then be an innocent little girl, He thought harshly. Making up his mind he got up from the couch and took the stairs two at a time, knowing this was going to end really bad or really well. Tony stormed in the room and startled Ziva, "Justin! I have barely picked out clothes!"

"Well get going Lillian since we're always rushing into everything!" he spat. Well there's no going back from here, Tony thought.

What are you even doing here Justin?!" She yelled from across the room, her face red.

"I don't know Lillian what are we doing here?!" he took a few steps closer to her.

"What we were told Justin!" she shortened the gap between her and her fuming partner, promptly jabbing her finger right in the center of his chest as if to shove her point right into him.

"Are we really Lillliaann?"

"Stop calling me that!" Ziva shrieked in a voice Tony never even knew existed, that's when he knew he had bit off more than he could chew.

"YOU started it!"

"Are we even talking about them anymore?!"

"I don't know are we?!" he shot back. Ziva raised her hands and for a moment Tony thought he was a goner. He was prepared for this, he had ruined his best chance with Ziva and most importantly pissed off his best friend, who just happened to be a ninja assassin who was about to strangle him. Yes, that he expected. But in about 2 seconds expectations went to hell because Ziva wrapped her arms around his neck and crashed her lips to his. There was heat, anger and a million other emotions he couldn't describe all wrapped in one kiss.

"Ziva I can't, I can't pretend anymore." He finally managed after she released him, breathing heavily. Ziva leaned her head against his chest and after a moment he realized she was crying.

"Shhhhh Zi, don't cry."

"Don't cry? You do not even like me enough to pretend Tony. I am damaged and worn and I understand why you do not want me but you expect me not to cry?" Tony's jaw dropped and heart melted at the sight of her dark brown eyes wet with tears and filled with pain.

"Not want you? Ziva I want to be with you more than anything that's why I can't pretend." He leaned down and kissed her softly, as if it was all a dream and she was going to break in his hands. Tony wrapped his arms around her and just waited until the tears stopped and she looked up at him, face glowing. "So you do want me?" Ziva's awe struck face inches from his. "Yes Ziva." And with that he swept her up off her feet and set her on the bed. "Take a nap my little ninja we can talk later and go to the market tomorrow." With that, he placed a gentle kiss to her forehead and left the room.

Definitely a struggle but I wanted to end there and get an update up. I would really like some reviews :)

Meredith