A/N:I got inspired by the song "I think I'll be Okay" by bayside go check it out it's a really good song and one of favorite bands. I'm going to try to fit it into the story, so don't mind the rhyming when I do, I'll try to make it flow and keep the song intact.

Jacob POV

"Bella listen we really need to talk…It's important." I really didn't want to do this right now. I couldn't keep living this lie, this double life. It was eating me alive.

"Jake what is it? Is it the whole baby thing, I mean I thought you wanted to give it another try?" Her face was masked with total confusion.

I felt guilty for how this all worked out. I felt even more guilty for the fact that I had to tell Bella the truth while she sat half naked and wanting to have sex, to form another life together.

"Bella its, well…something happened down at the rez a couple of weeks ago." Ok so I was walking around the situation, trying to stall.

"Is it Charlie? He didn't mention anything to me. Is someone from the pack hurt?.. Jake tell me please!" She said panicking, begging.

"Bella…I imprinted."

"Jake I know. I mean I was there for this discussion, wasn't I?" She chuckled. God this was tearing me apart. I didn't want to hurt her. I mean that's what got us in this situation in the first place. He left her hurting and I was there to pick up the pieces and now I was doing the same thing.

"No Bella. I imprinted on someone else I guess you could say."

Bella shot up faster then a bullet. And put his hands on her hips.

"Jacob Black you said it only happens once!" Surprisingly she was keeping her voice low and even. She probably didn't want to wake the twins.

I looked down at my hands in my lap. I couldn't decide if this conversation was awkward or embarrassing for me, but at this point I was leaning towards embarrassing.

"You do only imprint once." I whispered.

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Bella POV

As soon as his words hit me I felt like I was going to pass out. I turned my back to him and sat down on the edge of the bed.

"Bells please say something. Say anything." he said coming up behind me and putting his mammoth size hands on my shoulders.

"You, you tricked me? You tricked me into having sex with you, and getting married." I asked bewildered.

"Well I wouldn't call it tricked…I well I did it to stop you from hurting. If you could see how you looked when you first showed up at my house, you would understand. Plus I loved you Bella, I loved you so much I didn't think I would imprint. Throw the 'being pregnant thing' into it and I didn't think I'd ever imprint. I couldn't let you raise a baby by yourself and abortion was never an option."

"So let me get this straight. You told me that you imprinted on me, because you didn't think you'd imprint, even though you knew all along that it could happen?" Wow I was really calm about this. I must be in shock.

"Bella, if I would of known this would of happened, I would of stayed away from you. I had to help you Bella. I loved you. But now its all wrong. I feel horrible. I'm trying here Bella. I don't want to leave you and the kids. Its not like that at all, but I can't stay away from Danica."

Danica? So the little tramp had a name. I mean I can blame her right? Come on Bella, you know there's no way they could escape….fate. I had to laugh. Fate was never on my side.

"What's so funny Bella? This shit isn't funny Charlie is going to fuckin kill me! He's going to think I was cheating on you the whole time!" At this point he was on his feet.

"Don't say 'if you would of known', you did know this could happen and yet you took the risk. You just, well you lied to me to keep from hurting me like Edward did. But this is worse Jake. You hurt me worse then Edward ever did." Was I honestly laughing, he was right this is no laughing matter. The whole situation was so ironic though I had to laugh. The first time I see Edward in six years, and I basically blow him off, cause I was happily married and I find out that my husband wasn't.

"What, did you prefer being miserable!? Being non stop depressed because that fuckin blood sucking leech left you behind! I did this for you Bella."

I pulled my PJs back on and jumped to my feet too, face red hot with rage and vision blurry trying to hold back tears. My world, my life was falling apart.

"Oh my God Jake you are so unbelievably selfish! Stop putting the blame on other people and man up to the fact that you tricked me into marrying you, for your own selfish reasons. Even though you knew some day someone better would come along and you would imprint. You never thought about how this would hurt me or our kids. Or is Danica already pregnant with their replacements too. But hey as long as you're not hurting its fine right?"

Jake started treading towards me, backing me into the wall with such force it took me by surprise. He pinned me to the wall, holding my wrist in his one hand and placed the other hand next to my shoulder. I've never seen him like this. I saw a shudder ripple through his body.

"STOP ACTING LIKE I WANTED THIS TO HAPPEN ISABELLA! You think I'm not hurting? You think that it's not tearing me apart inside? Huh? Answer me Bella!" He said punching a whole in the wall right next to my left shoulder. It took everything in my power not to bawl my eyes out.

"No I don't think you are hurting. I mean you get your true love and I get the two little kids that ruined your life! Or should I just move out now, so they can have their new mommy?!" I regretted saying it as soon as the words tumbled out of my mouth. I knew it wasn't like that, I knew that Jake didn't see it like that, but I was hurting. He let go of my wrist, so I picked them up and started to rub them to get the feeling back in them.

"Its not like that Bella and you know it. I didn't want this. I loved you. I wanted to marry you. I wanted your pain to go away. I love you and I love the kids. But I can't stay away from her and I can't keep lying to you…. We can't keep pretending anyways Bella." Loved, loved, loved, he keeps saying loved and it hurts.

I let the tears fall freely now. Pretending? Pretending what?

"What do you mean 'we can't keep pretending', who's pretending? I mean besides you." My voice was laced with perplexity.

"I've had it up to here with your morbid ways. You're happy being sad and you prove it everyday (I think I'll be okay line) Bella. You pretend that you don't miss him, you pretend that you aren't still hurting but I know that you are. Its been six years and you won't even try to get over him. You're holding on to him. Why do you think you wouldn't leave, you're hold on! You want to be sad, you want to miss him, you want to be with him. Do you think that its made this marriage easy? Because it hasn't been easy. I've been looking into your eyes for five years and I always saw a girl that's in love with someone else."

His voice dropped to a whisper but I could still hear him. I wasn't fooling him, every time I closed my eyes Edward's face always floated behind my eyelids and he knew it.

"And I know it's eating you alive, I can see it in your stare I'd sit with you all night if I thought you'd even care (another line from I think I'll be okay) but I know you Bella. And you like to pretend that its ok. But its not." He gently put his hand on my check and wiping the tears away with his giant thumb.

"He's back now Jake, but there's nothing there anymore I swear. I need protection from Victoria and if you're moving out I'll be alone here with the kids. I don't want to ask the Cullens for help, I don't want to be in their lives." The thought that Victoria could get to me now that Jake was leaving me burned in my chest.

"God damn it I didn't know they were back. I won't leave you unprotected Bella. I'll still be here, I don't want to leave yet. I promised to always protect you, until we get Victoria I'll stay here." Why did it matter though if she got me or not. I had nothing. No one to love and love in return. I couldn't think like that though, I had to think of Eli and Masen.

"No Jake, its ok, you can't stay here. It would be selfish of me to make you stay here. Go to Billy's or Sam's or Danica's for all I care. Just take the kids please. I'll be ok." I shrugged under his arms and went to stand at the window, looking out at the tree always reminded me of Edward.

I felt Jake come up behind me. He placed his left hand on my shoulder and it was awkward to feel his wedding band through the fabric now that I knew 'till death do us part' doesn't apply in this marriage anymore.

"Let me at least stay the night. I'll go sleep on the couch. We can talk more in the morning." And then I didn't feel him anymore. Staring at the tree I closed my eyes and Edward's face floated behind my lids again.

"I've lost track of who I was some time ago, I thought I figured out which way to go, now I hate to say that the only thing that keeping me alive is you, the only thing that's keeping me alive, but I can't say your name I think I'll be okay." (bayside song) I whispered and started to cry.

A/N: I'm not a Jacob hater I swear, and no he doesn't beat Bella, he just needed away to get his anger out. Hope you guys liked the chapter its kinda long sorry. Don't forget to check out Bayside, trust me you wont be disappointed. I got an idea for another story so I'm going to post the first chapter of that story probably tomorrow, so check it out please. Reviews would be lovely. Let me know what you guys think. Pretty, pretty please with Edward Cullen on top.