Chapter 10

I sat at the table in the day room. The walls were painted green and there were shelves with books, board games, and card decks.

Vriska sat to my left, and some guy named Jake to my right. Apparently he was hallucinating about his dead boyfriend, and came here to get medicated and help for coping with his death.

I picked at the food they gave me, which tasted bland and terrible. I had been here a week, and the medication they had me on made me nauseous. I had also gained 5lbs, even though I wasn't eating hardly anything.

I looked up at the clock. Sollux would be here in an hour, like he was everyday. It was Sunday, so visiting hours started at 1.

Vriska, who had also been picking at her food this entire time, got up and put her tray on the meal cart. I followed suit.

I wandered over to my room and fell face first onto the bed. I refused to call it mine, it wasn't mine. I wasn't home.

You'll never go home if you don't eat, and if you don't go home you can't finish what you started.

Fuck you Jack, I don't want to finish what I started. Fuck you.

I sighed and waited for the next hour in my room.

Sollux was the first visitor, like always, I heard him come in. I stared at the floor as he came in and wrapped his arms around me, "Hey KK, how are you doing?"

I shrugged, turned, and hugged him back, "Still nauseous as fuck, still worried about the fact that you look thinner every time you come in here, and Jack still hasn't gone away."

He rubbed circles on my shoulder, "I'm fine okay? And like I've said the side effects go away after awhile. It just takes awhile. God only knows how much I threw up when I first got put on my meds. Give them time to kick in too. When do you think they'll let you out of here?"

"Doctor said maybe tomorrow if I eat well today."

"Have you so far?"

"No."

He sighed, "You gotta eat KK."

"Says the jackass who wouldn't eat anything."

That shut him up.

We sat there, hugging, for a few minutes in silence.

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I sat with Vriska in the day room after Sollux had to leave. She never got visitors, Kanaya wouldn't come and her sister lived a few towns over.

I looked over at her, and to my shock, her head was down and her shoulders were shaking.

"Vriska? Are you okay?"

She shook her head and choked on her words as she tried to speak, "I'm never getting out of here. I fucked up so badly, and now I can't do anything about it. I killed someone I cared about, and I can't take that back."

I nodded and she continued, "And because of this I lost the only person I ever really loved. I dated Tavros too you know, really cared about him but he wasn't the one I needed. I need Kanaya, and I lost her in a fit of insanity."

"Have you thought of this before?"

"Yes," she sobbed. "I think of it before I sleep at night. I can't sleep, I can't eat…"

I nodded, "I almost feel sorry for you Vriska. And what did you mean by a fit of insanity?"

"I was mad at Tavros and some voice in my head told me to shove him in front of a car."

I paled, "So you hear one too?"

She nodded, "I didn't know you heard one."

I nodded, "Yeah. He's been telling me to kill myself for a long time now."

She sighed, "Mine told me to kill him. I don't know why I listened, but it's because of her that I am here instead of in prison."

I nodded, "If it wasn't for Sollux, I'd be dead right now."