Drabble-and-a-half.
Even Jason misses what once was.
Sometimes, when he hasn't slept in days and even liquor can't fully drown his sorrows, he goes there and watches silently.
Sometimes, if he stands in the right place, he can see Bruce give Dick a rare, real smile or ask Tim what book he's reading or rest a large, protective hand on Damian's shoulder.
Sometimes he comes closer and stands, cheek pressed against the stone wall, smelling Alfred's cooking and hearing Cassandra practice reading in the library surrounded by her family.
Sometimes he even closes his eyes and remembers when the lighted rooms were open to him, when family meant more than pain, when Bruce's room was the best place to run after nightmares.
Yet no matter how exhausted or drunk he is, he always turns away again. He chose to reject them; he knows they would not forgive him now.
Wayne Manor will never again receive Jason Todd.
A/N: This is from Jason's POV and expresses his opinions, not necessarily those ascribed to by the authoress, who would like to put on record that she fully believes Bruce-once he got over his surprise-would definitely forgive Jason if he went inside rather than peering through windows and listening at walls.
Alas, he never gets the chance to prove this, as Jason always turns away.