A/N: Please don't hate me. I know it's been like two months since I updated but I'm still here. I hope I haven't lost you guys.

On a happier note, we're on chapter 10! This is the farthest I've ever gotten with a story and I believe the longest chapter I've written. I hope this makes up for my long absence.

Before you start reading I wanted to address any confusion with my writing. I tend to go back and forth between first person and third person so I hope it makes sense when you guys are reading. I usually like writing from Bonnie's POV the most but sometimes I switch it up so the story can be told from all angles. Another thing, if a sentence is italicized, that means the character is having thoughts inside their head. If a word is italicized, then that just means I'm emphasizing the word. Hope all of this makes sense.

Anyway, enjoy chapter 10!

(Bonnie's POV)

What makes you think I would ever help you?

Because deep down…you want this too…

Kai was right. Deep down I did want this.

There were many times I wanted to be free of all my supernatural responsibilities. Although I love being a witch and having the gift of magic, it's a lot of power for one person to have and it can be a lot to bear sometimes. Especially since my use of magic revolves around helping my friends and saving my loved ones.

Imagining myself as a "queen" as Kai put it, would be amazing. To never have to worry about anything or anyone coming after me. Living in peace and being worshipped like a goddess…

I know it's incredibly selfish of me to have these secret thoughts but in reality that's all they are. Thoughts.

I would never leave my friends behind just for the sake of my own happiness. I couldn't live with myself. Not to mention the fact that I'd be running off with Kai, the person that I loathe with everything in me.

If Kai is really dumb enough to think that he can convince me to use my magic and create a new dimension with him, then I'll let him think that. This seems to be the only way I'll ever make it out of here alive.

But it's not just me in here, its Damon's life that's at stake too. (No pun intended)

I can't let my feelings for him manifest. It will show all over my face and then my cover will be blown. Kai will know that I'm just playing him and then we'll be dead.

If I can't save myself the least I can do is save Damon. He went out of his way to come and find me. His attempt ended in failure but the simple fact that he was here, that he showed up when I really needed someone meant everything to me. Seeing his beautiful, stubborn, determined face come through that door had made my heart swell.

God I love him.

No matter what, I'm not going down without a fight.

Bonnie sat extremely still, contemplating Kai's words.

Her hands and ankles were still tightly bound by wire so there was no way of actually moving away from Kai's face. He stared into her eyes, waiting for a sassy comeback to slip out of her mouth but she was surprisingly silent.

After a few moments of zoning out, Bonnie finally blinked and came back to reality. She zeroed in on Kai's face and replied, "You're right."

Kai's eyes unintentionally widened, revealing his shocked state. That definitely wasn't the response he was expecting but it did indeed make him happy to hear Bonnie Bennett tell him he was right.

Bonnie made artificial tears spring to her eyes to make her words more believable. "I want that for myself…because I know things will never go my way here. I'll always be known as Bonnie the witch or Bonnie the sacrificial lamb. But never a hero or a leader. And definitely not a queen."

Kai was delighted to hear her breaking down. He had a sinister grin on his face and the more Bonnie revealed her feelings, the wider it got.

Damon was slowly gaining consciousness as Bonnie continued to talk. He was half listening to their conversation and he couldn't believe what he was hearing. Bonnie was willing to run off into another dimension with Kai? No that can't be right, I must have misheard Bonnie, Damon thought to himself.

"Sleeping beauty is up." Kai remarked.

Bonnie didn't dare turn her head to look at Damon. She couldn't let herself be vulnerable in front of Kai.

"Bonnie," Damon called out in a groggy voice.

Kai looked at Bonnie to peep her reaction. All she could do was turn her head and keep her eyes down, staring at an invisible spot on the ground.

"Bonnie," Damon tried again but she wasn't responding or looking at him. Kai chuckled.

"Your little Bon Bon doesn't want to talk to you, Damon." Kai said, which made Damon irritated at the fact Kai used his nickname for Bonnie.

"She made a choice to go with me. Leave you and the rest of the Mystic Falls gang behind, isn't that right, Bonnie?" Kai divulged.

When Bonnie didn't answer right away, Kai walked back over to Bonnie and hovered right in front of her. He forcefully grabbed her face so she could look at him. "Isn't that right?"

"Hey!" Damon imposed. "Get your hands off of her!" He grabbed the railings of the cell and they immediately burned his skin.

"Ahhh!" Damon pulled his hands back quickly. "Shit." He cursed under his breath.

"Did I forget to mention I laced the cell with vervain? My bad." Kai replied sardonically.

Damon growled.

Bonnie swallowed hard before answering. "Yes, that's right."

Damon's eyebrows scrunched in disbelief. "You can't be serious, Bonnie!"
"Kai, can you please untie me so we can get on with the spell? I'm ready to get out of here." Bonnie completely ignored Damon and kept her focus on Kai.

"Why of course Ms. Bennett, let me do the honors." Kai focused on the wire until it snapped and unraveled. Bonnie grabbed her red whelped wrists and rubbed them to soothe the pain.

"Sorry about that," Kai apologized. "I had to take precautions."

Bonnie nodded as if the say she understood. She stood up and accidently glanced at Damon and noticed he was looking at her as if he didn't recognize her.

She knew how crazy all of this sounded but she had to go along with it until she could get them both out of there.

Kai pulled a folded paper from his back pocket and handed it to Bonnie. It looked old and worn, slightly torn on the edges, most likely from being ripped out of a grimoire.

"Here's the spell. Memorize it. Oh, and by the way," Kai latched on the Bonnie's elbow. "If you try anything I will kill you."

A chill ran down Bonnie's spine at how nonchalant his threat sounded. She knew he wasn't kidding.

As Bonnie was memorizing the spell and going over every word, Damon interrupted her concentration.

"Bonnie, listen to me. I don't know what American Psycho over there told you or made you believe but you don't really wanna do this. You can't do this."

Bonnie kept her back facing Damon as he continued to plead with her.

"If you're just doing this to save me then don't. This isn't the way."

"Not everything is about you, Damon." Bonnie replied softly.

Damon sighed. "What about Elena and Caroline? What about Matt and Tyler? What about me? I thought you lov-"

"Don't." Bonnie cut him off. "You promised you wouldn't use that against me."

Things were silent for a moment.

"Elena and Caroline will be fine without me. They always have been." Bonnie's nose began to burn, a clear indication that she was about to cry. "And you have Stefan and Elena."

"I don't know if you forgot but I don't have Elena anymore. And maybe I don't want Elena, maybe I want someone else."

A slight gasp escaped from Bonnie's mouth at Damon's words. Is he saying what I think he's saying? Bonnie questioned.

"What can I do to make you stay? You want me to tell you that I've developed feelings for you? That somehow, someway I started thinking of you as more than a friend?"

Bonnie still hadn't turned around to face him so he continued to declare his true feelings. Feelings he had kept hidden from not only her, but from himself.

"Even though you're the most judgmental, annoying, and stubborn girl I know, you're also the most selfless, strong, and amazing girl I know."

The tears Bonnie had been trying to hinder couldn't be held back any longer. Hot tears streamed down both sides of her face, blazing until it hit the cold hard earth.

"Defining all possible global scenarios…I might wanna be with you."

He heard Bonnie sniffling but she wouldn't say a word.

"Damn it, Bonnie! Look at me!" Damon exclaimed.

Bonnie slowly turned around and looked at him for the first time for what felt like an eternity. His eyes studied her face to see if any of his words had gotten through to her.

"I'm sorry, Damon." Was all she said.

Damon's face morphed into defeat. He couldn't convince her to not go through with this so now he would have to watch her get swept into a portal with Kai.

It can't end like this, Damon thought. He began to scrutinize the entire situation and a light bulb went off in his head. She's not really going through with this. She must have a plan up her sleeve that she didn't include me in. Damon rationalized.

"Wow," Kai enunciated. "That was like one of the best soap opera scenes I've ever seen. I mean Damon almost had me fooled into thinking he actually cares about you. But then I remembered him and Elena and I thought nah, there's no way he would give her up for Bonnie."

"As entertaining as that was, I think it's time to go. Bonnie?" Kai placed his palms up and moved them forward towards Bonnie. She wiped the remainder of her tears on her sleeve before placing her hands in Kai's.

Bonnie and Kai bowed their heads, closed their eyes, and began to chant:

"Elementum recolligo Huic commodo locus mihi vestri vox.

Elementum ego unda dico vos. Permissum Pluit es est meus nos sic vadum is exsisto"

A wind that was not present a minute ago appeared and began to circle around the two.
Dust and tiny particles from the ground became swept up and pulled into the magical induced wind.

Bonnie could tell just how powerful the spell was after only reciting two lines. Her energy was mildly decreasing so she knew she had to switch it up now before she was too weak to finish her plan.

Bonnie blindsided Kai when she changed her words into a completely different spell. A spell that would return her own magic to her. The magic that Kai sucked out of her earlier, nearly making her pass out.

"Accerso alius sententia ut mihi, phasmatis of interregnum ego dico, solvo meus mens mei, ego dico phasmatis audite meus placitum meus mens quod iacio – "

Kai finally realized what Bonnie was doing but it was too late. She had her magic back.

"No! What are you doing!?" Kai shouted.

Bonnie immediately let go and struck Kai across the room. She quickly undid the lock and chain that was keeping Damon secured.

"Come on, let's go."

Before they could get through the exit, Kai grabbed Bonnie by the back of her hair and slammed her down. Damon's face morphed into a monster and he lunged for Kai, only for Kai to snap his neck with the snap of his fingers.

Kai picked Bonnie up roughly by the shoulders. "Didn't I tell you not to try anything?" he spat. "Now I'm gonna have to kill you."

Bonnie untangled herself out of his strong hold and swiftly kicked him the balls. He doubled over in pain and hit the ground with his knees. Bonnie balled her fist and punctured Kai's cheek. Blood splattered out of his mouth from her continuous blows.

"You're so weak." Kai smiled, showing off his bloody teeth.

His hand reached out and tripped Bonnie, causing her to fall and twist her ankle.

"AHHH!" Her ankle snapped.

Now Kai had the advantage and he took the opportunity to grab some loose wire that was hanging in the corner. He wrapped it around Bonnie's neck several times and pulled her up from the ground. He squeezed as she tried her hardest to fight back but she was losing her breath all too quickly.

Bonnie sputtered and gasped for air while her hands tried to loosen the wire. Her nose was bleeding profusely from using all her energy on spells and now her vision was getting dimmer.

Accepting this death as her fate, Bonnie stopped fighting back.

There was no air left to breathe and her body was shutting down. Right before she hit the ground, Kai's grip loosened and the wire came off.

Bonnie was barely conscious but she knew she heard Kai scream. She had no idea what was going on but whatever it was, it had saved her.

Stefan and Elena had come just in the nick of time.

Kai's screams were a result of Stefan biting into his neck. Stefan slammed Kai's head against the wall and completely knocked him out.

Elena was trailing right behind Stefan and noticed both Damon and Bonnie were lying on the floor.

"Oh my god!" Elena cried.

"You get Bonnie and I'll get Damon." Stefan instructed.

Elena ran to Bonnie's side and cradled her. "Bonnie, can you hear me? You're gonna be okay."

Bonnie had her eyes closed but she recognized Elena's voice and knew she was safe. Elena tried getting Bonnie to stand but she yelped in the process.

"What's wrong?" Elena asked apprehensively.

"My ankle." Bonnie squeaked.

"Stefan, I think her ankle is broken. Can you feed her some of your blood?"

Stefan instantly bit into his wrist and held it against Bonnie's mouth as she gently sucked until her ankle was healed and she had some of her energy back.

"Are you okay?" Elena delicately swept Bonnie's hair out of her face.

"I'll be fine." Bonnie reassured. "Just get me out of here."

Elena wrapped Bonnie's arm around her neck and slowly walked her and Bonnie out of the torture chamber.

"Hey, Stefan." Caroline smiled.

Stefan strolled up alongside Caroline who was sitting at the bar in the Mystic Grill.

"Hi, Caroline." He greeted in return. "How have you been?"

"Stefan I know you're not here to make small talk so what is it? What do you need?"

"All right," Stefan sighed. "You're right, I need to talk to you."

"So talk."

"I would much rather have this conversation with your humanity back on."

"Really, Stefan? You think I'm that easy? I don't think so." Caroline replied in a sassy manner.

"Okay, fine. I just wanted to let you know that Kai almost killed Bonnie and Damon last night. You know Elena and Bonnie really need you right now."

"Well I'm glad Bonnie's not dead. Can't say the same for Damon."

"Bonnie could really use your comfort right now." Stefan egged on.

"No can do. I'm emotionally unavailable right now."

"Look," Stefan leaned in closer. "I know you're trying to avoid the loss and pain you'll feel once you turn it back on but you can't run from it forever. Wouldn't it be better to just face it head on?"

"I never said I would be like this forever, I said a year so please stop over exaggerating. And if all you're gonna do is whine about me not having my humanity on then you can leave because you're wasting your breath." Caroline motioned her hand towards the door.

Stefan was quiet for a moment as he thought over what else he wanted to talk about.

"There is something else I wanted to mention."

One of Caroline's eyebrows hiked up as she waited for Stefan to continue.

"I also wanted to talk about what we did together."

"What did we do?" Caroline smirked.

"We killed innocent people, Caroline." Stefan said in a faint voice.

"I only remember us having a good time. The partying, the drinking, the dancing, the almost kiss we had."

"Yeah, I know. About that…"

Caroline rolled her eyes. "Here we go."

"Your friendship means a lot to me, Care and I wouldn't ever wanna ruin it. You get that, right?" Stefan's face was so serious, Caroline couldn't help but laugh.

"Oh relax, Stefan. I'm not Katherine. It's not like I'm gonna become obsessed with you or anything like that."

Stefan loosened up a little and smiled.

"I'll admit there was a bit of a crush there but I'm over it." Caroline stated casually.

Stefan's thick eyebrows shot up. "You're over it?"

"Yup! So please, don't give me the friendship speech."

Stefan chuckled.

"Plus there's no way we could ever be a thing because you're still in love with Elena. And she's most likely still in love with you too."

Stefan lost his smile and sighed. "Is it that obvious?"

"Duh! The whole world knows you two still love each other. Me personally, I've always liked her better with you than Damon."

Stefan folded his lips to keep from grinning. He missed talking to Caroline.

"When you guys get back together just remember I called it first." Caroline beamed.

"Ehh I don't know if that'll ever happen but you were right about one thing. I do still love her." Stefan admitted.

"Then why are you sitting here talking to me?"

Stefan bumped his shoulder against Caroline's. "Because I miss my friend."

Caroline let a genuine smile spread across her face.

"Well then as my friend I'm asking you to give me time."

Stefan placed his hand on top of Caroline's. "Okay."

They continued to talk and catch up for a little while longer until Caroline decided to leave. Walking away from The Grill she couldn't stop thinking about what Stefan said. Bonnie was hurting and Stefan missed her. She didn't want to care, but deep down inside she knew it was time to come back. The grievance that was about to hit her was gonna be a bitch but with her friends by her side, she could get through it.

(Bonnie's POV)

My eyes fluttered open.

I examined my surroundings and realized I wasn't in my own room.

I'm in Damon's room.

This room was all too familiar. I instantaneously had flashbacks of being stuck in the 1994 prison world. Going through Damon's room after he was gone and almost committing suicide in his own bathroom.

I shook my head to remove those retched memories. I didn't want to think about that right now.

The door slowly cracked open. "Hey, you're awake."

Damon stepped in and walked to the bedside I was laying on.

I sat myself up to talk. "What happened? My mind is a little fuzzy."

"Kai happened." Damon sneered. "But good thing Stefan saved our asses."

"That's right," I sighed. "Stefan stopped Kai from strangling me to death." I instinctively put my hand to my neck to check for scars but there were none.

"Stefan healed you." Damon filled in my unspoken questions.

I nodded.

"Is Kai dead?" I hoped.

"Unfortunately, no. But he's gonna have one hell of a headache when he wakes up."

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"I'm fine, you know I heal quickly. But you," Damon cradled the right side of my face. "You could have been killed, Bonnie."

I sighed.

"Why didn't you tell me what you were planning on doing?"

"How could I?" I opposed. "Kai was in the room the whole time and if I had told you, it would have made things too obvious."

"You still should have told me." Damon pouted. "I was actually worried that joker had gotten inside your head."

I scoffed. "I can't believe you actually thought I would go off with him."

"I'll admit, you had me fooled for a minute but then I caught on to your plan in no time."

"Mm hmm, right."

They both grinned at each other.

"Damon, can I ask you something?"

"Yeah, of course."

It was time to address the elephant in the room.

"Did you really mean all that stuff you said? You know…when you thought I was leaving…"

Damon's adam's apple bobbed as he visibly swallowed. "I did."

A sound of relief escaped from my lips.

"I'm happy to hear that…but what about Elena?"

Damon shrugged. "What about Elena? We're not together anymore."

"I know, it's just-"I was trying to find the right words. "I don't want to have to compete with Elena. I know you still love her and let's be honest, you probably always will…"

"I do love Elena, Bonnie. And you're right, I probably always will."

My shoulders sunk at his confession.

"But…you don't ever have to worry about competing with Elena because I don't want Elena…I want you." He lifted my chin to meet his eyes and I could see that he was telling the truth.

"I want you too."

"I know." He smirked. I hit his shoulder.

"Way to ruin the moment." I laughed.

Damon kissed my hand. "It doesn't have to be ruined."

"Well I'm about to ruin it some more."

"Uh oh, what is it? Tell daddy what's wrong." Damon wiggled his eyebrows.

"Damon!" I put my hand over my face to cover my snickering.

"Okay, okay, I'll stop." He wiped the stupid grin from his face and straightened up.

I placed my hand on top of his. "I wanted to say that as much as I want this to work, for us to work, there's always a possibility that it won't. And if that happens then things will be awkward between us and I'll lose your friendship. I don't wanna lose you, Damon."

Damon squeezed my hand. "You're not gonna lose me, Bon. I'm always gonna be in your life. You can't get rid of me, remember? I'm like a fever you can't-"

"Shake, yeah, yeah, I know." I finished for him.

After a minute of grinning at each other like idiots, we fell into a comfortable silence. His thumb grazed my bottom lip and he caressed my jaw as his sapphire blue eyes burned into mine, asking for permission.

We started leaning closer towards each other when he whispered my name. "Bonnie…"

His mouth gently slanted over mine and we lingered for a moment before our lips parted.

I finally kissed Damon. This isn't a dream, I repeat, this isn't a dream.

We kept our faces close together even after pulling apart. He looked at me with those eyes from underneath his long eye lashes and my heart literally skipped a beat.

"Your lips are so soft." He whispered. His thumb remained grazing my bottom lip.

Knock, knock

We pulled apart fast.

"Hey," Elena came in, oblivious to what was just going on.

I flashed her a phony smile.

"Can I talk to Bonnie?" Elena looked at Damon.

"Sure." Damon got up to leave but before he reached the door, he glanced at me with a sexy smirk.

I blushed a cherry red but Elena didn't notice.

Elena took over Damon's spot and stared at me for a moment before asking how I was.

"I'm not in any pain, I'm just wore out."

Elena took my hand. "I was so worried about you. After I told Damon what happened to you, he told me not to bud in but you know me, I couldn't just stand by and not do anything."

"You could have been hurt." I chastised.

"I had Stefan with me and plus, you'd do the same for me."

"You're right. So how'd you get Stefan to go along with you?" I wondered aloud.

"I just talked to him and told him we needed him." Elena shrugged.

I rolled my eyes. "You mean you told him you needed him, right?"

Elena giggled. "Maybe."

"Gosh, Elena. That man really loves you."

"I know." She nodded.

"Have you told him how you've been feeling lately?"

"No, I haven't really had the chance to. Plus I don't want to rush into anything, he's been through enough heartache and so have I."

"I get it."

"But I didn't come in here to talk about Stefan, I came in here to talk about you…and Damon."

My heart stopped.

"What about…me and Damon?"

"I know you like him, Bonnie. And I think he likes you too."

"Elena…" I licked my lips and swallowed. "I don't just like him…I love him."

Elena's eyes widened in awe. "Wow…"

"Yeah…"

"Does he know how you feel?"

"Yes. I haven't exactly told him to his face but he knows." I confessed.

"…And does he feel the same?"

"I don't know. I mean I know there's feelings there but I don't know how deep they are."

"Wow." Elena repeated. "One minute you guys hate each other and the next you're in love."

"I know this all sounds crazy and I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner it's just I didn't feel right, you know? You and Damon haven't even been broken up that long and I'm already trying to move in on him. Some best friend, huh?"

Elena giggled in response. "It's definitely weird to think of you two together. But not because Damon's my ex, it's because it's Damon."

We both laughed at that.

"Why are you taking this so well? I thought you'd be upset."

"Bonnie, you're my sister. If you're happy, I'm happy for you." Elena held my hands. "Besides, it's about time you get a new man." Elena teased.

I scoffed playfully. "I can't believe you said that!"

Elena raised her hands, trying to display her innocent look.

"Here, scoot over." Elena got underneath the covers with me and we leaned into each other.

We both sighed in contentment. "I miss this."

Elena agreed.

"You know Damon and I had fun together but we weren't right for each other. Maybe you two are meant to be together."

"Maybe."

I closed my eyes and let myself drift back to sleep.

A/N: Bamon is canon! Bamon is real!

Btw I know some people were wondering if I would make Steroline happen in this story and now you have your answer. No offense, but I hate steroline. I love them as friends only. Stelena, Bamon, and Klaroline are my otps so those are the ships I'll most likely always write about.

If you're still sticking with this story, please leave a comment and let me know what you want to see happen with Bamon. Also tell me what's been your favorite chapter so far and why.

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