A/N: I'm so sorry this has took me so long to write. I've been having a hard time with classes, as well as personal issues with family and friends. Thankfully though, for the most part, things have calmed down-and now that school is out, i can try to focus more on writing. Once again, i do apologize for the delay.

Chapter Ten: You Should Have Lied

You should have lied

cause your stupid mistake

made my world crash down

The rain continued to pour as I slowly made my way back into my room. I had finally caught up on my missions, and was able to have a moment to myself. My bruises and sore muscles had healed, since most the missions I went on recently had been recon missions. I kept a close eye on Saix and Xemnas after the recent events that had taken place. I still needed to sneak off and ask Riku about Sora, but I had to keep everything timed-so I wouldn't get caught. I sat down on my bed and took a deep breath, I knew I needed to talk to Riku-but I didn't want to at the same time. I was worried he might bring up something I didn't want to hear or know. As I sat on my bed and relaxed a bit, I prepared to leave, to find out the truth.

As the dark cloud opened and I stepped out onto the sandy shores, I began to look around, mostly for Riku. I ditched my uniform behind a bush and began to roam the sandy shores. As I looked around, I heard a familiar voice and I quickly ducked behind a tree to try and figure out who it was. I quietly peered out from behind the tree, to see Axel talking to Xemnas. I couldn't hear excatly what they were saying, but I was shocked to find that they had known about Destiny Islands. I sat hiding, listening to the murmured whispers and the sounds of the waves softly crashing into the shore. As I watched, I saw the two open a dark cloud and then leave.

I sat behind the tree, watching the waves, unsure of what to do. Everything was falling apart, and I knew things were going to get rough. I watched the way the waves slowly crashed against the shore, and I listened at how peaceful the waves sounded. I wanted nothing more than to run off to some place where no one would find me...except maybe Roxas. I didn't know if Axel could be trusted anymore. I knew that if I had a heart, it would be breaking. I looked up slowly and glanced around the island, seeing another black cloaked figure. This time though, I decided to make myself known. "Hey, what are you—Riku?!" I jumped back, as the figure turned to face. Standing before me, wearing an organization cloak, was Riku.

What do I care?

If it didn't really mean a thing, why'd you do it?

I'm standing here

Looking at someone who doesn't know they blew it

"Xion, it's...complicated," Riku said, as I tried to put the pieces of the puzzle together on my own. "Complicated, this whole time-you! You where the one that night at the Castle! You planned on killing me to save your friend!" I yelled, trying to figure everything out. "It's not what you think, not exactly," Riku said, as I shook my head. "Not exactly?!" I yelled, looking down at my feet. Everything was falling apart. The one person who I had used as an 'escape' turned out to be the one person I needed to avoid. "I know I did you wrong, but please, let me explain, I can answer any questions you have, just-let's talk, ok?" Riku asked, as I shrugged. "Whatever," I said, as I walked towards the coastline, then letting myself fall to the sand. Moments later, Riku sat down beside me. "My name is Riku, and this place, Destiny Islands, is my home. It's also the home to two of my best friends, Sora, and Kairi. We all longed for adventure and decided to leave the islands, but before we could, a storm came and separated us. We all went our own ways, and tried to find our way back to each other. Sora, in the end, got temporarily turned into a Heartless, but was soon turned back into his normal self. Since Sora's heart was so strong..." Riku explained, as I let out a small gasp. "Sora has a Nobody," I said, as Riku nodded. "The thing is though, things were...different with Sora. He had his memories split, some went to one Nobody, the rest went to the other," Riku said, as I sat there in silence, trying to put all the pieces together.

As Riku continued to talk, I tried as hard as I could to take in all the information. I was not supposed to exist. I was just a vessel for some of Sora's memories. I stood still, listening as Riku continued to talk-and I began to think about everything he was telling me in more detail. It all made sense-i had no prior memories of anything before the Castle, and I continued to have strange spells of remembering Sora, it was all connected. "I was not supposed to exist and Sora is unable to wake up without me," I said, unaware that I had spoken aloud. "Yes," Riku said, softly, as I continued to look out at the water. "What, what do I have to do to wake Sora up?" I asked, as I slowly glanced over at Riku-who looked at me with sadness in his eyes. "In order for Sora to wake up, you can't exist anymore," he said, as I took a moment to let the words sink in. "I can't exist..." I said slowly, realizing what it meant as I said it. It meant I had to die in order for Sora to live.

Tell me would you kill

to save a life?

Tell me would you kill

to prove you were right?

We stood in silence, me not wanting to say anything, and Riku not wanting to say anything. There was a tension in the air as I dug my feet deeper into the cool sand. "There's...more," Riku said, as I looked over at him. "More?" I asked, as he frowned. He then nodded and took a deep breath. "The other person that has Sora's memories..." Riku said, as I looked over at him. "Who is the other person?" I asked, as Riku looked down. "You've seen the 'dreams'...you've seen Sora's memories, doesn't Sora look familiar?" Riku asked, as I tried to picture Sora's face. I pictured his bright blue eyes, and his messy brown hair...his facial features, which reminded me a lot "Roxas", I said, as I looked over at Riku. Riku nodded his head, frowning. "Unless you two can go 'back' to Sora, he'll never wake up, you're both parts of him-parts he needs," Riku said, as I nodded, actually understanding everything he was saying. "In order for you to get your friend back, Roxas and I have to die," I said, as Riku flinched. "Not die, you two don't exist in order to die," Riku said, as I frowned. "Can, can we agree on something?" I asked, as Riku nodded. "I can't feel, and i'm pretty much a puppet in life anyway, so if I agree to 'die', can you try to protect Roxas until he decides to 'go'?" I asked, as Riku nodded. "Yes, I will make sure he is looked after," Riku said, as I nodded.

I glanced away, unsure of what I was going to do. In order to bring Sora back, I had to go away. Me going away I understood, but I hated the thought of poor Roxas vanishing too. I sighed, as I slowly dug my feet out of the sand. Riku, noticing my movement, stood up and extended his hand out to me. I placed my hand in his and he helped me to stand up. "Xion, I know this is a lot to take in, and I know what i'm asking you to do is crazy, but I can't thank you enough. If Sora doesn't wake up, the balance between light and dark will shift," he said, as I nodded. "I get it Riku, I do. It's just...it's a lot to take in, but I understand and I will do what I can to help you," I said, as Riku smiled. He slowly leaned in, and placed his lips gently on mine. My eyes closed as I embraced the warmth of his lips. He then back away, as I opened my eyes I saw him smirk. "I wish more than anything that I could feel, because if I could, I know my heart would be racing," I said, as Riku smiled. "I'm sorry, but if it helps, mine is racing," he said, before he opened a dark cloud. "I'll see you soon, Xion," he said, before walking into the dark cloud and vanishing.

"Well, for your information... I worry about you all the time, Roxas."

.tick. The sound of my boots hitting the cold marble floors echoed as I walked along the empty hallway in the castle. Everything was blurred, as I tried to figure out what I needed to do. Who do I trust? Am I doing the right thing by trusting Riku? All i've known is the Organization...am I willing to turn my back on them? I thought, as I continued to walk. "Xion! There you are! I've been looking everywhere for you!" Roxas said, as he ran down the hall towards me. "Roxas, what's up?" I asked, as Roxas smiled. "Mission time, we have to go to Agrabah," Roxas said, as I nodded. Roxas opened a dark cloud and the two of us stepped through it.

The wind blew hard as sand began to blow around us. "What is our mission here?" I asked, as Roxas looked around. "There has been an increase in Heartless activity here, or so i've been told. We've been sent here to do a bit of recon and try to figure out why more Heartless would be showing up," Roxas explained, as I nodded. As I watched Roxas roam around, my attention went from focusing on Heartless, back to focusing on if I could betray the Organization. I watched Roxas, as he focused on the mission. Roxas, my best friend, one of my only friends, could I really betray him?