A/N – Thank you for the kind reviews, please keep them up, as i have no idea if you are enjoying the story or not, all reviews are welcome, good or bad!
FLASHBACK!
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Jackson and Aaron are lying in bed at Smithy Cottage. The mechanic lies there in slience, not knowing what to say, he had never done this before with a man, he was so nervous and wasn't sure if he had done it right. Jackson turns round to face the broody teen and smiles.
"You sure you haven't done this before?" Jackson says cheekily.
"What do you mean? You know i haven't" The teen makes a face.
Jackson laughs "I meant that i enjoyed myself, that's all"
Aaron now embarrassed gets up to have a cig. "I did too" Aarom smiles then turns beetfoot. He wasn't use to giving compliments.
"Well, i better go" Jackson starts to get up from the bed, showing all his glory to Aaron.
"ww-why? You can stay if you want to?"
"Do you want me to?" the builder smiles.
Aaron nods and watches the naked builder hop back into the bed, the teen stubs out his cig and joins the beauitful man that will now always be in his heart, whether he knows it or not.
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Jackson is lying in bed, thinking about the good times he shared with his hot headed ex, the first night they spent together, for Aaron it might of just been about sex, but for the builder it was something magical and beautiful, was the night he relised he could actually fall in love with the confused boy. After a phone call from his mate John, the builder had a new job just outside of Walford, looks like he's sticking around, He thought it was about time he started to look for somewhere to live.
Syed is in the kitchen of his parents home, cleaning the dishes from breakfast, when his mother bursts in the door with an angry look on her face. Syed goes to help her with the shopping she was carrying.
"What a morning i have had! Been waiting half an hour to get served in town, this large women in front of me, chatting up the checkout boy, it was cringe worthy, she is my age, chatting up some boy! Her poor children, if she has any" Zainab rants.
Syed was ignoring what his mum was saying, he had too much on his mind, he had to think of what to say to Jackson about standing him up last night and trying to find the words to tell his parents that his husband wants a divorce.
"Syed?" Zainab shouts
Syed snaps out of his daze and turns to his mother. "Did you say something?"
"For heavens sake papu!, i asked if you got Jackson's mothers number? I would like to call her!"
"No, i forgot, sorry"
"Could you do it today, please?"
"Yeah"
"Thank you" Zainab smiles then she notices that something isn't quite right with her son. "Are you okay, papu?"
"Yeah, i'm fine, just got a lot on my mind"
"Is it anything to do with Christian? You shouldn't feel so guilty, he left you, you need to get on with your life"
"Are you really saying this to me?" Syed couldn't believe how supportive his mother has been.
"What do you mean? I am your mother, Syed, i will always be there for you"
"Who are you and what have you done with my mum?"
"oh shut up and get those bags unpacked, i'm not going to have an untidy house because my son is lazy!" Zainab moans and walks out of the kitchen, leaving Syed smiling and happy to know his mother is still in there.
Zainab is in the square when she sees Jackson coming out of the mini mark, she rushes towards him while shouting his name.
"Jackson! I need your mothers phone number, i said to Syed to say to you last night, but he forgot, as usual"
"Last night?" the builder confused
"Yes, when you two went out, he forgot to say to you about me wanting your mothers number"
Jackson stands there confused, so he told his parents he saw him last night, but clearly he didn't show up, what if Aaron got to him? Great that's all he needs.
"Hello? Jackson?" Zainab waves to get the blokes attention.
"Oh sorry, um, why do you want her number anyways?"
"to talk to her, i think i have the right to know what my sons boyfriends mother is like!"
Jackson laughs at how crazy Zainab can be. He writes down Hazel's number down on a bit of paper and gives it to Zainab.
Jackson heads back to the B&B and finds a small package with his name on it at the desk, there was stamp and or address, just his name. Someone must of posted it through the letter box. The first name that came to mind was Aaron, but wasn't really the teens style to do something like that. Once he's in his room, the builder opens the package to find a blank CD that says 'play me' on it, with a confused look on his face, Jackson puts it in the CD player and sits down on the bed. His face scrunches up at the sound of the band that is playing, Westlife! He lies on the bed fully taken in the lyrics to the song.
There's something in the silence [Chorus] I'm standing at your doorstep Won't you say it's OK [Chorus] Yeah the difference in me [Chorus] Yeah the difference in me
I never used to feel
There's something about knowing
That tells you this is real
When you're close
all I know I don't want to let you go
Hello happiness
Tell me where you've been
I missed the sound of your voice
missed the touch of your skin
It's no secret I'm Not who I used to be
Anyone can see
You're the difference in me
Oh the difference
Let me look into your eyes
We could strip away the secrets
Between you and me tonight
Let the world just fade away
The difference
When you're close all I know I don't want to let you go
Oh the difference
There's something in the silence I never used to feel
Once the song ended, tears are now on Jackson's face. It clearly was Aaron who sent the CD, but it doesn't sound like something Aaron would do, its just not his style, nothing was his style! It just didn't make any sense to the builder. Jackson's room door started to knock, his heart now pounding to who it could be on the other end, he jumped off the bed and pretty much swong the door opened. Relif and disappointment on his face, he smiles half heartedly. Syed heads towards the bed and sits down, he had some explaining to do.
"Look, I'm sorry about last night, i was on my way here, then i bumped into someone" Syed explained
Jacksons heart nearly stopped when he heard that, it was Aaron! He knew it. "Who was it?" he played dumb.
"Roxy" Syed sighed. Jackson was able to breathe.
"What did she say this time?" the builder asks.
"She told me that Christian wants a divorce"
"oh right, well that's what you want isn't it?"
"No, i mean, yes, it is, i just can't believe i have two failed marriages"
"Life happens, you two tried and it didn't work out and you've moved on" Jackson looks at Syed's face when he said that. "you have moved on? I mean you and me?"
"Yes, i have moved on, i love being with you Jackson, it's just sunk in that's all, that i'm a complete failure" Syed puts his hands on his face.
Jackson now at his feet, he moves his boyfriends hands from his face and stares into his eyes. "you're not a failure, you've just made mistakes like all of us, you just need to start learning from them" Jackson grins. Syed pulls the builder up on the bed and gives him a gentle kiss on the lips. "Can i stay over?" the older man asks. Jackson smiles.
TBC
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