hey guys, gonna be honest, i wrote this quite a while ago and it's just a narration of a scene for the most part, but school's just started up so i figured i might focus on homework for today, but i've already finished tomorrow's bit, so bear with me :) xx

ten - things are different now

"You're thinking of stopping, aren't you? You and Rory." Amy looked up at the Doctor. He knew. Of course he knew. He could always read Amy so easily.

"No," she quickly said. "I mean, we haven't made a decision."

"But you're considering it." The way he looked at her, with those big sad eyes. She couldn't lie to him.

"Maybe. I don't know. We don't know." There was a brief pause as Amy thought of what to say next. "Well, our lives have changed so much. But there was a time, there were years, when I couldn't live without you. When just the whole everyday thing would drive me crazy. But since you dropped us back here, since you gave us this house, you know, we've built a life." It was true. A life with Rory was so much better than Amy could ever have imagined. But balancing it with the TARDIS and travelling felt impossible to maintain. "I don't know if I can have both."

"Why?"

"Because they pull at each other. Because they pull at me, and because the travelling is starting to feel like running away." Amy remembered what she said to the Doctor years ago, when she was in the TARDIS after their first adventure with the Star Whale. She was running away from her marriage - that seemed so ridiculous to her now, considering how happy she was with Rory - and she asked the Doctor if he ever ran away from something. She couldn't remember his answer now. But she figured she could guess.

"That's not what it is," the Doctor defended himself.

"Oh, come on. Look at you, four days in a lounge and you go crazy."

"I'm not running away." Amy raised her eyebrows at that, but she decided to let him finish. "But this is one corner of one country in one continent on one planet that's a corner of a galaxy that's a corner of a universe that is forever growing and shrinking and creating and destroying and never remaining the same for a single millisecond. And there is so much, so much to see, Amy. Because it goes so fast." Amy couldn't take her eyes off the Doctor, while he wouldn't meet hers. "I'm not running away from things, I am running to them before they flare and fade forever." The Doctor took a breath and looked down. "And it's all right. Our lives won't run the same. They can't. One day, soon maybe, you'll stop. I've known for a while."

Amy couldn't think of what to say, how to respond to what the Doctor was telling her. He was being so honest with her. "Then why do you keep coming back for us?"

"Because you were the first. The first face this face saw. And you're seared onto my hearts, Amelia Pond. You always will be. I'm running to you, and Rory, before you fade from me." Amy rested her head upon his shoulder. She was terribly, terribly torn. Life with Rory or life with the Doctor? And why couldn't she have both? Rory, the Doctor, and Amelia Pond. In the TARDIS. She just wished it were that simple.