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Amelia woke up from her dream back on the Jolly Roger. She shook her head, that had been the most painful dream she had ever had. Her breath was ragged and her knees gave out forcing her to sit down on a barrel.

Her feelings were all mixed up. Content that she got out when she did but sad because the outcome seemed to be the same no matter what. She was alone and childless either way.

There was a slight noise besides her. Amelia turned her head to see Kilian standing a few feet from her. He was lost for words as he just stared at her. Then it hit her, he had the same dream.

They had both experienced the alternate life together. What could either of them really say? It hadn't ended well, by any means. Yes, there were good moments in that life but the fights were otherworldly. They were so different.

"I didn't give it up." Killian finally broke the silence. Amelia looked at him, confused. "The Jolly Roger. I didn't give it up, it was waiting for me at the next port. In case, we…."

There was no reason for him to finish that statement. "In case we didn't work out. You had no faith in us." She shook her head. Could she really be mad at him? "We were awful people together, weren't we?"

"I don't know about awful, but…"

"I'm glad I got out when I did." She answered honestly.

He just sat there in silence. He had conflicted feelings also. He had been happy with her but not content with their life. "I don't mean to pry but how are you content with that quiet life with Baelfire?"

A long sigh left Amelia. Why? That was a hard question. "Storybrooke didn't have the need for a bounty hunter. There was no temptation to be her. I was, I am a completely different person now."

He nodded, accepting her answer. "The Enchanted Forest was filled with temptation."

"And no one knew who I was, that helped, fresh start."

Killian's eyes fell to the vial in her hands. "Now lass, how did you obtain something like this? I never saw anything like this before."

"Do you still care about me?" She turned to fully face him. It was not a trick question, but he did freeze. "You don't want to know what I had to do. Let's just leave it at that Killian."

"I didn't answer your question." Killian argued slightly.

"You don't have to have say anything, your silence said it all. You wouldn't have let me back on your ship if you didn't care the slightest bit about me." She gave him a small sad smile.

"I don't like to see you hurt, lass." Killian told her.

"I know and I appreciate it. A lot."

A few days later, the island was finally close enough to land. They were finally going to set foot on Neverland.

"We are going to be landing soon. You should get armed up." Killian held up a key. Amelia recognized it instantly and a tiny smile appeared on her face. "Now there's that beautiful smile. I know you can't be bribed with jewelry." He gently nudged his shoulder into hers.

"Shut up Killian." She playfully shoved him back and began to walk away.

"While you're down there, get weapons for the rest of the crew." He called after her.

She paused, turning to face him. "Crew? More like rag tag band of misfits with a common goal."

Below deck in the armory, Amelia took a moment to just look around the room. She needed it to gather herself. A few deep breaths, a touch to the engagement ring, the fight to end the sobs. Then she forced herself to focus, she had to be set and determined to do everything to save Henry.

She picked out twelve daggers, a bow and a quiver full of arrows for herself. Finally, she was starting to feel like her old powerful self. Almost content, still alone but at least in control of something now.

Killian had said to get weapons for everyone else. What about the rest of them? David would want a sword, being Prince Charming and all. Mary Margret was a bow and arrow kind of woman. Gold and Regina had their magic so no weapons for them. That left Emma. Amelia grabbed another sword and headed up to the deck.

"Here." She handed David the sword and Mary Margret the bow and quiver. They both looked a little confused.

"This is nice. Where did these come from?" Mary Margret asked, testing out the bow.

"The armory." Amelia answered matter-of-factly.

"This ship has an armory?" David said, trying not to sound impressed.

"Yes, it took me while to remember where it was. Last time I went down there, I was upside down." Amelia clearly remembered that time.

David understood what she meant and shook his head, trying to get rid of that image.

"David, at least she is making jokes." Mary Margret rubbed his arm.

"Where did you get these weapons? Stole them?" David had the nerve to ask Killian.

Amelia felt annoyance building in her. "David, in times like this, you don't ask where the weapons came from. You simply say thank you." Those words were from her past, from men who had her back and cared about her. She missed them.

He sensed her anger and did not want her foot on his chest again. So he just nodded.

Amelia walked over to Emma. "Here, you need something to defend yourself on Neverland." She held out the sword to Emma.

The Savior only stared at it for a moment and then pointed to the short sword on the barrel next to her. "I have something already. It was Neal's…" She paused then looked up at Amelia almost in horror. "Oh wait, you should have it. Hook gave it to me but I'm just the ex, you're the…"

"No, it's fine. Killian offered it to me already. I'm not good with a sword, they aren't my thing. Use the sword now then give it to Henry when we save him."

"You know we are going to save him?"

"Of course, this ship has the most capable people I have ever met. Plus, we are family and family always find a way."

Amelia and Killian needed a real understanding moment. Killian was having the same dream, that's how Amelia now knows about Liam. They are finally making it to Neverland very soon.

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