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Disclaimer: Ok I rubbed a lamp and got three wishes. The rules are no bringing people back from the dead, no forcing people into love, and no wishing for more wishes. Great! I know exactly what I want to wish for… oh wait and no wishing you were Stephenie Meyer… Dang! So yup I don't own anything and can't even wish for it!! So much for wishes… lol

Anyway… on with the story!!

Last Time:

Edward and the rest of my family were still in danger with my presence, especially since Jacob unknowingly freed my voice, and I had no way to escape them without Jacob so I decided to let him take me wherever. Once I regained my strength I could leave him, which would be much easier than trying to escape from Edward and Alice. That would be impossible with Alice's ability and at least while I was with Jacob, it was useless; at least while I was with Jacob, I had a chance to protect everyone. As we ran I felt the presence of many others running with Jacob, and I knew the rest of his pack had finally arrived. I just hoped this wouldn't end in a fight between my family and the pack.

CHAPTER TEN

Alice sped down the road, pushing this car to its limit. I realized how much I actually appreciated Rosalie's tinkering behind the hood when unable to reach the speed desired. I was an emotional roller coaster at the moment and was grateful that Jasper was not suffering through this with me. Above all other emotions though, there resided a deep determination and it was the only thing that kept me going. My distress was evident in the fact that I let Alice drive, but at the moment I knew that I would be unable to handle a car without ripping off the steering wheel with all the tension.

Once we hit the reservation, we deserted the car on the side of the road to continue on foot. I took a moment to suck up as much air as possible to identify the location of my angel. Her scent was strong to my trained nose and I found it quickly. To my complete displeasure, I picked up another scent as well. This second scent was much less pleasant which only caused my determination to grow.

Turning in the direction of their location, I took off pushing my speed faster than I had ever dared before. If I wasn't so distressed, it could have been invigorating, but the present circumstances prevented this. Alice was following me to the best of her ability, although she was no match for my speed, especially because of my current purpose.

'Edward I know you're anxious but you have to slow down! We need to present a untied front, specially because it is just the two of us!'

Alice's thoughts screamed for my attention, and even though I was not pleased, I knew she was right. My feet dug into the ground allowing me to come to a complete stop waiting for her to catch up. It took a few dreadfully long seconds until she approached and we began running side-by-side towards my Bella. As we neared and her scent grew stronger, the wind changed direction now blowing with us instead of against us. They would know instantaneously that we were approaching. Once the wind switched directions, her scent, which was unmoving earlier, began to drift farther away. A mere second later I realized they were running from us, Bella included and I found myself standing in a small clearing that she had only seconds previously occupied. This came as such an immense shock that I collapsed to my knees struggling for breath. My lung failure was due to my emotions fully breaking through my several barriers, not my swift running. I couldn't bring myself to terms with the fact that she was actually running away from me, and with him, that vile Jacob Black.

My senses went numb except for the violent shaking that rocked through my body. At first I thought the world was going through some massive earthquake until I realized that the tremors were coming from my tearless sobs. Shortly after my discovery, my senses picked up Alice's pleading words and thoughts as her small hands attempted to repress my shaking.

"Edward, please calm down!" How can she ask me to do the impossible? I have been through hell for over six months while my angel lay trapped in a world unknown to me only to find that she has finally recognized that I am not worth it. She was my everything and she deserted me, but I didn't blame her. How could such an angel ever settle for something like me; oh right, they couldn't. What hurts the most is that she was able to make me feel like I wasn't a monster at all and had always been my heart and soul.

I reduced my sobs to short gasps of air with much effort for Alice's sake. I would have to get away from my family before I truly broke down, they didn't deserve to go through that. Once I gained enough false composure to slow my unnecessary breathing, I stood with an emotionless expression.

"Edward look," Alice, whispered from behind me in a horrified yet reluctant voice. Curious to her sudden change in demeanor, I turned to observe what she'd ascertained. That's when I saw words scrawled into the dirt, and I approached to read the message.

I mean no harm. Can't talk. Need to go, running away and being followed.

Voice gone, hard to explain. Running from Edward. Dangerous, need to get away. Please let me go.

Now I had completely stopped breathing altogether. Bella had written this message and she was really running away from me because she finally realized I was dangerous to her! No, this was too much; whatever self-control I had gained was completely lost now. I was again lying on the ground shaking uncontrollably and I was not sure if I would ever be able to move again. I think Alice was trying to talk to me but I was too far gone.

The next thing I knew I was flying through the forest again towards the car, but I wasn't running. My pride was totally shot now, but I didn't have the energy or willpower to tell Alice to put me down. I no longer possessed control over my body, which continued its violent tremors. I had never wished for sleep more than I was right now. If only I could escape for just a few hours to a world where everything could be as I wanted it, and dream of my beautiful angel by my side. But I was a monster, and monsters don't get the privilege of dreaming.

It could have been seconds or days, but eventually I found myself in the hotel room we had spent the previous night, or was it a couple nights ago? In any case, I couldn't keep her out of my thoughts or senses. Everything I saw or heard was her and the love she once held for me. Normally my memories of her brought nothing but joy, but now I was entirely filled with such a deep sorrow that it was physically painful. I decided to figure out what had taken place since the forest since I was no longer shaking and couldn't hear anything. Slowly as I willed myself to open my eyes, I heard faint whispers in my head that continued to grow.

''Edward please wake up honey, don't do this to yourself',' I heard Esme's mind reaching out toward mine. Wait, why was she here?

'I don't know what is wrong with him, we can't sleep yet he doesn't respond to anything we do,' Carlisle's mind was both speculative and worried. How did they get here, and how long was I wrapped in my own self-loathing and picturing my Bella? I focused my mind on the thoughts around me and discovered my whole family in the room, well all except one.

I was lying down on something soft, a bed I suppose, and decided to sit up before opening my eyes to this cruel world. As I moved in my vampire speed so that I was sitting with my knees pulled to my chest, I heard gasps and my name being called out anxiously. With much effort, I pried my eyelids open to see my family's faces inches from mine.

"Could you give me some room," I hissed slightly shocked by my dead voice. It didn't sound like an actual voice, but more like a monotone computer mimicking a voice that struggled to speak at all. They responded at once backing up and sitting on the edge of the bed. I placed my head on my knees letting my mind wonder once again, knowing that it was in this position that I would most likely spend the rest of eternity.

"Edward, son we need you to listen to us. It has been a week since Alice brought you here and this is the first time you have moved," Carlisle spoke softly to me yet his words rang with authority. Did he just say a week? "Talk to us please, why did you stop the chase?" What did he mean why? She ran from us! She doesn't want me and I am not going to force her!

"She chose to run," again my voice was void of any emotion as was my face. I was entirely perplexed as to how so much time had passed. "We must return to Alaska and let her live according to her desires." My voice was strange even to me, but I was too empty to feign emotions with them.

"You want to leave?" Alice was the one who spoke staring at me in bewilderment. I simply nodded my head.

Time passed as everyone mulled over my request. I didn't see how they could possibly want to stay here when Bella was to the one who ran from us. My nonexistent heart was broken into pieces so small that they could fit through the head of a needle. I just wanted to leave this place that had played with my emotions every chance available. If she wanted to stay with him, then she could, but I could not stand to be here one more second.

"I'm going home, stay here or come, I don't really care," with that being said, I moved swiftly toward one of the cars with my cell phone in hand. Once my plane ticket was purchased, I stole away for a quick hunt before the long plane trip. No one had followed me so far, although soon enough I was sure they would realize staying here was a lost cause and turn back home.

Before long, I was headed toward the house with my emotions distant, as I was unreceptive to them. I prolonged letting my barriers down again after my recent breakdown and thus had shut up what little emotion I could. As I approached the massive white mansion, I realized how few happy memories I had actually had here. Most of them were laying by Bella watching her still, lifeless body. This was too much for me to handle at the moment so I swerved my car around swiftly before departing in the opposite direction.

My family would probably not be back for a couple days at least according to their hesitant response toward my departure so I figured I had a couple days without their questions although an empty house wasn't welcome. Being alone would only cause me to drown in my self-loathing to a depth that I was unsure I would be able to return. In an attempt to not forget, but simply ignore the recent events, I decided it was time to once again visit the Denali family. I would be too occupied trying to battle off the non-relenting women to let my mind drift, plus I doubted they would ask much questions about Bella's location.

I had reached their property, and slowly emerged from my car turning toward their front door. Before I had the chance to take a single step, the door swung open and Tanya flew at me, followed by Kate and Irina. I was stunned by their immediate presence and was unable to react before Tanya reached me. She threw her arms around me with a suggestive smirk. Quickly I pried her arms off of me and took a large step back.

"Well hello Eddie, why are you here all alone? Not that I'm complaining," Tanya winked at me and giggled while her two sisters shared outright disturbing thoughts about me to the point that I blocked their filthy minds. I couldn't refrain from twisting my face in disgust at their futile efforts for my affection; there was only one woman who I held any desire for and she walked out on me, well more like ran out, but she left nevertheless. Plus, she used the abbreviated version of my name that I hated with a passion.

"I was wondering if I could stay here a few days to sort things out without any questions, if that's ok," despite my distaste in their behavior, I was ever the gentleman seeing as I was asking for a favor. My voice of course was still entirely empty of emotion bringing all three of them to look at me curiously.

"Of course you can stay here, although I do have one simple question that shouldn't be too difficult to answer," she smiled at me with a fake innocence causing me to inadvertently flinch. I gave a quick nod while questioning my sanity at coming here alone.

"Ok, will any others be joining us or showing up looking for you?" her question was simple enough allowing me to answer.

"No, my family is out of town and shouldn't be back for several days," with that she turned and led me to a spare bedroom within the house where she closed the door to leave me to my thoughts. I greatly appreciated both her hospitality and willingness to leave me be without further examination. I was glad to be around others hearing the buzz of their thoughts in the back of my mind that had nothing to do with the reason my whole world had fallen apart. It allowed my to be alone without truly being alone even though it felt like I was completely empty without my other half at my side. Instead of dwelling on the negative for now, I ran through my most pleasant memories with the love of my life to dull the never-ending pain of her absence. Knowing a break down in the presence of this coven would not be a brilliant idea; I did everything I could utilizing all my previously acquired self-control to pretend everything was ok and that my angel hadn't truly run away.

Yes, I know… this chapter was very depressing. Sorry, but how else would Edward take Bella's seemingly unexplainable actions, especially after what she has been through so far? Poor Edward… I promise it will not end this story on a bad note, otherwise I would hate my own story so please continue reading!! Oh and don't forget to review… even if you just want to yell at me for making Edward so sad! Sorry… lol!

--Edwardluvr22

P. S.- Oh and this is my longest chapter yet!! The next chap will be in Alice's Point of view.