A/N: Well you can say it...FINALLY! The only thing I really have to say is thank you to everyone who has stuck with this story! It's amazing how understanding you all are! Also a huge thank you to Northwoman! I'm exaggerating when I say this story would non longer be if not for her. She is now my amazing Beta, and I couldn't be more thrilled. Now, that said, all errors are mine. I decided to be difficult and add an EPOV to this at the last minute so that part is not beta'd. So disregard the errors please! Now get to reading the new chapter!
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters. All belong to CH!
EPOV
I was a few short hours away from doing something I've dreamed about for years.
Shit...I was just a few hours away. I needed to get things done. I needed to get things for tonight! Damn it why was I starting to feel so nervous?
You are Eric Fucking Northman! You do not get nervous. You fuck like a God. Now pull your shit together Northman!
I repeated that a few times. Getting back in touch with my true self. I had no idea why I had been so nervous about being with Sookie. I had slept with plenty of women. Nothing new.
Because it's not other women. It's Sookie.
I didn't know what part of me to listen to. I didn't like feeling nervous. I didn't like feeling. But there was that part of me, a big part of me, that knew it was too late. I wasn't Eric Northman anymore. Well I wasn't New York Eric Northman anymore. Being with Sookie had made me want things I had never wanted before. For once I wanted to be with someone. I wanted to make love to her and wake up with her in my arms the next morning. I wanted to come home to her from a long day at work. I wanted to see her playing in the back yard with my son. I wanted her with me always. It didn't really even scare as much as it should that I wanted these things with her. I could only think about how lucky I was to have this second chance with her. A second chance at happiness.
I walked to my nightstand and open the top drawer looking for my book. I couldn't help but laugh at the massive amount of condoms I had. I definitely wouldn't be needing to make a condom stop on the way to Sookie's. I took the black book from the drawer and walked to the kitchen. There had to be over a hundred numbers, along with at least one picture for every number. Jesus. I had really become someone I didn't even know anymore. What kind of person has a book with over a hundred women they've slept with along with a picture so they could remember them. The sad part was that this wasn't even almost all the women. Though I hadn't slept with everyone of them it was still a larger percent that I had slept with than those I hadn't. This wasn't me anymore. I had Sookie and the rest of that shit was behind me. I was going to burn this fucking book and never think of it again. New slate.
I looked at the clock and almost panicked. Sookie was about to get out of class, and I hadn't done shit to prepare for the night. There wasn't anything I could do now. I got my coat and headed for the door. I was going to meet her outside her class, but seeing how I was already running late, I would probably miss her.
I got to her dorm before her. I knew she wouldn't be too much longer so I just perched myself against the building. Not five minutes later I saw her walking towards me. Her eyes finally noticed me leaning against the wall and she stopped walking for a second but quickly recovered. What was up with her? Where had seductive Sookie gone? She smiled quickly at me and walked past me into the building. She didn't speak until she unlocked her door.
"I just need to get a few things before we go."
"That's fine Sook, no rush." I pulled her to me and kissed her hair. Her hands pressed against my chest and she squirmed away, busying herself with packing. Seductive Sookie was definitely gone, and there was definitely something wrong with the Sookie standing in front of me.
She finished packing and we headed towards my apartment. We didn't really talk on the way there, and I was starting to feel nervous all over again. She would randomly squeeze my hand and smile at me. I knew something was wrong and I was about to ask her when we were walking inside, but she stopped walking completely, almost slinging me backwards. She was frozen, standing outside my door.
"Sookie?"
SPOV
"Sookie are you alright?"
"Sookie?"
"Huh? Yeah...Yeah I'm great!" Shit. How long had I been standing there just staring at his apartment? How long had he been saying my name?
After class Eric met me at my dorm so I could pack some things before we headed to his apartment. I wish I could say smooth, seductive Sookie stuck around, but somewhere between walking into class and seeing Eric leaning against the wall outside my dorm I had lost my nerve. I know I told Eric that he would be alone with only the thought of us, but I barely made it through class. I thought listening to a lecture would take my mind away from Eric. I was completely wrong. All I could think about was being with him, and I wanted it more than anything.
Now I was standing there like an idiot in his doorway. What was wrong with me? I don't know if it was how much like a dream this all felt like or that my body couldn't keep up with my mind, but I was glued to the floor.
"Are you planning on actually coming inside?" He was grinning but I could also tell he thought I was about to turn around and sprint. I was ruining everything because I was being a dumb ass. His face turned into a sad smile and he walked over to take my hand leading me into the apartment. "Sookie we don't have to do anything. We can just spend the night together. No pressure. Honest." Dear God how did I deserve this man? It was my idea to have sex and now he was making it seem like it was his fault I was acting like this! What the fuck is wrong with me?
"No!" I needed to fix this fast! "Eric I don't have second thoughts. I promise." I tried smiling at him.
"Sookie, you didn't even come inside until I pulled you with me."
"It's not because I don't want this." I said motioning at the two of us. "It was just a little much at first thinking about what all we've been through, that's all." I squeezed his hand letting him know I was serious. "I want this Eric. I want you." I genuinely smiled this time at him, and he smiled back.
"Does it feel like a dream to you?" I laughed at how on target he was with my feelings.
"I'll have a bruise if I pinch myself one more time."
He pulled me to him and shook us both with his laughter. I loved the sound of his laugh. I loved it when he was happy.
"I feel like I have to always be touching you, just to make sure you're really here with me."
I cupped his beautiful face with my hand and stared into his eyes."I'll always be here Eric. As long as you want me by your side, I'm here."
"I hope you packed all your things because that's going to be a long time."
"I've got everything I need." He smiled but I could tell he was thinking hard about something.
"Sookie we don't have to do this tonight, It's not..." I pressed my mouth to his before he could finish his stupid sentence. There wasn't a thing that could stop me from sharing this night with him. It may be hard for most people to understand our relationship. It may seem a little quick for some, but I have loved Eric for years. He's always been the one. We may not have been together very long but he's always been with me. I didn't know how much I loved him until that night I had to walk away from him, and the year after that the thought of him was the only thing that kept me going. After what I had been through with Bill and then Gran...I couldn't even think of that now. I hadn't thought of it in over a year and I wouldn't think of it now. Eric had always been my safe harbor, my rock, and it was time to show him how much he meant to me.
The slide of his tongue entering my mouth and his taste flooding me once again, brought me back to the moment. My body pressed into his and I felt the bulge poking into my stomach. I shuddered and tangled my hand into his hair while my other hand slid to his zipper. I managed to get it undone before Eric was on top of me. His mouth trailed down my face to my throat. I didn't even try to stop the moan that came from my mouth.
I pulled Eric's face back to mine and our eyes locked. I could see everything in his eyes and it turned me on even more. I was so lucky to have him. Eric peeled himself off me suddenly and stood up. I was about to ask him what was wrong when he extended his hand to me. I grabbed it and he lead me to the bedroom. His hands found my face and pulled me into the most loving kiss I've ever had. He leaned his forehead against mine after we broke for air.
"This is what you want?"
"More than anything. Now shut up and make love to me." I felt him smile against my skin. His hands roamed down to the hem of my shirt pulling it up and over my head. His mouth found mine again as I went for his shirt. He broke away to help me get it off him. I couldn't help but stare at his bare chest. I was in such a lustful haze I didn't even register him touching me again until I was kicking off my pants.
My body took over my brain and decided it had to be touching Eric. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled my legs up around his waist. My mouth attacked his, our tongues battling for dominance. I felt him walking us toward the bed and clung tighter to him as he laid us down. His mouth left mine and trailed down my body taking my bra with him. He trailed his tongue to the skin right above my panties and looked up at me with eyes clouded with nothing but lust. I felt his lips on me then. The thin fabric of my panties the only thing separating his mouth from my flesh. I lifted my hips and he slid them off of me. As much as I loved his touch and the feel of his tongue on me, I needed him in me. I needed it more than air. He looked confused when I pulled him back up my body.
"I need to feel you in me, and you are wearing way too many clothes for that." He laughed and got up with a wicked smile. He slowly, teasingly stripped off his pants, throwing them at me. I couldn't help but laugh at him, that didn't last long though because Eric had quickly gotten out of his boxers and all six feet and five inches of his glorious bare skin was in front of me.
I crooked my finger at him, and he was on me in a flash. The feeling of every inch of his skin on mine was like nothing else in the world. I felt him position himself at my entrance and took in a deep breath, preparing myself for him. A look of panic crossed his face and I knew exactly what he was thinking.
"Pill." He instantly looked relieved, but there was still question in his eyes. I simply nodded, and he intertwined our fingers as he pushed into me. I moaned his name as he filled me. Eric groaned and went still for a moment. He finally opened his eyes and locked with mine and crushed his mouth to mine, pulling almost completely out before pushing back in.
The feel of him inside me was like nothing else in the world. I couldn't remember a good reason for waiting this long now. His mouth moved from mine, sucking and marking my neck. His hand cupped my breast, pulling my nipple into his mouth, and I couldn't resist the urge to lock my fingers in his hair and pull him closer to me.
"You're so fucking beautiful Sookie." He drove into me harder, and I couldn't stop from shouting his name.
"Eric...Oh god...I love you."
It didn't slip by me that he didn't say it back, but his thrust came faster, hitting something in me that had never been hit before, I just couldn't form a complete thought well enough to worry about it. I heard myself scream his name again between his groans. His hands released mine and they found their way to his glorious butt, pulling him deeper into me. I felt myself getting closer as he slid in and out, hitting my spot over and over. I moved my mouth from his and kissed his neck. He thrust harder and I came biting his neck to try to muffle screams. He growled my name and came right after me, thrusting a few more times.
He lay there on top of me, resting his weight on his arms. His eyes were holding me hostage. I couldn't move, think, or blink. He was looking so deep into my eyes, almost as if he was looking for an answer to something.
"Sookie, I..." He trailed off looking confused. I was trying to think of something that may have happened when it hit me. Shit! I never should have said that I loved him. Of course I loved him, but it was way too soon for me to say that to him.
"Eric I think I know what this is about, and I don't expect you to -" Eric looked pissed when he cut me off.
"Sookie, I love you more than anything or anyone in my life. I have for three years. You're everything I've always wanted but never knew I could have. I don't deserve you Sookie." Tears had been streaming from my eyes since the beginning of his confession. By the end I was crying harder and shaking my head.
"You're so wrong Eric. I don't deserve you. You were always there for me while I was out there screwing everything up. You deserve so much better than me. I don't have much to offer, but you will always have my heart. I love you more than I ever thought possible." I didn't even know if he could understand me from all the crying, but I hoped he did.
"That's more than I could ever ask for," He whispered and lightly kissed me. "Why are you crying?"
Why was I crying?
"I have no idea!" We both started laughing and then suddenly stopped. The jostle of our laughter made the realization that we were still connected very apparent, and the feel of him growing inside me let me know I had Eric's full attention. I lifted an eyebrow teasing him. He shrugged.
"I can't help how much I want you."
My reply was to grind into him. He closed his eyes and sucked in a breath. I took advantage of his position and pushed him over so I was on top. His face was comical, eyebrows almost on his scalp, mouth slightly open with shock. I shrugged with a smirk on my face.
"I can't help how much I want you Northman." His growl started a fire in me. I raised up so his tip was barely in, teasing him, I slowly slid back down. I groaned at the sensation of him filling me even more. His hands moved to my breasts, massaging them, and pushing up to take them in his mouth. I slowly moved back off of him and deliberately slid back down him again. I repeated it until Eric lay back and moved his hands to my hips, slamming me back down on him. He took over from there, moving me at an incredible pace.
A few more thrusts and we came together. Both panting, I rolled off him trying to catch my breath. I had never experienced anything like this. Everything was new with Eric.
"I told you I would see every bit of you."
He laughed pulling me to him, and I rested my head on his rising chest. I couldn't think of a better place to be. I was already about to be dead to the world when he kissed my hair.
"I love you Sookie Stackhouse."
A/N: So what do you think? Eric and Sookie are official now. Though truthfully my plan was for them to wait until they went back home to seal the deal, but I just couldn't do it. I do feel like I should warn you seeing how some of you hate angst...I like a little angst through a story. I don't have fun writing chapter and chapter of all is well, the world is perfect. I like stories to feel like what going on could really happen. So there will be angst in the chapters ahead. Not every single chapter or anything. Just think of it as a little turbulence. ;) Okay shutting up now. Please Review!