I know

Lemy was leaning against a wall on the subway station with Marsha's case on his back; the boy had his headphones on and saw how all the office workers and other people were getting in and out of the wagons of the sub as the voice of Andi Deris was kicking in his ears at high volume. It's five o'clock, and even when there was a huge amount of people waiting in the station, it is not even close to the amount of people that goes to that place in the morning, or the sea of people that will form in two hours with all the persons coming from their jobs or the college.

Lemy looks at the screen of his phone to see the time, for the fifth time.

Come on dude, play it cool; if Lina sees that you're waiting for her that eager she will think that you're desperate for her and you will scare her and you will make her run away and…

Hold it together man; if you keep wandering that way you'll have to see a Ph.D. It isn't normal to lose your head talking to yourself all day telling yourself negative things… Or maybe Loan it's not the only schizophrenic in the family; maybe she would have to share some of her pills with me…

Lemy sighs in an effort to relax a little while drying his sweaty hands with his jeans.

This is the situation: while I was agonizing in the middle of my first week of school, I received a message from Lina.

"See u at the Kennedy station this Friday at 5, I have an idea to get some money for the Lollapalooza, and take your guitar with you ;P"

What the fuck is that emoji supposed to mean? In fact, what the fuck are all emojis supposed to mean? What are they good for? Are they supposed to be used instead of real words? Or are they used to identify the real meaning of a sentence? In case of the latter, what I'm supposed to understand from a face blinking? Is she flirting with me or it means that she's kidding? And that tongue… I must ask aunt Leni for some texting classes; she can't identify if a word is written with V or B, but I have received texts from Leia written only with emojis and Aunt Leni can decode them as if it were the easiest thing in the world.

Lemy's chaotic thoughts were interrupted when a silver haired girl poke him in the ribs, making him jump in fright.

"Daydreaming as always, Lem? If you keep doing it you'll be robbed one day and you wouldn't even notice." Lina said smiling as always. Man, her smile could cure cancer.

Lemy, stunned by the beautiful vision of the girl wearing mini shorts and a tight orange t-shirt couldn't answer; Lina thought about it for a moment, and then she leaned towards him and planed a kiss on his cheek, increasing the amount of work in Lemy's head.

Lina seems to be a little self-conscious, but immediately she smiled and then she picked her guitar case to show it to Lemy.

The white-haired girl opened the case and took out an orange guitar made of light wood and filled with stickers and draws about pop culture made with sharpie by her; they give the guitar a really urban aspect. Lemy had never put any sticker on his girls; he loves them too much to stain their beautiful 'skin' with such things.

"This one is Dayana." Lina shows him her guitar with pride. Lemy ask for permission to hold it, and after getting a nod from Lina he inspects the instrument; it is a dreadnought made in something that seemed to be ash tree. It is electroacoustic just like Lyra's. The boy makes himself comfortable and then he plays a simple scale, making the old strings sound as he notices they were tuned in the correct standard tune.

"Sounds good" Lemy said as he gives back Dayana to her owner and he takes his own guitar from its case. "So… why did you tell me to bring my guitar? Please tell me that we're not here to play for money…"

Lemy smiled as he thought about it, but when he lifted his gaze to address Lina, he noticed the girl had a cocky smile. Something made click on Lemy's head, and then he shook his head.

"Oh no, no, no, no. No way, I'm not going to play in front of a bunch of strangers. Besides I don't think it is legal."

Don't misunderstand me bro, of course I want to play in the big leagues, and that's why I follow mom wherever she plays, and if there's a chance where I can show everything I've learned, what's better that play in front of a crowd that assisted to a place to have a good time and listen to some good old rock? That's much better that interrupt people's talk with music you don't know if they will like or not. Personally, I hate those crazy preachers that get in to the wagons just to talk about God and Jesus and shit. Nope, I'm not into that.

"Oh come on, are you telling me that you're scared of breaking some rules? Oh, I get it, you have stage fright." Lina mocked while giving a daring stare.

Lemy bits her lower lip; he knows he's making himself look like a coward, but he can't help it. Just like he doesn't like when others force him to listen or watch the shit they like, he doesn't think it is fair to force the others to listen to his own trash.

Lina still has that stupid smile on her face; Lemy knows he will always give in, he always does, and Lemy feels both good and bad. His macho pride is telling him that in some point he will have to stand strong before her, that he would have to say no. And there's the other part, the part that makes him worry about his sisters and aunts, the part that force him to please the women around him and give in, because what is pride to the happiness of a girl?

I know bro, I'm pathetic.

"Alright, you win." Lina smiles even more and punch him softly on his shoulder.

The people in the wagon were listening to both kids as they were playing their instruments; Lina's tuned voice was so good some of the passengers with headphones took them off to listen to the beautiful girl. Lemy doesn't dare to sing because thanks to the damn puberty he's afraid his voice might break in the middle of the song, so the silver-haired girl was in charge of singing the lyrics to 'Back in Black', 'The House of the Rising Sun' and even 'Sweet Home Alabama' (fuck the black guy in the background). Lemy was amazed to see other people outside his family and the drunks from the dark and dirty bars where he played once, enjoying the music that was coming from Marsha.

Lina, being the vocalist of this jam duet, was just playing in the background with Dayana, and Lemy impressed more than one person as he played just like the legends of rock, filling the wagon with the high and deep notes from the classic songs.

When they finished playing the third piece, Lina took off her wool cap and began to pick the tips the passengers were giving them as she thanked them with that beautiful smile. Lemy stayed near the door waiting for the train to arrive at the station; it was already bad to be a walking show to pick money from strangers, nope, that's not for Lemy I can't talk to people non-related to me Loud. Well, except for Lina… But Lina is special; she's like a damn unicorn, and Lemy was the luckiest boy in earth for found her.

He still remembered the first time he and Lina met

Lupa and Lemy were walking side by side to Aunt Lucy's antique shop; Lupa's hands were in the pockets of her hoodie as always, and sometimes she leaned against Lemy, making him trip to the floor. A ten-years-old Lemy was laughing and trying to push her back, but back then he was still a little kid against his bigger sister. He could barely move her just a couple of inches applying his whole strength, and sometimes when he tried to push her back, she just dodged him, making him trip to the highway.

Lupa was always trying to keep her 'tough girl' mask, but a smile was hiding in the corner of her lips each time her brother tried to push her to the highway.

"Come on Lupa, stop pushing me!"

Lupa just limited to push the little boy again and sometimes put her foot between his feet just to make him fall.

"I ain't doing anything. Maybe if little Lyra's boy weren't too spoiled he would know how to walk properly. Take Lemy's hand at every moment." Lupa mocked imitating Lyra's voice.

"I know how to walk, and you don't need to take my hand, I can take care of myself." Lemy said upset as he inflated his cheeks.

Lupa had to make an effort to keep her face; Lemy was wearing rock clothes and that new bandana in his forehead he began to wear recently. He looked cute.

Not so long he wore only what mommy Lyra bought for him, but after attending to one of Luna's concerts, Lemy fell in love with the Punk/Rock philosophy, and in an act of rebellion he began to wear old ripped clothes with profane and satanic stamps, and he even stopped trimming his hair three months ago. Lupa didn't know what she enjoyed the most: the fact that Lemy was growing or that his 'new phase' made Lyra angry.

But after thinking about it for a while, she decided that she enjoyed more the fact that Lemy was growing; that mean that soon they would… play grown up games, because heck, it was getting hard not to 'touch' her little brother, and now even more with that anarchist attitude he was adopting.

Lemy saw her big sister distracted and saw his opportunity to take revenge; he took some impulse and pushed her with the shoulder… or at least he tried, because Lupa took advantage of those 'supernatural' powers of her that Aunt Lucy like to call 'spiritual powers', and stopped, making Lemy fall into the pavement.

Lupa finally smiled as she saw her little brother trying to hold her tears in an effort to look tough, but soon her smile faded at the gaze of her little brother; he looked… so cute, she felt as something was revolving in her belly.

Damn Lemy! Hurry up and grow!

And when the little goth was about to extend her hand to help him recover, she saw as someone approached the kid in the floor.

"Are you okay?"

Lemy cleaned his pants and saw a couple of scratches in the palms of his hands, and then he shook the hand of the kid that came to help him. Due to the voice it was obvious that it was a girl… but when that girl shook his hand Lemy lifted his gaze, and when his eyes locked with hers, time stopped for him; something in the chest of the boy fluttered as if it was responding to a call. He have never seen that girl, but deep within him he felt like he knew her; Lemy justified this due to the fact that he was in front of the most beautiful girl he has ever seen. Well, almost as beautiful as Lyra.

Her hair was so blonde it looked almost silver, those turquoise eyes shot an arrow to his heart, and even when he remembered that the girl asked him something, he couldn't remember what it was.

The stranger girl looked at him in what felt like an eternity, and after a melodious laugh she lifted him from the floor.

"Are you okay?" she asked again. Lemy felt pain in her hands, and it was kinda curious; because when he was lost in the beautiful eyes of the girl he didn't feel anything. The boy was about to answer, but suddenly a cold and strong hand grabbed his and Lina's wrist, forcing him to release each other hand.

"Get away from him." Lupa's calmed voice was now filled with cold poison; her golden eyes were sparkling and the expression of her face left her fangs in the open.

Lina jumped in fright, she didn't know if it was because of the pain on her wrist or the scare that girl-shaped creature caused on her.

Then Lupa grabbed her brother's hand and began to walk away. Lemy, who was still recovering, resisted to her sister's pull.

"What was that Lupa? Why did you… ah, release me!" Lemy tried to set himself free from Lupa's grip.

"Lyra told me to take your hand at any moment and that's what I'm doing. Now come on, we must go with my mom." Lupa tried to get away with her little brother, but Lemy planted his feet in the ground making it hard to the white haired girl to move.

"Thanks for helping me… I'm Lemy, what's your name?" Of course, being ten years old, Lemy didn't trust anybody outside his family, but this girl provoked something inside the boy that made him trust her immediately. Lemy wanted to be near her, just like a moth to the light.

The silver-haired girl smiled, and ingoing Lupa she greeted the boy.

"I'm Lina, and I'm Lupa's friend; we got the same hair, the same age and we're in the same grade. Isn't that cool?"

Lemy suddenly was jealous of Lupa, because she had something in common with that beautiful angel. And maybe he would have said everything he was feeling out loud, but Lupa pull him suddenly.

"We're not friends! And I've told you thousands of times to stay away from me and my sisters! And I don't know what you want and I don't care, but if you dare to hurt Lemy…" Lupa leaned towards the girl and whispered in her ear "…I will kill you"

Lina paled, and flinched with fear.

Lemy was about to go with the girl and comfort her, but Lupa had enough of this already, and taking advantage of her strength, she dragged Lemy trough the sidewalk. Nobody would expect someone that slim to be so strong.

All Lemy could do was turn and wave good bye to the girl; for some reason he was starting to miss her already.

Lina looked at him, and with a shy smile she waved back.

Lemy thought that he would never see her again since it was normal that people usually get away when they meet the Louds, but he was wrong, thank god he was wrong. Lina found him the other day at recess and they began to talk, hiding from his sister that for some reason didn't want Lina to be with him, even when she was cool and kind. He didn't care about it, because as long as he could be with Lina, it was worth the risk.

Lemy woke up as the alarm to get out of the wagon rang and echoed in his ears, and then he and Lina exited the wagon, walking side by side with their respective case on their shoulder.

"How much we made?" The boy asked.

"…thre, four… and… four dollars and forty-five cents."

"We did good."

"Yeah, but not as good as the ten dollars we made in the last wagon." Lemy growled, and Lina punched him on the shoulder.

"Maybe if someone weren't so obsessed with hard rock songs and focused on slow and calm songs we would do better."

"Oh, come on: Killing in the Name rules! And I've told you I'm not playing anything from The Beattles, those guys are boring as hell."

"Come on Lem, don't tell me that the son of the moon I love everything about England Loud doesn't like The Beattles?

Lemy pulled a face.

"I'm not saying they're not good, but you have to admit they're too soft. I still can't understand how there were girls that fell for them."

"Relax tiger; I know once you become famous you'll have a lot of girls falling from you… In fact, when I was in middle school, you were very popular among the girls."

Lemy came to an halt with this new information. He has never been popular, especially with the girls. The current of people trying to get out of the wagon forced him to keep walking, and when he reached Lina he asked with curiosity.

"What the hell are you talking about? Everyone on school hated me, especially the girls."

Lina smiled, and after laugh a little bit she answered.

"Well, let me tell you that a lot of girls like you; if they act otherwise, it is because of your fam…" Lina bit her lip to keep herself from finishing that sentence. Lemy really wanted to hear what she wanted to say moments ago, but when he got where that conversation was going…

"I get it; it is because I'm a Loud." You heard it well dude, looks like the girls in my school are falling for me, and the only reason they don't get close it's because I'm the son of a guy and his big sister. Thanks a lot dad.

They both walked in silence for some minutes with their heads down. But after what seemed to be an eternity, Lina spoke.

"Just ignore them Lemy, they all are just idiots who believe everything their parents say, and the others are just assholes with no judgment who rather follow the herd than know people as interesting as you."

Lemy felt as if his heart just flew from his chest to the sky and exploded into fireworks. You head that man? She always knows what to say; she always uses the correct words in the correct moment and she's always honest. That's one of the many things why I want her to be the mother of my children.

"And like I was saying, a lot of girls are crazy for you, and for what I've heard some guys too…" Lina gave him a soft nudge, and Lemy just made a grimace of disgust as he heard what she said last.

Would that be the reason why Idiot1 and his dogs are always picking on him? Is the physical abuse a way to hide what they feel for Lemy?

The boy thought about it for a moment, and then an image came to his mind: those three idiots using t-shirts with his face in it and lifting love sings with hearts on them declaring their love towards him. He felt a shiver running down his spine and then he shook his head to whip away those horrible thoughts.

I rather to be hated by them that being the fuel of their wet dreams.

But even when Lina meant to be funny, the truth on her words killed all the fun. Now he would have to write another thing to the list of things he's paying for the sins of others.

"Well, fuck them then, I am what I am and I didn't choose it. And it's not my fault; if that's keeping them from getting close to me, then I don't want them close anyways."

Lina looked at him with admiration; it is not the first time the boy act with that matureness and self-value proper from an adult. Looks like the hard life made the boys brave and stronger, and she likes that a lot.

"Yeah, you're right; I don't see why that should matter… I would like to have a family like yours…"

Lemy came to a crashing halt and then he look at Lina with anger and surprise. When Lina realized her mistake she quickly tried to fix it totally embarrassed

"Yes, No… I mean, I wouldn't like to have a family like yours, I mean, yes, but… how big it is and… It's not like I want your family, or be part of your family, or how your family is… I mean I don't see it wrong, I think it's… interesting… I mean…. I know it causes you problems… What I mean is… It's lonely to be just the two of us…" Lina said to finally look down with shame. Lemy was definitely upset; the fact that this girl, whose life is perfectly normal, think that there's something cool in being part of the Loud clan mad him really upset.

Not even the fact that she was the beautiful Lina could calm him a little… In fact, being Lina Sharp, the daughter of one of the most beautiful and cool mothers in Royal Woods, who could spend the entire day in a music store meeting normal people that wouldn't judge her because of her name or her genes… made it worse.

Because, how the hell can she believe that it's cool to live in a house where your sisters are your cousins and your mother is your aunt at the same time? Of course, from the outside it sounds really fascinating and intriguing to be a guy with a harem of sisters who are crazily in love for him, with a bunch of girls who are willing to follow their mothers' steps and fuck their only brother. Of course it sounds interesting, right? Because who wouldn't want to see a bunch of sex maniacs living their lives driven by incest? Hell, there could be thousands of stories with that scenario, millions of pornographic draws and even a goddamn TV show.

Yeah, I can imagine how many neckbeards would like to be in the place of my father or mine… and of course I understand why Lina wants to see closer the crazy house where I live… because who wouldn't want to get close to the cage of the venomous snakes; so dangerous, so exotic, so strange and disgusting… that's what we are for the rest of the people: a bunch of freaks that they can see and disturb whenever they want.

And even when the anger is blurring Lemy's head, the last words she said passed through the sea of anger inside his mind.

It's lonely to be just the two of us…

Then he remembers that, even when his father is a known pervert, at least he's in home. Lina doesn't have the same luck, and she just has Sam.

Lemy was between the sword and the wall, but he feels that this time he won't be so kind with Lina; this time she crossed the line, and when he was about to drop the bomb on the girl for those insolent words she just said…

"Hey! You two, stop!" The voice of one of the guards of the station took them out of their own thoughts. They both look behind them to see a fat man in guard uniform running towards them.

"Hey kids! Play for money in the subway is illegal!"

Lemy looks Lina, Lina looks Lemy and they both smile at the same time; the boy in a temerity act took Lina by the hand and began to run. Now the kids are running as fast as they can pushing and dodging people through the station; the guard is running and panting behind them, making an effort to keep running and cleaning the sweat on his forehead.

And while adrenaline is pumping their hearts with each beat, they both began to laugh as they kept running to reach the exit.

The turnstiles were about 22 feet in ahead them and together they hit the gas; and at the last moment when the guard was about to catch them, Lina's hand separate from Lemy's….

The girl let herself drop and skidded under one of the turnstiles. Lemy smiles, and with his recently obtained agility, he jumps the turnstiles as if it were nothing.

On the other side of the line, Lina get up and now it's she who takes him by the hand, and with a blushed smile she began to run.

Lina lock his hand with Lemy's and then she squeezes it.

"I'm here."

Lemy does the same.

"I know."

Lemy is laying on the grass in the park; his narrowed eyes didn't keep him from seeing the light passing through the leaves of the tree where he and Lina are taking a break.

Lina is sitting aside him eating some fries; they passed to a McRonald's, which reduced their monetary fund for the festival, but hell, it was worth it; after that race they were really hungry.

Lemy finished his food practically in three bites, and Lina let him eat her fries at the end.

"Now, say ah…" She said.

"Ah…" and one fried potato get in his mouth. Lemy crazily loves Lina again; his early upset was gone, or at least postponed.

While Lemy was eating, Lina sighs and looks at her surroundings; the entire park was full of couples that, just like them, were hiding from the sun under the trees.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have say those things about your family… it's more than obvious that I didn't know what I was talking about."

Lemy signs and finally he open his eyes; he saw as the beams that passed between the leaves were hitting Lina's white skin and painting flashes in her hair.

Fuck man, she's beautiful…

"No… it's not your fault. We're freaks, it's normal for people to be interested in us…"

"Lina look him with sadness and regret, and as an apology she puts another potato in his mouth.

"It's not just that, I really think it is cool to have a family that big… Mom has nobody; my grandparents were the only ones and they passed away when I was five…"

"I'm sorry… I really never met my grandparents… but I think it's for obvious reasons because, to be honest I don't know if they're alive."

Lina look at Lemy with intrigue, as if the boy was a colorful bird… or ugly.

"How are they? Your sisters, your mom…? Your dad?"

Lemy grimaced at the mention of his father, but he knows that Lincoln Loud is who everyone wants to know everything about; everyone wants to know his secret, everyone wants to have the power he has to make every woman in the world to fall in love for him. His sisters included.

"Is he that bad?" Lina looks really interested, too much to be honest.

"No…"

The words came reluctantly from his lips, and for a moment an awkward silence fell upon them.

"And that's what makes him worse; he's really a nice guy, he works hard drawing comics, and the last thing I knew was that he will be given an opportunity to publish one of his original works… I don't know what the hell that is about, but I always thought it was too geek all that stuff about comics and videogames. And Lupa and Loan inherited that from him.

Lina is listening to him carefully and excited.

"He also knows how to cook; in fact, he's the best cook in the house and always makes the dinner for everyone. I remember when I was little he used to play with everyone… In fact, he still wants to play with me occasionally… but I don't… not after… Lupa, Lacy and Leia, they…" Lemy sighs again. "They follow him a lot and he…"

Lina shudders.

"He… he has done something to them…?"

Lemy remains silent for a while.

"I don't know… I've never seen them doing anything but… they are always sneaking in this study so… I don't know. I don't want to think about it."

Lina remains silent, trying to assimilate Lemy's words.

"Do you hate him?"

Lemy takes a while to answer; he's lost in his thoughts.

"Yeah, I hate him for what he has done to us; for everything we've been through for his fault… But at the same time I know he didn't do it on purpose and I know he love us… that's why I love him. And that makes it a thousand times worse."

Lina looks to the infinite.

"Love and hate, I understand you."

Lemy doubts that she really understands what is it to be in his position, but he's tanksful for her support. Again the girl looks at his eyes, and then she takes his hand, locking her fingers with his.

"Thanks for telling me… I know it is hard."

Lemy looks at the girl; how can that girl bend him that easily?

"I trust you" Lemy says, closing his eyes and holding her hand tight.

"I know." Lina answers.

I know

Tom Odell.

I know it has been a while since I updated the story, and I'm going to explain the reasons.

The first reason is that the original story wasn't updated for like a month or two, so I had nothing to do but wait for the new chapter to come.

The second reason, and I must say this is my fault, is that work kept me really busy; I barely had time for myself and when I had it I used it to goof in the internet or go out with friends and shit. This chapter came like a month ago, but like I said I had a lot of work and I didn't felt like translating. I owe an apology to 13InkHeart13 (the original author) for take this long to update, and you all guys. I promise I won't take that long to update the next chapter.

Hope you like this one, because I personally enjoyed translating it.