[FlashBack]

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.
-Crashed.//Chris Daughtry.//

"Where am I?" My eye lid were heavy barely able to stay up. My throat was sore, and I felt… well I wasn't sure what I felt but it was weird.

"Your home, your safe" I heard his voice say, I frowned. I didn't have a home. I didn't want to be safe. I wanted to be dead.

I SHOULD be dead. There is no way I could be alive after that attack. It was impossible, It was very impossible.

I was to tired, to weak to tell him that.

Soon I drifted back into the black of sleep.

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I woke up feeling… Well I woke up feeling like I wasn't on the brink of death. Which didn't make sense to me, I should be dead. I should be with my family, Not here. I got out of the bed slowly, making sure I didn't make a noise. My feet hit the ground without any sound.

I looked around the bedroom I was being held in, memorizing everything that was in my view. You learn to know your surrounding by heart, It comes as first nature anymore. You wouldn't believe how many people hurt only because they didn't pay attention to their surrounds. Foolish mistakes often lead to death.

I frowned noticing there was only one door on the far left, and no windows. The only light in the room was fake. This can't be good.

Shit.

I walked towards the bed stand and carefully opened up the draws.

My knife.

Why would they leave me my knife? I didn't think twice about it, I just picked it up and put it against the small of my back, my pants acting as a holding spot -pants that weren't mine-

I didn't know how many people were here, Or even how armed they are. Sighing, well if they kill me they just kill me. I get what I wanted, I walked to the door when I tried to opened it, it wouldn't budge. I tried the door again, yup, still locked. I frowned and walked towards the mirror that was on the other side of the room.

I touched the dark circles under my eyes. You would think being asleep however long would make it so I didn't look so sleep deprived.

Once again I was shocked to see that I wasn't wearing my normal cloths. No, Instead I was in new cloths. A white t shirt and black -stretchy- pants that flared at the bottom; my feet were bare.

My hand touched the hem of my white shirt, I swallowed and slowly lifted it up. I almost stopped when I saw the scar start of the scar, but I bit back my fear and kept going.

My free hand felt the raised pink edges of it.

Something isn't right.

The sound of the door opening alerted me, I turned around, grabbing the knife. As soon as the person walked in, without hesitation I threw the knife at their head.

Might as well take one out.

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"Your not going to throw a knife at my head again are you?" Ben said as he knocked on the bedroom door. I rolled my eyes, not wanting to deal with him or his upbeat attitude.

"I want to leave" I told him not missing a beat. It was the same thing I told him the past three days.

He frowned at me, "You still need to recover" It was my turn to frown.

It seems as my aim in throwing is off, not to mention fighting. I learned my lesson the day Ben came to check in on me. Not only did my knife miss his head -what a shame- but I was also easily defeated.

"Look I get your trying to be a good guy here. But I want out" My voice was stern, my eyes cold.

He nodded his head looking around the room then looked at me and smiled, "How about a tour?"

"A tour?" I was a little shocked, they had kept me locked in this room the past few days saying it was for safety. I mean what the hell you throw one knife at a guys head and everyone starts saying your some crazy chick.

"A tour." He sounded confident which I didn't understand, "Fine" I had to admit I was curious. For the obvious reasons and also for the fact that I wanted to try to find a way out. Which I couldn't do locked in here.

Fight or Flight. I didn't have a problem in doing ether, though I preferred if I could fight while getting the hell out of there.

I got of the bed an started walking towards the open door.

"You don't need your knife" I glared at him, "I'm taking my knife" He chuckled "Fine. But sooner or later your going to see that no one here is going to hurt you" He smiled at me, his blue eyes glistering with amusement, "But be my guest take your knife. Just try not to throw it at anyone's head" Rolling my eyes, "Lets go"

For the first time in my life I felt… amazed, awed and even a bit of fear as we walked around the compound.

The compound I learned from Ben had been made sometime in 2006, about a hundred and thirty years ago a rich tycoon Avis (who had briefly worked for NASA) who's daughter had disappeared (Demon) and spent millions building the compound underground. Getting ready for a war that most -if not all- people didn't know was coming.

The compound was.. Well. It was very clean. It seemed as if everything was new or at lest taken care of very well. According to Ben no demon could enter. This place was the safest with thousands of spells, symbols, salt, goofer dust basically everything to keep out anything supernatural (Or anything that they didn't want there) I raised and eyebrow to that. Not to mention securities systems that was very advance, letting them see everything at once.

I was speechless as he showed me working computer.

I mean. REALLY? Working computers? I couldn't help but wonder if I was dreaming. It almost felt as if I was living in past. They even had a TV! that played this things called DVDS.

"So this is were all the work gets done" He said smiling, and opened large metal doors. I followed him in and stopped dead in my tracks.

The room was a cross between a library and a lab. "What is this place?" I whispered, people were working and.. I guess I felt weird talking normally.

Ben smiled, "This is where we are going to find out how the hell to stop this war"

"Stop it?" I looked at him confused, how could you stop something like this? All you could do is fight for your life.

"Come on I'll show you" He walked up to a table that had about three people (The people seemed strangely uninterested in me. Which unnerved me a bit) He picked up a book and handed it too me, I frowned looking at it.

"Route 666?" I was confused, I opened the book and skimmed the pages then shut it quickly. Why the hell did he give me an erotica book.

He smirked at me, "Carver Edlund just happens to be a prophet-"

"A prophet?" Ben looked at me, and nodded his head continuing. "His real name is Chuck Shirley-""BEN!" I looked down at the girl who had been sitting at the table, (she was about my age maybe a few years older. Pretty with blonde hair and green eyes) she was frowning at Ben. Ben looked at her, "Relax Amber. We can trust her" This girl, Amber glared at me obviously thinking he was wrong.

"I just hope you know what your doing" she said getting up in a huff and walking out, "what's up with her?" I asked, Ben looked at me. "Your not the only person with trust issues."

Ouch. I looked at the other two people left at the table, who seemed to be looking at me with a 'it's you we don't trust. Why are you even here'

I swallowed an glanced away, "Okay so this prophet?"

"This prophet chuck had been writing the lives of Dean and Sam Winchester" I looked at him confused, "Dean and Sam Winchester happen to be the two guys who set Lucifer free"

I frowned, growing up I had heard stories about two brothers who were the cause of this, yet their names had always been changed and in some situation I had even heard that they were lovers.

"And this Chuck knew this?"

"He was a prophet, protected by archangels and all that. He wrote everything about the brothers. And published the stories."

"And you all are reading these because?" I held up the obvious worn out copy of the book. He smiled at me, "Because in knowing the past we can change the future"

"How do you think your going to do that?" I was confused beyond a doubt.

"By sending someone back into the past and stopping it" I stood there for a second in silence before busting out laughing, "Are you crazy? Have you been inhaling to many chemicals?"

His frowned, "This isn't funny"

"Your talking crazy. No- NO more then crazy your talking time travel."

"There's demons and angels fighting a war that no one would have imagined. There's things that people find impossible happening every single day. Why should this be the only impossible thing?"

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Three months later.

I lend against the entry way of the gym watching Ben as he trained. I couldn't help but be awed by how flawless he was as he defended against attacks; or attacked.

I couldn't believe I was still here; no that was a lie, I could believe I was here I just didn't understand why.

'This is bigger then you are Lilly. You can help us beat these guys at there own game. Or are you so selfish that you only care about yourself?'

Ben's words played in my head as I watched him, knowing that was what made me stay. I was unclear if it was because I wanted to prove him wrong and that at the chance of fighting the good fight was appealing. Even if I couldn't stop this war I was fine with just taking out all the bad guys I could.

I shook my head, and walked closer. Sensing my approach Ben and his fighting partner stopped, I smiled at Eric, "Your letting him kick your ass" he laughed, "I'm not letting him kick my ass, this guy is undefeatable" I glanced at Ben who was watching me and Eric exchange with interest.

I raised an eyebrow, "Is that so?" I asked the question more to Ben then Max.

"I guess you wouldn't mind proving that too me, now would you Ben?" I smirked at him, Not having fought against him or anyone here. I refused to train with them though, I have used there gym to work out. Not to mention the time I've spent learning how to use a bow and arrow. Used their target center for shooting and throwing knifes.

Eric laughed looking at us, "If you kick his ass Amber is going to be pissed" I glanced at Eric then looked Ben in the eye, "If he get a boo boo I'm sure she more then willing to kiss it better"

It was a known fact that Amber wasn't to happy about the attention her boyfriend had given me the first month I was here. It was also a very known fact that they had been together for awhile, from what she so nicely told me. I was fine with the way her and others there treated me, they didn't trust me I didn't trust them. It's a two way street, one that I was fine with.

Yet, I had made friends with Eric's little brother Toby. He was an twelve year old sweetheart who seemed to be the only one who wasn't scared of me or didn't trust me. Not that I hadn't tried to put a stop to the friendship Toby seemed so determined to have with me. After awhile it got hard not to find the little bugger adorable.

"So what do you say Ben?" He smiled at me, "As long as there's no knife throwing I'm in" I grinned back at him, "This is going to be so awesome" Eric said chuckling.

I looked over at him, "You might want to get off the mat" He laughed and looked at Ben, "Good luck man" and walked off towards the benches.

"So what's the rules?" Ben asked grinning at me, "No rules." He eyebrow perked up the obviously disbelief laced his voice. "No rules?" I shook my head grinning, "I'm not one for rules Ben."

I couldn't tell what the look in his eyes was, but it unnerved me more then anything. I knew that he would win a fight against me, so why was I challenging him?

"Okay then. No rules" He said smiling, I was surprised for a moment thinking he would tell me no, set some ground rules. But he didn't and that only made me smile more.

"And let the fight begin"

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"Hey" I looked up and saw Ben standing there at my door way, black eye and all his glory. I hide a smile that was willing it's self to come up.

I may have given him a black eye, but he had still won the fight. It was close enough that we both had to work hard, yet I was wondering if he hadn't been letting me get away with a few shots.

"What can I do for you tonight Ben? Is your other eye feeling lonely" I asked smirking, he laughed and touched his eyed. "No, no. But there is a recon mission tonight. There's a warehouse about forty miles out that needs some checking out. You think you want to join in?"

My hand which had been turning a page of the book -Heart- stopped, I looked up at Ben. "You want me to go with you guys?"

He nodded his head and took a few steps into the room, which hadn't changed much since I was brought here. "Your good at what you do-" He smiled touching his eye again "We could use you out there with us"

I didn't know what to say, I was shocked. I had been wanting in on their little 'missions' for awhile now but all of them agreed that I was far to big a liability to go out. They didn't know my skills and plainly they just didn't trust me.

"Yeah. Yeah okay. I'll go"

That was the first of many 'missions I went on with them.

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It was weird, how somehow they subconsciously became like, well like friends to me. Their trust started to grow and so did mine. One mission turned into many where our trust could do nothing but grow for each other. After all when your life is in the hands of others, you better trust them. If you don't you might as well start digging.

I smiled when I saw Toby sitting on the couch in the 'living room' area. I walked over and sat next to him, "what are you reading today?" It never failed to amaze me how much this boy read. Some of the other boys his age had a tendency to pick on him for rather reading then joining in on training. I couldn't help but admire him for it. Though a small part of me that had grown to care for the boy did want him to get training. It wasn't good to be weak physically in this world. Book smarts were something to be cherished and applauded but knowing how to kill a demon was something that was needed.

"Edgar Allen Poe" He said not looking up, I smiled at him,

"From childhood's hour I have not been

As others were; I have not seen

As others saw; I could not bring

My passions from a common spring.

From the same source I have not taken

My sorrow; I could not awaken

My heart to joy at the same tone;

And all I loved, I loved alone.

Then- in my childhood, in the dawn

Of a most stormy life- was drawn

From every depth of good and ill

The mystery which binds me still:

From the torrent, or the fountain,

From the red cliff of the mountain,

From the sun that round me rolled

In its autumn tint of gold,

From the lightning in the sky

As it passed me flying by,

From the thunder and the storm,

And the cloud that took the form

(When the rest of Heaven was blue)

Of a demon in my view."

Toby looked over at me shocked then a smile broke out on his face, "You know Poe?" I nodded my head, "My father had a book of his. Every night before I went to bed my sister or him would read me one of his poems, That one just happens to be my favorite. Do you know it?" He smiled and flipped a few pages before handing me the book, I looked down and smiled. Then sloppy hand writing caught my eye on the bottom of the page, 'Not everything is as it seems'

"Did you write that?" Toby shook his head, "No its always been there"

Weird…

"So are you going on the mission tonight?" I looked at Toby and saw worry in his eyes, I caught my breath for a moment when I felt my heart break. He was worried about me getting hurt, I knew the feeling welling. I had it every time my sister or father left.

"Yeah. Going to kick some Demon ass" He frowned at me turning his attention back to the book, sighing then closing the book and looking at me. "I don't think you should go" I frowned, "Why?"

I shrugged his shoulders, "I just think you should stay here tonight" My head tilted to the side, "Hey I'll be fine." I nudge his arm with mine, "When I get back how about we talk more Poe?" Toby smiled at me, "Fine but if you think I only have this book your mistaken" Laughing I stood up, "I wouldn't doubt it kid" I said shaking my head before walking away.

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As I walked back with Ben to the compound, I couldn't help but feel a little.. Well weird. Here I was almost a year after trying to kill myself and for the first time I felt a bit of hope. I looked over a Ben and couldn't help but smile, Not that I would let him know I felt anything for him. Not that I did feel anything for him, I just though he was really, really good to look at.

Tonight's Mission was a quick run of the mill check the area. So it was only going to be me and Eric until Eric was called on another duty, Which led Ben to be my partner for the night.

It had been weird around him the last few weeks. After his 'break' with Amber he had been solemn and more of a loner then I had ever seen him.

I could feel Ben's eyes on me, "What?" I whispered as we walked in the dark. If you were someone looking on, it would be almost as if we were part of the shadows.

"Nothing" He said I could tell he was shaking his head, I rolled my eyes. "If you have something to say, just say it already."

He chuckled, "I was just thinking about how much has changed"

I frowned not knowing were he was going with this. He was silent for a moment before saying with laughter in his voice, "You've come along way from throwing a knife at my head"

"Har har. A girl makes one mistake and you'll never let her live it down will ya?" We had both stopped and faced each other.

Though it was dark out, and we had no light. The moon was enough so that you could see the outline of his smirk, "Where's the fun in that Lilly?"

We stayed standing there facing each other, I wasn't sure why but I got lost in his gaze. I felt my pulse quicken, my heart started to beat faster. I kept glancing at his lips then his eyes.

This isn't right, he has a girlfriend. I can't have my first kiss with someone who has a girlfriend. Oh please let him kiss me.

His hand slowly reached out and touched my face, "Your beautiful" He whispered as he lend in slowly. My heart felt as if it was going to stop. I swallowed hard trying to think of something to say to him. My mind kept drawling a blank. I could feel the heat come off of his body as his lend in closer, his face was only a few inches from mine. I shut my eyes waiting for the connection to be made.

One,

Two,

Three,

The kiss never came, only the sound of a loud explosion going off in the distance. My heart began to race for an entirely different reason as me and Ben ran off.

It took only 8 minutes and 46 seconds before we found the explosion. Only 8 minutes and 46 seconds before we found out our world was shattered. The building the had stood over the entry way to the compound had exploded, The ground it stood on crumpled, fires surrounding the woods near it was on fire.

I stood there watching the flames unable to move, "Lilly, Lilly come on" Ben said grabbing my hand pulling me away from the fire. It only took me a moment before I took my hand back and stopped, "We can't just run Ben we have t-t-to help" I screamed at him.

"Lilly" He looked me in the eyes, his own eyes glistered with tears he looked behind us at the wreckage. "There's-" I shook my head not letting him finish that sentence. If he finished that sentence, If he took away any hope.

"Lilly look at me" He took my face into his hands. "We have to get out of here. Whatever did that was big and bad and probably still around" I nodded my head, but my feet stayed still, "There we're others out tonight patrolling the other parts of town. They might still be out there. We have to find them and regroup" I nodded my head and looked back at the fire.

'I just think you should stay here tonight'

Toby voice echoed in my head a felt tears fall down my face. Oh Toby.

"We have to go Lilly" Ben voice was more urgent more demanding. I knew he was right, I don't know how but I ran away holding Ben's hand even though everything in my body screamed at me to go back, I didn't.

We kept running for what seemed like hours. Though I knew it was probably only thirty minutes or so. Ben led me to a random house that had been long gone and forgotten.

As soon as the door closed behind us, as soon as he said that in the morning we would go back and look for survivors. As soon as I looked into his eyes I felt myself falling. He held onto my as I cried my eyes out.

I just wanted to pain to stop. I just wanted everyone to stop dying and I wanted these damn demons gone. But most of all I just wanted to be numb so all this didn't hurt anymore.

Ben held me through the night, never letting me go. Even after I had fallen asleep he still held on too me.

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