Hey Guys,

I am back! I am sorry I haven't updated in a while but I haven't had any inspiration. In this part I am using parts of the lyrics from Michael Bolton and Delta Goodrem's song I'm not ready.

Enjoy and please feedback!

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They sat there what seemed to be forever, feeling each others comfort. Finally of pure exhaustion Derek rose from the ground and the helped Pen up. No one said a word, it was all about feelings. They walked slowly back to the house hand in hand. Once inside the house, Derek led them into the bathroom. He slowly let go of Pen's hand, kissed her forehead and looked into here eyes

"I am here, ok"

Pen just nodded and stood still and looked on while Derek turned on the shower and started to peel away his soaking clothes. Pen knew what was going to happen. Her mind screamed run but her heart screamed stay. She loved Derek above everything, but could she put him through all of her troubles?

After a moment she noticed Derek watching her with tender and loving eyes. He was completely naked and with his eyes asking her to let him enter her space. She stood frozen for a second waying her options but finally she gave a small nod. Derek took a step closer and started to undress her. With each soft and gentle touch one of her wounds started to heal in her heart and soul. After a long time she was also naked but she didn't feel scared on ugly, she felt loved and safe. It was all Derek.

He took her hand and helped her into the warm shower. Pen stood under the spray with her back toward Derek felling the water run down her body. Slowly she felt Derek's hand on her back running up and down in a comforting pattern. She knew where this was heading but what she ready? As if Derek had read her mind he whispered;

"You are in charge. I'm here for you. I love you"

Penelope slowly turned towards Derek and saw him, standing there vulnerable. She looked into his eyes and slowly kissed him. Derek carefully started to kiss her back. They took their time just being so close and intimate with each other. Finally Derek shut of the shower and climbed out of the tub and picked up a towel and then handed one to Pen. Once they were dry they walked hand in hand into the bedroom and got under the covers. Derek turned to his side and pulled Pen into his arms and there they laid till sleep took them both.

A while later derek was awaken by the sound of his car starting. He flung out of bed and saw that Pen was nowhere to be found.

"Shit"

He ran out the house just as the car pulled away.

"Pen, wait please!" he screamed after her. But he could do anything, the car was gone. He walked slowly into the house and saw a note on the kitchen table.

Derek,

I'm not ready to say goodbye. You and God both know all the years that I've tried and if it's over, give me the strength to go cause I know I'm never going to be ready to say goodbye, but I have to.

I love you

Your Babygirl

And then and there Derek fell to the floor and cried.

TBC