Hey guys,so I know heaps of you are pissed about the season six final but I have a theory to why Andrew did it,but I won't bore you with it here so PM and I'm also taking prompts on my one shot story-Always-so PM me your prompt and If you want to hear my theory about the final PM me,I'm also updating lift of horrors soon cause I'm finishing my other story moving on soon and keep an eye out cause I have a new AU story coming out soon.

Kate, or as she was now known as Beckett, had a spring in her step as she walked to the crime scene, she was back.
"Hey gu-",
"Don't you mind? I'm talking." Lanie cut her off harshly.
She closed her mouth, "Sorry."
Lanie rolled her eyes and turned her attention back to the victim in front of them, "Anyway as I was saying, he has a GSW to his head and multiple shots in his back."
Lanie finished explaining what had happened to the victim and without speaking or even glancing in her direction, they all went off on their various missions. She sighed and decided to go back to the precinct since her help clearly wasn't needed here.
"Doesn't this feel like old times? The gang back together again?" Kate called out from her desk.
Ryan turned to her, "I guess." Ryan shrugged, turning back to his work. Espo remained quiet.
The tension in the air was thick and she just wanted to get rid of it, she just wanted everything to go back to how it was before. She wanted her friends back, her family back and she knew she would have to work for their trust and respect again, and she was willing to, but she couldn't if they wouldn't even give her the chance.

"Come on guys I'm sorry, I'm sorry for letting my team, my brothers and my family down but I have my life back on track, can't we just be a family again?" She pleaded.
Esposito turned this time, a look of disbelief and anger on his face, "Is that what you expected? To just walk back in here and forget about that day?" He spat, "you're a disgrace to the NYPD." He finished, glaring at her.
His words hurt, she knew she had let them down, but she didn't know they were this angry. This was going to be a lot harder than she thought, "I was going through a rough time Espo, my mother was murdered – "
"So taking drugs was the answer?" He rolled his eyes.
She looks down, avoiding Esposito's harsh glare, "I don't know why I did it Espo, I wasn't taking." She said quietly.

"Damn right you weren't thinking! Now go home, I can't stand the sight of you." He turned away from her, letting the painful silence fall over them.
She looked to Ryan who was pretending to focus on his work and back to Esposito. They were her brothers once, willing to take a bullet for her, kill for her and vice versa, but now here they were. Complete strangers, like everyone else, not willing to give her the chance, cutting her out of their lives before she caused more damage to herself or to them. She understood it, but she hated it. She made a mistake, a stupid mistake of thinking drugs could help and an even stupider mistake to think she wouldn't get addicted. But she had, she lost herself, lost everything and now she wondered, would she ever get it back?
At least she had Rick, who was always there for her, helping her through this. Whether he understood or not, he was willing to give the chance and attention no one else would and for that she was incredibly appreciative, he had no idea.

She felt tears building up in her eyes as she glanced over at both of them, who were still ignoring her. She glanced around the precinct, feeling ashamed and embarrassed as a few other detectives who were obviously eavesdropping, pretended they weren't.
"Ryan?" She said quietly. She knew Ryan was the softer of the two and was usually more understanding the Espo, maybe if she could get through to him…
Ryan didn't look up, he just stared at his desk and shook his head, "No he's right you brought this on yourself." He told her.
And he was right.
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"Hey Lanie." She greeted as she pushed through the steel doors of the morgue.
Lanie looked up at her, the disgust plain on her face, "What do you want?"
She took a deep breath, with Lanie it was always best to just get to the point. "Forgiveness."
Lanie scoffed and turned to face Kate, placing her hands on her hips "What do you think it's just going to happen overnight?"
"Please Lanie you're my friend, you're like my sister. What do I have to do?" She was near tears now. Lanie was her best friend and she couldn't do this without her best friend, she needed Lanie to forgive her.
"I want to forgive you but I don't know who I'm forgiving."
"What does that mean Lanie?"
"Am I forgiving the drug addict Kate? Or the normal bad a** Kate, we all love – loved?"
"I'm not into drugs anymore I'm clean!" She tried to convince Lanie who looked like she had her mind made up.

"I'll think about it. Now I have to go home, so excuse me." Lanie packed up her stuffed and brushed past Kate and left her standing in the empty morgue alone.
She just wanted everybody back and with the way things were going so far, she could only imagine how her next visit would go. She just wanted to go home now, back to Alexis and Castle, where she felt loved and welcomed, but she felt she needed to do this, she couldn't put it off anymore.
That night she tired her dad's. She knocked on the door and her little sister Bethany answered the door.
"Bethany look how big you are now, you're so beautiful. Well aren't you going to hug your big sister? I missed you kiddo." She greeted, opening her arms for a hug.
Bethany stayed where she was, glaring up at her sister

, "You promised me you wouldn't leave."
Kate felt the tears prickling her eyes, "I was forced, I'm sorry but I'm clean now." She promised.
"Bethany who - " She heard her father's voice before she saw him descending the stairs.
"Hi daddy." Kate said with a big smile.
Her father gently pushed Bethany from the door, "Go to your room Bethany." He told her.
She spared one last glance to Kate before turning away, "Okay."
Jim waited until she went up the stairs before he stepped outside and closed the door behind him, clearly not inviting her in, "What?"

Kate tried to ignore the cold tone of his voice, "I want back in to the family."
"So you just knock on the door and say you want back in and I'm supposed to say oh yeah sure?" He asked.
She shrugged, "Please? I'm clean now, I swear. I'm sorry for everything I put you through and if there's anything I can do I'll do it, just please?" She pleaded, desperate for somebody, anybody to just take her back.
He shook his head, "No. A powerful lawyer with a drug addicted daughter? What would they say?"
"I thought you didn't care what people said." She said quietly, preparing herself for him to inevitably slam the door in her face like everyone else had basically done to her.
"Welcome to the real world Kate, you played your hand in life and in return it's given you bad cards. You were a smart kid on the right track, but then you threw away what you had worked hard for. You made me, your entire family look bad. Your dead mother, God bless her soul, your sister, your co-workers, the entire NYPD look bad."

She knew all of this already, this isn't what she came here for. She didn't need to hear this and if this is all she was going to hear then maybe it was a mistake.
"Okay I'll go." She said quietly, turning away.
"Goodbye."