a/n: Thank you for favoriting: x3sunnydaay, tiacardi, Alayna Lily as well as the follow: Kitty Mischief! Please review if you read this. Even if it's a little "MORE SOON"! I struggled writing this chapter.

A/N2: Again I own nothing Marvel related. Only Ellie.

Ain't it funny how life changes
You wake up, ain't nothing the same and life changes
You can't stop it, just hop on the train and
You never know what's gonna happen
You make your plans and you hear god laughing
Life changes, and I wouldn't change it for the world, the world, oh no
And I wouldn't change it for the world, the world, oh no

~ Life Changes by Thomas Rhett

*~*~* April 30th, 1945 *~*~*

Over the last year and a half, Steve, Bucky and their team called the Howling Commandoes stormed Hydra base after Hydra base, slowly debilitating the organization. Their team worked perfectly together. Steve and his new Vibranium shield that acted as a boomerang at times. Bucky as the sniper. Dernier as the demolition expert, and Jim Morita to mop them up whenever they got into a scuffle. Steve was the lead commander and strategist with Monty's assistance. Jones monitored airways to try to get a heads up about Hydra's happenings. Dum Dum organized their transportation and extractions.

Peggy and Ellie worked mostly behind the scenes now that the Howling Commandoes were on point in the fight. They gathered the Intel and gave it to Steve so that he could make the decisions for the team.

"Steve, radio chatter states that Dr. Zola is heading to Berlin tomorrow" Peggy told him bringing the notes to him that Jones had made.

Steve poured over the information and took it over to the map, "Dugan what do you think?"

Dum Dum looked at the route the train will take, "We will have Howard drop us off here. We will walk up the mountain. This pass would probably be the best spot. We zip line in onto the train, but it will be fast, not a big window"

Monty looked over their crew, "How many do you think we can get down?"

"Three tops" Dum Dum told him.

"Steve, Bucky and Falsworth" Monty said, "Steve and Bucky take over the train. Falsworth will figure out the radio and radio us for extraction"

"10-4" Falsworth said.

Monty frowned looking around, "Where is Barnes?"

Ellie moaned as Bucky stood behind her kissing her neck as she poured over the map in front of her, "Bucky… stopppp"

"I just love you so much" Bucky told her his arms around her from behind.

Ellie faced him, "Stop being so demanding"

"Can't help it, you look so sexy" Bucky told her pulling her to him.

"Buck, someone could walk in any second" Ellie moaned as he nipped her neck and ran his hands down her sides.

"Ellie" Bucky groaned as he kissed her hard again, lifting her up onto the table to be closer to his height.

"Ellie do you…. Ah!" Steve yelled as he saw them quickly turning around.

"Sorry Steve" Ellie said as she jumped down and licked her lips.

"Not sorry, not sorry at all" Bucky said with a grin through the lipstick that now stained his lips.

Steve sighed rolling his eyes, "We have Intel. Zola is on the move tomorrow"

"Thanks for bursting the bubble Punk" Bucky said pouting as he gave her a quick kiss then turned to follow Steve.

Ellie grinned, "You can make it up to me tonight!" She yelled after them.

"God Ellie, don't traumatize me" Steve said pushing a laughing Bucky out of her tent.

As soon as they were clear of the tent, Ellie sat down fighting back the tiredness and nausea that seemed to always be around her lately and sat on her bed, closing her eyes.

*~*~* May 1, 1945 ~ Germany *~*~*

"Did it have to be so damn cold today?" Bucky asked shivering.

"It's the coldest day on record for this time of year according to the paper this morning" Jones told them.

Bucky stood out watching the tracks and looking over the mountains, "Remember when I made you ride the Cyclone at Coney Island?"

"Yeah, and I threw up?" Steve asked.

"This isn't payback is it?" Bucky asked.

"Now why would I do that?" Steve asked with a grin as he looked up at the zip line.

"We were right. Dr. Zola's on the train" Jones told them listening to the radio, "Hydra dispatcher gave him permission to open up the throttle."

Bucky and Steve walked closer to them.

"Wherever he's going, they must need him bad"

Steve glanced at Bucky then put his helmet on. All the men scrambled into position as the train came into view through Falsworth's binoculars.

"Let's get going, because they're moving like the devil" Falsworth told them.

Steve attached the handlebar to the zip line, "We only got about a 10-second window. You miss that window; we're bugs on a windshield."

"Mind the gap" Falsworth told Bucky and Jones.

"Better get moving, bugs!" Dugan told them.

"Maintenant!" Dernier yelled.

Steve launched first then Bucky and Jones followed.

They landed on the top of the train then walked to the middle, finding the ladder then Bucky and Steve climbed down.

Steve opened the door and then climbed into, what seemed to be an ammunitions room. Steve held his shield in front of him with his Glock in his right hand as he walked to the next car. As soon as he made it into the next car, the door shut between him and Bucky.

He glanced through the door desperately and saw Bucky against the door of the other car. Bucky turned around and started firing at an unseen person.

Steve heard a weapon firing up behind him and turned around, shooting at the person holding Hydra's newest weapon then he moved to hide behind some boxes. He could hear Bucky shooting in the next car.

Steve jumped up and grabbed the apparatus on the roof and flew through the car, kicking the Hydra guard over and hitting him with his shield. Steve picked up the Hydra weapon and hit the door with it so he could get out of this car.

Steve glanced through the window of the car which Bucky was in and saw him pinned down behind boxes marked 'Biologische Waffen'. Bucky's gun jammed and he backed himself against the wall, reading himself for death. Steve reloaded his weapon, hitting the button next to him, opening the door.

Bucky looked at him terrified. Steve motioned his weapon to him and threw it. Bucky caught it and Steve ran in, slamming his shield into one of the boxes causing it to fly through the car.

Bucky used the distraction to shoot the Hydra operative.

"I had him on the ropes" Bucky told Steve as they walked over to each other.

"I know you did" Steve said as he saw the operative that he had just battled with the new Hydra weapon coming through from the other car, "Get down!"

Steve threw himself in front of Bucky, shield first and took the brunt of the blue force that came out of the gun. It blew a large hole in the side of the train car.

The blast sent Steve into the other side of the train car's wall, leaving him dazed.

Bucky grabbed the shield and stood up, shooting at the operative.

The blue force hit the shield, throwing Bucky out of the hole in the side of the train.

Steve scrambled onto his feet and threw his shield at the operative, knocking him out again.

Steve pulled the mask off his face and looked out of the hole in the train, "Bucky!"

Bucky was hanging off the side of the train, holding only onto a metal handlebar. Steve climbed out onto the side of the train and attempted to reach him.

"Hang on! Grab my hand!" Steve yelled as Bucky tried to make it closer to him.

The side closest to Steve separated from the train.

"NO!" Steve yelled as he heard it starting to let go.

Bucky looked at him terrified, "Tell her I love her"

The bar separated from the train and Steve stared in shock as Bucky's screams rattled in his brain as he fell.

The train raced farther down the tracks and Steve in shock, stayed on the outside of the train as he lost sight of Bucky's body.

Steve rested his head on the side of the train and let tears fall from his eyes.

*~*~* May 1, 1945 ~ London*~*~*

Peggy was sitting in her office at SSR going over Intel when Howard came to the door, "Howard what's wrong?" She asked seeing his face.

"Did you hear?" Howard asked.

"Hear what?" Peggy asked standing up.

"They got Zola but… it came at a cost" Howard told her sadly, "They just called for an extraction and a… search and rescue team. Pegs, Barnes was blasted off the train"

Peggy gasped and closed her eyes, "Oh Ellie"

Howard nodded sadly, "Jones radioed, Steve doesn't want her to know. He wants to tell her"

"Who else knows?" Peggy asked following him out of her office.

"Just us, Phillips and the guy that took the call" Howard told her.

Peggy nodded as she glanced at Ellie's door.

*~*~* May 2, 1945 *~*~*

Steve walked into SSR and Peggy had to resist the urge to go and hug him. The poor man was a mess visibly. His hair was messy, eyes were red and swollen. He cleared his throat, "Where is she? Does she know?"

Peggy shook her head, "No, she's in her office"

Steve nodded as he marched out as Dugan and Jones came in with Zola between them.

"Where should he go Peg?" Dugan asked.

Peggy looked at them, marched over to him and spat in his face, "Hell for all I care, but Phillips wants him in the interrogation room"

Steve walked down the stairs and stared at Ellie's closed office door. He closed his eyes and took a large breath then went over and knocked on the door.

"It's open!"

Steve opened the door to see her talking with someone, "Um… I'm need to speak with you in private"

"Steve! I'm sorry Jared, we will have to continue this another day" Ellie said.

'Jared' saluted Steve then walked out.

Steve closed the door behind him.

"Can you believe it Steve? Hilter is dead! So did you get Zola?" Ellie asked as she walked back over to her desk.

"El" Steve said his voice breaking.

Ellie looked at him, "Steve what's wrong? Oh god, it's not Bucky is it? Is he hurt?"

Steve looked up at the ceiling then sat on the floor against the wall behind her desk, "I… we were under attack" Steve told her as she sat down, "He… they hit my shield with one of their weapons and it blasted a hole in the side of the train. Buck picked my shield up… took the hit full force and it threw him out the train."

Ellie felt her breath stop.

"He managed to catch himself on the handrail, but before I could get to him…god El, I'm so sorry" Steve cried.

Tears fell from Ellie's eyes as she got down on the floor with Steve and climbed into his lap as they held onto each other.

Later that night Steve sat next to Ellie in her London apartment. She hadn't said anything since he had told her. She just as if she were a marionette, let him walk her from her office to a car outside SSR and to her apartment. She had turned down food and water when he had asked her.

It was now nearly 8pm and Steve cleared his throat, "Do you want to head to bed?"

Ellie shook her head and glanced over at her bedroom door, "Not now… I think… I think I'll sleep out here"

Steve took her hand, "Ellie I am sorry"

Ellie sighed, "Steve…it's not your fault. It's damn Hydra" Ellie said squeezing his hand, "But… Bucky had a feeling something was going to happen. When he came back, he didn't think he was going to make it back home. I just didn't think it was going to be like this"

"How are we going to go on without Buck?" Steve asked, "He's been with us forever"

"We are going to pull up our bootstraps and keep going. He wouldn't want us to wallow. Plus we will always have a piece of Bucky with us" Ellie told him with a sad smile, "We were waiting… to tell you. I'm pregnant"

Steve stared at her, "What?"

Ellie laughed, "Yeah… we had a suspicion of it but… with my injuries we weren't sure it was even possible. But I was sick all the time in March and the beginning of last month. It's why I haven't been in the field. I asked to stay behind the desk when we started having the suspicions. Then came the exhaustion but… I can feel the baby now"

"Oh Ellie" Steve said as he hugged her.

Ellie rubbed Steve's back, "See… we may not have him. God has a bigger plan for him but we will have a part of him Steve."

They sat in silence for a few minutes before Steve's hand laid on her belly and he felt a slight swell.

"I think…I think I am going to go back home for a month or so" Ellie told him as she cleared her throat, "Just to spend time with Bucky's family. I don't… I don't want them to get a letter telling them"

Steve nodded, "Winnie would like that"

Ellie placed her hand over his, "You have to help me Steve… I… I don't know if I can do this on my own"

Steve nodded, "Bucky always told me that he would be with me until the end of the line… El, you don't have to worry about me not being there for you. I will always be there for you"

Ellie sniffed back the tears then pulled him close.